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@machiavelli all of what you mentioned is basically correct . if you fully grasp what you're talking about then that's awakening.

There is no separate god that created it. It never began and it will never end .and we know this even scientifically. the law of conservation of energy states that the total energy of an isolated system remains constant.. it is said to be conserved over time.This law means that energy can neither be created nor destroyed; rather, it can only be transformed or transferred from one form to another. For instance, chemical energy is converted to kinetic energy when a stick of dynamite explodes. If one adds up all forms of energy that were released in the explosion, such as the kinetic energy and potential energy of the pieces, as well as heat and sound, one will get the exact decrease of chemical energy in the combustion of the dynamite.

I'm practicing contemplating using a journal as Leo suggested in this video to derive my own answers for myself independently. Here are the list of questions I'm currently contemplating: What Is reality ? How to distuingh real from illusion? Is there even a different? How do I know I'm not dreaming right now ? Is solipsism true? Are others imaginary or real ? Am I truly omniscient and omnipresent and omnipotent? Is religion true? Why is there something rather than nothing? Why is reality structured this way and not some other way ? What is happiness? Am I the only conscious person in existence? What are dreams ? Did the past realy exist ? Suggest to me more questions to contemplate .any questions you've been puzzled by . Thanks

How so ? Could you elaborate?

@Michael Jackson i awakend to absolute solipsism. But there are many facets of awakening that I'm still missing. Like I don't know exactly what happens when you die .and I'm not exactly sure what reality is. But I'm aware that it's no different than a dream at night. It's made of the same stuff .and the buck stops here .

I decided to quit my masturbation and porn habit for good. As a step towards building a healthy lifestyle and not relying for my happiness on external factors. I deleted all my porn collections on all my devices and decided to quit for good. Also I might use this thread as a journal to document my journey. Wish me luck!

@A Fellow Lighter thanks for the honest answer.

I eat terrible food .fries and burgers and soda and ice cream and other such nonsense. I also smoke a bunch of cigarettes everyday. And I'm not satisfied with my health habits .although I don't yet experience any health issues per se . How can I motivate myself to take my health more seriously and not just screw around a lot with my diet ?

I just can't put the damn cigarettes down. I need help ?.

No .I fapped twice today. And I'm proud of it. Also smoked a bunch of cigs.

Did you ever experienced being fed up with existence?..like you don't want to exist anymore? Not because of negative experiences but just that existence itself is tiresome? I think back to the time before I was born and it was paradise. Existing in pure formlessness is all you could ever want .that's why the objective of Buddhism is to get rid of the cycle of birth and death and cease to exist and enter nirvana which is basically another word for nothingness. Can anyone relate?

I know exactly what you are talking about.

Maybe jerking off to porn and playing videogames.but that's also unhealthy. So ...

Sweet ?

Taking a nice shit Also smoking a cigarette.

Ultimately,there is no phenomenological difference between nightly dream and the waking reality. You see cars ..People..animals..time..space ..in both your dreams and your waking reality. The only difference might be that the waking reality is more consistent than dreams. But we don't recognise the lack of consistency in our dreams until we wake up. But they are identical ontologically. Why do we even differentiate between the two? That whole boundary is relative and imaginary. And I will leave you with Descartes' famous doubt : how do you know you are not dreaming right fucking now?

I give up. I will keep smoking until the end of my life .not caring about the health consequences. I'm too weak and addicted. I can't quit. I just can't do it .sorry guys

Every religion has it’s own beauty. Each religion teaches us something significant. It is biased to say my faith is great and your religion is worst. The enlightened beings emphasize - the truth, entering in silence, be compassionate towards every creature, make this earth more loving, live this moment (Present) I must say one who has understood his religion; he would respect other religion too. For those who question about other religions God, I would say first become master about your sect, and then you will soon find there is nothing left to know

It gets me high . Thank you for the advice and for the resource. Yeah maybe I should join a support group.

@Mu_ actually. Existence is eternal and it will never cease to be .you can exist as a form or as formlessness. You can destroy all forms but you will never destroy the formlessness. Because it's already nothing. Now people confuse that with noneExistence but its actually pure Existence.

Blessing out on nothing

There is infinite number of universes. Reality is absolutely infinite.

What do you mean by that ? We know at the most basic level that existence is simply strings of energy .that's what quantum physics tells us.

Well said.