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So good. I got a warning points for saying this: “You wanna accuse me of being a small brain cult follower? Go fuck yourself you complete moron. Fuck you. You can put me into a box in your own mind but I don’t frankly care. I’m gonna keep learning, studying, growing and maturing and I don’t give a fuck about morons who don’t get the fucking picture of what we are doing here. “

I stand by my choice of words on this thread as en expression of the warrior side of me. However, whether or not they should be publically expressed it another matter. I do care about the well being and ecosystem of the forum. I’ve been here a long time. If people want to insult this place and me. I want to be able to swear rarely. But, hey. I am willing to talk it out. Maybe I can’t do that. I respect forum users. I am sure I can do better. I want to approach the forum differently. More thoughtfully going forward. I think this means less interaction and more reading. I am sharing this here just as the outcome for others as to what happened when I swore above. Leo has sweared on occasion, other people have done this. If Mods want to issue me warnings without ever speaking to me directly that’s their choice. I would appreciate more direct communication and chance to correct errors. I’ve been around you know? Sometimes you gotta speak to someone and help them see something in themselves. The warning points can help me grow. Thanks! When people say these things about the work this is deeply offensive to me. I’ve put a lot of time into the forum, and following this work. So, honestly to people who think this is a cult. @#$#$ #$%.. I have nothing actually against you. But, Your not going to shake me or rattle me up anymore. I don’t care you think that and I’ve determined this is not a cult. I don’t need to fight or defend this ever again. But, going forward I will not swear to the best of my maturity and would appreciate people in this community to help me grow in this matter. I respect the ecosystem of the forum more than I do swearing at you guys. My apologies.

I 100% stand by my comment as an expression of how I actually felt. But, I recognize not all things should be expressed openly. Even with my long history here I guess people can still provide me with warning points. There is a feeling of it not being fair, and a feeling of understanding. Giving me warning points is totally your choice. I have been on this forum for years, I’ve been a mod. Leo occasionally swears in the way I did in that post. As a mod I have reached out to people and spoken to them before applying warning points. Pointing out their mistake or error and allowing reprieve. @SincerityYour Choice to mod how you are. Speaking to me was always a choice and you never did. I stand by my choice of words in that context. It’s a rare use of profanity. But you want to give me warning points? That’s totally fine. You don’t offer course for correction?

If I am to return to the forum I need to change my approach. No more exchanging with others with regards to drama. It’s a waste of time and a distraction. Let them figure it out for themselves. I don’t have much to say here. I am imperfect. This is for sure and have lots of inner work, contemplation, and healing journaling to do. It’s overwhelming actually how much I can be doing. So many things to do and improve. But, all in time. I’ve seen a lot of growth over the years. As I mature I see more areas for growth in all major areas of my life. I score low right now in my High Performance planning in many key area of my life. I also see that I am focusing my energy in particular areas of my life which make addressing everything right now at once is impossible. I will talk to my coach Monday about ways I can be more disciplined with my schedule. I am fairly productive right now. I know I need to get to a higher level of focus, distraction free work, dealing with boredom if I am to get to a higher level of success. I am making progress in my courses. But, not enough. I am letting blocked time slide too much in some key areas. Anyway, I was journaling heavily. Doing some Qigong. I am up late. Time to turn in. I think I’ll always have room for improvement. I made a lot of progress this week I can be proud of. I also see areas where I need to lock in. I am also aware of balancing my plan with my needs and life circumstances that come up. But, I also think I need to say no to more things, and block time more skillfully. Be more focused on referring to my schedule not doing what feels best.

This guy is a really good Qigong teacher. His movements are really purely Qigong. Now that I have a stronger Lower Tan Tian, and my Qi sensitivity and quantity has increased it makes doing these practices very energetic and enjoyable. It’s hard to know how much people really know coming from these traditions steeped deep in meditation. I feel a lot better after this. I will study under this man more. He is really amazing. I think I will start with his Shi Ba Shi style Qigong course in a month or so. As the sensitivity increases as well as the quality and quantity of your Qi during the practice you can start to feel how to “pack” your qi and strengthen the Qi body. In this video he showed me how to expand, and how to pack with more clarity.

@Carl-Richard I’m not here Moaning about the forum and Leo. The darkness is your perspective

Questionable ontological categories. Metaphysical claims. People have a contextual understanding of seer and seen. Within Maya is appears dualities exist. Dualities only exist on a relative level within a unified infinity. Within the unified field of experience there is the appearance of duality. Duality exists, but only because of a non-dual unified existential truth and universal intelligence.

Bryan is for sure pursuing meaning and significance. https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1GmQ81TPLH/?mibextid=wwXIfr

@Carl-Richard You are dark.

This is probably true. I still get motivation from him around my health and fitness. Losing weight, running, improving sleep… all feeling better .

@Natasha Tori Maru You say that as if she didn’t consent?

@Osaid No you created one 😄 If reality is one it’s one always. This isn’t hard.

Profound video. I don’t know if I can live up to this but it’s important to consider.

@Joseph Maynor Hmmm, well, you’ll have to decide I don’t know what you mean by attack. There have been people here actively accusing Leo of being a cult leader, many mods and members. This video destroys cults, belief, etc. A cult leader could not and would not make this video.

If you being abused here (which I doubt). You should probably leave. If this community, Leo, and his videos are not helping you or supporting you and you feel this way you should leave. Take a break. Always free to come and go. But, it’s obvious to me you guys don’t watch his videos. I know a lot of you have admitted this and then you wonder why this is so confusing. His epistemic responsibility video for example answers so much of your guys criticisms, and clears Leo’s attitudes towards these things.

@LordFall Don’t stress about it. Carl has been like this for years. Mods are individuals not yes men.

@Osaid If you think there is a difference between seeing and seen that’s a duality. This isn’t hard!

Relax and be well my friends. You don’t need to solve everything right now. All is well and already successful.

The vaste majority of the quotes shared in the opening post are not offensive to serious people. I can see how the first one is intentionally put first to trigger the reader and make the rest seem worse than they are. If death is infinity then obviously it would make you more conscious than a living human… why is that an issue? Other than that these are Leo’s views, opinions on other teachers and his own understanding speaking to individuals who we don’t know what they were saying when he responded or whether or not those people understood their points. I speak to you guys and read your comments. Leo is more right than you guys on the matters he speaks on… His epistemology as a whole is stronger than any of you here. And, it’s stronger than those teachers he listed in the comments in the opening sections. Not to say those teachers don’t offer things Leo doesn’t. But…. Leo’s work is overall stronger. This suggests he has a deeper, broader and more robust understanding. Some of you guys don’t even really know what Non-duality is, yet you’ll preach it. Some of you don’t know what the function of Buddhism is, yet you get upset when someone says it’s not God Realization. There is so much messiness here but you can’t even see it and when Leo points it out you cry fowl.

@Osaid Seeing is a chair or table if that’s what you’re seeing. You are sneakily creating a duality between consciousness and the subject within it. They are one…. That’s nonduality…