Princess Arabia

Isn't mental suffering just stories of the mind. Not what's actually happening. Physical pain is just that, physical pain, but isn't mental suffering, caused by you and your ideas about what is arising. If you thought differently, do you think you'd still be mentally suffering.

@Leo Gurawhen you say you've been suffering a lot lately, without being specific, are you saying physically (with your health condition) or mentally (unrelated to your health condition)?

Stubborn mule you.

You are waking up. Shifting. Untangling the web. Cleaning house. The house is messy. Moving things around. Keep going. You have eternity to do so.

I see what you're saying, because they are all tools. It depends on how you use them. Never underestimate the power of the mind, tho, and the influence it has on your psyche and how unaware you are of the control buttons being pushed to operate it. If you are not fully conscious you can become subjected to it's conditioning, unaware it is happening.

Hi Mom, I think I've gotten to the point where I will not mourn your passing anymore. I will celebrate your life. I will celebrate life as a whole. It has dawned on me that you were never here. You couldn't have been, because you would still be here. You can't just be here one minute and gone the next. Makes no sense. This is utter rubbish. I will not fall for this trick anymore. All my life I've seen people come and go, all the time and I was playing the game all along. People from all walks of life, celebrities, neighbors, distant family members, strangers but nothing hit like this. This is different. This woke me up to death. This here made me realize that you were never here to begin with. I've heard these stories before but never really grasped it until now. Now that it hit home, now that I can feel it in my bones, my cells, my heart. Well, not really my heart because my heart is different. I feel you everywhere else but the heart. In my heart I can feel God. You are God and that's where you are. Always were and always will be. I can't even feel myself. I don't know where I am. I only feel sensations. They come and they go. Everything comes and goes. Only awareness remains. The light. The light that shines on everything I'm aware of. I'm only aware of your memory. I don't want to be aware of your memory. I want to be aware of you. So, as long as I'm aware I am you and you are me. That's it. So as long as I'm living you're living. As long as I'm here you're here, not as a memory but actual. I will not play that part of the game anymore. I quit. Only I remain. Only I AM. What is you. You don't and never existed. Only I exist and only existence is real. I don't refer to you as I so how can you have existed. Is this still part of the game? Well, it's the part I want to play. So there. I AM THAT I AM. Talk to you soon. Yes, I'm playing both parts. Why not. I have nothing else better to do. I'm the great I AM and I can become whatever I want. It's all a mind game anyway. Let's just keep it that way and see who wins. Your little baby girl

Don't you like to watch limited, little, miserable humans on a movie screen, God is no different. Infact, you pay to see these limited, miserable little humans, at least God is seeing it for free. Now whose more stupid and utterly foolish.?

Rebelling against others is confirmation that you believe what they are saying. No rebelling needed, just focus on what and who you want to become. The rest will dissolve on it's own if there's no attention given.

