Thought Art

Swinging on the back porch Jumping off a big log Pablo's feeling better now Hanging by his finger nails Swinging on the back porch Jumping off a big log Pablo's feeling better now Hanging by his finger nails Well some people try to pick up girls They get called assholes This never happened to Pablo Picasso The girls would turn the colour of a juicy avocado When he would drive down their street in his El Dorado He could walk down your street Girls could not resist his stare So Pablo Picasso was never called an asshole Not like you Wow! Swinging on the back porch Jumping off a big log Pablo's feeling better now Hanging by his finger nails Swinging on the back porch Jumping off a big log Pablo's feeling better now Hanging by his finger nails He could walk down your street And girls could not resist his stare Pablo Picasso never got called an asshole Well the girls would turn the colour of a juicy avocado When he would drive down their street in his El Dorado Well he was only 5'3" But girls could not resist his stare Pablo Picasso never got called an asshole Not in New York Wow! Swinging on the back porch Jumping off a big log Pablo's feeling better now Hanging by his finger nails Swinging on the back porch Jumping off a big log Pablo's feeling better now Hanging by his finger nails

Creating my journal.

To me, this is the pinnacle of musical mastery... the lights, the show, the sound, the clothing, etc

@AerisVahnEphelia You are very wrong.

They say heaven's a place Yeah, heaven's a place, and they know where it is But you know where it is? It's behind the gate, they won't let you in And when they hear the beat coming from the street They lock the door But if there's no music up in heaven, then what's it for? When I hear the beat My spirit's on me like a live-wire A thousand horses running wild in a city on fire But it starts in your feet, then it goes to your head And, if you can't feel it, then the roots are dead And if you're the judge, then what is our crime? Here comes the night time

Did he have trauma or just experiences that shaped him?

A lot of guys want a relationship too. Personally, I would rather a deep relationship than be doing pickup. I’m only interested in the skill set as a means to an end.

@Recursoinominado Maybe,

Impatience is a cause of a lot of my suffering. Work to be done. Suffering is part of the gig.

Look, I love Owen and I think he has a lot to offer. He is also this little Ginger autistic guy. He isn’t a conscious dating coach. I’ve come across some other great coaches recently that I think have much healthier narratives than him. Be careful of getting stuck in these guys framing. Owen doesn’t have a great history of a bunch of healthy relationships. Though, again he has a lot to offer.

I am patient, intelligent and capable. I have the ability and the tools to bounce back from, grow and achieve my goals in life. Sometimes, recently there is this deep pain. Worrying if I’m on a good path or not. Looking at shiny objects like the music career of Arcadefire and feeling really angry I don’t know how to get that or if I can. I’m gonna be mindful and grow through this.

When I see Arcadefire perform I think, that is what my life should be. Anything else is a joke. Yet, being a band or artist like that is out of reach for me. So, fuck actualized.org and all this self help shit because my dream is impossible. It's all fucked up. Maybe, just maybe sticking to personal development was all I needed.... Not psychedelics, and spirituality and all this shit. It was great. But, It's not authentic success. Life isn't designed for me. Eveything is stupid. I don't believe becoming a musician is possible for me. I feel like I am not way interested in being a plumber, or a massage therapist, or a programmer. Qigong, yes... I am making progress. But, when I watch Arcade Fire perform I think my life is just garbage. I know, I know this is immature and shows a deep whole in my development. But, it's true and I need to work through it. --- This is my negative inner dialogue I am experiencing and want to be mindful as I go through it.

Unfortunately there are currently two sides to me. A very mature, in tune and happy person. Then, sometimes I feel so angry I can't be a professional musician I just want to die. I hate everything and get really mad. I am working through this. I am trapped in this existence with it's dying music scene, my aging body. My fears and insecurities. I have some things going for me. But, also... Yeah.

Hahaha

This song slaps

Pic is insta ick

I just it. I was surprised by how unstructured it is and honestly disappointed but what he is saying is good. He should put a little work into not just riff... Also, the "community" is dead. Lol.

Wealth is wealthy

Yeah, it's going to get knocked down, just use it to make your stronger and more conscious. Life is hard.

The cost of getting the girl is getting your heart broken 4 or 5 times so its strong enough for love.