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Yep. It's absurd right ? if you stopped imagining anything on top of what's "actual" ..you will see that the only actual thing is nothing . Try it. I dare ya .

That's how it was back in my teens (15_19) Nowadays what's more important than nutting is the 8 Gigabit collection of the hottest porn scenes . Bro I watch high quality mind blowing porn ..forget about brazzers and that kinda boring nonsense. I watch cinematic artistic porn..it has hooked my brain and got me by the balls .

Understanding is the biggest illusion. Nobody understands anything about anything. And my mind is fixed on this .even science admits this ...science describes how reality is as it is ..but never explains why is there something rather than nothing .

That's correct. But you don't have access to the cheat codes . Otherwise go ahead and materialise for me a chicken biryani dish because I'm starving right now in college 😂. You see..you have denied yourself the access to the rules of reality deliberately to make life more fun and exciting or adventures. My comment was meant to shed light on this naive view of yours about reincarnation and mahasmadhi. As if you are literally a video game character in a video game world with a lifetime span and second trials .it's not like that bro .

It's simple . Just quit all spiritual work for a while and go have fun . Smoke. Drink .go chit chat with some cute chicks .Cinema. shopping etc Listen to your body .learn self-love and self-care . What are you deprived from? If you are deprived from tasty food ..go to a fancy restaurant. If you are deprived from intimacy..go have a bunch of sex . It's really just like how we as kids did in the summer break after school..you just forget about all the bullshit you've learned throughout the year and just enjoy beachy 🏖 vacation.

No need to apologise. So let me get this straight ..you're saying that toxic garbage called porn isn't inherently bad..wrong ..or problematic at all ? Weird coming from a woman .

Could be . Either way i don't think at all that the problem is in my therapist. I've spoken with him a ton and he helped me with my anxiety. I will stress this point again : I could care less about masturbation. I don't masturbate that often nor does it even cross my mind that I should have a wank . Yet ..I watch porn every single day . That is what is problematic. I'm addicted to watching porn and downloading new movies. Kinda like making a collection of porn hits . That's the proplem. It has nothing to do withy libido ..my dick ..my balls ..my testosterone levels etc...It has to do with my BRAIN.

@Princess Arabia why splitting hairs ?

Bro life is not a video game .

Bro life is not a video game .

@Carl-Richard it's a waste of time arguing with Razard86. He just can't be wrong . Can there be two infinities? In math classes in high-school..did you study that infinity +infinity =infinity ? And infinity × infinity = infinity ? What is oneness ? What is nonduality ? What does it mean to say reality is made of the same substance? Is the thing that is aware of this present moment within me different from the thing that is present within you ?

To me ..enlightenment is not that you get to know something. Its the realization that you know absolutely nothing. .completely .and to be OK with that and not finding it troublesome . To be at peace with not knowing. You barely know 1% of all there is to know . I'm only saying this to not be extreme .the truth is you literally do not know anything. Period Also enlightenment is the realization that everything is OK .everything is alright. No matter what happens .it's all gonna be good at the end .as the saying goes "everything will be okay at the end .If it's not okay ..then it's not the end ". Enlightenment is realizing everything Is you . Not to be confused with solipsism. But all other people in the essence are essentially you . But they have consciousness just like you . Enlightenment is realizing everything is inevitable. Each atom In the cosmos follows the laws of physics. Everything is preordained from the beginning-less beginning. Enlightenment is realizing that you don't need anything. You lack nothing. you are perfect and complete just the way you are . And finally...Enlightenment is realizing you are the creator of reality. You created this universe. Nobody else .and there is nothing to do but just to relax and enjoy the ride knowing that all is well .

