TheSelf

Imagine you are reading a book in your house alone, you are generally a calm person, you sudenly hit by a strong disassociation feeling, slowly some anxiety feeling comes up, you have no clue whats happening, a few moments later your heart starts racing, you feel like you are losing your mind you hardly can access your memory, you feel like you are about to die, you try to breath but you feel like no air is passing in or out!! you fight with your whole being cause thats millions of years of evolution to fight and survive death. But you are in perfect health and its not physical death, it's death of your individual experience to infinity, and infinity is insane, being sane means operating from limited framework of logic, but that moment all of these vaporizes into thin air, your favorite guru, your family, friend, your ideas about God, etc. anything would just slowly or violently being thrown out of window! You can never know what I'm talking about unless you experienced this either in psychedelics or intense yoga systems that can cause an intensr kundalini rising. Share your thoughts or experiences here!

No, this not true, this is a just fantasy. Ordinary people got nothing to do, they wont just rest and be happy, they go crazy, untrained minds cannot accept the present moment and peace because it's death to the mind. Remember covid years? You can avoid complexity by just droping the thinking, in your thoughts something must be either complex or simple, this is a conditioning situation in which the truth transcends it, cause the truth is beyond all dualities. It's not a problem to solve, see your are seeing it from the narrow window of the conditioning mind, something to solve, a problem, a puzzle etc. you see it this way and as long as this is your perspective the truth remains hidden, cause it's not a problem to be solved, it revels when all mind activities including seeking and searching for truth drops. Sit and melt in the present moment it's where it is, it's not solvable, it's not attainable, it's not transformation, it's not a specific state to be gained etc. All these are movements and the truth is beyond all movements.

Existence= Consciousness = Awareness = Being = Absolute. One reality. I might use different words but I always mean the same ever shining reality. The self. No In my state I'm an empty space, awareness, stillness, being, ground, nothing that within myself I express as forms of thoughts, a sound, a butterfly, a galaxy etc. I might express nothing too. But I exist, I don't see a difference between expressing or not expressing as all is same. I dont see a separation between anything. How can I see?

To realize the Truth one must sit still to see beyond all the illusions and tricks of the mind. One Identifying himself with a mental activity like a thought as you say is the source of suffering and misery. Existence is you. Thoughts are expressions, they do change, if you identify with a thought and you do not experience that thought later what are you gonna identify with again? Next thought? Aren't you gonna ask who am I in the center of all these movements? Identifying with with the field of changes (movements of the mind) brings suffering. The truth bring freedom from suffering. Absolute is consciousness, consciousness is Absolute. Theres nothing outside the Truth. Creating a devision between anything is illusion and work of the mind.

Real most be real without conditions, you do not think but exist in deep sleep. Patterns of the conditioned mind changes all the time, how can you say the mind is real while what you think is totally different than what thought a year ago... even the physical body's atomic structure totally changes every year. What's your definition of real? There's no separation between anything, as the absolute consciousness is all there's. but one doesn't ground himself in something that changes all the time. The expression of consciousness changes all the time. The self is not an idea to be created or destroyed so no, you are not destroyed when you are not thinking Understanding this requires direct experience (using this word since I cannot find better word as its not a experience like any mind experiences) of the truth when total stillness achived. No thoughts create anything as all mind activities are within the self, subjectivity is not result of thought process, it's the Reality. The ground of existence which you are. So stop your mental activities for a sec and you must be gone. In deep sleep you do not experience a mind but you exist. Can you say otherwise?

But these are more ideas about what the mind could be, like a relationship but what is a releationship if it's the substance of the mind? you thinking these now by the mind. You said in future there might the mind again, another stories etc. I'm saying something that you think is real and worry about it must be real now in you experience to hold onto it. If we trace the mind activities, it keeps merging back in pure awareness in the now from that which it arises as forms of thoughts. See? There is no mind to grab and hold but realtime thoughts and thoughts are being generated on the fly by pure consciousness.

Basically you are saying, how do we know if the truth is simple or complex. It's neither actually. Cause the Truth most transcend the mind as the mind can only see a thing or a situation as complex or simple, labeling is a thing the mind does. But there could be states in which the mind and thinking isn't there but the truth remains the same. Truth just is.

Actually most minds loves to create complexity out of almost every situations. It's in the nature of the mind to make a lot of movements as it survives in such waves. Go look out in the world, Talk to people.

But are you stepping in a total foreign territory in which you need others guidance to light up the path? As if another is more aware of your mind than you. Who is closer to you than you yourself to trust? You are absolutely aware and conscious in this very moment regardless of what state of mind you are observing.

Just sit in silence while the body is comfortable in any posture, that's it. The mind wanders the shit of everything, who cares? You don't mind it. Like literally tell yourself who am I to care? I don't really care, as I'm not thinking the thoughts. The body might seek food or other needs, who cares? It will get it. Aren't you the reality in which you see all that's happening in and out? Leave everything exactly as it is. The mind might overthinking a lot, great! That's awesome, you welcome it! Even if the mind reaches peaceful states you are still the same. In any states you remain you. You dont utilize a technique, you don't try to make the mind still, you give up all efforts as efforts only create more vibrations and tensions in the field of awareness. You meditate not by doing it but by understanding the truth about yourself.

