Princess Arabia

Why isn't anybody trying to feel bad. Looking for a worse experience. Wanting to be sad and miserable. Going about life trying to worsen it consciously. Everywhere you look it's all about how to be happy and how to be better off, trying to obtain things of value and trying to get something positive from life. Why? The individual is in pain. The individual feels tension. It seeks to relieve itself. Even in temporary happiness that's not happiness at all, it's pain relief. Sob sob. It wants to make the world a better place. On it's death bead, it won't care then. It wants to make the world a better place for itself. So it can feel better about living in it. It's always about feeling better. Why? It's in pain, it seeks relief. It's a default. Seek happiness to feel relief. Let's talk about it, write about it, advise on it, teach about how to attain it, seek others to help on how to achieve this state, help the world get there, help, help, help, help. Please we need to do something about this pain we all feel. There's nothing to do to get relief. Do all the practices you want, be a slave to your circumstances, idolize happiness and ostracize pain. Invent all the pain medications we want. Notice there's no pill for happiness. Pain and tension is the default of mankind. Seek, seek, seek, seek, seek. That's all we do. Then we die and collapse into the ocean of love that's always been here. Why not be that now. Pain and all. Tension and all. Now. There's no permanent relief. Try to see this. It's impossible to see if one's trying to seek relief. The only way to see it, but not with the eyes or intuition, or soul, or anything of the sort, the only way is to just be. Be with the tension and despair and do nothing about it. Then and only then that energy just might collapse to reveal that it's not there. To reveal that everything is automatic and there's nothing to do. It's being done. Whatever it is, it's being done. Not even. It's just being whatever it wants to be. Appear. It goes away and appears again as whatever without anyone in the driver's seat. Hard to accept. Gate to fathom. The person cannot grasp this. It's ungraspable. No person, and it's all timeless energy appearing.

You are not the space that all objects occupy. There's no real space. Self-inquiry suggests that you're the witness and observer of all that appears and that you're the awareness of all things that appears within your awareness. There's no real awareness as that suggests duality and a something being aware of something else. There really are no objects and there really isn't a subject. Self-inquiry appeals to the individual energy that thinks it's separate and that it can do something to discover it's true nature as GOD. It says the space that occupies things is unchanging and never moves, it's untouchable and nothing can affect it and that's who we really are. If I'm the space that all objects occupy that what are those objects, what are they made of. Where did they come from. Space and time are effects; and to the observer, is really there and it seemingly here. If there isn't an observer, space and time isn't experienced. Notice how sometimes time seems different, and maybe on some substance, it seems to disappear once the sense of self disappears, also the illusion of space might temporarily be out of the individuals perception when it's trippin' and with no sense of itself being a person on it's own. That's because there's no observer present. All that wears off and the sense of self returns and now the observer is back and to it, there's a here and a there once again. One can never be permanently 'gone' while there's a body that 'thinks' there's a controller behind it. Saying I did so and so and saw so and so suggests that there was a person that did so and so and saw so and so. This is all illusory and no one did anything to reveal anything. It's all just happening but when the effects wear off and the observer is 'back' to claim anything, it's back in that felt sense that's not even happening but feels and appears to be. This is why i feel it's best to not even try those substances and not claim anything to have happened to it because it just strengthens that sense even more. The more it claims anything the stronger that sense becomes. It's all illusory anyway and doesn't really matter but within the illusion there can be a sense that may fall away to reveal something and that something is actually nothing. This is all conceptual anyway, but there is no space that holds objects is the bottom-line. The Absolute is appearing as space and time and when the Absolute appears as a sleeping body and with no observer, space and time disappears. It was never there to begin with just as everything else except for what appears and when there's an observer then everything is in relation to it. I'm over here and everything else is over there. Where is all that in sleep. Self-inquiry doesn't acknowledges this, it says there's an observer that is witnessing everything and an awareness that abides as itself with no troubles and worries and that is all being witness even thoughts. No, there's no observer and no one aware of anything. There can't be if there's no separation and all is nothing appearing as everything which us the case and cannot be any other way because for something to appear it must have a source and a source has to be nothing for it to appear as something or else that source has to also have a source so source is nothing.

