Nick_98

Yeah , for sure. Chasing Ideologies is a big trap. It's always helpful to remind yourself that truth doesn't exist in your mind answers,thoughts , images. Well, I don't know about that really. They say that.

I'm 21, I would be surprised if you're younger. I wouldn't say I meditate or do breath work, I just contemplate for the sake of awakening. But, I don't have a place to do that without distractions. That's why I'm always On and Off consciousness work.

I've been having a lot of discouragement lately. Specially , because things are going well. So I be like.."What I'm doing this for"? . Then I read statements like "You're wasting your time if you are not using psychedelics."..

First of all, you're in a good position because you've done the first step, which is realizing it's the illusion. Realize , that you have no mind that's different from Einstein's , Bill gates, Barack Obama, Eminem,Prostitute,Homeless , Whatever. The mind is a powerful thing, it's able to knock you down your whole life, or let you invent something great, which are both powerful outcome. Play with your illusion, to add more to the self.. Have a happier life, love yourself,chase your ideals, and hopefully have the life you always wished for.(This is what I do mostly).. So what can you do ? Visualize the impossible and make it possible, affirmations,etc.. etc.. Visualizations got me far in life to be honest with you. I don't know where I would be in life without it. I feel like the mind is like child, that you gotta teach him to behave accordingly. And when you don't teach your child on how to behave, it acts incredibly random regarding to the circumstances. You shouldn't blame him when that happen. Set a time each day for like 30 minutes, and do conscious visualization.

Curious.

I think he has done a really good job with his work. In my opinion, He's not the best to stimulate you to care enough to know You. However , he's the best at attracting you to listen. Through his entertaining way to engage his thoughts with you. He's the best to trigger you who didn't have any history with spiritual concepts, to engage into spiritual concepts in the first place. Which is a really strong impact to whoever has never been entertained by the ideas. It's a must to entertain the ideas first, and this is what he's really good at. For example: Leo attracts 20 people from a crowd to the concepts of awakening. Among them 5 have disciplined themselves to do the work. Another teacher attracts only 7 people from the same crowd to the concepts of awakening. Among them 3 have disciplined themselves to do the work. Which is a better ratio, but Leo had the bigger impact.

Distractions-The ego's favorite defense mechanism

I don't think I have ever had a single argument in my whole life . I can't seem to quite understand this part.. Usually when someone have a different point of view than mine , I just follow it with an " Ok " . Why do people argue ? What's the point of it ? What does it serve ?

The key to quitting addiction is to quit the addiction there is no key. To not beat around the bush here. that's just it. It could be an extremely heavy emotional process, the urges are going to come and go, there is no rational way to go about it. it's all willpower. I find this extremely similar to the question of , What's the key to getting shit done? How to stop procrastinating ? It's to get shit done. there is no easy way to go about it. maybe an emotional support from people is going to help. other than that you going to have to go the hard route. and certainly , the ego don't like it .. probably will give you shit for it, it would come as excuses to relapse, negative emotions, anxiety, whatever. Source: Quit cigarettes smoking for 50 days then relapsed.

HAHAHA, Love it

Question is So vague. Who's telling me this ? is it my friend ? someone I know ? my parents ? my partner ? Why's he telling me this ? did I hurt him? Is he aiming for a negative outcome ? or a positive one? for mine ? or us ? or him? Let's give a vague example: X: I don't know why you keep doing x/y/z Me: What's bothering you with it ? X:But that's totally wrong you shouldn't be doing that because of x/y/z My default reaction Me (Convinced): You're absolutely right , thanks for pointing it out. (Proceed to fix the problem) Me (Not convinced/ dishonest): You're right , thanks for pointing it out (totally toss out what he/she has said). Me(Not convinced/ honest) : ok (clearly showing that I don't care). To be honest , Maybe I will hit a point down the road where he/she persists , that it would naturally opt for an argument. But I generally try to avoid it at all cost. Like the default mindset is to not get into one.

