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Christ in an interesting metaphor for the infinite embodied in man, the love and compassion Leo wrote about in his blog recently just saying

Onwarrrd

I’m pursuing Qigong which I enjoy. But, my dream was to be a musician. I got derailed after COVID and time has really passed. I frankly wasn’t healthy enough 5 years ago mentally, and I lacked a lot of maturity. I’m only 29 and I have some good songs. Lately I perform in public I often turn heads and had people sharing videos of me last time I played in the small town which felt good. I impacted some lives. hmmm, I think I just gotta keep being sober, work on Qigong biz, and keep developing my skills. I am buying recording equipment in the fall and will put out music then. It’ll probably be imperfect. Probably ignored. But, fuck it. I know I have it in me to make great songs. I just know it. I’ve impacted people with my music but… frankly my neuroticism really dicked me in the past. Marijuana i think and my own immaturity. Well, that’s life. I am becoming a more mature, grounded person. Music… oh music… I hate feeling trapped. And. As I age I either give up and make peace with This massive loss or I just keep creating and figure out a way to do something with it even if it’s just on the side. But. I need to find success in Qigong first I think. man. Life sucks in some ways. I hate that I’ll probably die without experiencing a career like Arcadefire. For that reason…. If God is so smart well what the fuck? Make me a musician dumbass. Some making this so fucking hard. I know that’s immature. But, I immature ego mind thinks… if I am God what the absolute fuck if I can’t live my dream. My story is still being written….

My lack of musical progress bothers me. But, I also maybe don’t see the value in taking it seriously because of survival. This has caused me a lot of pain over the years. I have some good songs and will keep writing but it can’t be a main focus. I hate that about reality more than anything. My life is a trap and a curse in that regard. Makes no sense to me.

@Leo Gura uh oh. Integral Bullshit tier stupid

@Leo Gura Does he though?

@Leo Gura Why else write a new book?

I thought when reading FindingRadical Wholeness he blamed green for the backlash or orange. He seemed to speak of green shadow which, is a problem.

I woke up with the power out, Not really somethin to shout about. ice has covered up my parents hands, Don't have any dreams don't have any plans. i went out into the night, i went out to find some light. kids are swingin from the power lines, nobody's home so nobody minds I woke up on the darkest night, Neighbors all were shouting that they Found the light - "we found the light." - Shadows jumpin' all over my walls, Some of them big, some of them small. i went out into the night I went out to pick a fight with anyone. Light a candle for the kids, Jesus christ don't keep it hid! Ice has covered up my parents eyes, don't know how to see, don't know how to cry. growin' up in some strange storm, Nobody's cold, nobody's warm. i went out into the night, i went out to find some light. kids are dyin' out in the snow, look at them go - look at them go! And the power's out in the heart of man, take it from your heart put it in your hand. What's the plan? what's the plan? Is it a dream? is it a lie? i think i'll let you deceide. just light a candle for the kids, jesus christ don't keep it hid! Cause nothing's hid, From us kids! You ain't foolin' nobody - with the lights out! and the power's out in the heart of man, take it from your heart put it in your hand. And there's something wrong in the heart of man, You take it from your heart and put it in your hand! Where'd you go?!

Interesting. Vitamin D3 in blood is not active.

@Leo Gura ugh whyyy

Yeah, that was a weird time. Lots of people who have tripped have been ungrounded. Happens.

Hmm

10k is like 15-30 minutes of sunlight? I am not convinced you can overdose on 10k. As long as you get the proper vitamins with it.

The way she looks back at the camera haha.

@Leo Gura Does it bother you academics won’t take you seriously?

Take it easy ol boy

@Leo Gura If you think you can argue with that guy….

Since I started swimming everyday I’m feeling really good! Thanks for the reminder. My morning routine is meditation, Breathwork and Qigong and swimming. Boom! The Qigong is good for stretching and undoing the tension of the swim.

What coaching program are you in? I’m looking to get certified too. Currently looking at IPEC.

Hey Everyone, Over the past few years I have been studying Qigong and teaching. I have been teaching in person and online. - 1320 You tube subs - 25 person Email list I just build - Sold my first high ticket coaching offer which I finish a week from now. What interested me and inspired me to practice Qigong was the concept of polyvagal theory and mind body connection. My practice of Qigong has greatly benefitted my life and I think it's a really great practice. It combines meditation, stretching, movement, breathing, visualization, etc. It think it's a great practice and I will continue to do it for myself. But, recently I was thinking about creating an Instagram and beginning to promote their and continuing to create some mini courses. The problem is, I think there are problems in Qigong theory. I think there are a lot of strengths as well. But, for example in 5 Element theory there is this idea that emotions are stored in certain organs, and they have these very intricate associated with organs, seasons, emotions, etc. Which is an interesting model and I think value can come from this. But, I don't think emotions are stored in organs. I really don't. I have been open to exploring and integrating Western Science and Qigong theory, much like is continuing to happen with practices like Yoga. But, Qigong is different. Qigong is really built on this idea of "Qi" which means many things but, largely that there is a life force energy. This to me IS obviously true. What is the difference between a dead person and an alive person is that there is some sort of "energy" even if that is a collection of internal processes and homeostatic influences. I just, I hit this wall today. I realized that, maybe teaching this isn't the path for me. I think the practice is great and can help a lot of people. But, I started to feel the epistemic burden that I want what I share when it comes to health advice to be holistic, and accurate. There is a practice is Qigong for example called healing sounds that relates certain organs with emotions, sounds like "shhhh" or "haaa". Which, is obviously not true. But, from a subjective perspective, and in some research these practices have shown to help improve sleep, and quality of life, etc. At the end of the day, not system is perfect. Psychology, pharmaceuticals, the DSM, Qigong, TCM, etc all have strengths and weaknesses. But, yeah.. I invested a lot into this and I think I helped a lot of people. I just don't know if I can fully commit to teaching it anymore and, maybe it's time to start something new. But, I am getting close to 30 years old now. This sucks honestly. But, I created a small following, an email list, I learned a lot about marketing funnels, writing newsletters, coaching, creating courses, etc. So, I am not walking away empty handed. I just don't know... if teaching Qigong "theory" is really aligned with truth. But, I also feel that it's not possible to create a business based on truth. So, I don't know what to do. Time to contemplate.

@Leo Gura that’ll mess up some threads. It’s all good.

@Leo Gura Yeah. It says I used 128% of my total attachment space.

Towards A radical wholeness is likely a clarified reexplaination and edited form of integral theory, also including chapter on tantra.

@Leo Gura But, you never spoke about integral Metatheory. So, that could be an interesting episode. - please answer: why can’t I attach files? Did you change something?