This is how powerful you are. Your last sentence says it all. Now you are living the life of a perceived pathetic and retard. I AM THE WORD and MY WORD IS ME. Your choice: Go through life as a pathetic retard or go through life as ????????. Fill in the blank. Your call. Call it forth or go through hrs. of therapy, misery and hell. Consciousness can be whatever it chooses, you made your choice now you're asking for help. You will say it's not that easy because of trauma and unresolved grief. That is your story, your belief. You're comparing your story to @Holykael's and competing against his, saying your dream is worse than his dream. God left clues for itself to awaken and this is yours right there. DREAM. There are breadcrumb trails everywhere. You just have to have the awareness to see them. I am blinded by my own too, that's why I pay attention. I pay attention to what's around me, how my mind deceives me and the stories I tell myself. I'm starting to see how all is me, how I'm creating my own misery, how I'm fantasizing and dreaming. I put myself to the test. I create a certain situation just to see how I can get myself out of it. I tell myself I will get out of it because I created it. Then in no time, I get out of it. Then I notice my mind starting to spin the "but" stories...but if it wasn't for this and if it wasn't for that etc, and how it doesn't count because I felt this way instead of that way and blah blah blah, meanwhile the end result of what I wanted happened. It was the how I had a problem with. Then it dawned on me that those were just perceptions. How I perceived what was happening. If I had just felt the gratitude of the result and left the rest alone, the little teeny weeny bit of suffering that I put myself through because I wasn't happy with the way I received the outcome, I could have spared myself that teeny weeny bit of bitching and complaining. It was very minor, but if I keep practicing to get out of my own way and let the Universe do it's thing, I can be more at peace with myself and the world and be the same way with major things. It's called letting go and just be. I find when I do that, things run much smoother. It's not easy and I do slip up from time to time, but I have all the time in the world because I am Infinity and Infinity never ends. The question is, which part of Infinity do I want to experience now, being a pathetic retard or one that is at peace, fearless and loving. Plant the seed and reap the benefits. It's not that complicated. Challenging, but not complicated. I could choose to compare myself too and play the pity and victim game, because boy do I have stories. I could lead myself into a nightmare of hell too, I could sit here and cry myself into depression or anxiety too, don't think I don't have nightmare stories, because I do, I just choose to not put my focus there, I choose to shine my light of awareness on what makes me feel good, so I can experience more circumstances that makes me feel good. I could have allowed myself to spiral down into the darkness. The darkness where the light is blocked like a cloudy day. Instead, when I find myself doing that, I quickly snap out of it and bring myself back home. This has been happening now for a while, and one thing I've noticed is I'm still here, still living life and experiencing it's beauty. It's not easy but the more I train the mind the easier it gets. Nothing is happening to me, it is happening through me and if I get in it's way like a rock in the rivers path, the more blockages I experience. Let go of yourself. Stop beating yourself up. Stop living in the past because it's all stories. Life is now and every moment is a new moment. Learn to see that, and you can heal yourself. You have the power to do so. Only you, as God, can do it. No one can do it for you. I welcome all the "but's" and "if's" because you are programmed with them, but understand those will be all stories too, not what's happening right now, and I will keep on dreaming, my own personal dream, my own lucid dream, until the day I awaken fully to myself. Peace out.

I googled it before I posted it.

It's mid 30's that Fertility starts to decline, but looks can last way longer.

I dint say they don't. All I'm saying is it's not 25. Its way pass that.

Oh my oh my!! No sense arguing wth this. This here sounds like a projection. This here sounds like how you feel about yourself. A manipulation tactic? Narcissistic God-complex? Such harshness. Princessy vibe? BTW, my name has nothing to do with me thinking I'm a Princess, incase you're wondering, because if that was the case I would've went straight for Goddess and cut out the middle man. This all started when @Startruck asked me what I meant about a particular statement I made about what men realize when they get older. I don't really go around stressing or stating that women are the prize because it is just understood. I never in my personal life stated that to any man nor do I go around thinking I'm the shit. We are both valuable to each other. Maybe it's the way I'm saying it. I know what I'm trying to say but maybe I'm not expressing it so it's well understood. Anyone that personally knows me, knows I'm not like you expressed above and I know I don't. I think I'm just being misunderstood. Both parties are the prize, how's that.

I didn't say you did, but obviously you're wayyy off with these numbers. Even if you're speaking only in terms of having babies. Plenty of women have had babies in their 40's. And if you're only speaking in terms of looks,plenty of women are still hot and gorgeous at 40/50....even higher. So whichever scale you're measuring from it needs to be rewired.

I don't want to be anything. I am what I am. Why are you telling me to speak for myself then telling me you object to my projecting this attitude unto all women. Isn't that you speaking for all women. This is not about having an attitude, it's just a matter of terminology, a terminology that some men cannot handle. I can never use that wording again or that word can be scrapped from the dictionary and things will still remain the same.

