Princess Arabia

The need to know is what's hurting the individual. It needs to know because it's that knowing energy. Everything in life screams what I'm talking about. Notice how you feel the need to know. Even the need to not know is a need to know that you don't need to know. Can't escape yourself. Knowing energy at play.

Hehe, I'm sure you read it the wrong way, but that's ok. I can't force you to not be you. You're not a problem and that's the problem. Hope you got that.

I watch my cat and I notice how moment by moment she is. She'll go outside and get wrapped up in drama with the outside cat and they'll be at it and I open the window for her to come in and she runs in and it's like nothing ever happened. She just starts licking herself and goes for the food while I'm here all worked up over hearing all that cat spewing and cat fighting. She just goes on as if that was and now this is. That's just one example. I see how she operates, she has a personality, but it's not her own, she doesn't own it like we do. Shit, we even give ours names like NJPT, MJNP, i don't fucking know, I just made those up, personality types and love types and relationship types and anger types and this here type and that here type,......jesus...yet we seek enlightenment. Humans are funny and weird creatures....no cats are. Love 'em. If you want to get a feel of what I'm like in person, think of a cat, I have a cat's personality; always has.

It's funny you say that because I thought about this before. Then I said, no it's not attachment, it's joy, love, excitement, passion. The person will come in and say it's attachment because it's wants to leave room for other attachments. It'll say this is attachment so it eases up a bit to go get attached to other things. I've seen through this too. None of it is attachment, it's just what is. This here ain't getting caught up in the chasing the tail of endless looping. I see things for what they are not what labels I put on it. It's not that I don't engage in other things, this the only place I write about and talk about such things so it might seem like it's all I do, but it's not. I love what you wrote, though.

Maybe there's no 'me' here and I don't know it. There's none anyway in anyone, but maybe this here body recognizes there to be none. I don't know. I've heard it said by Alexis that there are some people where the me has fallen away and they don't know it or recognize that to be the case. It would be equivalent to someone losing their sense of smell but doesn't realize it. You don't really notice your hand until it hurts. In this case, there's no one to notice there's no me. I still feel like it and operate from that sense but I notice i don't write like it. Everything else we do is 'seen' from the 'inside' like thoughts, feelings, etc, no one can experience those for us, but writing can be seen by others and when writing to other, that's when I can notice and I write from a place where there's like no one in this body. This part is a bit tricky to express, but I know what I'm trying to say, even saying those last words felt weird and funny, "I know what I'm trying to say", no I don't. I'm just writing. I write somethings and read it back and I'm like that felt real, that reads real, but I think to others it's like confusing. Like they might not know what i'm talking about. Not understand. I see it so many times. I'm not trying to sound a particular way or trying to sound like there's no me it just happens that way. It's not all the time, but a lot of times and I only notice it when I'm relating to others. I don't know, it's kind of weird. Some of the stuff i write or what comes out of this mouth is like, wtf is she saying i think is what others be saying sometimes. I don't even have to think about what I'm writing or expressing it just happens, it just comes out. Plenty of times i've erased a journal post because i start to think too hard about what I'm writing; it just didn't feel real to say. Real, in this case, means where the ego isn't involved. This usually happens when I feel like writing but with nothing to say VS something to express and expressing it through writing. Most posts that make it through wasn't thought through or rehearsed; they are mostly spontaneous.

Stress doesn't resolve itself. Stress is stress and cannot be any other thing. What happens is something else takes it's place. Stress is not a problem, the you is. Sorry to say. It's the you that needs to resolve itself. You are not stressing about the stress. It's just stress. I'm expressing it this way because anything else, any advice will only be band aids and addressing the symptom. If the root cause, you, isn't addressed, tomorrow it'll be something else and something else and something else. What to do about the root cause? Nothing. There's none. Problem and issue solved.

Nothing. God is nothing. There are no real creations. Nothing is being everything. Energy. Never created or destroyed, just is.

