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I'd recommend you to study Spiral Dynamics and 9 stages of ego development. Maybe you should go to university to study psychology, that is the way you can connect with people that really need help. Some people like helping others because they feel better listening to their problems, forgetting about their own. There are also many other reasons as well, but make sure that your reasons are not toxic actually. I enjoy helping others, investing my energy to them, when I feel like I'm getting enlighten, spiritual, like I'm passed the game, I think that is the right moment when good karma is generating.

Sounds like you'd like to be a Jesus. Going around and magically helping others is hard task, but it's possible. Here is an extreme example, this guy is healing others just by looking at them:

Yes, that is great advice for 50k$. Buy time and build your dreams, you have nice initial capital to start building your dreams and dreams requires time.

If you really like software development then take online courses and focus on that as hard as you can, meet some people that are doing that already, get a job in that field, also practice soccer everyday if you love it! Ignore school if you don't like it, it's not for everyone, just learn enough to pass the grade. In the end your happiness is the most important. Vision, passion, love...

Could be boring if you use it for boring staff, but I actually love Kubernetes, because of the wonders it could do for my multiplayer game server. I quitted my webDev job last month because It was boring as hell and I had to learn new things all the time, lol.

In the end it's much more important what you did then how long you worked. Put 4/8 hours of focused per day and that's fine, it's beauty of remote work.

@Bando @Leo Gura I thought that I would be happy there in the office, that I could work remotely whenever I want (which was not possible), with my new colleague friends, that we will talk happily about development, hanging out together, even though our jobs are just about graphs and numbers (zero art). But in the first week I've realized that everybody are stressed out there, just sitting and staring into their screen endlessly, eating absolute shit, and they are totally in denial about it also, pretending to be happy, but some of them are aware and will tell you how they really feel if you start a deeper conversation with them. So basically I was feeling alone there, and also because I don't have experience in their tech stack, I supposed to sit for 8 hours next to them watching video tutorials but my mind was wandering too much, I couldn't focus on tutorials. I had great desire to start smoking and drinking again. I been thinking that I should stay there for a few months, with hope that many things will change by time, but it seems obvious to me that I was so wrong about my initial idea, my smartwatch and my heart told me that I'll get burnout syndrome, maybe diabetes, loose my clients and my hair also, so I just told my boss honestly that I'm overwhelmed with tech stack and not feeling very competent for the job. I don't feel any regret, because I'm simply aware that it couldn't be possible for me to stay healthy in that envirnoment. I only feel a little bit of guilt because I care what people would say about my decision, but I always repeat to myself - "fk people, love yourself". I'd rather be happy as I am then make others happy while being what they wants me to be. @Razard86 Actually I know what I love to do for free and there are cupule of things I love to do for free. Also I have many skills already. I have vision of my simple multiplayer video game that I believe people will love to play, including me. I've been playing that game as a child, all my friends loved it, and all of the sudden that game disappeared from the internet and no one ever built a similar game. Today, 20 years after my friends still talking about that video game, they are searching for it, no one can find it.. Two years ago I've built that game as a demo, it was a local-multiplayer, I went to festival of video games to present it to people as indie game developer. There was many indie games presented around me and 90% of kids were just playing my game as long as their parents wasn't physically detaching them from the joysticks. At that moment I knew that I have something simple that kids today love so much as well and I was afraid that someone will take my idea, that playable demo game was only 30% of the picture, tip of the iceberg,. Only problem why I didn't published that game yet is that it requires multiplayer. I been studying fast paced multiplayer for 5 years from time to time by now and didn't achieved yet that timing predictions, but I think that is one of my life purposes today. I should solve that multiplayer puzzle, finish my game and became multiplayer god. There are so many video games that crave for multiplayer and people simply doesn't implement it because it's hard to do actually.

Hey, I just got employed this week as full stack web developer. But as soon as i got employed and started working I've realized that there is so many things I don't know and that I should learn all the time and it's frustrating me because It's hard for me to focus and learn new technologies surrounded with colleges at work and after 8 hours of working I hate looking at screens at home. I hate the thing that i spend whole day at job and in free time I'm still thinking about the job, can't focus on any hobby that I used to love, everything makes me feel depressed. At work i feel useless, when i come home I feel so drained, stressed, and best part is that I don't actually need that money, i can earn enough on my own with web dev, but my family always bragging about my employment status, that i need to work even though i had enough money always...and then I just wanted to get that job that I've thought it would be cool and that i thought I'll love, my plan was to build career, get big salary, but now I see that it was so stupid, that I've unnecessary became a prisoner. Now i feel so stupid to tell my boss that I'd like to quit, after 1 week only, because i said that I'm so happy and excited about the job.. I thought I'll be, but i was wrong

@Thought Art I already been working before in another company for 8 years and I've been running my own business for 4 years, so it's nothing new to me. I don't think that running a business is very challenging, all you need are clients and knowledge, simple as that. But problem is if your expanses are too high, if you don't have your own home, your garden, then is a problem.

