Princess Arabia

We're all trying to feel better. To have better experiences. Nothing wrong with that, me too, just pointing it out. No matter what it is, it's an attempt to feel better. We add stories to what's being done to make it appear more meaningful and having other purposes other than just to feel better. Who wants to admit to themselves that they do things just for the sole purpose of feeling better. We have to make it meaningful and purposeful. Feeling better seems so vain and shallow. Plus we have this idea that no pain, no gain, so no one wants to admit that they're just wanting to feel better by doing enjoyable things, we have to also feel pain in order to feel better. That's the insanity the human carries on with. It doesn't realize it's not a separate entity and every one of it's attempt to feel better is a by-product of this sense. Even the attempt to put oneself through pain and suffering to get somewhere is an attempt to feel better about the painful experience. When one says that they're happy and enjoying their life, it's usually that they're enjoying so-called objects. The monks who are just sitting there and are content are also using something to attain this feeling. No difference, just in content. It's all seeking.

Spirituality is just spiritual materialism. Nothing special about it just in a different category, different labelling. Spiritual people are no more special than religious people, it's just on a different level and that level is illusory. One is no more or less delusional than the other. We can talk about religious people and their stupid practices, and they can talk about us and our stupid practices; neither is right nor wrong, both are what is. If you want to argue this, go ahead, if you want to come up with ideas and concepts about what's being said here, go ahead; won't change a thing. We are no more closer to or further away from God/Absolute than they are. Everything is immediate. No space. If you think you're any more special than anyone else on an existential level, then you're right, if you think your practices mean anything other than to you and your dreamworld, you're right; if you think you're getting anywhere other than where you appear to be, you're right. That's the beauty of the illusion and nothing being everything. Freedom is everything and is free to appear as being right. If I'd said you're wrong, then that would have been the case, but I said right so that's what is.

Because it takes great effort to achieve unnatural results for the body. The body doesn't know anything about these practices on a natural level so in order for it to be programmed it takes lots and lots of practices and repetition to program it. You don't need to constantly eat to know how to eat again and you don't have to run every day for the body to know how to run. All these practices require constant attention and effort because they are not natural workings of the body. The effects happen simply because of a response. The body responding to what it's being programmed with. A baby learns to walk in a very short amount of time, laughs, smile, teeths, waves, cry all these things are inherent and needs no practicing because they are natural to the body's functioning. These things you mentioned aren't, so it takes years and consistency to see results. I'm not saying they are not useful in certain ways and some results and effects can be very soothing to the body, but they are no more or less any different than any other body trainings, they are just on a different level and produce different results but nothing of any real meaning just as everything else, but only to the one interpreting them as such. Other people are doing other things to get other results for them and it's all a matter of subject/object relationship which really doesn't exist because there are no subjects and objects really only in appearance. It's all empty.

Ok. Still, you're a relationship machine. Still, seem to be doing something wrong....or right...depending on how one looks at it. Doesn't matter. You seem to attract them.

Yeah, but he said 10. So, if 2yrs x10 that's 20yrs of relationships without a break in-between and in succession. 2yrs to me isn't even long-term and anyone with 10 I doubt thinks that's long-term either. Anyway, seems like he's 80yrs old, lol. Exaggeration, of course.

Damn, how friggin' old are you. Those long-terms for you must have been between one and two years.

No, never heard of or seen her before. Checked her out, she's ok.

Wtf..

There's no one to dissolve into nothingness. Nothingness is all there is.

The separate seeking energy is, by nature, irritable and it seeks anything out to blame for it's irritations, e.g. thoughts. It goes to silence retreats to try and find a cure for it's irritability. It might work for a while, but irritability seems to come back. Thoughts are just happening just like birds are flying.

You go into a room and completely forget what you went into the room for. Ever happened to you, I know it happened to me a few times. It's because walking is just happening with no one in the driver's seat and the person forgets because memory wasn't being 'deployed' at the same time. Walking is happening, memory is happening, only walking happened in that moment. Nothing walking. Nothing wasn't being memory then, so the body got stuck, then it remembered, the absolute appeared as memory.

It's miraculous.

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What is Reality. Trees, clouds, animals, air, the stop light, the road, birds, stones, the ocean, mountains, thoughts, ideas, concepts, a bicycle, a light bulb, food, water, a cup, urine, fish, a rose......i dunno, what is reality. AIR? What is it. God.? Me? Consciousness? What is it? Existence is nothing, but what is Reality? Something? How can Reality be known. Is there something outside of it to know it. Who is knowing it, is that a part of Reality as well. How do you grasp it. With the mind? Is the mind outside of Reality. Dunno.

What is God-Realization. I thought everything was God. I thought God was Nothing. How can nothing be realized. How can anything be really realized in Oneness and no separation. What would one see. If not seen with the eyes, what sense is used to realize God. Is God an object to realize. Who is realizing God. God is realizing itself. How is that possible. Anything is possible with God. Is the person realizing God. That seems like God would be limited to a position, time and space a thing to be realized. How does the process of realization happen. That requires time and space which doesn't really exist. Am I realizing my myself. How am I doing that. Psychedelic use. There's a process that has to take place. I thought God was timeless. Let me stop before I realize something I don't want to realize.

