Thought Art

The Bugs of America

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Creating my journal.

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcZQ0GiOQrD/?igsi=YzNvY2tlYjVkZ2hj New Démo. My first song without playing guitar. I made this loop beat in the KOII, and practiced and wrote lyrics. This is a demo. I’ll refine it and cut somethings out over time.

Here in my place and time And here in my own skin I can finally begin Let the century pass me by Standing under night sky Tomorrow means nothing I was only a child then Feeling barely alive when I heard a song from the speaker of a passing car And prayed to a dying star The memory's fading I can almost remember singing La, la la, la la la la La, la la, la la la la We watched the end of the century Compressed on a tiny screen A dead star collapsing and we could see That something was ending Are you through pretending We saw its signs in the suburbs You could never have predicted That he could see through you Kasparov, Deep Blue, nineteen-ninety six Your mind's pulling tricks now The show is over so take a bow We're living in the shadows La, la la, la la la la La, la la, la la la la Hey Put the cellphone down for a while In the night there is something wild Can you hear it breathing? And hey Put the laptop down for a while In the night there is something wild I feel it, it's leaving me La la, la la, la la la la La la, la la, la la la la La la, la la, la la la la La la, la la, la la la la

@Leo Gura What the fuck am I doing? Its just for now. Plant trees summer look for uranium winter.

@Leo Gura Bug Heaven,

@Leo Gura Oh yeah. Check out horse fly swarms terrible. Fun to kill.

@Leo Gura I live in a work camp of trees planters. We live in trailers with a large shared kitchen. I’m always eating with a large group of people. Food always prepared for us. It’s a good time. I work in swamps sometimes. That sucks and it’s bad money. Good land I can plant 3000 trees a day.

For the few last years I’ve planted trees for a living 6 months of the year. Ya’ll don’t know mosquitos. Not to mention, deer flies, no-see-ems and black flies. Terrible. Imagine trying to plant trees surrounded by a hundred mosquitos all morning. Biting your neck and buzzing in your ear. Biting through your shirt into your shoulder. *wack!* you fucker bit me And when they leave the black flies and massive deer and moose flies come out! Took me awhile to start wearing a bug net but I swear by it now. Ive been covered in hundreds of black flies at once many times. Terrible. Not to mention horse fly swarms. The bites I’ve had on my body at times is insane. but kinda cool 😎 The bugs taught me a lot about suffering for sure. Mosquito zen koan “bzzzz”.

Thanks for sharing this is motivating. I am following and will read the post. I will look online and begin planning. The one u want to do is free and always booked so far in advance. Do you think noise is part of why you can stretch outside the hall? Were you allowed to stretch at all?

This video is of Canadian Prime Minister Mark Carney speaking on ending trade negotations with Trump and the unjust tariffs he is putting on Canada. Notice how Mark Carney talsk talks, this is what intelligent, mature and competent leadership looks like. Notice how Trump is like a circus clown in comparison. Also, notice how bad things are with Trump. Canadians have to stand strong and I think Mark Carney and the team of negotiators are doing the right thing. Negotiations in good faith from Canadian side. But, it’s clear we can not trust the US federal government to handle things in a grounded and mutual regard.

@Joshe I think when you read it her history, it clear it wasn’t just a verbal command hallucinations. It came with a weight, and it was a reality and paradigm shift from the sounds of it. Clearly, there was a deeper issue if it was caused by psychosis then just hearing a voice say kill your kids and yourself to be free of this hell. She was open to others around her she was having thoughts of killing herself in the kids in the days and weeks prior. Really, she should not have been left alone with them until she returned to normal. It’s not normal to not sleep for weeks, etc. It’s hard to exactly the depth of the self deception she could have faced. She was a delivery nurse, and was very focused on the wellbeing of her kids for years. It’s so odd. I have to be willing to more openly consider she may have planned it, and I allowed my mind to open and take in more opposing views to my current one. Though, currently think the medication and over all mental health lead to this. https://abcnews.com/US/wireStory/killing-kids-lindsay-clancy-searched-hallucinations-psychosis-ways-135625829 “Her attorneys say Clancy did everything she could to seek help: She turned to multiple outpatient providers, tried various drugs they prescribed, called a suicide hotline, went to an emergency room, and approached but wasn’t accepted into a hospital-based, full-day treatment program for women with postpregnancy mental health problems. Clancy even checked herself into a psychiatric hospital for several days. Rather than improving, her condition worsened on the ever-remixed cocktail of psychiatric medications, some of them problematic for bipolar patients, her attorneys and family say.” Though, it’s unclear to me now what she told her doctors who prescribed the medication as i am seeing conflicting reports.

I pray for her and her family. She was failed by medical experts, lost 3 of her kids and her ability to walk. Has to carry the guilt and shame of this terrible situation. She is now hated and gossiped about by millions. She has lost everything. So sad. These medications are dangerous and no one should have to go through this. I respect people have differing views on this. But, be careful of the narratives you create….

Actually, each event is taken on a case by case basis and we shouldn’t make these sweeping statements

@Willy Phallicus Yesh maybe it was taking all those pills and falling out of a window and getting paralyzed…

This is clearly not the case. There are men and women who are sane and kill their kids. However, on a case by case basis… We see in this case clear suggestion of medical induced schizophrenia and attempt to end her immense suffering caused by the medications

She even attempted suicide.

@Emerald Thé thing is she had no history of mental illness or criminality, her family and husband are supporting her through this because they know her. They saw what the medications did to her. She openly warned people she was having the thoughts. Psychosis doesn’t equal incapacitation. She had a voice tell her this was the time do it it, so she claimed which I think is possible. You can be in psychosis and take steps. I of course admit to not knowing. But, she had no criminal history or reputation as a sadistic person. Strangling three of your kids with your bare hands is not something normal people can do.

@Basman I think there is. Sanity isn’t a given when you give medications. Reading her experience with doctors having watched many documentaries on the dangers of the medications was heart breaking. They totally failed her and the kids. They couldn’t have foreseen her doing that, but she destroyed her mind. Kept shoving pills into an already overloaded, toxic and inflamed system.

@Emerald How does she seemed like she planned the whole event? Was she free of the medications at the time? Because all the events leading up to it, lack of sleep, brain toxicity, having her doses increased despite telling the doctors she’s getting and gotten worse since the medications suggest she was a ticking time bomb to kill herself or others. You guys act like you know where the limits of psychosis is, what it should and shouldn’t look like and how long it will last and how coherent you should be. I think that is not correct. I remember waking up as a 12 year old kid after destroying 2 chairs and the TV. I had been screaming for 35 minutes at the top of my lungs. I had a fever and thought I was in hell. I didn’t choose to do those things.i have no memory of it in this case. I think it’s clear the doctors, many of them are in clear malpractice.

@Emerald Did you look into the medical history and notes regarding the medication and her brain toxicity? If you think she did ot in a sober mind what was her motive?

Justice is made by fully understanding the situation. It would be unjust to allow a woman to be fed for weeks medications causing extreme damage to herself brain and nervous system which resulted in hallucinations which caused her to want to kill herself and her kids. If my parents killed me id want to understand what happened. I’d want justice, not just arbitrary punishment. A precedent should be set to protect people in the future by making it illegal to over prescribe medications clearly causing harm. The medical history is very clear this was medication induced psychosis. You guys take for granted your sanity. I don’t think she in her right mind would have done this. Killing your three kids is obviously something no one gets away with. It’s social suicide. You guys act like she would do it, but give no motive.

@Elliott Man

@Leo Gura haha I as wondering how you would respond