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Issue is resolved, tysm!

Ah indeed!

What happened is: I bought the book list through Paypal (payment was made), but after not being redirected to the next page for a while, I made the mistake of switching from my home box wifi to to my phone's, believing the delay might be because of a weak connection. Next thing I know: all actualized pages fail to load for a while, and now, inputing my email ([removed]) into "Forgot Password" (I lapsed in the process) doesn't actually send an email. And my forum profile acts wonky: trouble logging in, and I get logged out if I go into the Personal Development -- [Main] section. @Leo Gura Help! I'm locked out of my customer account!

@fabger There's your dose of synchronicity for the day.

Serious trauma is heavy man, it destroys parts of you. It weighs on you, perhaps mostly unconsciously but my experience is that there is a lot of self denial and repressed emotions, Like a suffering child that wasn't given the light of day by anyone. That emotional charge that was swallowed up at the time because it wasn't safe to express, perhaps is still seeking full expression to this day. It's just a guess. Don't mind it if it doesn't resonate, but have you done work on your trauma like therapy or psychedelics? I've hid my trauma for a good 12 years and only recently started opening up to people so I can relate with the impulse, it feels like the implicit distance and alienation can finally disolve when I disclose my wounds. Although it takes an especially safe-feeling person for me to do that. I don't see it as bad, I think it's only natural for such an influential experience to be part of the story of you that you tell people you connect with. I've read in Mark Manson's book "Models" that traumas are relational. They inevitably come up and are either resolved or break appart the first intimate relationships one has in a somewhat messy process, which is why he advocates for seing a therapist for those who need it.

This cut right through my binge of distraction. Thank you 🙏

That sensationalist YouTuber tone 🤮

Beyond particular details about the pyramids, the message of the Law of One seems quite genuinly spiritual. The phenomenon is interesting to say the least.

I've been watching the Ra Contact since yesterday and going "damn" every so often. The Great Pyramid of Giza was thought into existence by disembodied infinite alien intelligence guys!

Yeah that's not good right but it's like: I'm still gonna enjoy some pasta or rice in my dish, and it's more of a light sprinkle over a big vegetable stew along with a protein. I feel that doing that and purging the need to eat a sweet everytime thereafter is balanced.

That's amazing, thanks a lot for sharing what worked for you! I'm shedding my sugar habit as well and It's (obviously) gotten me more sharp, although I still often find myself unable to conjure up the words fast enough to even remember what I'm talking about in conversations, which would be the nastiest manifestation of poor memory in my life. Not planning to avoid carbs entirely but I wonder what that did for you. Also any updates on your supplementation?

I think I allready had tinnitus at this point but I went and got ear-raped by a RHCP concert at the Stade de France 2 years ago. I really regret that.

That's right. I appreciate your taking the time to have Dr.Gpt analyse my results because it taught me about the counting rules. Unfortunatly you or Chatgpt's image to text got copper and zinc values wrong, but the overal picture still feels right: Almost every essential mineral is low. To your point @Michael569, it's certainly not the only cause for my low fonctionning and will not be my only focus, it's just what I'm waking up to lately. Granted I know next to nothing about holistic health and there's room to doubt my orientation towards chelation, but reading mercury cognitive symptoms had me go "Yes, yes, yes..". there's realistically a good chance I'm moderatly HM toxic, just because the sources of it in everyday consuption are so numerous it's scary. So if there's a chance chelation makes a difference in my ability to think, focus, decide, recall, free associate, emphatize, emote etc, then I'm willing to give it a solid, responsible try. That difference is potentially life transforming, it gives me hope. And so now that I'm spending money and time towards my health with chelation, I'm less tempted to ruin it with a poor lifestyle. Might also finally seek out therapy for teenage traumas, effort towards having a social life, becoming a full human... So I think it's part of a positive trend for me. Yes thank you for your contributions! The main takeaway for me is that you have to allow a level of uncertainty, and proceed slowly. Provoked tests are more precise, more reliable but even there, the choice of chelator obviously influences the results.

Bruh x_x That "live forever" guy is slowly gonna turn into Voldemort

I wont nag you further, thank you for all that. The long list of supplements is intimidating but I will take it step by step. Will probably add a few of these to my starting roaster off the bat because I know lots of people preach thyroid, liver and adrenal support. I still have a lot to learn and will continue reading the ACC group as well as your journal which is a great introductory ressource!