Weird thing is when I used to listen to these subliminals/meditations (not this one but similiar), money would come to me the next day. Maybe it's a mind thing. I would fall asleep to them. I don't anymore but I used to. Maybe I should start again cause money's getting rationed.. lol

Yeah, I guess it's like watching the opponent's political party to see who not to vote for.

It's not about the age but more about the personality. I see plenty of older men out at bars and clubs and places like that. It's just they're mostly out during the day and during the week. Late night and especially week-end nights is when the younger crowd mostly are out. If anything, it's older men VS older women who still go out to those places after 40 if they are that type. Golf clubs, restaurant bars and concerts and jazz clubs are common for older folks. For older men, it's not a deterrent as much because they can still attract younger women. Older women are more selective and aren't out partying as much but I see men of all ages all the time out both alone and in groups. Also, I lived in Vegas for a couple years and that place was filled with older men, and women too, day and night. Plenty of older women were partying and clubbing. They were hot and sexy too. Vegas is filled with those types of women. Older men galore and I mean even 50's and 60's. Nothing for men that age to go out but maybe not night clubs but more lounges and bars and social clubs.

Your answers are in your statements. Too much about the self. Trying to relax is just another "to do list". Too much concern, too much fear. Me telling you to do anything as in relax, go for walks, do this do that , don't do this don't do that is all about the self and a to do and not to do list. How about not being concerned with the stress, not being concerned about what's taking place. I know that's suggesting what not to do but what's being suggested here is to not be concerned about being relaxed or stressed. That's where the worry is, not in the circumstances and what's being done or not done. Just look at it as life being life. If I'm being stressed I look at it as "oh my, I'm stressed today", that's it. If I'm relaxed that day, I notice relaxation taking place. No need to be concerned about changing any of it. It changes itself. No one is stressed all the time, and no one is relaxed all the time. The current will flow and allow for the necessary changes. The worrying is the problem and the need to also not worry is what's driving and fueling the worrying. Stress releases itself.

That's where the stress generates from. That's the problem, too much about inward. Everything's about inward, even the outward is about the inward.

The irony about this is thread is a lot of fake spirituality is being watched. Wouldn't know about fake spirituality if you didn't watch fake spirituality. So, maybe have a counter thread with real spirituality videos to see how many posts it gets.

Just as how an object needs space to be, it also needs a subject to be. No object no subject and no subject no object.

An example of "it's not really happening" is the sun rising and setting. We say sunset and sunrise, but neither is really happening. The sun is just there and the earth revolves around the sun. Go towards a sunrise and you'll be going further away from the sun. Same thing as trying to reach reality or God the further away you get.

All I'm saying is paths are illusory. I'm on an illusionary path.

There are no real paths.

I stopped watching all those New Age spiritual mumbo jumbo stuff that's why I don't post those videos anymore. Don't care about none of that stuff. I was blind but now I see. Still delusional, though, neurotic and dis-eased....apparently, oh god, help.

That voice. So touching.

Another weird thing this weird girl just thought of. We all have different fingerprints but one phone can be tapped by all. Meaning we're all tapping away using our fingers on these phones that doesn't seem to care whose finger is tapping, yet fingerprints are unique. I know we're not using our fingerprints to tap,but it's kind of odd how they all work on pretty much all phones and tapping devices. How does facial recognition work too. One device can recognize millions of faces. I wonder if that also goes for animals. Your phone can talk to you and we're looking for things to make sense and to be logical. Whats so logical about a phone being able to tall back to me and I can tell it to go fuck itself and it replies back i didnt get that.. I told Siri to go fuck itself one time just to see what it would say and it replied "I did not get that". Hehe. These are the kinds of things I think about.

I don't know if some do, I don't. Never asked. We can wake up horny, though.

