Kshantivadin

whoops hahahaha!!! not even as a pointer to nothingness, a symbol that represents it? zero is something, but the thing that zero refers to... ?

yeah yeah but nothing (0) and everything (∞) are terms that are related to numbers. and mathematics is a numeral system.

@freeman194673 bro math is a system. a system that can't encompass zero, nothing, nor infinity. and nothing and infinity are aspects of reality.

yes! it seems to me like this is the case. also, i'm going to say something really weird, i went out of a retreat recently and i feel like i truly don't know anything anymore - the relative IS the absolute, the absolute IS the relative, on the most fundamental level of reality. but going a bit shallower than that, relativity only happens in the realm of concepts. No conceptualization, no relativity.

@Leo Gura uh... how can you claim these things about reality? do we really know? neurotransmitters? sounds like a big-time concept.

It feels like knowing Santa isn't real too soon. Because of these kinds of thoughts I'm having a feeling of regret/doubt of going even deeper. On the one hand, it's so amazing and so much more and richer than anything I would've imagined or that my life would be without a spiritual practice. On the other, I feel like I see too much in certain situations. Can't I just be an ignorant young human being for a moment? Not that I'm not ignorant as fuck, but not seeing some things would be pleasant, at least for a little more while. Life's so fucking transient and groundless, nothing to hold onto. Not even a fucking self. It's all a fucking dream, what happened today? Gone! GONE! To be honest, I'm writing this post having clung to ONE feeling which led into a series of thoughts. It's just like one unit of experience to which I gave priority over other units of experience and now I'm creating a narrative. I SEE MYSELF doing all of this. Yet I decided to carry on. I want to feel like I know at least something about this universe. But I fucking don't, I'm clueless. I want to feel like there is a me in all this. And I want, most out of all, for SOMETHING, something to be solid in this reality!

Beautiful report man, I cried many times. Life/reality is some amazing shit, no? One thing, I haven't taken any psychedelics yet, aside from weed. I've been meditating for 3.5 years every day now. I have mini glimpses of these kinds of states "sober". So I, from experience, believe it's possible. Can't wait to catalyze the awakening with some stuff though

I'm having shifts in consciousness and having it hard to get back into everyday life. I've only done a three day solo retreat. What do you do in such situations? Everything is so intense. I got out of it 2 days ago, went outside to buy groceries, completely forgot that I will have a shift in consciousness hahahha. So then a friend advised me to take a long walk in nature so I did. That grounded me a little.

The critiques are so infantile in understanding of reality that I can't take them seriously... At least I practiced openmindedness.

Leo Gura : How to consume 5-MeO-DMT Tutorial > Keep sniffing it in... *sniffs*

jeez haha. I'm glad I have reached the state of being loving enough to love this guy. He's so silly.

Bro hugs and love, sad to hear this happen though. Are you sure you're not bothered? It hurts me that you can get coerced like that.

Lots of love! today I realized that the Universe is made out of Love, that I am Consciousness that forgets that it's it so it can manifest as a finite form ie me. Just an ordinary yogi's day. Happy birthday pioneer of spiral wizardry. Deepest thanks for allowing people to realise how amazing life is.

Okay. Try not to be judgemental. Let's grow together. As you've written, small differences between the sexes end up diverging hard. beliefs which got enforced by my experiences with women : Sexual marketplace value is a thing (the graph of the bell curve for male/female sexual value) Women are hypergamous and seek value in their partners and will branch swing accordingly because of this, women are uncapable of loving in a way that a man does, but love for the value you provide. it's more of a in-the-moment feminine kind of love where your track record means nothing (quoting david deida) - since I haven't been thinking about this topic for a while, my other beliefs got back to being unconscious, I can't recall them on the spot. I'm also tired to write more. Tell me what you think.

thanks for broadening my perspective, i see i am kind of locked in the belief. but!!!! but!!! my beliefs about it are based on personal reference and experience. so, what now?

I'll try to defend the red pill here, and any other community : Have you guys researched it well enough? probably not. you wouldn't be able to write the things you have if you did. It's like saying that people on the actualized forum are new age and deluded, not having even visited the forum. The red pill has a LOT to offer. it is a lot of junk as well. Ultimately you would want to use the valuable information as a stepping stone towards more conscious dating, relationships and sexuality. A person who hasn't read anything about dating, game, seduction and ultimately TRP, cannot just jump into having conscious relationships, he will stay a needy man unaware of social dynamics. Stage Green relationship paradigms lack the Orange concepts of social dynamics, SMV, etc. Also, on what stage of the spiral would a person have the most experience with women? Orange, of course. Also of course the sample of women may not be representative. But I have found that TRP has improved my life greatly.

Who was born lol?

Every information out there is so biased it hurts to be exposed to it. Could you give me some "conscious" resources? I am interested in everything, but would like to start somewhere, I am mostly clueless - so communism/capitalism, statism/anarchy. Also politics "education" resources are prone to being a circlejerk and ego clash fest.

I've listened to the 4 part series. I'm still ignorant. Thank you for the mega-thread, I missed it. I'll be reading Marx I guess!

Leave home asap. Find what habits you think are the most important to your life, slowly and strategically build them up for life. But the most important thing survival-wise is resilience. Life can fuck you up. I would work on my resilience. Taking more responsibilities makes your life way easier later. Do the housework.

who and what is at risk? hahahaha. imo, an amazing vision is always gonna be dangerous. but that kind of life is so much more fulfilling than the usual. no? it's a lot of fun, filled with love. the same way the ego backlashes, people around you backlash too. you can have a hairy life not changing systems too, because of other people's egos.

I feel like I'm almost there, with no more things to cover with the initial stages of dating, pickup and seduction. Both inner game and outer game are great, I just need to do some minor tweaks here and there, but basically I think I've covered all the theory. I spent thousands of hours (but not 10k hours I think) on this topic of life. I am in no ways a great LTR master, that is another sphere. But I think I'm done with the former. What else is there to do when you feel like you've reached the top? I'm so confident in my game that I can just be purely authentic and then game becomes meta-game because I've actually also integrated all the game concepts into my personality, and it's now extremely smooth and authentic. I'm not saying there's no room to improve, there always is. But I'm lost, you could say at a plateau in this endeavor. I don't want to bother myself with useless theory anymore. Don't want to bother with practicing either, lol - my skills with approaching girls are already honed. I'm basically set with my skillsets which I can use to attract a woman I would want in my life, when it comes to it. I've already got an amazing lover in my life, hahahaha. Still, I feel like there's something more to do. Do you have any ideas? Thank you.

I'm trying to integrate this, but it doesn't make 100% sense. I still hold to the belief that it's physicality that's first order, since consciousness is so dynamic and diverse and dependent upon the physical conditions of the body. thank you in advance

@Austin Actualizing When you say relationships, you mean like in general or monogamous LTRs because I don't plan on having any anytime soon. When you say relationship, do you mean anything intergender that happens after attraction, no matter the level of intimacy and commitment?

Stopped overeating, ate in a bit of a deficit for only 2 days and my habits immediately got back to normal. Lost puffy cheeks and feel much better. I kinda feel like I did fix it, this February went really fast though... I still feel and am stuck with generating income. Haven't done anything in that respect. But I brush teeth every morning, and meditate both first thing in the morning and in the evening. Feels way better to do it 2x a day.