I am a newbie, and I don't know what to say. I have never believed that what was on actualized.org was true, or what any other spiritual teacher has ever said. So I had to verify it for myself. I would use a question format here. Why Am I making this post ? I need someone to integrate what happened to me, because I can't seem to integrate it myself . What happened to me ? I was sitting at my room contemplating who am I ? in the dark. It was the closest direct experience I have ever had. I remember I've lost my sense of self. I've said " Who am I ?" "I have lost my sense of self" I repeated it a couple of times then..Boom.. My whole body was vibrating like crazy, I had an urge to vomit. And I felt like I was nearly dying. There was three feelings involved : Scared , Excited that this could be what people call an awakening, Worried if someone of my parent entered the room or if am i going to have a panic attack. It was kind like an horror movie, like when the actress has the devil come from her stomach ,through her mouth to the outside . What happened after that ? I remember there was a sense of worry that it might be a panic attack. My ego took over and the experience has ended. ( I don't know if that's true, this is basically why I am making this post ) Where you more conscious during the experience ? Weird as it sound, I actually felt less conscious when my body has started to vibrate. I didn't took another form or had any non dual insight after the fact. The only thing I can assure you has happened was "My sense of self has dissolved" "My body was nearly vomiting and was all vibrating". What is that ? Is this close to an awakening ? What happened in there ? Guys.. I don't know what to say. I remember saying to myself after the fact, What the f**? This whole stuff about spiritual work is true ? , and laughed hysterically.

good point

@JosephKnecht I would just reject giving a reason. If he doesn't get it , that's on him. I do not indulge in an argument over it.

The latter.

Ok

@peanutspathtotruth @Inliytened1 @cetus @Leo Gura Tonight I have the same exact experience of yesterday's post. Same vibrations/urge to vomit ,probably a little bit stronger ( can't tell because I'm beginning to get used to it ). But this time it has extended for a longer period as I was surrendering , the ego came back from the back seat to the driver seat, and the experience has ended,the same way it happened yesterday. Frustrated , so frustrated.. I may need advice from you folks. At this point , I would probably keep going. The thing is , it could be really counter-intuitive to do something. Literally ,anything that could be done is a distraction to the destination. Clueless.

I thought it too, Thanks for integrating

Are you talking to yourself Leo ? Thanks for integrating man.. The day I awaken I will send you $

Well, this might sound like a simple yet so vague kind of question so I will try to add more context. Let's say there are various debates/point of views about a certain topic. Usually , it could be some incident that happens in your country and go viral. Usually, I try for entertainment purposes to grasp the different point of views and think about an ultimate solution/agreement that could be possible. 1-What's the problem that I face ? I find my mind foggy, unclear, and sometimes it just stales. I feel like I'm not armed with a good , genuine point of view. 2-How do you usually think ? What kind of agenda do you use to try to analyze life mandatory problems ? I would love to hear if you are using certain questions/models/methods that makes you more clear, not only in this case, but in general.. Any aspect of life.

Imagine two people focusing on each other's eyes and both have their awakening at the same time. Imagine it's their first awakening.

Has anybody reached awakening by just focusing on plants ? I was standing by the balcony this morning having my usual cup of coffee on one hand , and my cigarette on the other one. I was staring at this plant from where I was standing, and I had this thought " What if this plant is really a sign to awaken ? What if it's trying to tell me something", By having just these thoughts I had heightened focus I've never had before, even though I've tried to be mindful for a lot of time during the past. This type of focus made me feel like If I kept holding it, I will discover something huge, it was so effortless, It wasn't like I'm trying to control my mind to focus. However , I didn't keep my focus because I was worried if someone saw me just staring from the balcony below me, I'm about to jump, lol . Anyone had or know someone who had similar experience with plants ?

I invite you to use your imagination, just for entertainment. Feel free to take the question wherever you want. Let me start here: -There will be way more people doing spiritual teaching for a living to help others with raising their consciousness. -More People will be nicer and much more open minded. -More People won't treat science as truth.

I would prefer to elaborate using a questionnaire format. Put in the back of your mind the ramifications / dangers that could impact someone's life from spiritual work. Who could you say shouldn't practice this work ? When should someone take a break from doing spiritual work ? How could someone identify the time he should take a break from spiritual work ? What should someone put in his mind to help advance in his practice ? If someone doesn't have a spiritual teacher or someone close to him doing the work , shouldn't he practice ? Note: 1-Anyone who has walked the path long enough feel free to give your insights, whether by answering one question or more, or just ranting. 2-I feel like I'm ready to bite the bullet and start taking the work more seriously , but I thought a topic like that wouldn't hurt me to share.

Sounds wise. Thanks for your feedback. One more question here .. I'm 21, junior year in college. How many hours a month do you think is optimal to practice? Or in other words .How would you plan your schedule if you were me ?