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There are many ways of having these experiences. You can have them through meditation, self-inquiry, and yoga. Consider that it will likely take years or even decades to have these awakenings from these practices alone. The fastest way to have these experiences is by combining these practices with the responsible exploration of psychedelics. Also, it's very important to use contemplation with your psychedelic experiences. Some other practices that can create these awakenings, from what I hear, are tantra and holotropic breathwork. Hope this helps.

Even doing self-inquiry once can point in the right direction. You'll at least get closer to the truth even if you don't have an enlightenment experience. Just watch the Neti Neti video and follow along with the exercise. It will be so much more helpful than all of this theorizing. Theorize again after you try this lol.

Do you have any important messages for me, my friend?

@Nahm I'm going with red

You are the perceiver, and the perceived. You are just as much the screen in front of you as you are your body or the brain. This confusion is a great sign. Nobody on this forum can give you the answer to what you are. It cannot be communicated. We can only point you in the right direction. I highly suggest you try self-inquiry. You can start with Leo's Neti Neti technique video, and then "how to do self-inquiry".

Just curious, when you had the experience of your foot being infinity and containing trillions of galaxies into infinity, did you see anything? Or was it a direct awareness, or intuitive understanding? Also, what spiritual practices do you do that helped you have such an experience? Obviously, you have conversations with God, I'm just curious about what other practices you have in place. And how long have you been on the spiritual path? Thanks!

This sounds fucking awesome. Way beyond anything I've ever experienced. Thank you so much for sharing. This makes me so excited to go deeper

If the tour happens after this coronavirus situation passes, I will certainly be attending a talk + workshop, if not multiple. I would love to have you anywhere near Cleveland.

I have a very similar block, and I couldn't have described it better myself. Something I discovered in my last mushroom trip much is helpful for anyone dealing with this issue. What masculine energy is, at the deepest metaphysical level, is the primary mechanism of creation. It is the directly manifested beingness of isness. When we repress our masculinity, we repress our self-expression to the core. On ayahuasca, I discovered that masculinity, from a human perspective, is like naturally following our desires, in essence, being ourselves fully and feeling absolute confidence. Absolute confidence can be achieved by non-dual awareness, rather than dualistic confidence, which is fragile because it depends on what you're comparing yourself to. I will definitely try a body awareness exercise to try to help with this.

@Leo Gura For what it's worth, I had an insight a couple of weeks ago during meditation about your thyroid issue (I'm a psychic/intuitive healer). The insight was that the thyroid issue is being caused by a throat chakra block centered around something you are not saying to your parents and possibly your brother. There's something you are not willing to think about and express to them. This is blocking your healing and integration. If you'd like, I'd be happy to do a distance healing session for you and possibly give you more insight. Either way, I'd say it's worth contemplating for yourself.

@Roy Yes, 100% true lol

@billiesimon @Preety_India Lmao that's wild He posted while I was typing, but somehow, I missed the last line until you pointed it out

I also developed healing and psychic abilities after I drank ayahuasca. I still have them. I do reiki, feel other people's trauma, and receive specific insights into their emotional blocks and I channel healing messages. Also, I can certainly relate to your "healing formula". I was tripping on mushrooms a couple of weeks ago and I perceived my cat as more alive than ever as if she was this fragile, majestic, divine creature. I felt so much love and respect for her and I gave her reiki. Since then, she's been my best friend. Thanks for the post.

Are you sure you're not just demonizing @Leo Gura because he's not afraid to say blunt truths that hurt your ego? You can label him as narcissistic. That's fine, but know that it's probably just an ego distraction to keep you from doing the actual work. From my perspective, the fact that Leo doesn't give a shit about coming off blunt or cocky is a massive strength. Altering his message, essentially lessening his truth, because of what you think of him would literally be his ego getting in the way of speaking truth.

@wavydude thanks, brother! I'd highly recommend it if you find yourself drawn to the medicine.