The body eats not you. Simple. Take the hand and put it on a plate and pick up a burger and put it in mouth. The body does that. Not you. Chop off both hands and the rest of the body still remains. Chop the legs off, the rest of the body remains. Pluck an eye out, take a kidney out, gall bladder, appendix, is that still you being hungry. Where is the you. Hunger is not an illusion, you are. Hunger happens, the illusory you claims it even with half of the you gone.

The me is a sense. Just as tasting, touching, smelling, seeing, hearing. A felt sense. A person can lose their sense of sight, sense of taste, smell and hearing; not sure about touch. The sense of me can also be lost. There's actually no one seeing, smelling, hearing, tasting and touching. They are happening on their own, apparently. The lost sense of me is not really lost just as a sense of taste is not really lost when the person can't taste anymore. The person wasn't tasting to begin with, tasting was just happening. The me sense was never there to begin with so it isn't really lost. If there's a sense of me, then everything is in relation to that sense. Just as if there's a sense of smell, what I smell is what the I smells. Another person cannot smell for me because the other person isn't smelling either. Notice none of the five senses can be felt by another for you. They are strictly felt by you. There's no me, and the me isn't smelling anything so when the ne cannot smell or taste anymore, that sense fell away to reveal the truth of the matter that it wasn't there to begin with. So, it's not really a loss. Same with the me, when it falls away, it's revealed that there never was a me but no one knows that. A blind man and a deaf man is no different from you. The only difference is in the appearance. You cannot see nor hear just as a blind man cannot see or a man cannot hear. It's just the Absolute, being everything, is also being blind and deaf or able to see and hear. What arises with that me sense is all the characteristics of what it feels like to be human. Separate, owning everything, in relation to everything including awareness. That's the I AM sense. I am here sense. This is developed shortly after birth. It's the same energy. When you see someone and see them as a someone, it's a projection. The me projects everything onto reality. There's really no reality but for the me. There isn't even a real existence. Existence is nothing. There are no objects, the me projects that. It's a fucking mess, yet there's nothing wrong and nothing needs to be any different than what it is. The 5 senses aren't needed for the body to function, only for the me to have the illusory experience of being a me. Without the me there are no senses. All those senses are of the same energy. One cannot choose to lose their senses, the loss happens all naturally and on it's own - same with the sense of me. No amounts of meditation, retreats, silence, or practice can make the me fall away. It's a natural process that happens to no one as the me isn't there already and no one to know about it's absence. It's hopeless.

Lol

When Leo talks about Reality on his blog, like in his most recent post about Math and Reality, and I look at it from the dream perspective and cognize it from that angle, it fits perfectly. It's like he's talking to the one that thinks it's a human being (the me). The separate self, the person, the separate energy that arose within the body and thinks it's separate from everything else. The dream itself. Experience itself. The mention of the words world and reality leads me to my world, my reality, my experience, my knowledge.....but without the my. It's like he's talking about how it was all formed, how it seemingly concurred. When I envision the mind part and the imagination part, I see it as Absolute nothingness being 'me' and how 'me' is dreaming up my life and everything around 'me' but not what the Absolute itself is being. I look at it as, what's appearing, is the Absolute being whatever is appearing, and that's real. What I'm dreaming about is all mind and imagination and that I'm the dream itself and also imagination itself (the ne), but the Absolute isn't a mind nor imagination. I also look at it as the Absolute being whatever is appearing through mind and imagination, but the latter can't be since the Absolute is everything there is. Meaning the Absolute/God isn't dreaming or imagining anything, I am. When I put myself in his words as the dream, as the experience, as separate from reality it fits perfectly but not in an Absolute way because the Absolute is the 'one' talking to itself, writing those words and being Leo himself. So, I see it as the Absolute/God talking to itself but referring to the 'me', the illusion. It fits perfectly then but not what the Absolute/God/Nothingness is actually being, but is also being but only seemingly and appearing to. For example, it is being a bird, but the me is seeing that bird separate from me and the dream is that which sees a separate bird because the dream is spacial but not really occurring. The sense of separateness and the dream and imagination are one but it's not really real since it's only a felt sense. Let me stop here as I think I'm confusing things a bit, not myself but the way I'm wording it to make it make sense. I'm fascinated with this exploration and will continue to explore more of this and will keep seeing if his words match up to this sense of separateness and if it resonates to the dream and illusory world and existence that i take myself to be in or is itself. I have to also keep in mind that Leo himself is also a 'me' that I see as a separate person, entity, being and how I relate to that energetically. Is he only there because I am (here), and I'm taking him to be someone actually trying to convey a message, or us he just a figment of the imaginary dream I've concocted up that I call Reality. I see the Reality he speaks about as the me's dreamlike reality that's not really there. I don't know, we'll see because I don't really see a reality, I see people, places, circumstances and objects(things), but there aren't any really since it's all nothing being everything and appearing as such and the stories and ideas about all that appears is the dream of separation. Dunno.

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