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@hamedsf A chocolate blowjob! I haven't heard about this one. Does it include putting your dick into nutella or some kind of chocolate cream? If so - tested with my first gf. It wasn't that pleasurable at all. Btw she (my first gf) was the one that pushed for some new things, like giving me a bj with ice cubes in her mouth and i was like - yeah pretty cool, but i like the classical bj more.

Yeah we are kind of vanila when it comes to sex. I implement my fetish sometimes, but it's just for the sake of my own pleasure. I didn't discover yet my girl's fetishes. I know how she likes to be fucked, she likes anal play sometimes but that's all i know. I gave her space to open up with her fantasies as i expressed mine but i have gotten no real answer beside that she likes "being taken care of". And i LOVE that!

That's really good perspective. I'm looking forward to adapt it. Yeah the one with communication and unresolved conflicts is massive.

Okay cool, that's needed perspective change for me.

Ok i didn't expect this one. So fine - my gf insist on me to do some things, like start to take care of my nails on my feet (i dont cut them but i somehow scratch the with my fingernails, a cringe thing to do but yeah) and some other shit like that. My response is something along lines of - yeah i dont care (i really take that as a shit test from her, maybe thats a mistake). Some time ago she insisted that i should bring her flowers sometimes. The only time she gets flowers from me is at our anniversary (she gets 1 rose then so its 3 by now) and when we are walking somewhere and i randomly pick up some flower and give it to her. I like the idea of GIVING to my girl, but not really giving just becouse im ought to. So what you are saying is - do the things that she wants?

Beautifully said

How do you deeply relax and give rest to your body and psyche?

@Daniel347 Well i like to hold my sexual energy to weekends when i meet my gf.

@hyruga Cool, tested it out. Will do again before going to sleep. Does it help you?

30 to 60 seconds? Such a noobie

@Leo Gura in your recent video you tackled the topic of bad trips and this question appeared to me. What's the worst bad trip you ever had? Why was it the worst trip you ever had? What topic/topics did the trip tackle that made it the worst one?

Well you either eat or have that cake. As hard as it have to be for you you seem to have an inner conflict or contradiction at least. Why would you set a goal for yourself to be more social if you have no desire to have friends?

Guys how do i let go of control? Have you got some exercises/practices?

@Kamo Well this sounds like: "There's no reason to seek", which sounds like nonsense.

@roopepa What game do you play?

Good one. Okay, as silly as it sounds - i have nothing more to do apart from what i'm doing right now. Lessss go!

@Mason Riggle Okay i get it. But it would be easier to feel that i have no control at all and enjoy life that way.

@Mason Riggle No, i don't think that i could "not live my life". The difference is - do i accept the fact the life is like it is, or i don't.

So i just live my life in that case? I can medidate, build up consciousness, have nondual expieriences, but in the end i may not experience non existence of "I"?

I'm giving you honest answers. I know the theory presented here on this forum and by Leo. I just don't "get" what you are trying to communicate and i look for a way to "get" it.

I feel that i have control. Whats is I? Some structure inside my body?

@Someone here I decide what i do, how i react, i plan, i move as i want to.

@Mason Riggle Cool. How do you know you are in the present? I mean sometimes thoughts are so sneaky that it takes some conscious unfolding to know what's true. Btw i always thought a guy on your profile pic is doing rear delts lol.

@Mason Riggle I get it on conceptual level, however it doesn't resonate with my on some deeper level. I still know that i can change my behaviour and "let go" and sometimes i'm more controlling and feeling "not free". That's why i'm looking for some daily practices which i can do during the day to "get" what you wrote.

@flowboy Quality answer as usual. I double that. OP, in your first sentences you wrote: Work on yourself!