Here are some additional insights for you guys that didn't make it into the video: Resistance is the root cause of all suffering. Each person is a unique expression of God that is perfect. It seems like cliche religious junk, I know, but realizing that each one of us is already divinely perfect, ego and all, was very relieving. On the second night, I also felt like I had a Kundalini awakening. I felt so energized and like I could express myself through my movements, words, and actions like never before. I felt tapped into infinity. For the first time, I had not just a conceptual understanding, but a direct experience that my ego was an illusion. All separation is an illusion. All form is God shapeshifting within itself. Awareness is God experiencing itself. I saw myself as a beautiful expression of God. Hope you. enjoy the video!

I know Leo talked about it, but I'm especially psyched for this one. Part one was a total game-changer for me. In the top 5 videos ever for sure.

One more really powerful exercise that will prepare you is the letting go technique Leo talks about in "The Power of Letting Go" episode. If you can do that technique with literally any one thing, that is basically what it feels like. It's literally just a shift in focus and consciousness. Not nearly as scary as it sounds. At this point, it really seems like you have all the philosophy and theory down like Judge Joe Brown. In my experience, that theory is the most important prerequisite for ego-death. The next step is an experience. I'm not saying go straight for a heroic dose of 5-meo. The way I experienced ego-death was a slow unraveling that shook a little bit of delusion out each trip. It's not like you'll eat a few grams of mushroom and POOF YOU DONT EXIST. No haha, In my experience, each trip only took me to truths that I was ready to experience. But this is why it's so important to use psychedelics responsibly. Start with a low dose, and gradually increase. That way, you don't have to be afraid of being blasted into truths that you think you're not ready for.

Thanks for sharing. I like that analogy. I had an insight while reading it. Identifying as the blank awareness as viewing everything as external, if done completely, in theory, would be identical to identifying as everything or God. Also, identifying as consciousness is identical to identical to identifying as nothingness which is identical to Everything. It always comes full circle.

Preface: I know nothing. What is knowledge? To know something, the way the word is traditionally used, means that you believe something. What is belief? To believe something means that you are labeling a concept in your mind as being an accurate representation of reality. Our minds are constantly building a conceptual model of the world. We also create distinctions within this model. These distinctions are the only way in which we are able to "know" the world. If we were to perceive everything as one indistinct thing, we would not be able to build this conceptual model of reality that is so helpful for our biological survival. The distinctions we make with language and concepts only have meaning relative to the rest of reality that is being distinguished from. For example, the word "banana" only has meaning because it distinguishes an actual banana from the non-banana parts of reality. If reality was actually just one infinite banana, the word "banana" would have no meaning. It would be identical to saying God or Reality. This metaphor breaks down a bit because an infinite banana is not Absolute Infinity. Nevertheless, even the words God or Reality, no matter how sacred you hold them, only point to concepts in your mind. It's just something that you are distinguishing. Again, we cannot conceptualize something that is indistinct (nondual). We can only be it or be conscious of it. The moment we think about God, we get diluted. The capability of our dualistic minds doesn’t allow for it. The Universe in nondual. Being is nondual. It's our mind activity that makes it dualistic. It must be this way because our minds work with symbols, not raw reality. The human mind is Being's way of processing Itself dualistically. The domain of working with raw reality (Being) is consciousness. One of the most fundamental distinctions we make in our minds is the distinction between self and other. Just like we build a conceptual model of the world, we also build a conceptual model of ourselves. This is the ego. This is who we think we are. Let's take a look at some common lines of distinction between self and other. Let's say that I consider all of my skin to be part of me, but the air right next to my skin to be not me. Seems legit. But what if we consider the heat coming off my body. Is that heat me? Is my hair me? What about the hair that the barber just cut off? What if my pinkie gets cut off? Is that pinky still me? What if a surgeon reattaches my pinky? Did it go from being me to not me to me again? Are my thoughts me? What about when I dream that I'm Harry Potter. Am I actually Harry Potter in that dream? Am I no longer David? Or maybe you don't actually believe that you're the body or the mind. Maybe you believe you are consciousness. Are you contained within the body? Again, what about when you dream? What if you had a samadhi experience where you become another object? I would seem as if all knowledge is ultimately delusion. Knowledge is basically the art of a mind convincing itself that it has a grasp on truth. We must remember that these concepts and beliefs are not the actual truth. They are just a rough, simplistic model that exists as a mental image/movie and words. At the end of the day, knowledge is stored symbols. This contemplation seems to support my insight from my last mushroom trip (see my trip report) that everything is infinite delusion. More accurately, all knowledge is delusion. The Truth is Being. Of course, we have to remember that delusional beliefs ARE also Being. So at the same time, they are delusion, they are Truth. But hey are the map, not the territory. They are the menu, not the mango smoothie. But remember that the menu still exists and it is just as much a part of being as the smoothie is. In conclusion, I have just one thing left to say. All heil the Banana.