Everything in society, I would say life but life is just being life, is designed to keep the person thinking and believing it's a person. I don't know if this is intentional or not but it is. Everything keeps that energy in it's same form. Even though my take on enlightenment and awakening is different than most because I say there's no one to awaken and enlightenment is already the case, it doesn't matter in this instance for what I'm referring to. There's still an apparent illusion of separation that can be 'broken' meaning that energy can apparently fall away revealing to itself that it's not separate and maybe 'break through the illusion', seemingly. Society doesn't allow for it to be easy. I'll go on the premise for now that enlightenment can be 'achieved' by a 'separate' individual and they can awaken to the 'true nature' of reality. I put those words in quotation because it's all apparent and seems to be happening but there's nothing to really break through or see through. Tests we do to see what personalities we are, self-development programs, self-inquiry practices, therapists and psychological evaluations, spiritual teachings all addresses the personal self and suggests there's something for the self to do than can lead somewhere or to enlightenment, anything that says there's a self can work on anything to improve, evaluate and develop, I can go on to list more but just about everything in life/society confirms that there's a separate energy form that is responsible for itself and that it needs to do this or that to maintain it's illusory nature. Some will say enlightenment is hard and to open oneself to 'discover' the true nature of things requires practices and hard spiritual work and years of dedication to achieve this. We go to retreats and meditate(good practice, BTW, for the body's relaxation), listen to gurus and we engage in all these things as a self to try and get somewhere spiritually while engaging in societal things and programs designed to confirm the personhood that we believe ourselves to be. Some will even defend this stance by saying we live in the relative world and life goes on and we are humans surviving a body and lifestyle and that we have to be real about this and not engage in spiritual bypassing and pretend we're not humans or individuals. They'll keep the charade going while seeking enlightenment and awakening and do substances and practices while still engaging on a mental level in the material world. I say mental because we're all 'physically' here but mentally doesn't have to be. That statement is a bit off because it's all mental but there's a point here that's trying to be addressed and that's the only way to put it. I'm not sure if anything I'm saying is being clear and registering and I'm not really talking to the person but to energy that might resonate with this. Just as some resonates with somethings being said and some it just goes right over their heads because it's just too 'contracted' and invested in itself as a separate individual all trying to survive it's illusory identities. For some, it may. Can't have both worlds. It's either we're steadfastly keeping up with the Joneses or we're trying to keep the illusion going. The energy that thinks it's a separate entity can deny anything it wants just to keep itself separate because it's having a grand 'ole time wallowing in it's own illusory nature or it can seemingly 'recognize' there's something 'wrong' with how it's been operating and that it's constantly 'feeling' the 'effects' of separation and magically fall away on it's own. There's nothing it can intentionally do for this to apparently happen but it may result in an opening that may release the tension that it 'carries' along with it to reveal it's illusory nature. Society doesn't do anything to help with this and it really doesn't matter in the 'grand scheme of things' anyway because there's no separate entity and it's all just appearances, all BEING; and it's all freedom and liberation; and what freedom and liberation is for the separate identity is freedom and liberation from itself which doesn't really exist and it's just a play of consciousness which is all but a dream and imagination which isn't even really happening. The energy has to not be invested in itself as much for it to 'see' that it doesn't exist and when it 'sees' that it doesn't exist, it can be free of itself in the material world and the illusion of physicality and really start playing in it's own waters and all it's troubles won't be taken so seriously and the world around it will seem more magical and without see it for what it really is. NOTHING BEING EVERYTHING.

There is nothing beyond anything. There's nothing beyond this. There's only what's appearing which is nothing being, including the appearance of a body referring to the concept of there being a beyond. Where is this "beyond" appearing.