If you want to teach people stuff you can start your business for free anytime, just put some videos on YouTube, Instagram and Tik Tok and do it daily. It's not about marketing actually. YouTube already have it's algorithm that is doing marketing for you, all you need is interesting content. That is what is actually important all the other things will come naturally/organically if your content is interesting. Leave perfectionist mindset and start creating actual creative content today, test it out, then you will see if your content is interesting to people or not. Change things, experiment, and when you find a formula that is interesting to people then you can invest some money into marketing campaign for your target audience and you won't spend much money either because your content is already tested, you know people like it. Your CPI ("Cost per install" - technically speaking) will be much lower.

@PenguinPablo I quitted already. I have nice easy business that I want to expand now. I don't need much money and now I also don't want much money anymore. I've realized that chasing money will shoot me in the foot in future for sure. I decided to chase my life purpose instead. @Arthogaan Thanks. Yes, I'm free and thankful again. I always have few thousand dollars in my bank account and I'm acting as I don't have money at all, it gives me freedom to choose things in life actually.

I was in the similar situation 7 years ago, then I realized that what I need to do is to cut my expanses of. I've noticed that I'm spending my money meaninglessly.. smoking cigarettes, going to bars, drinking alcohol, eating meat, eating at restaurants... Then I've realized that best things in life are free actually and most valuable thing is your time. I'm not going around spending money anymore, I'm only buy ingredients once a month that I'm cooking on my own. I'm going in nature, on the beach instead in bar or shopping centers. So if you are living in your own house you probably don't need much money, I can suggest you to cut your expanses at maximum and find a job that you'll be doing 4 or 3 hours a day instead of 8 because you need time to work on your business. Working on your business should be self rewarding actually. I guess you are hopeless because you don't like spending half of your life at your day job.

@lizz_luna I have to admit that my mental state wasn't clear at all. I've realized that I've putted myself in shameful situation and pretending that everything is fine would be worse maybe. Every prolongation was making elephant in the room bigger, because my decision was very clear, so I had to broke the silence and bring the elephant to the table... "Surprise, surprise mdk, he's not too big yet " My business is going very well actually, this month I've earned 1.5x of my defined salary. And best part is that I only need about 10% of it per month. My working day is 4 hours long, not 8, the rest is relaxing on a beach with summer vibes. @integral I was just thinking about A.I. web development this morning, thanks.

@integral Learning curve would be 2 months in my case because I lack much of ability of focusing my mind in busy envirnoment, I should practice focusing. I feel like a sponge that is collecting all the information's around except the one that is focusing on. I should have predicted all that but I was too much positive about it and my family was pushing me. I've ignored my greatest value which is freedom and it's great lesson in the end for me. Now I will appreciate my time so much better and I will continue to do my own web dev business more seriously, my clients are still there waiting for me, I was almost canceled them. It's not easy to quit a job in general I guess, especially when you are working for a longer time, but I've did it one 2 hours ago - on time (after 1 week). The only comment of my boss when I've told him whole story and reasons was "It's a shame", but he had empathy for me since I'm very nice and polite. I think that some of collogues there would like to do the same but they probably don't have financial freedom and heart to do it, and company would try to hold them back anyway. I think I've made correct decision. Is it worth to give up your time (9 to 5) while risking of getting burnout syndrome just because of taking some extra money, potential career and maybe growing yourself in some cold heartless way? Don't get me wrong, I actually think that having a 9 to 5 job is technically awesome thing, but it's just not in align with my values obviously.

@Michal__ @Sincerity @universe @hyruga In 1 hour my boss is coming and I'm still thinking, should I stay or should I go. I know this is challenging and good for my career but actually I'm craving freedom and being my own boss works well for me actually. I feel stupid to suprise my boss but we'll see, he will probably try to change my mind.

Yeah, I think they felt phenomenon and then their unspiritual mind just assumed things and made connections with their childhood religion. It's kind a silly, because a lot of people have experienced those moments of enlightenment at some points in life, but because they've been involved in spirituality earlier, they didn't instantly made connections with their childhood religion. I think it's based on fear actually, because their mind connected dots and realized the they are on the road to eternal hell. EDIT: I just watched a testimony where guy is telling that he was converted to Christianity at the moment when he saw a devil that was literally whipped him with tongue giving him physical damage. hmm

I'd like to ask you what do you think about those testimonies of people who was on the edge of their life and almost died because of drug abuse (heroin, crack, cocaine...) suddenly meet a Holy spirit, Jesus, God... Are they really became good persons all of the sudden, or they just exaggerate whole situation? I think that it's just the way how people who are really toxic stage RED becomes BLUE, because they've first time in their life experienced deep meditative state of mind, but because they are raised in Christian culture (in this case) they simply gave names from the Bible to this what they felt and wrapped whole experience in structure of Christianity. So their morals now are built upon the Bible.

I'll going to use it the same as I'm using Google now, but in easier way, . If I'm trying to write some song about something, I'll tell it how I feel and it will write something for me, then I'll align it with my feelings. If I'm trying to paint something I'll repeat the same process. It could be useful, but I think it can also make you so lazy because you don't need to do any research about anything, could make you feel that everything is already done.

