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@Ishanga I appreciate you but I don't think you are helping him by putting the responsibility on his shoulders. Choice is illusory. Just take five minutes to investigate your life ..turn within and you will come to realize that your whole life has been mapped out for you before you came on this earth. Everything is predestined. However..if you look at it in the right way..it's beautiful and freeing..because it means that you are not responsible for anything in your life at all. If your life has been mapped out what have you got to do? Whatever has to be done will be done by itself. Wherever you have to be you will be. With whom you will have to be you will be with that person. Etc. The work you have to do will be done. It's wonderful when you think about this.

Of course this world is not perfect . There are limitations . But imagine playing a video game on God-mode. Imagine playing GTA on God mode when you have unlimited money an unlimited health and you can't die and fire doesn't affect you and you can bust through walls or fly etc ..then isn't the fun gone ? Don't you enjoy playing a challenging video game? Same with life my friend. Its bittersweet. The challenges are what make it beautiful and exciting. Millionaires kill themselves because life is boring for them. Labor worker and farmers here in India are one of the most happy people I ever knew . Because they earn every piece of bread they get .maybe you need to work or engage in something exciting.

You're welcome dear! OK let's save some time and cut to the chase ..what exactly Is going on in your personal life that makes it a constant struggle? Because I'm honestly not convinced about your compliance about the suffering of the world and the fact that you don't know what happens when you die . There are 8 billion humans alive on this earth ..all of them know they will die one day and that death is a mystery..yet they don't lose sleep over this fact . Emil Cioran was a nihilistic author ..he said that when he was 18 he almost lost his mind because he suddenly realized "oh my fucking god ..I'm gonna die one day " ..but he didn't kill himself..he died at 95 years old . Ramana Maharshi awakend when he realized that death exists . Buddha as well . Why not leverage this death anxiety that you have to actually make your life extraordinary 👽?how ? AWAKENING!

@manuel bon also keep in mind these are pure spontaneous expressions..I write what comes to me in the moment..what I feel..so there is no aim for consistency or order to this journal. It's just to spit out whatever comes to my mind instead of making endless threads on the forums .

@manuel bon then we agree to disagree No worries. If i need to use a proper word I will use a limitation as you said .that's what I actually mean . The constant need to take care of the body. To eat..shit..and piss and shower etc.. isn't that such a curse ? Why do you think all enlightened masters are trying to detach from the body ? Is carrying a body a burden or a bliss? You are identified with an imaginary temporary physical avatar.. For a while. Not for long time but for a while. The more I recognize my true nature and then compare it to the body.. The more I see the body as a burden. A burden that I have to carry on for my whole life. Babysitting this body. Task after task. Feed me. Please Me. Rest me. Move me. Clean me. Over and over again. A chore after a chore. Until I fall dead after reaching the limit of exhaustion. A house of diseases. A house of desires. The never-ending desire that doesn't amount to anything other than the multiplication of itself and the expansion of disappointment. A house of needs. A house of lacking and constant aiming. The mind can be at ease. The soul can just be content in the now. The body has to perform effort and chase after it's "needs". There seems to be a conflict between the body and the soul. The nature of limitation VS unlimitedness. What is your relationship with your body?

@Spiritual Warfare if I can go back in time and give myself advice when I was going through something similar to you it's would be don't worry about anything..everything is OK as it is .love is real.god is good . is there anything available to you right now that you would like to do..that you enjoy? Watching the sky..yoga..basking in the sun..watching birds and butterflies outside or in the park.. drinking a glass of water.. eating something.. sleeping.. working out.. jog. walk. .....? There's always something I can come up with..just do that.. if you can. You're not productive being negative anyways..so you may as well do what you want to do.. it makes you positive for production and you're doing what you want.

I'm you 😇

You are confusing the relative level with the absolute level ..at the relative level you can definitely understand partial truths like why does the earth rotate around the sun or why does objects fall down into the floor if you throw them up ..the explanation is gravity . On the absolute level existence is absolute infinity ..which means it will never be understood fully by definition since any understanding is part of infinity itself . You need not understand everything to live a happy life .you need to just set your priorities straight . Don't be sad please.

Life is not a video game dude. I hope I will reincarnate into a dinosaur and bite you in the arch.

Your body will decompose and get distributed into the soil and then turn into plants then to animal then some human will eat you up then some sperms will fertilise some egg then you will be born as me ...