Leo tells people experience is king, to go out and get experience and to travel and expand your paradigm and whatever else he says in his videos about this, I believe it's how to have the good life or maybe others, but says vacation is fools gold. Another subtlety on how freedom is chaotic and anarchic. It doesn't care to reason and figure out how it expresses itself, it does so spontaneously and free. How's vacation fools gold. You need that if you're taking care of survival needs by working to pay your bills and taking a break to recoupe from all that. He also says to take care of survival issues before delving into spiritual stuff but I guess taking a vacation from that is fool's gold. It's not a criticism just pointing out inconsistencies in how life appears and how the dream interprets it. Nothing wrong with luxury, btw, it's an expression of love just as its opposite. Can't have one without the other; so if luxury is bad, then it's opposite is also bad. Consciousness is the dream, which is the same as the dreamer, which is also dreaming and imagining luxurious things. That's my take. Love you Leo.

Us guys? Speak for yourself and maybe others who are going through that, but it's not a world-wide epidemic. I don't see a shortage of babies being born and women going around being virgins their whole life. Plenty of baby daddies, relationship problems, domestic abuse, valentine's day activities, weddings couples therapies around which suggests that people are being intimate with each other all over the place. Maybe stop focusing on not getting any and go socialize instead of being on forums and maybe your problems won't be lack-based in this department but abundance of baby momma drama, and women problems. People who are out socializing and living life with plenty of options aren't on social media complaining about the lack of the opposite sex, so seeing on social media how men are depraved, doesn't tell the true story because no one is on there crying about the sex they're having or the abundance of friends in their lives. Only negative news gets reported most of the time and in this department it's not any different. Lonely incels and the sex-starved will make a big deal of the situation, not the ones living it up like I see everyday and these people are from all over the world because I live in a tourist town and for years I'm out and about seeing couples after couples after couples. So sick of you guys complaining instead of doing something about your situation. Then you come up with the remark that I'm a woman so I don't understand. All I understand is that people think everybody is going through what they're going through. Plenty of sex happening in the world. I don't see the condom companies complaining and going out of business.

This is such a limited perspective. Ever crossed your mind that humans are social creatures and that some just like to have a partner to share life with and not because they're lonely. Plus, the way society is, people think it's expected to have partners and get into relationships and marry because that's what they see everybody else doing and not because they're lonely.

That was not the basis of my comment. Plus why do you think the vibrator was invented and dildos. Women just are more private with their horniness and don't shove it down the world's throat like men do. I've seen plenty of men who walk around and are not moved by the sight of women and their titties and they're not gay. I've also seen where men stare at every tittie that walks by, you might be one of those. Some men, especially the ones with gfs or are getting plenty of sex aren't going around being rocked by the mere sight of titties they see everyday. I said this in my journal, some men think that all men are like them, no they're not. Some couldn't care less about the sight of anything if it ain't theirs. Men are not all the same. There are types. All may be horny, that's not the point but not all care about the mere sight of anything. I've seen this time and time again. Women know all the well the types out there. It shows.

What kind of a heading/topic is that. Did you interview most people to know they are sexually depraved? Everytime I go out I see couples out together. Kids everywhere and people having a grand 'ole time. Hotels are being booked and couples holding hands. Get out of your head.

Exactly. Can't have any control and then surrender. Surrender is crap. Another Spiritual mumbo jumbo. No one surrenders. Life is just being life and that's all there is to it. Those that think they're surrendering is life still doing that. One can believe they're surrendering all they want, it's life being life. There's nothing to surrender to.

Not even Ghatgpt4 can help the dick. Shows you, don't be a dick.

I have to remember that some people are not mentally well and should take that into consideration when I respond to them. I won't know who is and who isn't, so maybe take into consideration my assumptions and ideas about people in general. Would I snap and shout at a new-born for crying or a man for standing up to pee or a kindergarten for not understanding calculus or a cat for not barking like a dog or an old woman for walking slow or someone in a wheelchair for not getting up and walk or a patient for not know how to treat themselves or a mother for not acting like a father or.....i mean the list is endless what we don't judge and criticize people for because we don't expect otherwise from them. Why do that with people regardless of what we know about them because it's what we don't know that puts us on the ignorance level and what we don't know is what we're actually judging and criticizing.