Funny, I was just talking about this yesterday with my mom. I had pretty much the same thought process until I had my first couple of enlightenment experiences last week and this week. We're already in paradise homie. Your entire life is a perfect gift to yourself, from yourself. Especially if you're on the path of awakening, this lifetime will be unfathomably beautiful for you my friend. When we're looking forward to something, that's a sign that what we're experiencing right now is somehow inferior in our minds. As you become more conscious, you'll realize that is wrong. This life is the greatest gift you could possibly give yourself. Life is like a song. If we spend the whole time waiting for the beat to drop, we miss 99% of the music.

@Heaven You can start with a microdose. With Penis Envy mushrooms, which are very potent strain, I started with a gram, then a week later, I ate two grams, and 10 days later, I ate 3 grams. I had an awakening from that. and then 10 days after that, I ate 3 grams again and had a much deeper awakening/enlightenment experience. You can increase by one gram at a time until you find your breakthrough dose. Or, if you want to be more conservative, only increase by .5 grams per trip. Give yourself at least a week, ideally 2, to reset your tolerance and integrate each trip. It's important that you contemplate the shit out of each trip to integrate it.

I'm not sure that "ego death" is the best phrase because there is really nothing that dies. It's more like you realize that it never existed in the first place. It's funny, from your perspective, it seems like some big scary thing that changes everything, and your life is over. Brother, this couldn't be further from the truth. As soon as it happens, you'll realize that there's nothing to be afraid of. You honestly sound ready already imho. It's more like a deep understanding that just makes so much fucking sense. To me, it felt like I was purging delusion and it felt so good. I can honestly say that listening to Leo's videos on ego and enlightenment is probably the best prep course on earth for ego death. Aside from that, meditation and self-inquiry won't hurt. Also, if you're going to use psychedelics, which have helped me reach incredible awakenings, start with a low dose and work your way up gradually until you have a breakthrough. It's a lot less intimidating this way and you might find it easier to surrender to the experience. Best of luck brother. You are in for so much beauty and awe. It's not as scary as you think. All of that fear is an illusion anyway. You'll see. You are ready.