Because there is literally no such thing as death if you are conscious enough. If you are not conscious of immortality then you are not awake. I once sat down and started questioning what happens after I die ? And I wanted to get a direct answer from within myself. Not go to YouTube or Google for the answer. And all the sudden I got this skeptical idea that "wait a minute ...how do I even know that death is real ?". I mean I never experienced it before . Then I thought about what happens when you die In a dream .you simply wake up . So it is that when you die in "real life " that you simply awaken to a higher level of reality beyond the "real life " level (just like how you awaken from nightly dreams to real life). Or. Like literally if I just jump off a cliff or shoot myself in the head ..still I won't die . I'm stuck in this world forever .

I Take Zyprexa ..Invega ..Prozac.. & Zoloft . My therapist have prescribed them to me two years ago because I suffered from anxiety and panic attack . And I still take them daily . Tbh I'm not sure about their technical classification. But they are psychiatric pills . Which are generally known from affecting erection of the penis . But as I said ..I didn't even masturbate for few months now . But no day has passed without watching pornhub .

Why do you want to die ? Life is beautiful if you master it . Stop this childishness. I'm spouting tough love because I want the best for you brother .

Go to India.

Nevermind I was joking .

Yes you've got it .👍 It sure is . Sorry for chit-chatting with your online imaginary gf 😂 lol jk

Animals are like newborns and toddlers . They are conscious..but they are NOT "self-conscious ".meaning they know they exist ...but they don't have meta knowledge of their knowledge of existence. In other words they don't know what they are .you don't see a dog walking around saluting you "hey! I'm a dog and my name is Bobby and I work at Walmart and my life sucks because I haven't eaten In 3 days bla bla bla ". Right?

Don't judge the sensation. Become a brick wall .does a brick wall suffer when you smash it with a hammer? Does your IPhone say "ouch " if you poke it with a needle ? Of course not . Why ? Because they have no mind .they have no sense of self . But you do .and that's why you suffer. Because you conclude that pain or hurt equals suffering. That's what the mind does .if you get rid of your mind completely and totally..it's guaranteed that you shall never suffer. Even If the sky is falling apart or if your body is being dipped in Lava fire ..if you have no mind ..this experience can't make you suffer. Now you should notice that this degree of detachment and indifference doesn't come easily .it has to be developed. Start with poking your skin with a needle without being bothered by it .and see how it goes .

Physical pain exists .no question about it. Suffering is the story of "why me ?" .."poor little me ".."why is life such a bitch ".."why my life sucks " .etc I always say ..pain is inevitable..but suffering is optional . You can actually train yourself to not feel suffering when you feel pain . It's just a sensation .it doesn't mean anything really . Poke your skin with a needle and feel the pain but notice that it doesn't really mean you should construct a story aka suffering around this meaningless sensation. Suffering exists only in the mind .pain in the body .you can't get rid of your body (except via suicide).. but you can get rid of your mind by questioning it to death . As long as you are not totally destroyed as a mind ..there is no hope for you to escape suffering.

@Breakingthewall why you are always imagining the most hellish worst case scenarios? Why talk about sick and extreme levels of suffering in this world ? I'm not denying that this world is a jungle where survival is for the most powerful..nature is a sadistic dog and if it has a god who is separate from it ..then it's appropriate to call him a fa***** . BUT...life is also full of beauty. Do you have friends?..a girlfriend..?do you appreciate your food ?..your comfort? Your health ..? What are you doing on this forum 24/7?

Guys go watch Leo's episode called "the multiple facets of awakening " I believe its called . All of this nonsense you're all fogging about is resolved when you realize that phenomena is perspectival and multi-faced . You're looking for binary dichotomous definition of Enlightenment. Which is antithetical to it .

You're welcome brother ♥. Pertaining to your post though ..I don't like Buddhism..Trust me most of these stereotype western Buddhist who are trying to water down Buddhism to western people have not reached the ultimate level of spirituality. Which is Not to say there is no benefit at all to be gleaned from them ..they can be useful and I find this particular teacher interesting. Anyways ..you seem captivated by Buddhism..I would suggest you look into hinduism as well . Ramana Maharshi was a hindu btw . And Robert Adams (which Is my personal guru ) was a devotee of him. You might find his collected works interesting.