I'm so glad I've freed myself from the entanglement and constant chasing of the tail and running around in an endless loop of trying to find and locate myself. Yes, suffering arises, anger arises, confusion may arise and all those emotions even though some have seeming disappeared for good, but those are all appearing without a need to have to repair and fix them even though the felt sense is still there. Something here understands there's no need to do anything about them and that it's a neurotic need if that's felt. I'm constantly noticing the neurosis, but I make fun of it. I'm having fun with my neurotic self. It doesn't like that though as it wants me to get all serious and panicky about it, but I just let it be and unto the next. I spot easily in others this neurotic tendency because I spot in myself easily. It runs rampant and is having a jolly ole time. Even when the disease has struck again, and fear kicks in, there's still no need to try and fix it. I've done this enough times to notice that it just wants attention and how quickly it goes away when none is given. I don't need to realize myself and there's not even a self to realize. Jesus, if that's not at the height of neurosis, I don't know what is. An orange trying to realize it's an orange. Not going to happen or a bird trying to realize it's a bird....no, no, no neurosis there, only in humans. We're suffering our neurosis and suffering the need to confirm what's not there. Then we turn to others who are our confirmation and look to them for relief of what we're trying to get rid of. It's a never-ending cycle for this neurotic energy. Good news us that's all illusory anyway and no one is actually trapped or chasing their own tail as it's all what's just appearing and appearances, what comes and goes, is illusory; and what's even more amazing is that the illusion isn't really there. No one left out. No one actually trapped and no one really bounded and slaved. That's not good news to that energy but it doesn't really matter because there's no one behind it. Drop a hammer on the foot and the pain is real, then what, what happens, nothing, just pain felt, so what. Anything anyone says about let's see if so and so....so what..then what...shit still shits and tears still fall and feelings seem real and life goes on. Doesn't matter. Take it seriously or not, doesn't matter. Kill me or not, doesn't matter, curse me or not doesn't matter. Nothing matters. Curse me for saying this, then what, call me a nihilist, then what, then what, then what, then what.....you neurotic being you.

That jolt that we feel when the alarm clock scares the shit out of us when it's time to wake up is the sense of self shocking itself back into time. It's not there during sleep and only apparently seems to appear during the waking hrs but seems to need a little time to sense it's way back into existence. Waking someone out of REM sleep, seems to have the same effect. Notice when we wake up from a night's sleep how immediately we need a few minutes to feel fully coherent again. The sense of self slowly coming back in. Nodding off to sleep is the same thing, sense of self slowly drifting away and any jolt of electric to that energy will shock it back into a felt sense. We're constantly going in and out of feeling that sense but unaware that's what's really happening....though not really. In sleep, there's no one to say "I'm asleep", but upon waking, the sense appears that there's someone here; but because it really isn't it needs time to get the tool kit and gather it's thoughts together and start to construct itself again. It's like every time it sleeps and wakes up, it continues the construction process. It may need coffee or meditation or whatever to get the ball a rolling but all it's doing is banging away on an imaginary surface and memory appears to help to continue where it left off. It relies on that for it's continuity. A baby wakes up to no one and no memory and everything is fresh and new (up until a certain age when that felt sense starts to kick in and the I matures). Amnesia patients seem to have lost the memory sense, so for them it's also afresh. The normal human needs others, a tool kit, a construction site, memory and outside confirmation to help in the building process. That's why we're social creatures. Who wants to constantly build alone with no one to admire our creation. That's why loneliness can feel so bad to the worker working on itself. It needs a sense of other to project.

No, I didn't laugh 🤣I confirmed insanity to be a thing and was quite depressed and made an appointment to see a therapist. When I got there this morning, I observed her looking for her reading glasses while wearing her reading glasses, so I left.🤣.....(Jokie pokie).

So, I'm using my phone's flashlight to look for my phone. Using it to look for something else in the dark, then I said where's my phone, then started looking for the phone using the phone's flashlight. Only for a brief minute, though, as I realized it shortly thereafter. It's official.