"That's who you are". Every time I hear a spiritual teacher, guru or anyone say those words, I flinch. Why? How is someone i don't know telling me who I am. Wtf. No one says, "that's who I am", that's who my brother is, that's who my sister is and that's who the neighbors are; it's always, "that's who you are". Well, who are you? The same thing I am? Well, if you're the same thing I am, how is the same thing telling the same thing "that's who you are". A sock telling itself, "that's who you are". Obviously you're telling me that I am the same thing that you are because you wouldn't be telling me who I am and insinuating you're something different. So, if I'm the same thing that you are and you're the same thing I am (or being, whatever word), who are you talking to. It's like me saying there's no you and someone asks well, who are you talking to. So either one is talking to no one. So, it comes down to again, there is no you. Everything points to that. I'm sure the same guru if asked "who's the cat" he'll say same thing you are, what's the mouse, what's the fish, what's the donkey, same thing you are. So everything's the same? Yes. So, who's the you in "that's who you are", or what is the "that" in "(that's) who "(you)" are. Sounds like duality to me. Sounds like something is something else. Sounds like there's separation. Sounds like somebody telling me who I am inside the who I am. At least if I say there's no you and there's no me then that can be the one thing just talking to itself saying there's no me and there's no you. Going back and forth. If you're telling me that I'm something and you're that same something then that seems to be one thing telling itself that there are two of them. If you're suggesting there's a me and there's a you and that they are the same thing how can that thing be telling itself that's who you are. Ok, so consciousness is telling consciousness "that's who you are"? Or if you say I'm awareness, awareness is telling awareness "that's who you are". What's the "that"? That's it for now.

This isn't moving nor is it still. To understand how that is just think about a nightly dream. Dreaming at the beach, but one didn't actually move to get to the beach and it's not still because in the dream things seem to be moving like getting in the water. So, this is exactly like that not moving and not still. It's really similar to how a dream happens only it's not a dream. The person is the dream itself as there's no one actually dreaming.

I can go to sleep regardless of screen time. Doesn't take me long to fall asleep. All that screen time stuff doesn't affect me one bit, not even a little bit.

Somebody just gave someone advice that they asked for 6yrs ago. You tell me this isn't anarchic chaos. These are the subtleties I say to look out for. One example. Still trying to make it make sense?. Lol

More answers = more questions. Keep asking till you realize they're infinite.

I got that "I love you, but you gotta go" from Leo's video, I believe it's called how to stop addictions or maybe cravings. Just what it is you want to accomplish, just focus on that instead of the junk food cravings. Keep it there and keep it there some more. Don't say I want to stop.....say I will....do or eat so and so. The subconscious doesn't read the word no it only hears what comes after that because no is not a reality. What is is. I do not want to, is not what's happening. I eat healthy is. Keep it in the present.

