Thought Art

@Leo Gura Okay, I swore in a general rant against cult accusations as part of a long nuanced post and got warning points. I admit I wouldn’t say it again. I guess we can all improve. Mine may have been worse. But, anyway. Similar enough.

How to double your testosterone https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1bfJsEccVo/?mibextid=wwXIfr

I’m getting tired of the combative blog posts. If I can’t swear on here seems a double standard too.

I got some sales from Facebook ads. Also some from organic YouTube funnels. I will do more as part of my next phase. Just running ads isn’t enough. You need to have your value ladder in place, customer journey, avatar, etc

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZqGoX7uiUB/?igsh=MWZsZHN6anMxdHlxYQ== Well, the leaves fall down In autumn in our old town And I know now, The colours orange and yellow And I know know, That all we need… is just a little bit, for now… oh oh Well the leaves fall down, in autumn in our old town And I know now, the colours orange and yellow We’re looking out Across an open skyline And I know now.. That all we need… is just a little bit… for now.. oh oh…

Lovely day, outside with that freshness, Journaling, writing Qigong routines, listening to some of my song demos. My music is magic. I am glad I invested the time into it.

@Yimpa Haha, I love so love so much. But, also at a point it gets so extreme it almost become infinite. It’s like, perfection, but yeah. My ego is terrified of it. I know the experience with the girl is dualistic human love. But, it’s also a form of unity happening in the human domain. I think this love can be profound and important to human life. But, becoming totally selfless and One. I’ve been there. I’m not there now. It was perfect. But, to me now it’s terrifying.

@Leo Gura That’s fair. The fear I felt with her was similar to my fear in 5meodmt trips. Like I was gonna be washed away into this love… Im not sure it’s the same thing. But, holding her in my arms was so intense and my heart was so open. I might just not be that used to that much love. I’ll have to contemplate this more. Not to be soft lol.

Why is deep love so challenging? This summer I experienced so much love, with another person, I thought I was gonna die. Is awakening related to human love in this way? Worth contemplating.

If you practice Yoga also consider doing 100 hours of Qigong over next 5 years.

Reality isn’t going to change. You’ll still be human, have bills to pay, suffer, etc. For whatever reason this is life.

This is when Leo’s words can be misleading. Especially one of his recent posts about physical and mental stability.

Time for my next adventure. back to work this week. Traveling, planes, atvs and adventure. I made progress with my Qigong the last month or so, my health has improved too. Reconnected with music, in a healthier way this time around. Less pressure, more fun, more heart. A year from now, 5 years from now… what will I have made? Who will I have become? I am watching a Beastie boys recap on Apple TV. I realize that no one who is creative ever knew what was coming next. Things are never certain. Reality is messy for every creator. I will continue to work with my coach, keep earning money, investing in my ability to share, understand and teach Qigong. I’ll network and connect with more people, build my roots in a major city. Begin dating and get a girlfriend. Long term relationship is what I want. All in time. I also feel like I’m buying clothing I like and I’m being more comfortable with myself. I like to dress in a way that feels good to me. Also, I’m Bisexual and feel like I’m healing the shadow of repression on being attracted to men. I’m probably more straight than gay, but I should I suspect fully being whole and honest within myself in this regard matters. Gotta just be me. I will work tomorrow on Qigong routines, and I might go visit my sister again tomorrow or Wednesday. I will play through my album I’m working on again.

@Never_give_up I’ve learned the trick is to just enjoy creating.

Rest day

@Nilas Are you taking large doses? I’ve experienced bouts of not remembering which is scary. Happens with vaping especially large doses.

@Natasha Tori Maru I am generally good natured. But, I can flip my lip from time to time which is a character flaw for sure. Especially for this forum and the video catalogue. Gotta stand up for it. But, there is a right and wrong way. I apologize and going forward I will do my best (as usual notice the 13,000 posts) speak with generally respectful words. I see the importance of allowing open dialogue around the nature of the video catalogue, forum, the ideas, concepts, techniques taught in Actualized.org teachings. I would say part of me is still stubborn around having said it, because at the end of the day an intelligent person who honestly tries to learn from Leo isn’t going to end up in a cult. It’s highly unlikely. He teaches studying under many people, reading many books, and getting direct experience. If it’s not true, it’s not real. Simple as that. A cult wouldn’t teach you radical open mindedness, to question everything, to teach consciousness, epistemology, post modernism, philosophy of science, introspection, what it happiness, what is love, 35 fields of self help, etc etc Unfortunately, it is annoying and tiring seeing the disrespectful videos, posts, and threads misleading people and insulting the information that is available here. Calling it a cult, and people insulting them forum etc is foolish to me. Though, I understand why it happens. Actualized.org is a school teaching the pursuit of Truth and pure understanding. The wisdom in the video catalogue is phenomenal. A major problem is I think some of you guys don’t the watch the videos. Forum Leo isn’t like, Leo at his best. Thats light and casual Leo generally unless we ask him a good question well asked. No teacher is perfect clean of self deception 100% of the time, Leo knows that. But, we can do our best.

@Natasha Tori Maru I’m pretty bad. My bad boy era.

Some of what Bryan does does not interest me. My main take away are health fundamentals. Even though I don’t embody them perfectly. I improve.

@LordFall I ride in them a lot for work. Very dangerous. Also, very safe if you are careful. There is a risk in everything. My work is full of safety considerations I have lots to be mindful of. We almost got hit by a Jet who didn’t warn us of him being coming in for landing at a small air strip.