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@Leo Gura I am not sure what you mean by the visualization thing exactly. Qigong is more of an exercise.

@Staples That’s easy to say. But, putting in tonnés of work and having to work a 9-5 on top of that? No way. Money has to be considered. I am not throwing out all of Traditional Chinese Medicine, or Qigong theory. But, certain claims like in all fields don’t make sense even to like normal people.

@Leo Gura I’m confused as fuck what I’m doing next. I mean, I’m not stupid. Or at least completely stupid at all times Qigong is a fantastic exercise with many benefits. The feeling of the energy is very real. But, the healing sounds practice? The associated with certain organs and movements? I don’t buy it. I get benefit from Qigong and acupressure. But, these aren’t like “hard” sciences or practices. Which, makes sense due to their traditional and “holistic” nature. But, like who am I to “create a more truthful system”. I sort of just want to get out of poverty. I honestly just want happiness, fulfilment and success and a feeling of alignment and integrity with what I am doing. I wanna be creative too. I like practicing Qigong and recording the videos. It’s super peaceful, relaxing and feels good. People I teach in person love the classes and get a lot of benefit from them: improve sleep, pain, etc… But, it’s these ancient maps and certain system like “healing sounds” even though it feels really really good. Does it really associate with the Organ?? Or is it just a nice purging and tonifying breathing and mindfulness practice. I am by no means throwing “Qi” in the trash. It’s a useful philosophical tool and subjective experience. But, idk.

It's definitely good for you. When I work for 6 months of the year I burn calories equal to a half marathon or more each day.

I think this is then end of a chapter. But, what comes next I don't know. I realized that social media and marketing online just aren't for me. I am not feeling well today. Something has to change in my life I think. I am thinking a lot of Leo's advice, or how I am applying it doesn't work for me. Maybe, the life purpose course and escaping wage slavery got me all fucked up because now I know what some people can achieve but, maybe not me?

@Elliott Yeah, I think I'll finish my beta program with this client and then take a break.

Frankly, I may need to move on. I’m confused.

@Elliott I teach online

90% is a bit of an exaggeration

@The Renaissance Man True, there is ALOT of value in Qigong. The old maps, offer value too. I can teach Qigong in a truthful and modern way. I think that I need to continue figuring out my approach to this field.

@Grateful Dead Hi thanks for your response. I think my issue is I’m thinking there is no emotions in organs. I’m a bit confused. Maybe, I just need to be honest with my audience? And I can develop the brand? Hmm

My mind is more sober. I've been meditating, journaling and doing breathwork in the morning. Qigong helps as well. I just, I am realizing that I know so little about reality. I don't want to teach concepts that aren't true. I will continue to practice Qigong because I love how it feels, and It's really changed my life. But, I just don't know. I think I am realizing I still have so many questions about Qigong, science, TCM, breathwork, Yoga, Meditation, Psychology, health, what is true or false... That, to identify and only teach one system is trapping to my mind. That I need to be able to freely question each of these things. I can't do that if I am too close to any one system. And, maybe these things are things I will only do in private. As, as private pursuit.

I also realized maybe I hate social media. I get stressed out using Instagram and I don't enjoy it. Obviously, nothing I build is going to be easy, and I am getting older. So, I really don't know. I want material success. I felt like I went through the spiritual stuff and now I find it all sort of common place like I've answered everything. Now, it's about money, finding an enjoyable way to do it. Yoga, Qigong, Meditation.... I just think most people will never succeed full time in this. Maybe, I am mediocre. I don't know.

Okay, I am back for a bit. But, more casual.

Leo’s blog has been pulling me back to this place!! (Or did I ever leave ) This is my response to Leo’s recent post on metaphysical love. A fantastic collection of nondual love poems. I LOVE Ibns poems. “I believe in the religion of love. In whatever direction its caravans may take. For love is my religion and faith.” “

@integral I’m full of paradoxical things.

@integral I love sad songs though tbh! Heh I am not here though I forgot about that song. My self love and appreciate of my own art has really healed and improved lately. I love that song and wanna record it well. I love the lyrics: Begin to question.... Everything you read, babe Everything you see, babe Everything you know, babe Everything you don’t, babe and the bluesy feel.

