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1,2,3,4!

Yeah I mean. I am 28, Ive had lots of sex and enjoy being by myself. I am also playful, energetically respectful but am also able to Rizz. Girls want to enjoy your energy. So do you. What a design! I haven’t done much “pick up” though, and of course I did have nerves when I went out. I will go out Friday or Saturday again this week.

@StarStruck I like the skills it is teaching me. I think my creativity needs the logic, procedural, down to earth, calculated nature of accounting. It has grounded me and I think helped me make a lot of high quality distinctions. I do find it satisfying to have built a skill and see the investment paying off by good works. I don’t see it as a life long thing. Accounting has opened many doors and will continue to. —- There is a difference between flipping burgers as a stepping stone, and flipping burgers for life. That being said, people have varying values and degrees of ambition. For some people working a simple job is all they want.

It’s fine to respect people, but have personal preference around the job you do. Idk, I notice these sorts of judgments too. I do accounting now, but I’ve done some of the shittiest jobs. So, I often look at people with understanding and compassion.

@Bazooka Jesus Yeah, I can tell that my unattachment and playfulness went pretty far

Though, in my experience even if they have sex with you doesn’t mean there is loyalty either. It’s common for relationships to not work out, especially in the beginning. Girl doesn’t like you? Good. Next!

I was reflecting on something that happened at least twice. I said hi and introduced myself to a couple girls. But, didn’t stay in set. a minute or so later they came over to me to talk more. What does that mean? One girl was like “So, you’re Irish?” (It was St. Patrick’s day and I have Irish last name) I should have said “kiss me I’m Irish”

I Will resume posting my Qigong videos next week. I like that I took a break for a month.

It’s usually the trips with the biggest emotional breakthrough that has strongest afterglow. Either one of great love, forgiveness and compassion or one of great peace, maturity and understanding. Not all trips have a nice afterglow but, many do.

True dat

Spring is soon and summer is near

True

@Bazooka Jesus Thanks bro bro 😎

@Miguel1 thanks! I started using the count down from 10 thing as well

I wake up feeling good. It feels good simply to go out, socialize, and meet girls. Watching anything more than Leo’s video, having some support/ accountability when you first go out etc, is a waste of time. Go out. It’s not even about the sex. It’s about getting experience and growing as a man. At one point I felt at one with everyone and the live music as well which was nice Most girls and guys are actually average looking too. This fear of 10s is dumb. Girls who are like 7 or sometimes 6 are nice too. Plus, personality plays a role. The great thing about it is you can just go out and have fun. Most if not all the stress is a fabrication of a mind which lacks experience but is full of memes. Destroy memes by experience.

Y’a gotta just get more direct experience. It’s uncomfortable, but the more you do it the more comfortable it becomes

True, the 21 year olds all huddled and said they liked me and I was cute, we laughed a lot. I slept with a 23 year old over the summer. I don’t think they will be mature enough for me relationship but idk. I know I need a lot more experience with women. I can’t settle without having really tried. I will need a nicer apartment. — I realize that, though there was not really any 10/10 girls at the club. That there’s so much about girls that make them beautiful I’m unique ways that can’t be calculated on a linear scale. I saw a chubby dorky guy get a hot girls number. I spoke with a random guy who turned out to be a mortician or something. We had a deep convo about death while young people danced around us. I got hit on very hard by a girl and her friend. It was fun, but also cringy. I said I had to get water. There were many girls where I pulled out of the set too soon. I was nervous. I am left with sort of a warm afterglow of having pushed myself. But, also my memory of how beautiful women are. People look very young to me which is interesting. I didn’t realize how short most people are. I feel more confident in my looks as well. The live band was very good.

Different girl

Sleep with her?

If I am 28 is it wrong to talk to a girl who is 21?

I definitely feel like I wanna talk to more girls. My mind replays all the moments I saw cute girls but didn’t talk to them. So yeah, good experience and time for bed.

I am still thinking way to much. I’ve seen glimpses though of what’s possible. But, too much thinking, not enough risk taking, not enough approaching tonight. But, I did have fun and did talk to girls. That is good. Yeah, I like girls. They were fun to talk to and to see. I can see how deep illusion the fear of speaking to them is.

I can do better to approach more. I also have

I’ve been mostly trying to acclimatize myself. Been having fun, talked to a few girls, some guys. Got approached by two girls who were hitting in my very hard but weren’t my type. I can see myself becoming good at this. Been taking small wins of just observing how people actually act. Women are attracted to me which is something I can see in their eyes. I didn’t realize how playful girls are. Um, but I still get nerves which is funny and I’ll get over them.