You are still young ..you still have a lot to experience in life which might twist your perspective on existence upside down. Don't be quick to judge something you don't fully understand..by your own admission. Live your life first before you make such conclusions. And between me and you..as the wise @Thought Art have said ...we are indeed blessed . Practice gratitude. Meditation in nature .look at the sea..the sun..the birds ..life is literally a miracle. You just need a clear mind to see this . Life is not as hellish as you might think ..and the punchline is that at least you are incarnated into a human in the 21st century with Internet and technology etc..maybe if you kill yourself you will incarnate as a cow in a slaughter shop..then you will know what hell really is .

Baby don't hurt me ..no more 😂

Solipsism is the highest form of awakening.

I mean isn't life disgusting? Look at our bodies.. we stink ..we shit ..we piss ..we sweat ..we get runny nose ..we fart ..its gross . The body is like a prison .you constantly need to babysit your body . Feed it ..clean it ..please it .etc we are trapped inside this meat suit and we are only absolved from it by death . Its dense and burdensome. Our bodies are made of flesh and bones .it's gross. Why are we attached to our stinky disgusting bodies? Isn't it better to drop them and awaken to pure fucking being without form?

To awaken you must be disgusted by the world. If you feel happy then you are not ready to awaken. As long as you feel good you are light years away from awakening . You must develop a disgust from life.

Bertrand Russell was once asked "why is there something rather than nothing?"..he replied "even if there was nothing you'd still complain "🤣

@manuel bon I hear ya .actually most people (me included) can philosophize on the Internet about life being purposeless yet in their practical lives they want to eat and fuck and acquire money and cars and houses etc . What I'm actually saying though is it doesn't matter whether you have a purpose or not ..because purposelessness includes purpose. You see? If life is truly purposeless then might as well have a purpose..cuz ..why not? 😂

@manuel bon hi . Sorry I disagree. This isn't jiving with the "spirit " of this journal. I'm talking about radical levels of liberation. It might sound like nihilism or spiritual bypassing or whatever ..but I'm just spitting raw truth .a purpose to life will actually make your life worse. Because you will be stressed out until you finally achieve your goal. And when you finally achieve it ..you will be disillusioned. Its a lose-lose deal .

Life has absolutely no purpose. No point .even to say "just be"is not correct .because it is already being whatever it is .and it's impossible to be otherwise by definition. Since whatever is the case is whatever is the case .it's a perfect tautology. However..I would say if a person needs a goal in life Its going to freedom and liberation from delusion and suffering. And this can only occur when we disidentify from maya and dive within to find inner peace ✌. The kingdom of God is within .true saying .

How I imagined death is two steps : 1-the actual process of dying is going to be the most hellish experience possible. 2-what comes after death is pure being. Infinite joy ..love & bless .

@What Am I what exactly is Prana? Is It sexual energy? I've read before that sexual energy =creativity...is that true?

@Harikrishnan hi . Sorry I can't help much . What exactly Is this condition? And why are you worried about it ? Does it affect libido ..erection..fertility..etc ? Or just the pain ?

I have great memories that make me smile whenever I remember them ..like my first kiss ..my first lay ..my first sexual intercourse.. and when some random bodyguard saved me from drowning in the sea ..some football matches that I really enjoy and still watch them on YouTube..my trip to the US in my 18th birthday..my first earned salary etc I wonder..where did those experiences "go"? I've read recently about the Ackashic recorders and also the eternal return by Nietzsche ..I knew the idea before but is it just a fantasy ? Is it possible to invent a time machine that allows us to travel back in time ? If everything is stored in an infinite Zip file as Leo said in his infinity video then does that mean my past exists right now in some potential state (since its obviously not being experienced by me right this moment) ? What are your thoughts guys ..on time travel ..the past ..time machine..eternal return etc?

Lol. Idk dude . Leo keeps coming up with weird shit in these quotes on his blog . But I guess Crocodile being the other conscious entity besides me in the entire universe isn't super-true 🤣

I do have goals in life . But at the same time I'm feeling a "call" to abandon all materialistic pursuits and goals and just surrender to "God " or "life " if you don't like the word God that is . Just be in the moment . I'm actually not fully sure which approach is valid . My days are usually a mix of the two .in the morning I meditate and take cold chowers. In the evening I smoke and go outside to hit on some girls . The thing is ..we are really not in the driver seat of our lives ..something as trivial as weather change can ruin your entire day . Right ? So what good is striving for big goals if its not guaranteed that all your efforts won't go to the dust. Do you remember the year 2020-2021..how many business workers had crazy goals and projects that year which were all undermined by a stupid fucking virus (Covid)..!!?