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Anyone else here a fan of American Psycho? Normally, I’m quite opposed to Stage Orange materialism, but this movie and book had me fawning over that lifestyle and now I have a craving for it, what should I do? I know the purpose of American Psycho is to critique the excesses of American Capitalist individualism, but they made it look so cool! I hope I one day have enough money to wake up in an expensive New York apartment, hop out of bed, do my morning exercises with an ice pack on my face, and then proceed to apply my ten step skin care routine. Is the Patrick Bateman character more Stage Red or Orange?

I hate seeing on the news of my ancestral home, including the village where my family originated from, being bombed.

Vaush’s takes here were perfect.

AMEN.

Maybe I can get some solidarity with this, but I absolutely loved American Psycho. I watched the movie and read the whole book cover to cover.

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The telltale bad sign, from God.

100% disagree, depends on the student. When I was very good at mathematics, I would only learn from doing the problems interactively with a tutor. Mathematics is interactive, not visual. You will never learn mathematics from a YouTube video.

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Leaving my original Life Purpose (LP) feels like cutting off a limb, or killing my former self, and I don't know how to cope. Read the above post for context. I can't seem to accept that hard academia and mathematics are not for me. I had so many fantasies about where I was going to go with this career. What new exciting places were going to employ me, how much smarter I was going to be compared to my peers, and so on and so forth. But now my mind is refusing to accept what just happened. I've stopped going to class, and in the three non-STEM classes I do have, I'm failing because I have not cracked open the textbook, turned in a single assignment, or read the syllabus. I feel as if my whole academic career and all of my efforts have collapsed, and I don't know what to do. I have a vague idea of a life purpose now, but its not the same. The reason for why I was attracted to physics was because I had a concern for truth, and I wanted to make my life about understanding reality. I thought of a life that was concerned with profit, and money was vague and shallow. If I choose another life purpose, is that vague and shallowness pursuit for profit and survival going to be my life? Even if I choose something more grounded and realistic that I could do, like sociology, is that going to be my life? Have you not seen Earth from space? All of human affairs, all of Sociology, is just a tiny spect within the infinite cosmos, and I'm going to dedicate my life to studying that? How do I accept the failure of a previous life purpose?

Edit: thank you @Joshe for the help.

I did that and this was the result. https://imgur.com/fKKDbeZ And its remaining a link and not embedding!

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Read the post above for context. In the above video, Leo talks about how the avoidance of truth leads to suffering. How most people, including myself especially, avoid the truth for decades. The result of this is a snowball effect, which creates a tangle of self-deception, fantasy, delusions, which are remedied by dysfunctional coping mechanisms. I listened to this and I immediately thought of myself. How is it that I could be so miserable and ineffective in as a student, all while denying that my defficiencies. Deluding and prevent myself from seeing the truth; that I'm not an academic, I'm not good at academics, and I will never be a hard scientist. The video above, there's one part that really spoke to me. Timestamped at: 46:20 This part struck me like a bullet. Recently I returned to my unhealthy habit of smoking, and chronic internet usage. I deliberately do this to numb emotions I don't like feeling, in this case; guilt and shame. I began smoking a pack a day, which I compulsively do to block any negative emotions and feelings from arising. I'm becoming worse with my internet usage, now staying up on my phone until midnight, because its an effective way to shut my mind down from experiencing negative emotions. Edit: Another timestamp which resonated with me was 48:43

THANK YOU.

Massive problem I face. One way I would motivate myself was simply reading my classmates accomplishments, seeing what internships they got, what classes they were able to pass. If I saw someone I knew was doing better than me at more difficult classes, that would be the motive I needed to stop slacking off and get to work.

@puporing Thanks for your support and help. I do definitely think that the "old school" parenting model that was applied to me was mostly ineffective, as it made me a mental wreck. Obsession over academics and grades has been the bane of my existence since I was a very young child, and it was I was never offered an alternative to succeeding in the world, the focus was always school. I have a lot of healing to do, I had a (suicide) plan, materials, date marked on my calendar. I seriously think Leo saved my life, as I called the crisis hotline and instead of help I was bounced back and forth between different lines, because apparently I didn't call the correct one.

This is an amazing video: I'm posting this to remove a binary concept that a lot of New Agers seems to fall victim to, which is that the Abrahamic religions are nonsense that involve prayer and worship with no actual spiritual practice, and the Asians traditions are the only traditions which actually raise your consciousness. But this brings me to an interesting question, what happened to Islam? Why is it that Yoga is not talked about at all in Muslims circles that I'm familiar with within my community, friends, and family? How did Islam go from the Sufi mystic Mansur Al-Hallaj proclaiming, "I am truth", to what I see in the video below?

This video as well really spoke to me. Paying attention to my grades and being very serious about schooling was a survival strategy I adopted as a young boy. My mother used to be very harsh towards me, and her harshness was always around schooling. I have memories from when I used to attend elementary school of all the times she would shout at me. I vividly remember sitting with her, she was '''''''''''''''''helping''''''''''''''''' me do elementary school math homework. I was struggling to remember the concepts, as I had a sever issue with not paying attention and daydreaming away instead of focusing, so she grabbed the back of my head and slammed it into the math textbook several times. She would yell and curse at me very loudly for any academic failures and poor grades, and so getting good grades was the obsessive way for me to receive love in this situation.

Amen. Not just university, but education. When in high school, I was diagnosed with depression. I would wake up each day groggy and miserable (most likely due to the compulsive phone usage, which would keep me awake until midnight). I was angry and bitter, and diagnosed with depression. Each day I would arrive and continue school with a scowl across my face, which would give me a headache. I was constantly late, constantly complaining, and yet I refused to accept that academics may not be right for me.