Saupahar

@Preety india may be

Haha. April fool's day. There is no "I" to be enlightened.

Then, you got to watch john wick.

Noice.

Nice.

The power of now.

My mom asked me to call her office pretending to be a office staff because they would recognize her voice. I did not agree saying that lying is not good(as learned from many spiritual teachings). She did not convince me in doing that,so i should be happy,proud and not thinking about that stuff because i did not lie but it was quite opposite. Many thoughts were coming what if it was my personal gain or what if my family member needed a kidney and would be possible to save life only getting it illegally. Would i lie at that moment? Later my mind rationalized that it was not a selfish motive. It would not have been a lie if i had done it for my mom. I would just be helping her. (tricky mind) I guess i am just moralizing that i should not lie. How will i know when is it allright to lie or not? Or is it not good to lie at all? I am really confused.

@aurum For her it was not a big of a deal..actually now i think its not. She just wanted to know whether the office is closed or not which she could not do it herself and only she knows the reasons why and i can only guess. The issue of the matter is should i have made the call or not? @Matt23 thank you for the insight man. That is really helpful. @Loving Radiance she did not want to go all the way there and return for nothing if the office was closed.

Waking up at 4 am. Drink water. 1 hour vipassana meditation. 20 minutes bathroom break. 45 minutes exercise. 1 hour read/study. 7:30 breakfast.

What questions?? Wrong post alert!!

@Opo As if she is going to abandon her beliefs,reasons,dogmas,conditionings, prejudices,culture,religion, philosophy, etc. after telling her to grow up. ???

Thank you @Dancer and @Preety_India She is not controlling,although it seems sometimes she is but i try to be mindful regarding that. Now i feel that i should have done it without moralizing.

@Preety_IndiaShe does not want to be the one who calls as they would recognize her voice and ask to come to the office i guess. She often does not tell the exact reason.

After coming back from 10 days vipassana retreat i have started waking up at 4 am. There i had to wake up at 4 but it's a choice now that i have to make whether to wake up or not.

What about people wearing a pair of spectacles or contact lenses to see the far/near objects which is in a distance?

@tuckerwphotography yes,i have started doing the same. It's very frustrating to change others if they don't ask for it.

i just feel like talking to people and make them understand the deep insights regarding everything they have not thought about so deeply. It is just so exhausting to talk to people who just don't listen to whatever i am saying. But i can't help it. I think i keep on blabbing even though it is clearly visible that most of them are not interested in whatever i am saying. Nevertheless i continue and sometimes feel frustrated. I want to help those who really ask for it and again i can't help it-i want to share what i know to make them understand what is going in their minds. I feel like it's waste of my energy. Any advice??(i am asking for it?)

@Tim R Yes, my insights but they rarely ask for it by themselves.

I just tell them directly that they are speaking at the same time and to whom i should listen first. Then one of them speaks, actually the one who was speaking first, i just look at him/her and don't look at the other person intentionally. And when i finish with the first one i ask what were you saying or it's your turn to the other person.

Tantra illuminated.

Free will vs determinism ?does free will exist? Summary please.

Kathmandu,Nepal

I had weed for 3 years straight and enjoyed it everyday. It made the environment fun and i liked to talk during the high,sometimes funny things and sometimes deep. And sometimes it would cause fear if triggered and it would not go,no matter how much i tried,rather increased the anxiety. It used to be a horrible experience-which is not worth it. Then i started taking it in controlled way being aware and not thinking about anything,being in the present. This helped a lot but sometimes again the fear would arise may be my office or girlfriend called on my phone. The intensity of the panic was less and overcame quickly than before,nevertheless the fear was there which was again not worth it. Later my friends asked the reason behind the quitting i told them that if i sit with friends having that thing for 1 hour and in the 55th minute the fear arises due to any reason(the fear might not come though), the fun i had until 54 minutes would not be worth it.So i quit and now whenever i feel like having it i tell myself this and the craving goes away.

I have finished watching and is hoping for a second season.

Name: Saugat Mainali Age: 31 Gender: Male Location: Kathmandu,Nepal Occupation: Doctor Marital Status: Married Kids: No Hobbies: Reading self help books, playing guitar,watching movies. I got into personal development in 2019. I was afraid,overthinking everything, regretting what i said the previous day or thinking jealous with my colleagues,stressed about my studies, worrying about presentation, shy with people,thinking what people thought about me, wished people listened to my advice,becoming unncessarily angry.I was so angry even in small things with my mother,wife and friends. Also when was i younger i used to be angry but more afraid. In January 2019 i started watching video on " how to not get angry" videos on youtube which did not help much. Then i searched for best audiobooks online and downloaded 4 books not knowing how those were. I finished the book by Stephen Covey and one day randomly i heard the 'ting' sound from my earphone and rest is history. I found 'The Power of Now' which changed my life. I listened to other audiobooks too. I also started meditating. l watched videos of Eckhart Tolle and Mooji on youtube.Then one day I found this great channel 'Actualized.org' which was mind bending and took my personal development to the next level. Personal challenges I've overcome: Used to be angry most of the time and in unnecessary matters. Was afraid of people asking me questions. Worried what people thought about me. Did not talk to my wife after a fight. Felt sad if people did not take my advice and even got angry sometimes. Stopped drinking and smoking. Used to speak quickly and stumble. Used to be very anxious and stressful most of the time. Had less self confidence. Had not so exciting sex life. I used to give less thought while speaking. Less confident while giving presentation. Used to get increased heartbeat sometimes without any reason. What I'm working on now: Working on enlightenment Working on improving my health & diet. Working on improving my reaction to people and loving them fully. Working on going deep into self development. Working on discovering my full potential.