IMO It's just entertaining for the mind, the mind survives in movements, the Absolute or the Truth doesn't seek to understand as it's perfect doesn't have such desires, Being is all that's real. pure and simple. Mind's capacity to imagine is limitless and loves complexity and so it's desire to understand himself is also never ends. Mind doesn't settle for simple Truth as it doesn't survive that.

That's a big If What's a mind? Like right now, in this very moment, find it, hold onto it. If found it, define it precisely what it is, no speculation about what a mind could be, because that's just thought process by the mind in the now, you wanna find the source of such thoughts. You are speaking of something and assuming of a future with it you dont even know what it is in its entirety in this very moment you think it exist

Yep Simply Being. Or searching for your eyeglass while it's sitting on your face. Someone would tell you, dude! Just stop for a moment and you'll find it!! The whole spiritual communities are just mind games, seeking, seeking, seeking forever. Very few speak absolute truth.

No I don't say it, I don't mentaly say I Am. And the absolute doesn't even know what it's playing. Man I dont even know how to describe it. No way to articulate it properly.

I meant because it's free, Absolutely free. How can the ground of existence does give a fuck what state your mind is in or even if it died or not. And I AM that, The pure presence, the mind and it's states could be there nor not, but I AM. The light, awareness, pure shining being. Free in every way. This is something people cannot understand in a psychedelics experience because experience is a movement belong to the mind. This is when all mental movements dies in the Now in All levels and you still see You Are. Absolutely aware, absolutely alive and pure, shining as ever.

True Realization is for the mind, when the illusion of I-separate self dies in the NOW The Sun (Pure Awareness) keeps shining as nothing ever happened, literally the Absolute doesn't give a shit how things play out, the mind dies or not or whatever.

I'm implying nothing, directly verify that yourself. To verify 'others' conscious awareness separate from you (which isn't), you'd have to figure out if they have separate conscious experience from yours, you can never do that since you need your own consciousness for such experiment. Meaning at the end they have to be in your own consciousness. So no multiple consciousness. Just one.

Awareness is all that there is, nothing outside of it exist. This is your real experience of it. Anything else is just stories you believe in. Rising and faling phenomena (anything appears and disappears from your consciousness) within awareness happens in real time.

There's a difference between experiencing God and God being stuck in your head, Thinking about God in unhealthy way, forming believes about it etc, these are all being religious acts to me! Spirituality is about realizing God in the Now, in yourself and everything. Not believes, you gotta get rid of all believes and imaginations to find him, that's why I said you are imagining it too much and you gotta not do it brother.

Writing this with sheer love and joy in my heart as shit is getting real!! Guys It's been a few days that I'm doing intense self-enquiry, Kriya Yoga and do nothing meditation and my sense of individual self losen a lot to the point in which I'm tripping my balls on God consciousness feeling sheer love and joy and seeing anf feeling myself when I look at everything (crazy expansion of identity), of course now that I'm writing this I'm down a bit from this state as the intensity of love and laughter in God consciousness is so much you hardly can do anything, you wast sit and enjoy and laught!!! Basically I had a intense Kundalini rising a few hours ago and I had my second most intense realization of God in the past few days. I wasn't being shoot at the middle of cosmos or things like this, You literally feel God is what it's in your experience and what normal stf your conscious of every day like the house, objs, people you see, it's all becomes mysterious. Basically all is required is droping any ideas you have about what you're conscious of in any single moment is and empty your mind of any believes about who you are, literally any believes (I'm consciousness, this, that etc) you wanna feel the present moment so fully and so deep that the egoic filters drops off of it's own. I know it's not easy as that's required very still mind, but I felt that I had to write this and share it here! 🥹 Much love to you all ❤️

Trust me

You gotta stop imagining God! God is in your head and you hold many believes about him and about yourself and the ego! Drop them all, theres no God vs me and you and the world! Separation is an illusion. Realization is needed and the practices will help you.

Its just process, it's all fine! Do it and don't worry about anything! It's just body's desire! Why do you even care? You are gonna transcend it at some point after the karmic seeds in which causes those strong urges burns by keeping up the practices like Kriya Yoga.

See, I'm not holding sperm, I don't care about it, I dont think about it its basically nothing, literally! Cause I convert the energy and move it to higher chakras for higher possibilities. This is not suppression! I feel zero pressure and I'm absolutely fine and happy! If you feel you wanna ejaculate just do it brother, you do not struggle with it in your mind, you gotta get rid of any tensions and pressures, physicaly, mentally, the more your mind is free and relaxed the more you progress in your spiritual journey!

Yes! It shines the light of awareness (your attention ) into unconscious use of the energy by the mind which causes thoughts etc. So you focus it on that which matters, your own consciousness, and consciousness affects consciousness. Focusing prana (consciousness) onto consciousness (the mind, your own self or basically whatever arises and you as result of ignorance misidentify with) leads to awakening and higher states of consciousness.