A rant to the Absolute: I'm angry at the Absolute/God. I'm angry because you left me in the cold to figure this shit out. You left me not knowing anything from birth and now you gave me parents that knows nothing either. You left me to fend for myself. You made a world filled with suffering and hate and only love when we feel like it. We feel our way through this shit hole. Maneuvering our way through hell. Lots of money is hell, lots of sex is hell, lots of food is hell, lots of friends is hell, abundance is hell. We only want more and more and more and more and more. Having nothing makes us want. Having lots makes us want even more. It's never enough. Then they tell me it's so we can surrender and come to you. When we've been through the hell, then we can truly be in heaven. Then we have this thing called dis-ease. Almost everyone will catch one or the other in their lifetime. Then we grow old and gray and diseased up some more before you finally have some mercy on us and suck the last fucking dis-eased up breath from us as if to say, here my baby, I relieve you of your suffering now. Come home to poppa. What kind of loving is that. Suffer before you die. Suffer from your mistakes and greediness and selfishness, you horny bastard you say. You make men weep for sex. You put them through misery after you thrush down their throats a bunch of testosterone and make their bodies crave something they have to suffer for. You make women with holes that have to bear the pain of birth and to bear the pain if someone stick it to them the wrong way. Everything in life is about pain. We have to figure ourselves into happiness. The default is fucking pain and misery. Then you place strangers in our lives to tell us who we fucking are. We have to listen to a man or woman we don't fucking know and who makes money from our ignorance while sone remain poor and jacked up looking for food, while the stranger to us tell us how to fucking meditate and do kriya yoga just to not suffer and to reach you. Who the fuck do you think you are. Why the hell is all this happening. Children are starving and the homeless are doing drugs to cope. Then society doesn't give a shit about them and call them feins and drug addicts and you make them suffer more because you designed a fucking body that gets addicted to the substances you created. What kind of shit is this. Even the so-called rich are killing themselves and overdosing on drugs and killing themselves because they still feel empty inside. Looking for fucking you. Why the fuck do you keep hiding. Is this a fucking joke. Well, no one's laughing. You give us shit just to take it back. Then you give us more shit and take it back again like some hide and friggin seek prank. Then you design us to be selfish because that's the only way to survive this hell of a hole. Notice how there are holes everywhere. Hell hole, vagina hole, ass hole, holes in logic, holes in truths, holes in the ear, loop holes, holes galore. Is that where you're hiding. In the sewer hole. The hole of the gutter. Making us suffer while you laugh and say, here, here, come find me you bunch of whimps. You whining son of a bitches who complain about the torture I bestow upon you. Man up. Woman up. Even children suffer, not to mention the poor defenseless animals. Then you torture them to death just so we can eat that filthy dead flesh. Is that why you brought us here. Or is it. Are you living all this yourself. Being all this your fucking self just to get to know yourself. Is this all you. Is this unconditional love. Is this what you are. Is it? Is it fucking it? Tell me goddamitt!!! Don't leave me to guess anymore. I read all these fucking posts and cry my eyes out when I read the pain in the hearts of mankind. I don't care if I suffer. I've done suffering. I've had efuckingnuff. I don't suffer anymore. My body crashed and cancered up to no more suffering. It's just playing itself out waiting to die. I care about the ones that suffer. The ones that want to be happy. The ones that are truly gifted and want to shine but suffer and cannot shine because they don't know how. You make me cry tears of hoplelesness for mankind. I see no hope. Is that all you. Is that you, I ask. Tell me. Are you being everything. Am I you. Do I even exist. All I have in my heart is love for you and you leave me hanging on a rope. Well, the love I feel ain't going nowhere. All this ranting and raving is out of love. All I do is out of love. So if this is what love is, if this is what you are, if this is infinity at it's finest, then I'll take it. I'll stop being a whining bitch and take it all. I don't care about me. I don't care to make anything any better for myself or anyone else. I don't want anything from life, I don't want luxury and riches. Give me the filth, give me the suffering, give me the hell hole. If this is what you are give it all to me, because all I want is to be you. If this is all you, bring it on. I'm happy now, I'm well again, I'm delighted because in writing this you have shun your light on me. You have shown me you. You revealed yourself to the one that doesn't exist and made yourself seen. I LOVE YOU AND I AM YOU BECAUSE OF NO OTHER REASON OTHER THAN THERE IS NO ME. There can't be. Never was or will be. Thank you for revealing yourself to me. This has truly been a revelation. Now, I'll go back to the world of hell that appears but not when I'm asleep and you shine. I'll look forward to sleeping now. It's my only relief and you are there to hold me when I disappear. Thank you.

