Spiral Wizard

That happened on its own a few days ago. I felt a big relive, but I also felt like there is much more to cure. Should I just dwell on the pain to provoke tears or is the emotional part fixed and now I need to find a different solution?

That’s the case.

I haven’t found such a mentor yet. That’s good on the one hand because I will grow more if I figure it out myself but on the other hand it is devastating because I haven’t found someone who is stage turquoise or nearly as developed as Leo (which is my stage yellow goal) and lives a lifestyle like Jay Alverrez (stage orange goal, I guess). Sometimes, I know it is even “worst” / low conscious, I crave the Dan Bilzerian lifestyle. Having orange and yellow motivations is tarring me apart... Any Advice?!

First thing first, I love this answer, I needed that. I also appreciate your detailed answer! Your abundance argument seems legit, I haven’t really considered that. But I personally never really had a problem with weirdness, I actually had a nice social life. But nowadays I am just not interested in low consciousness friends, I see no “value” or joy in spending time with them, I definitely prefer a podcast, working or high consciousness friends. I am trying to figure out why I am not capable of enjoying everyone’s company. Do you have an idea? What do you mean with “some mindset switch is probably the best for the next one.”? I consider myself as an individual who has orange attachments, has some healthy green parts, but isn’t hippie & loves / is passionate about yellow (is interested in turquoise) I guess I am not ready for the no expectation approach. Currently I am trying the discipline track, I think it is working for me but I don’t feel completely comfortable with it, because I associate spiral dynamics stage orange with it, which I currently resist. (I struggle with letting that resistance go, any advice?) Is there another track which fits stage yellow or a track which you can imagine is worth looking into?