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@Natasha Tori Maru thank you lol. I am here… and I… am easing into it. I don’t know what will happen. But, imagining my death has helped me relax more in my life. I suspect what is happening is serious. Big league. Climate change is really the number one issue.

@Natasha Tori Maru Removing all that Carbon takes a lot of energy and cooling. I can’t see us doing it.

Sorry guys. Things are not looking good. We are in a climate emergency. But, no one will stop burning fossil fuels. The carbon in the atmosphere is ALREADY tramping more heat than it releases. More energy. So. We are in a positive feedback loop for planetary heating currently. There is no way to remove the Carbon. Earth will get hotter and it’s already causing global wild fires, heat waves, etc. These heat domes too are scary.

Largest aquafer in the Wolf is drying out https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZLKuF7vZE1/?igsh=bTl2eHB5MHJlMm5o

Creating my journal.

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DV3CJjrlAiR/?igsh=MWM4aHo5ZGFmN2FrZw== We are facing a looming global food crisis.

https://www.aljazeera.com/amp/news/2026/8/2/hungary-plans-to-shut-down-only-nuclear-power-plant-amid-drought One of the problems with Nuclear Power is that is requires water to cool them. This is problematic as drought increase it means shutting them down. Also. Also, they add a lot of heat to our water system over time. It’s unclear all the problems this can have. I suspect it can lead to more Drought. I suspect wind power also has potential for disruptive influences on wind currents.

Yes I know that now you mention it.

Recently, I’ve really been contemplating if it is possible for me to be truly good? I am naturally selfish, even if I have higher consideration of others generally, not always. When I think about my own ecological impact, my own selfishness in how I spent my money, and what consumes my thinking. I am biased and selfish, prone to self deception. I don’t know if I can be truly good. Perhaps, I can strive to be less evil. I don’t know if this matters anymore either. It seems the corruption, evil, ignorance and lack of development of the planet is hurting us ecologically. I don’t see a future where we correct course.

I thought that this was one of the best episodes in a long time. I think that Leos' videos: 1. Understanding the Exquisite Balance of Life 2. High Conscious Politics Series 3. What is Wisdom? 4. What is Integrity? 5. as well as many others That there is a great synergy becoming apparent in my mind of how these videos come together to be greater than the sum of their parts. One of my biggest take aways was really seeing the importance of conservative principles in a balanced life. Seeing the pro's and cons between Liberal and Conservative ideas I found really grounding. I think hearing Leo talk about real, 'healthy' conservatism and its appeal and power to be comforting and true given my own liberalism and the suffering and cons that came with it. I am seeing a bigger picture here which I am going to be making more explicit to myself over the coming years that comes down to a 'divine' balance in life. I am beginning to see a... what is it called.. Transcendent perspective on Politics that is above being on the left or the right, or heavily driven politics based on pop cultural issues. Really, both Conservatism and Liberalism are Yin and Yang, important dualities that are divinely inspired within societies that allow them to survive and yet evolve. The tug of war between liberals and conservatives is actually at it's pure form healthy. As it is in ourselves as individuals we want to balance our liberalism and conservatism in a healthy way. Depending on our upbringing and survival needs this shapes in what ways we are likely to be on either end of this duality. To what degree should we open gates, try new things and allow ourselves freedom with finance, sexuality, identity, art, drugs etc? And to what degree should we stick to what works? We simply don't know. But, each human is a bit different in this regard and each strategy comes with it's own pros and cons. Conservatism is actually in a lot of ways.. if what works works... more safe. Yet, at the same times somethings changing a way can be safer in than old ways. But, that can't be known. There is always the "fog of war" as we go about new ways of science, new ways of living, new ways of politics, new ways of identity, new ways of etc. The problems exist in society when each side doesn't understand each other. As well when our societies poor epistemology and state of mental health, and education etc being affecting how our society operates... Essentially what we see in a lot of Conservative politics in the US is corruption unfortunately and doesn't portray what healthy conservatism is and what role it plays in a healthy society but also in a healthy personal development. There is also a lot of corruption in left politics as well. Many people who are mentally ill begin playing identity politics which I think is very dangerous and part of my own conservatism around trans ideas. I am pro trans etc, and yet I do think there is a lot of mental health problems in that particular community as well as low levels of personal development that leads them to care so much about how others think of them. But, I am open to the realities and importance of feeling accepted, safe, seen etc as a human. It's complicated. Some people, both on the left and right are conservatism in that they want to conserve their identities. The duality between left and right does collapse as all dualities do. The healthy/ unhealthy of society too is it's own ying and yang. The balance of healthy and unhealthy. Though, this duality is asymmetrical in quality to the conservative/ liberal duality. It would require much more contemplation to explain that idea here. Liberal vs conservative also need to be held to the light with: Spiral development, ego development, mental health, education, spiritual develop etc. I have been learning over the past few years the importance of conservatism for life long growth. That, for me personally my liberalism needs to be rooted in a healthy conservatism to keep my healthy, sustained and evolving over time. Being too liberal can be very dangerous because what so much that exists in the social matrix works. However, when we are exploring reality and doing deep philosophy there is the importance of the willingness to take risks. I have seen myself with regards to certain ideas in reality gone way way way outside of society in terms of my openness, triviality, etc go too liberal to be even safe to share those ideas with the most progressive people. In some ways my ideas would make liberals relatively conservative. So, I have been actually working to make myself more conservative over the past 2 years. This talk on Liberals and Conservatism can give you a greater respect for everyone in society as you begin to see the value in their different perspectives. It can also show you how you can begin to balance out your own life. When you apply spiral dynamics, Susan C's models with balancing a healthy conservative/ liberal approach to your life there is something deeply powerful in that. As well as developing a other healthy personality traits not measured by these models. Balance, consciousness and love.

I’m going to be kinder to myself

I made a wild sounding song. It’s not perfect but I felt like a captured a vibe worth sharing. https://www.bandlab.com/post/1615005c-6e03-43d2-b18b-a1088c3f2db8 i basically just don’t like how the vocal comes in at first.

I love swimming. One thing I’m grateful for is I swam competitively as a child. So nice to be able to swim well.

I had this day where I woke up and just felt turned off by Bryan Johnson. Not sure what happened.

Girls dress up because they want people to think they are beautiful. If they are into you, and you tell them… it can open them energetically. They really, really like it. They are sort of insecure and I think when you tell them they really appreciate it. It’s not even just a compliment it’s confirming your interest in her.

@Leo Gura Yes, I know better. I was too complacent last night. However, it’s still a rep. I am aware of the need to talk to people and build state, I’ve done this before while I was here. Sometimes it’s like I’m in this thick gel and everyone seems outside or reach. I have one more night here I’ll give it another swing. How can I find wingmen? thanks,

It would be cool if you guys were in Montreal. I’d love to go out with some guys and see you in action. Im happy with my wins recently. But, for example last night I went out but didn’t really socialize. I didn’t see any girls I was into. But, I feel like if I was with other guys to push me and to see how they do things it would help me grow.

Yeah, but how you gonna replace your ear?

@Zenterus As far as I’m concerned I’ve had good results. You spend time with her.