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@Gesundheit2 I don't even find free will in my direct experience. The deeper I look the more I find the absense of free will.

@Moksha But is the universe struggling and goes in every possible direction, or is it playing with itself, for fun? Does it create light for itself to find the door, or does it bang against every part of the wall until it finds the door? Meta question: Why give the universe human attributes, if the universe already gives us these attributes for survival for example.

@Alysssa Look at the stars, how big the universe is. "WOW- the universe is amazing." How is that possible? Isn't it magic? A miracle? That's spirituality. Have fun. Chose a path you enjoy. I'm desperate for liberation, it's the opposite, but not better. @Leo Gura I don't think what she said disqualifies her from chosing a path.

@seeking_brilliance I'm sorry you live in the same world as me :D. I don't want to hurt anybody either, but if jesus couldn't stop violence, how could we be able to do it? I've been into fights, because of some stupid shit people try to do, or some misunderstandings. I don't know what I would do if Talibans tried to oppress me. Some people also go as far as putting muslims into concentration camps to prevent chaos and suffering. (CCP) Actively harming people in order to avoid potential chaos. This chaos is not going to end anytime soon, or ever. Because if we would be peaceful, what about animals. What about rat infestations and insects? No moustraps, no pesticides etc? No animal anuse at all is also not possible. I just don't see how this world could be based on utopian peace without any violence.

Well, he said it's not illegal and it's not goong to be illegal anytime soon. Soooo probably already fda approved, or not considered a "drug" He said he was going to reveal it soon. I'm also curious. Why wouldn't he say it right away? Probably because it has too many risks, too controversial, it's just not working for everybody, or because it's something absurd like cow-dung. The thing most people don't talk about is too-much-weed, and Benzodiazepine withdrawal. Both are known to cause depersonalisation disorder. But going through benzo addiction is like torturing yourself towards no-self.

@seeking_brilliance Unfortunately people also like having fun, and want to impose what they think is right and wrong. It's impossible to have fun and cause no harm: here are a few extreme examples of conflicts of interest. Fucking children for fun -pedophiles. Killing pedophiles because they hurt children - parents of pedophiles. Wanting to make more money to be able to buy a nice boat (for fun). -rich jewish people Gassing the rich dominant superhumans for trying to control the world, and take back what they exploited from us. (because it's wrong to exploit people.) - communist antisemites. Now imagine what happens if there's not enough food. Would you watch your family starve to death, or cause harm to other families for survival? Here's the conflict of interest. Humans are never ever going to be totally peaceful when times are bad. The 1000 most enlightened people, stranded on an island are probably going to fight for food if there's not enough for everybody. At least that's how I view human nature.

I just had an idea.... I have every basics in meditation, have read about every path to enlightenment that's reputable. Had a few glimpses. And really Incredible awakenings. But I'm not enlightened not liberated and perceive no real definitive progress in the NOW ... I'm basically just a borderline crazy guy wasting his time on this forum and spirituality. I just thought to myself. If I'm serious about enlightenment, why not livestream it, share my path and multiply the intensity of my practice? I thought about doing strong determination sitting live and increasing the duration from day to day until I'm able to sit 24/7. Then (and during my path) ask teachers, to guide me, help me, live streams. QnAs. etc. Intros and outros. I know that a lot of you guys have blogs and yt channels I'm gonna be the first case study of some regular dude reaching enlightenment. Written stories about people finding enlightenment started 4000years ago. Livestreaming "progress" might be the next step to awaken the world. Maybe I'm just stupid, but I wanted to write down that idea, to see what you guys think about it? Also, just for fun I'm gonna shave my head and beard for the first livestream and let it grow for years, so the more awakened I get, the more my hair will grow. (Just for the memes). I'm not gonna be able to let go of the path, so why not make it fun and share it with people?

@Moksha Well maybe it's determined to be instinctive How would you describe the will of God?

What path did he take?

I'm not sure about that. There's a fight in philosophy about the will of god being deterministic or instinctive.