I was answering your "why should men choose you over other women" question. Do you mean to say General sense or Absolute sense, because we're not speaking in the Absolute sense at all. If that's the case we can just end the conversation right now, because from the Absolute perspective, there are no sexes, no prize, no vagina, no relative, no anything...just Nirvana, peace, love and oneness...pure bliss. Men are free to choose whatever prize they want to compete for.

Really? This statement alone sounds a bit weird. 15? That's still a kid and 25? Lol Maybe in your neighborhood, they're a bit run down at 25, but not most. And it is a miscommunication.

Listen, I didn't say women are the prize because they have a vagina you did. This is why I kept my mouth shut on my stance on relationships for so long on this forum because I know its male dominated and most of you wouldn't see it the way I do because of whatever reasons. I'm not saying men are not worthy and have no value. I'm also not saying that a woman's worth is only in her vagina/gender/sexuality. To answer your first question, men have choices and preferences, whatever that may be, so that's why he chooses one over the other. Some men are already players and womanizers without seeing women as the prize so they don't need that as an excuse. Women also have ears, hands and feet along with a vagina why are you singling out that particular body part and if it's to name parts that men don't have, why not say boobs or ovaries or fallopian tubes. Men want to have their cake and eat it too. WOMEN ARE THE PRIZE IN RELATIONSHIPS POINT BLANK. PERIOD. Not saying all women know/recognize this, not saying it's because they have a vagina, not saying men are not valuable, not saying women are better than men, not saying both are not equally deserving, I'm not saying or meaning anything negative. It's just the way it is when you look at the dynamics. What I'm saying has nothing to do with women's objectification or sexualization, you're saying that. Your head cannot get around the word "PRIZE". That's what it is. You're misinterpreting me when I say prize. I don't mean it in a superficial way or that women are the shit and men are nothing, that's not what I'm saying. When you look at the man/woman dynamic, a healthy relationship between a man and a woman who are not wounded or scarred will have that kind of trajectory, It can be both rewarding for both the man and the woman to see the relationship in this manner. I won't get into too much of what I'm saying in regards to women being the prize, but I can assure you it's not how you're viewing what you think I'm saying.

Love him too. I remember hearing him say that. I'm subscribed to his YT channel and sometimes listen to his Sunday morning Agape service online.

Ok i guess my use of the phrase "Woke up to God" wasn't appropriate in this case, which is like saying God Realized which most aren't aware of. Glad we cleared that up. BTW, have you ever heard of Dr Michael Beckwith.?

Well, you have to start somewhere and sometimes language gets very tricky in trying to communicate this stuff. There are stages to this and getting away from the old paradigm of a God outside of you, is a real good start if you were indoctrinated as a Christian to believing in the "Sky God". I know what you're saying but it's still a far stretch from what most Christians believed at one time. You went very deep into the Awakening aspect but I was merely touching the tip.

I'm not joking this time and I don't sit around saying to myself I'm the prize, it's just inherent. I need do nothing. It's not just about physical beauty either. Notice you had to say "high quality men", that's like saying "health food". I can tell you're very young and a bit naive when it comes to this topic, which is ok because of your age. A female at 30 is no way past her prime, in fact she's just reaching it and can maintain that well beyond her 40's if she takes care of herself. Prize in this sense is more about worth than looks and not just monetarily. I won't get into that just do some quality research as to why inherently this is the case. The sooner you understand this the better your relationships will be and the happier you'll be in relationships. Don't go following your buddies or Andrew on this issue because you'll get left behind wondering why. It's a particular dynamic that's inherent, not in the sense that you think I'm saying, but when you understand it, and treat women as such, you'll have women gravitating towards you more in a real way other than just your looks.

That women are the Prize. That's why men compete for them and chase them. There are so many signs that indicates this, and men who realize this are the ones that usually win, but most don't get this till they become old and grey or never do. Boo hoo.

Thats when you're young and naive. When men get older, they get hit with the reality of the dating scene and realize the dynamic is different from their younger days.

Anything but that, please. Actually smelling like garlic is even worse even tho I love it in food.