Oh yeah, that makes sense to ME. Do we ever say that makes sense to everybody, to that man down the street, to that lady crossing the road. No, we say, that makes sense to friggin' ME. Who's the me. We don't even know who we are, yet we say me. Why don't we say, oh yeah that makes sense to God. Yet we say we're God. Is God me. Did God call itself God. Did the me call itself me. Didn't we hear everybody say me and I and that's why we say me and I. Oh yeah, that makes sense. Don't we already have senses. Why are they there. Let them do the work. Why are we trying to make sense for the senses. Isn't that what they're there for. The 5 senses. Or 6 or however much. That makes sense. What sense is that. What sense did we make there. What's it called. That makes sense to ME. Which sense is it. The make-it-make sense? The sense we invented. I don't know. The sense that had to be made up. That makes sense. The thing that makes sense to me might not make sense to you. How's that? The same thing. The same circumstance makes different sense to different people with the same sense constructs. Hear, smell, feel, touch and taste, hears, smells, feels touches and tastes differently to us all. Some the same, some differently. I taste the sour of a mango but to you it tastes sweet. I smell rotten eggs, you smell dog shit. I hear someone crying, you hear someone laughing. That thing made me feel shitty, same thing made me feel good. Yet we say experience is king. What experience, for whom, you, when we experience the same things differently. KING FOR WHOM. My experience or yours. DIFFERENT KINGS. I say that sucks, you say yeah yeah I like that. Which one is KING. Both. So, experience is king for who is perceiving it, experiencing it. Does a king only rule over whomever calls him King or for everyone under it's rulings. Does a king say you have to experience me first before I can rule over you? No, it just rules. It's king for all. All under it. So, experience is king, but only for my rulings. What I say. How's that of any power. How's that go for me. King for you but not for me. That experience is only king for you.

Thing is, everybody is looking for shit to make sense. 'It doesn't make sense to me if so and so is this and so and so is that". Does it make sense that your poppa looked at your momma in lust, momma had you and now you have to figure out life. (one scenario out of many, make your own up here, doesn't matter) Does it make sense that you were a fucking embryo at one time and you made it through some woman's birth canal and womb and she had to carry you for 9 friggin' mths and pushed you out of her vajay jay, with some strangers looking down her pum pum hole while they say push, push, then you come out screaming like a little whimp with hands and feet all free flowing and not tied together with some rope then a friggin' cord was cut to free you from the fuckin misery and pain you caused her.......only to come here on earth to suffer yourself and want to seek enlightenment. All because some man couldn't keep his little teeny weeny in his pants, you have to suffer.......DOES THAT FUCKING MAKE SENSE. On top of that ALL THAT JUST TO DIE. Go ahead with your sense-making thinking that you got shit all figured out. If you weren't born into this shit, it wouldn't make sense to you either. If it's not familiar, it won't make sense. Only reason things make sense to you AS THE FUCKING KNOWING energy that you are is because it is KNOWN. Whatever constitutes for that to make sense you already know. So it makes sense. You have constructed it from the known. You are a dreaming machine that is constructing the dream from scratch. From you were a somebody. From when you knew yourself to be a self. From whatever age that was 4-7yrs old. The energy that arose within the body that contracted from your mommas contractions and now you know yourself to be one and others many. Life started to make sense then. Whatever causes that energy to seemingly contract that made it seem like you know anything and now you've eaten the fruit of knowledge from the tree and now you've ostracized yourself from the rest of the world and trying to make sense of it with the illusory senses that you think you possess. No, no,no, no, no, nothing makes sense. From your so-called birth to your so-called death you've been defending that sense of self while you think you can figure shit out to make a life for yourself. Well, I have news for you. You borne yourself and that's it. Now, make that make sense.

Nite, nite. Going to bed myself. ❤️

Duality is also non-dual, neither really exists. Only totality does which is nothing. All I'm doing is exposing the totality. Kind of deconstructing the duality. Exposing the illusory nature of it all.

You are hallucinating yourself into existence so everything now to you is real. I AM, so therefore everything is. I am here so therefore everything else is there. It's an illusion. There is no you there and me here, it's all timeless energy being both with no where going, started or finishing. It's like a night dream. Seems in the head but it's nowhere timeless, boundless, no space and it's all not really happening. It cannot be applied or lived or experienced. It's like an illusion trying to figure itself out. It can't because it's not really happening, it's an appearance like a shadow is an appearance and a rainbow and the sun's rays. Get rid of the source and they're gone. You are the source, youre gone and everything's gone.

Like I said, chaotic and free. Anything can appear without notice and with notice. Doesn't matter. Planned or not. Expected or not. All appearing out of nothing.