Princess Arabia

Where does the person go when the body 'dies'. To Timbuktu, I guess, or it just shoots out and disappear into space. Oh, I forgot, there is no person there, awareness is observing the person. Oh, it's just a body. I'm not the body/mind, I observe the body/mind's death. Shit, I got an eye witness, judge. Judge is awareness too so judge shouldn't need my eye-witness testimony. The killer is awareness too, so how am I pointing out myself. Gosh what a mess. Neti Neti not this not that.

When the eyes first open from deep sleep, the body seems to need time to adjust to that narcissistic, arrogant, neurotic, illusory sense of self that will take over for the rest of the day until it goes back to sleep. Coffee..please. I'm grumpy. Notice the body can feel a sense of shock if woken up too suddenly. The illusory self is creeping in slowly. Deep sleep, it's not there. Not there now, but somehow it appears to feel like one's there. That's the I AM. Needs time to realize that it is. I AM that I AM. Only illusion.

This shouldn't even be in the mental illness section. Asking about death is not a mental illness, thinking one is alive is. We're all dis-eased and restless. This is death.

Yeah, John (or whatever his name is, her hubby) died. She popped up and i clicked on it. Didn't even realize she was away 'cause I had stopped watching her for awhile. No one tops Alexis.

The dream cannot imagine what no separation is and cannot fathom what that really means because the dream can only operate from a dualistic paradigm. If not for the appearance of thought and memory time wouldn't even seem to be a thing. The dream is it's own reality and cannot step out of that reality. It's a subject/object paradigm and relates to things as such. It's like an institution. What isn't the dream? What's appearing. What's the dream? The individual that relates to what's appearing. Sees what's appearing as separate from it, it's over there and i am over here, subject/object, claims and owns everything and sees what appears as happening to it and it becomes personal and owned. Take the i am out and there is no dream. The I am isn't dreaming it is the dream itself and the only illusion.

Yeah. I Guess.

I was wrong about humans being the only species to be chasing states. Lots of other animals do, I see. Interesting. Shows how it doesn't matter, it's all energetic. It's not humans, it's not animals but energy.

@PurpleTreeok, so humans are like animals and animals like humans. Not much different. If humans were to do the exact same things you've mentioned here, I wouldn't call it 'chasing happiness'; still a bit of a difference. You've opened up my eyes a bit though. State chasing seems to be universal. Chasing states is not the same as chasing happiness though.

Of course, this is natural. NATURE at it's finest. Chasing happiness is not. Chasing down states is not a natural energetic response, it's delusion.

Yes, I understand. Far cry from my question. Dogs whimper, animals show emotions and feel down. I'm saying they're not chasing happiness. Dolphins in captivity that get depressed is still an energetic response. Energy responding to energy being in captivity. Humans are the only species running down and chasing different states.

No, Mr Spira, you're delusional just like the other Spiritual gurus. Dream talking to the dream as the dream trying to help the dream find it's tail. Consciousness doesn't know itself, it is the dream of knowing itself.

Why isn't a spider trying to be happy or a whale?

Everybody is just going on about their business searching for ways to have a better experience, find ways to make themselves happy, trying not to suffer, owns every goddamn emotion, my happiness, my suffering, my this and my that and everything else they're seeming go about doing but the one thing i don't see being asked is why. Why do I have to go through all this when I didn't ask to come here. Nobody cares about this. We are responsible for, we need to work hard to, we need to get the skills for, we need to learn this and that, we need to be this way and that way in order to get this or that or for that to come to us and blah blah but noone much is concerned with this most cruel thing that could ever happen to a human. Never asked to come here but we have to suffer and go through hell; some just more than others. I know why this isn't being talked about and addressed much as with a lot more questions like these, and that's why I'm sticking to my story. It's so obvious.

The most neurotic and delusional spiritualists are the ones that seem to appear to know what they're talking about the most and are very intelligent by nature. They can dissect and formulate and figure out and compose beautifully and present a masterpiece thesis to the unsuspected one who is impressed by such knowledge they feed them and the way it's skillfully crafted and delivered.

Human spiritualists are addicted to chasing States.

Presence is not all there is, absence is more like it. Everything you think you know spiritually, turn that shit around backwards and it's the opposite that's the case. All your Spiritual jargon is nonsense. Then you have the neurotics trying to be still and present searching for the absence of presence which is already the case.

There is no God that is watching you as itself. No God that forgot itself, no God that pretends to be human, none of that is real, they're just ideas and stories. No God created anything, scheming anything, figuring anything out, waiting to wake up to itself, waiting to be realized or recognized, all that is stories and ideas. No God that that is being you or me, no God that knows itself or is all knowing. Now, if you want to call What Is, God, Nothing God, the Absolute God, Emptiness God and so on and so forth, fine and dandy, it's all energy anyway BEING. There is no space between anything and nothing that is close or far from anything else. It's immediate. Fire and wood turns to ash, that's immediate. Something like that.