I read it, your answer frustrated me, my conditioning brought me to answer you. It's groundless. You cannot point towards the reason for that free will decision, it's always groundless determinism. Me ",trying to get enlightenend" is also determinism. How did you discover free will, without cause and effect? There's none. There's also a free will awakening, Leo didn't talk about. Its probably one od the most freeing one's. You realise you have no choice but to do what you do, because of condition. Why pursue enlightenment and not survival then? Because You are conditioned to pursue enlightenment and not survival. You either had enough of survival or you long towards more. Where's free will, and where is a choice? You don't have free will, but you have to act as if you had free will.

@Moksha Well that's it. I have control over nothing. Not my dreams, not myheart beating, not my next thought, notmy emotions etc. How would I be able to control siddhis if I (ego) can't control anything.

@Martynas777 feel free to pm me if you have questions. Have fun, and trust the process.

https://youtu.be/9zIKQCwDXsA https://youtu.be/BQ5B70ac_9M Watch all of those 3. I believe this is the direct and fastest way out of it. Shinzen Young was the only one that could make sense of my experience, I just wish I found him earlier, when I needed it most.

@Moksha What you're saying is: Siddhis han happen but are outside of our control. That's the only fair point I've heard. And that I believe. But then why wouldn't it be chance/luck? Or just delusion for some people?

@Martynas777 You got this technique from shinzen Young? Go into the facebook group: "Shinzen Young Mindfullness community" Usually SDS is not the only practice that is done. I guess now you will have to "recycle the reaction". Empty the reaction of its substance. I feel you, I had to go through DP/DR and also in some way what you describe. I remember feeling intense despair every day until one day my emotional Body was filled with despair in inch of my body. Then it went away and never came back. Wtf is wrong with that psychologist, every good mindfulness teacher knows what you're going through, and can guide you. You don't need an exorcist, but a teacher. But hey, congratulations. You're in for a ride for a few months, but if you're properly guided, you're going to have the best time of your life!

Try, to move your hand really fast so you don't see it in exactly one position. I'm not sure I can help you, but maybe you view the now as a frame, an instant, like a picture of a video that has 21frames per second, so for example, the "now" in a video would last 1/21st of a second. That's not correct. It's a representation of time in terms of something else. I know that I had those ideas of time.

I'm not going to waste my time questioning if the stupid shit he says would be true in some sense, because what he said is simply wrong. I'm not going to gaslight myself into his cult.

He is unfortunately, behind his loving facade is a moron that doesn't understand that a lot of his arguments don't have any value. 2 of his claims are that his brainwaves stop entirely when closing his eyes and that mercury can only be fluid unless he uses his magic. Unfortunately most of his followers have no idea about neurology or chemistry. Not saying he isn't enlightened, but a lot of the things he sais are taken as prohpecies and truth even though he just rambles non-practicable nonsense.

Well that's some good news. Only 10 years of craziness left for me lmao.

@KennedyCarter If your doctor is sure it's because of serotonin, then there are SSRI. That only has an effect on serotonin. I took them, I don't know if I recommend them or not, I'm not qualified to answer that question.

@Enlightenment me too!

@KennedyCarter What I'm talking about, you already had it before your ego was developed. You don't need concentration or an addition of consciousness. Just go back to what you knew when you were a child before you had thoughts abour your self-representation. Everything I told you, you knew as a child. There's a knowing that is before thoughts and associations. Awakening is to some extent only remembering what you are and that you never forgot what you were. You just added thoughts to it. There are deeper levels if awakening, but who cares for now.

Hey, I feel you. You have ups and downs because of the cycle. You'll be okay with the ups and downs. Its not what consciousnes work is about, its not about trying to be "up" all the time. If you do mindfullness, the path consists of changing the coping mechanisms from fighting/distraction/supression towards accepting/concentration/feeling it. It being every aspect of consciousness. Also, if you do self-inquiry. You're not a woman. You're not a woman having consciousness. You're consciousness. You're also not consciousness experiencing a woman. You are the consciousness-now. For that particular realisation I recommend Rupert Spira and ekhart tolle. (And advaida vedanta).

@Enlightenment Leo needs to be confronted with other teachers. I hope he will continue to do podcasts, it will be good for him and for his subscribers. Not only for metaphysics but also for enlightenment.