Thought Art

It’s usually the trips with the biggest emotional breakthrough that has strongest afterglow. Either one of great love, forgiveness and compassion or one of great peace, maturity and understanding. Not all trips have a nice afterglow but, many do.

True dat

Spring is soon and summer is near

True

@Bazooka Jesus Thanks bro bro 😎

@Miguel1 thanks! I started using the count down from 10 thing as well

I wake up feeling good. It feels good simply to go out, socialize, and meet girls. Watching anything more than Leo’s video, having some support/ accountability when you first go out etc, is a waste of time. Go out. It’s not even about the sex. It’s about getting experience and growing as a man. At one point I felt at one with everyone and the live music as well which was nice Most girls and guys are actually average looking too. This fear of 10s is dumb. Girls who are like 7 or sometimes 6 are nice too. Plus, personality plays a role. The great thing about it is you can just go out and have fun. Most if not all the stress is a fabrication of a mind which lacks experience but is full of memes. Destroy memes by experience.

Y’a gotta just get more direct experience. It’s uncomfortable, but the more you do it the more comfortable it becomes

True, the 21 year olds all huddled and said they liked me and I was cute, we laughed a lot. I slept with a 23 year old over the summer. I don’t think they will be mature enough for me relationship but idk. I know I need a lot more experience with women. I can’t settle without having really tried. I will need a nicer apartment. — I realize that, though there was not really any 10/10 girls at the club. That there’s so much about girls that make them beautiful I’m unique ways that can’t be calculated on a linear scale. I saw a chubby dorky guy get a hot girls number. I spoke with a random guy who turned out to be a mortician or something. We had a deep convo about death while young people danced around us. I got hit on very hard by a girl and her friend. It was fun, but also cringy. I said I had to get water. There were many girls where I pulled out of the set too soon. I was nervous. I am left with sort of a warm afterglow of having pushed myself. But, also my memory of how beautiful women are. People look very young to me which is interesting. I didn’t realize how short most people are. I feel more confident in my looks as well. The live band was very good.

Different girl

Sleep with her?

If I am 28 is it wrong to talk to a girl who is 21?

I definitely feel like I wanna talk to more girls. My mind replays all the moments I saw cute girls but didn’t talk to them. So yeah, good experience and time for bed.

I am still thinking way to much. I’ve seen glimpses though of what’s possible. But, too much thinking, not enough risk taking, not enough approaching tonight. But, I did have fun and did talk to girls. That is good. Yeah, I like girls. They were fun to talk to and to see. I can see how deep illusion the fear of speaking to them is.

I can do better to approach more. I also have

I’ve been mostly trying to acclimatize myself. Been having fun, talked to a few girls, some guys. Got approached by two girls who were hitting in my very hard but weren’t my type. I can see myself becoming good at this. Been taking small wins of just observing how people actually act. Women are attracted to me which is something I can see in their eyes. I didn’t realize how playful girls are. Um, but I still get nerves which is funny and I’ll get over them.

I feel a much more fun and relaxed state. The girls helped. Happen to run into my cousin as well and we chatted. Now I’m sort of standing in the club people watching. I’m surprised how short many girls are. Many girls here are like 20, which I have little interest in. But, it’s still healthy to be out. I will work on my approaches, and eye contact

Back in the club, talking to the girls in the line was a lot of fun. They were like 21ish, but didn’t mind me being 28 it seemed

the line has been pretty fun, speaking to a group of girls meow, when you see a 10 approaching an 11

I’ve caught a second wind second tallest guy in line girls tend to smile at me

Should I drink a beer? I don’t drink as a general rule…

I don’t even know what that is? What does a club girl find valuable? Ugh. I really hate this.

So, this happens every time. I go out, I feel weird, I go home. I KNOW now I want to speak to more women. But, when I see them wearing these outfits, drinking alcohol I just think “this is so dumb”… maybe clubs aren’t for me? I don’t know what to say, I even got some eye contact from some girls but I get too scared. This is such a dumb way to be. Is the club dumb or me? Hah I don’t know what to do. I need to find a way to meet more girls that is authentic to me. But, also… maybe I need to grow through discomfort? Like, it’s confusing. There is no getting around if I want to meet more girls… I have to approach and talk to them. When I look in the mirror I think “I look old and intimidating”. What? Maybe, I hear back tonight and rest. And, tomorrow try some day game approaches?

Okay so, I’m on the fence about this whole thing. I’m too afraid to approach. So… what now?

Retreated to a pizza shop. These girls look too young. I feel tired.