The body usually feels rested after sleep from it not being under the illusion of an illusory being in control of it. That's why that's the best time it uses to repair itself. It's like yes, that annoying, neurotic, narcissistic, arrogant energy that feels like it's running the show isn't there now so i can now do my job in peace. Upon waking up it gets confused again and restless. So restless, anxiety and panic attacks may arise. We take all these things for granted as just life but energy can seem to respond to itself; and even though there's no one behind all this doing this it's all energetic and can still be felt by that sense of separateness.

How can anything satisfy nothing.

What is everybody seeking? Nothing. It is the seeking energy itself being itself. When there's a longing for something or to seek, when something says I won't seek anymore that's not a person doing that that's the seeking energy that cannot not be itself.

I don't touch this subject much because it's so sensitive and i have to be careful not to hit some nerves but as far as suicidal thoughts, they're just thoughts like every other thought. I will guarantee you that every single human on the face of the earth will have suicidal thoughts in their lifetime. Guaranteed. Some may have them more frequently, some may be more intense, all depends just as how other thoughts are. You may be walking down the road and a crazy thought appear of strangling the woman walking by, or kissing that cute girl up the street or eating a banana or about your mother or a student in math class, or a red car, or a forest fire, or how broke you are, or your brother, or a video game, or about watching porn, or the government......or suicide. Walking down the street again tomorrow or making breakfast....same thing, thoughts about everything under the sun then one on suicide. The next hr more thoughts(mind you, thoughts are always arising your entire life for years on end), a thought about tap water, about concrete, about the old lady next door, about sushi.....bing, about suicide. Why not. Everything else under the sun, why not that. Do we pay attention to all the 60, 000 thoughts we have a day; does every thought require your attention, no but suicidal ones do and are taken seriously than about the spider in the attic. Now we are suicidal. Imo leave this here.

There is no you to be a what. What am I? That's why you make up being the invisible awareness and the profound consciousness. I'm not you and you are not me. That's like saying the apple is the orange and the orange is the apple and they are one. What about the pear. OK, so everything is everything and everything is one? No.There are no separate things to be one. Think of just one thing.(this is an analogy, an example)..think of a pencil, the pencil is all there is. Dont look at the lead and the eraser, just see a pencil. That's all there is. Where is the other to be the pencil and the pencil to be the other that makes them one if the pencil is all there is. There is not a pencil (the Absolute) and something else for the pencil to unite with to become one. 'You and I are one' is false. 'We are one with' is false. These statements are brushed over and lala di la da and challenged or woo wooed but total understanding of this will make that energy shit it's pants. All doesn't matter as it's all not separate anyway, but the illusion and dream feels so real. Doesn't matter what anyone says. It's this talking to itself.

Some men wanna be leaders but they want to split the bill on the first date because they're not sure she's either worth it or who they want to court long-term. Well, you've demonstrated from the get go that you don't know how to lead and what it takes for a woman to feel safe and secure around you and to choose you to be her leader. Some women will gladly split the bill. Some women will even offer to split the bill; but it's because she doesn't truly respect or trust you to be her lead and won't feel a sense of guilt WHEN she decides to move on if you haven't done it first. It's never about the money, but what the money symbolizes the same way anything else does. Whatever it is that attracted you to her to begin with, was a symbol. Insecure guys feel like suckers if they pay the a date. They will literally pay for something else that means very little to them but justify in their mi ds why they feel they shouldn't pay. All sorts of reasons. Why do you want to lead. Why do you want me to make you feel like a man, feel good, respected and loved. Well, paying a bill for a date you asked me out on is showing me that you you have enough respect for yourself to demonstrate that you don't use money to value the relationship. One might say goes both ways, well first of all he asked me out, secondly, it represents leadership, security and safety, thirdly, men and women are not the same in these regards and you don't need to feel safe and secure with me and have me lead you as a man and paying for a bill you asked me out on symbolizes these things. My role is to show up and your role is to impress. There's no impressing if I'm digging into my wallet while on a date with a man.

The very notion of "doing the work", is what seems to keep the individual trapped in its own institutional demise. Then it says, "isn't spiritual work hard". Yeah, but keep going man, you'll get there. It's the same energy thats trying to rid itself from itself or get closer to itself. There is no next. What is is all there is. Cannot practice and process your way into what is. Show me what isn't. Show me something that's not there. How can there be work to do to get to what is.

Another delusional teaching is the act of acceptance. Accept it, feel into it, let it be there, allow it to flow through you. Duh. How can one accept or not accept what already is. It's already there. One can seem to resist it but that's already happening just from even attempting to do anything about what is happening. The very act of acceptance is resistance to what is. It's all about resisting what is, even if one tries to be still for a purpose or a result. Nothing wrong with silence just for silence's sake. Nothing wrong with anything, even resistance since that's just what is resisting itself. Point of all this is to expose that nothing is needed to get to what is already. Infact, it cannot be arrived at since it's everything.