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No I was sober. That's interesting though

@RickyFitts

"And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them." - 1 John 4:16

I was listening to some really beautiful loving music, and getting into a really deep state of love, and I noticed that whenever the love gets really strong, I often get so consumed by it that its like I lose my sense of self, and all that exists is love. I become love, and Tristan is gone. Then, all the sudden, I realized that when I feel this love, it's not Tristan that's doing the loving. It's something much deeper within me that is so in love. As soon as I realized that, the love got SO intense, I dropped to the floor and just started crying so hard. It was like I realized in that moment that I'm not Tristan, I am this deeper thing within me that this love is coming from. It was SO beautiful. I'm not quite sure what that was, as in what that part of me is that I saw, but it makes me wonder if i'm creeping up on God realization...

@puporing This is the video Leo did on his experience with 28 days of 5MeO. It's probably my favourite episode of his

@Leo Gura How often do you trip normally? Also, I was wondering that because 5-MeO-MALT seems more gentle and has other benefits over the DMT version, would there be any reason to ever do 5-MeO-DMT instead? I haven't tried either yet but i'm wondering if there is any reason for me to do the DMT version at all (other than just to see what its like) because MALT sounds better.

@Realms of Wonder Awesome!!

@Realms of Wonder I listen to a lot of downtempo. That's my favourite kind of music. I think the slow and chill vibe of it is really conducive to spirituality. My favourite music to listen to for getting into deep states of love is the band Cigarettes after Sex. Here's my thread with all of the music I listen to if you're interested

Absolutely, most of my awakenings and mystical experiences happen while listening to music. Music just really gets me in the right mood and pulls at my emotions and it makes it much easier to reach heightened states of consciousness. Its especially helpful for reaching deep states of love.

@Someone here still, you’re just jerking off to a video on a screen, with no physical girl there with you. Maybe its different for other people but to me I don’t think I could ever see that as being better than real sex

I think Tolle's work has its place and can definitely be valuable in some ways, but I wouldn't say that it has much use for emotional healing or creating any kind of balance or harmony between parts within the psyche, like what IFS is for. What Tolle talks about just ends up being spiritual bypassing if you were to try to use it for those issues. Because of this i'm not surprised to hear that someone like Richard Schwartz doesn't think highly of him.

I have a hard time seeing how you could possibly see porn as being better than real sex, even if you watch it a lot

Dang man, sweet Benz! Can't imagine how many bitches you pull with that. Certainly has room for them

@aurum The noise isn't that loud, and it would probably be fine if I recorded with it, so I’m guessing its just how that camera is, but I want my audio to be perfect especially considering that the audio from my phone with a lav mic is better and doesn't have that noise at all. The mic I have is directional, and i've tried it with and without the mic and there is still the same problem.

So far I have been using my phone with a $30 lav mic for my youtube channel, and I’m happy with the audio, but now I want to upgrade to a proper camera for better image quality. I bought a Canon EOS M50 mark 2 and also a new external mic for it (rode videomic go), but the problem I am having is that there is a hissing noise, like white noise, in the background of the audio. This happens with or without an external mic. I have messed around with the settings, researched solutions, called Canon and even returned the camera and bought a new one in case it was a dud but I still get the same hissing noise. The audio from my phone with a $30 lav mic sounds better than this $1000 camera with a $120 mic. Yes I could just record my audio externally, but i'd rather not have to if I didn't need to. It just surprises me that this camera is so popular among YouTubers, yet it has these issues with the audio. I'm pretty sure a lot of cheaper cameras have this actually. I want to know if anyone knows of any solutions for this, if there is a camera under $1000 that wouldn't have audio issues like this. I'm not sure if I would just need a more expensive camera for better audio quality if I’m going to be recording audio into the camera, and that with a cheaper camera like this maybe I would just have to record my audio externally? I'm interested to hear from other people who have experience with cameras to see what you think. When I watch Leo's videos, (and a lot of other people's videos) his audio is great, and there is no white noise in the background, but maybe he has a more expensive camera or records audio externally or something (?)

I 1000% agree

@Swarnim Thank you

@Michael569 Really helpful, thanks!

The thing about your family making you stay in that building to overcome your anxiety but actually its making it worse but they won't listen gives me the impression that you feel like your family doesn't care about your emotions and is never willing to deal with them, and you feel like you have to deal with your emotions on your own, and there is no hope of getting any kind of love or support from your family when you feel a negative emotion, making you feel completely trapped and alone in your suffering. Not sure if that resonates with you but that's what that dream makes me think.

@Gianna Thank you

I really like thinking of it like that

Rumi

@Esilda Oh interesting, I know about the Hero's Journey and I have "the hero with a thousand faces" by Joseph Campbell but I haven't read it yet. I'll check it out.

"You cannot save people. You can only love them." - Anais Nin

@Esilda Thank you