@integral Haha, not true. I haven't put out a lot of the songs I've written. My new songs are happier! I am focused on Qigong right now. I just sold my first high ticket Beta program. Been building it the last 4 weeks with my first client. So, busy with that.... Soon, I will release more music! I've got so many written I just gotta record em.

A demo of a truth seeking song of my own Who is at the helm? Oh, who is at the helm? Is it the wise one? Or is it the child then They say the intellect sits down On the seat of emotion Begin to question Everything you read, babe Everything you see, babe Everything you know, babe Everything you don’t, babe You say your sick and broken down And you can’t get out of bed So what’s free will then? Thought I heard you judge them… Begin to question.... Everything you read, babe Everything you see, babe Everything you know, babe Everything you don’t, babe

Lyrics The king's taken back the throne The useless seed was sown When they say they're cutting off the phone Then tell 'em you're not home No place to hide You'll find there's a soldier on their side You're still a soldier in your mind But nothing's on the line You say it's money that we need As if we're the only mouths to feed I know that no matter what you say There are some debts we never pay Working for the church while your family dies You take what they give you And you keep it inside Every spark of friendship and love will die without a home Hear the soldier groan we'll got it at alone I can taste the fear Lift me up and take me out of here Don't want to fight, don't want to die Just want to hear you cry Who's gonna throw the very first stone Oh, who's gonna re set the bone Walking with your hand in a sling Wanna hear the soldier sing Working for the church while my family dies You're little baby sister's gonna lose her mind Every spark of friendship and love will die without a home Hear the soldier groan we'll got it at alone I can taste your fear It's gonna lift you up and take you out of here If the bone shot never heals I cannot make him yield You can't find me now But they're gonna get their money back somehow And when you finally disappear We'll just say you were never here Been working for the church while your life falls apart They're singing hallelujah when defeating your heart Every spark of friendship and love will die without a home Hear the soldier groan we'll got it at alone Hear the soldier groan we'll got it at alone (Arcade fire has been doing Truth seeking music for years) [Verse 1] I woke up with the power out Not really something to shout about Ice has covered up my parents' hands Don't have any dreams, don't have any plans I went out into the night I went out to find some light Kids are swinging from the power lines Nobody's home, so nobody minds [Verse 2] I woke up on the darkest night Neighbors all were shouting that they found the light (We found the light!) Shadows jumping all over my walls Some of them big, some of them small I went out into the night I went out to pick a fight with anyone Light a candle for the kids Jesus Christ, don't keep it hid! [Chorus] Hoo-oo [Verse 3] Ice has covered up my parents' hands Don't have any dreams, don't have any plans Growing up in some strange storm Nobody's cold, nobody's warm I went out into the night I went out to find some light Kids are dying out in the snow Look at them go, look at them go! [Chorus] Hoo-oo Hoo-oo Hoo-oo Oo-oo [Bridge] And the power's out in the heart of man Take it from your heart, put it in your hand, hand What's the plan? What's the plan? [Verse 4] Is it a dream? Is it a lie? I think I'll let you decide Just light a candle for the kids Jesus Christ, don't keep it hid! Because nothing's hid From us kids! You ain't fooling nobody With the lights out! [Outro] And the power's out in the heart of man Take it from your heart, put it in your hand And there's something wrong in the heart of man You take it from your heart and put it in your hand! Where'd you go?

Lyrics A vial of hope and a vial of pain In the light they both looked the same Poured them out on into the world On every boy and every girl It's in the neon Bible, the neon Bible Not much chance for survival If the neon Bible is right Take the poison of your age Don't lick your fingers when you turn the page What I know is what you know is right In the city it's the only light It's the neon Bible, the neon Bible Not much chance for survival If the Neon Bible is right Oh God! well look at you now! Oh, you lost it but you don't know how In the light of a golden calf Oh God, I had to laugh Take the poison of your age Don't lick your fingers when you turn the page It was wrong but you said it was right In the future I will read at night In the neon Bible, the neon Bible Not much chance for survival If the Neon Bible is true (I am not here)

It’s a relatively good episode so far.

I heard he was doing this before the election.

I love this forum. But, it’s time for a break.