Haha, they are triggered easily. Day before yesterday, my stage GREEN friend called me in the bar to watch football match and it didn't went well. I didn't wanted to go in that bar, wanted to suggest other bar, but since he was already there and football match almost started, I went anyway, but I knew where I'm going. At the end of the night he ended up fighting with a bartender, owner of the bar, (who is totally stage RED, drug abuser, criminal worshiper) Because bartender wanted to steal his money by demanding to pay more then he ordered. Worst part is that he thought he is his friend, gave him trust, but I totally knew that he is a absolute moron who have to be kept at a distance. I was pissed off too, I hesitated whether to beat shit out of bartender or not. I been thinking 'if I beat shit out of him now, It would be hard to forget about him, I don't want him to be a part of my mind, better way is to calm down situation and never come here again'. I'm glad that my friend learned the lesson, but in harder way, so he agreed that he won't come there anymore too. Today I'm still feeling some anger about that situation, because I hate injustice and preferably I'd like someone to destroy that bartender and his bar, which will probably happen, because it's how natural selection works. You see, even though I'm conscious about morons, keeping them away successfully, my friends stage GREEN/ORANGE still involving me into shit situations. I realized that I have to start avoiding my friends while they are calling me from a 'sewers', because clean and calm mind is one of my greatest values. Ahh man

I realized that I'm living in society that is mostly RED, many of my friends are at that stage. They like to steal from others when they get a chance, don't have any respect or empathy for animals, abusing drugs and alcohol daily, they are so much selfish, only have respect for people that they have some interest from, all other people they perceive as stupid and they like to gossip and make fun of others a lot, because they like to think that they are better then others. Even they don't care for their "best" friends. If their friend break-up with his girlfriend for example, they don't mind about his feelings, they are aiming for a chance to fu*k her. I have some friends at stage ORANGE / GREEN / YELLOW as well, but they are minority. They are quite opposite and spending time with them is so much inspiring, constructive, calm, respectful.. I didn't realized it before, until I've discovered this concept of spiral dynamics, but I think that socializing with friends at stage RED should be only occasionally. I don't want to explicitly discard them because I understand them and sometimes they are my only choice for socializing, and I don't mind about their negativity since I'm careful with them, but since they are often destructive as hell, without respect for each other, always competing with everyone, it can't be anything good but having some drunk fun with them here and there. How do you deal with your RED friends? Are you keeping them on distance, arguing with them or you have explicitly discarded them long ago?

Yeah, I like the famous proverb "You are who you are with", so people should considerate with whom they are spending their time and what they want to become. There are also stage BLUE people in our lives that is dragging us down, in most cases that is our family. But it is also very relative, because their influence on us depends on how mentally strong we are.

I mean, they are not dedicated explicit criminals because they are afraid to be, but they will likely screw over anyone who isn't in their group when they get the chance. They see successful criminals as something worthy of admiration and respect. They are also xenophobe nationalist, some of them are Neo-nazi, they gaining max respect, and those don't even respect people from neighbor cities, rather insulting them based on their differences. They especially feel delight when they put someone down from their group, it's their spiritual food, making fun of someone, under the guise that it was just a joke. @Ulax They are my neighbors from hood, they are always out there in group, looking for a alcohol, weed or amphetamine, and because I've been socializing a lot before, they were my drinking buddies. At that time, I guess big part of me was RED also, but I was only 18 back then, now I'm 30. I've realized how bad and boring their vibe is, but also I've become immune of their shit over the years. I don't socialize with them as I used to, maybe once a month now when I see them in a bar, then I just wonder about their worldview, analyzing it, maybe criticizing their beliefs for fun and just enjoying myself, accepting that they are 50% of my society. @Recursoinominado I agree, that's why I avoid them, especially when they are in a group, but problem is that they have influence on everybody, and then if you are avoiding them, some of my friends that are stage ORANGE / GREEN will connect me to them again, just because of their addiction to weed for example. But anyway, it doesn't bother me, that's how things are. We only have to be careful with them, learn from situations and love them endlessly, even if we decide to punch them in a face, in the name of their spiral growth

Nice news, I'm glad that you found your first job. Every new beginning is hard, but it will get easier by getting experience, just focus on it with meditative mindset, release all tension and stress that is accumulating. Sometimes for workout I'm practicing shuffle dance, because it's very practical. Don't need to go anywhere wasting time, can do it in front of my computer for 30 minutes, enjoying music, and it have better effect then jogging outside, but it takes time to learn.

I don't see any connection between those, so I'd recommend you to pick one to master and leave others as hobbies. I have a similar problem, I'm choosing between web dev, game dev and music. If I choose all 3 it would be hard to master any, I'd be mediocre at all 3. Be aware that people often like the idea of some life purpose, they only see the fruits of it, but in practice when they see what it takes to master it, they don't like it at all. Maybe you'll decide by contemplating that way.

That feeling as the world and time has stopped and merged in the moment.. when you feel like the trodden road that is showing you the way when you are returning home from a long journey, that feeling of freedom as your all disturbing little demons suddenly disappeared and left you alone in infinite inspiration. From that perspective I don't love, I am Love. I don't do, I am. But in mundane life, I love going to music festivals, making songs, apps and games for people, and seeking for Love that is omnipresent.