I ate 3 grams of Penis Envy Mushrooms (Lemon Tek). I had the deepest awakening of my life. Here are my notes (converted from voice recordings). This was my fourth awakening (One sober, one on Aya, two on Mushrooms.) I had another awakening on mushrooms like 10 days ago which was deeply profound, but this most recent trip blows that one out of the water. Looking forward to going deeper in the near future. Hope you enjoy I realized that I just keep forgetting over and over again that I'm not in control. God is the unstoppable force and anything other than total surrender to it is insanity. Ego is basically resistance and therefore, by this logic, insanity. Identity is like a struggle against the river of surrender to God. The fear of psychedelics because of losing control is irrational because we lose control completely every single night in our dreams. Also, we specifically face our deepest subconscious fears in our dreams and we experience our dreams as if they are reality because we are not conscious that they are just dreams. That also connects to how our waking fears are irrational but we're not conscious enough to realize that our identity and therefore, all fear is an illusion. God is constantly morphing and changing. There's no way it can be conceptualized because it's absolutely everything. It's so total. It's the fabric of everything. There is nothing more fundamental. This whole identity that I take so seriously is so fucking laughable, it's just a joke. My ego identity is just as true as anything. Everything is true and false simultaneously, but I hold my identity as so important, but it's not who I am. I am so much more. Telling people that reality is an illusion is a nearly guaranteed way to make people demonize you and discredit you because it threatens their sense of reality and their ego. Telling people that they don't exist is pretty much the last thing they're willing to accept. Even though I see all of these amazing visuals, I am still aware that this is not exclusively God because anything that you point to is not it. It's everything. Everything I say is still missing the point. There is no point, lol. But the point I'm trying to make is that everything I am asking and searching for when it comes to God and Truth, I AM IT. Just be it and surrender to it. It doesn't get any deeper than that. Nothing could ever be closer or further away from God than anything else. No matter how far you run from God, you're still in the exact same place. You're still God. You cannot run away from it. You just are. There's nothing contradicting about using logic and rationality and being conscious of the divinity simultaneously. I became aware of a demon I've been fighting my whole life about there not being enough time. This is so silly because time is something I invented. I have infinite time. One of the most fundamental differences between normal waking consciousness and my mushroom trip is that with normal consciousness, I am clinging to my identity and therefore unconsciously defending it, as I must in order to perpetuate the illusion. Basically everything I say is just a projection to defend my ego. I realized that I was unconsciously trying to attain a higher level of consciousness or an ego-death experience. Then, I realized that it cannot be attained this way. I just have to realize that I already am it (God). All descriptions of God are completely delusional, including my own. Everything basically boils down to infinite delusion. This creates a strange loop of everything being delusional and everything being true simultaneously. Falsehood and delusion are identical to reality. It's all the same thing. This entire psychedelic experience cannot be grasped or remembered accurately because it is so complex, deep, and constantly changing. This is why a trip cannot be well explained or conceptualized. No symbol could communicate or represent the experience with a high degree of accuracy. This trip has such a strong theme of me trying to figure out what God is and what I am. It also has a deep undertone of me trying to control. It's more accurate to say I'm a human dream than a human being. The tricky part is, what is the "I". It seems to be continually morphing, like it's not steady, like it's not real. Yet there is one steady presence. There's no fundamental difference between my rational mind and my intuitive mind. It's all part of the same source. It's all part of the same dream. Surrender is not what I thought it was. I used to hold this idea that surrender means to be at ease with what is going on in this moment. It's like there's multiple layers or dimensions to what's happening. Let's say, for example, I feel anxious about talking to a woman. On one dimension, I'm doing it; the words are coming out. On another dimension you’re thinking; all of these anxious thoughts flowing through your mind. I also might be thinking that surrender would be the experience of talking to this girl without anxious thoughts. But what I realized is that there's no winning that game. There are always infinite dimensions and factors at play. Total surrender means accepting all of it exactly as it is. Surrender is realizing there is no surrender. It all just is exactly how it is. It was like I transcended the duality of surrender and non-surrender and discovered Surrender. It was like accepting the Isness totally, including all resistance. I surrendered to the resistance, and in a paradoxical way, resistance no longer existed. This insight is specifically hard to explain but this was a massive insight for me with an enormous energetic release. It was like a metaphysical orgasm. My cat was deeply concerned about me lol. I also had new deeper insights into divine feminine and masculine. I no longer understand these forces as just certain parts of the One but as an all-encompassing duality. Masculine is the primary being or isness of God. It's about owning what you are by being it. It shows up in people through confidence and courage. Counter-intuitively, the most attractive thing possible is to completely own who I am, knowing that all I have to do is be who I am, and yet the feminine will always be attracted to Me. There will always be the other half to love Me and to help Me accept what I am. Feminine is the acceptance, love, and reaction to the Masculine. Of course, these are not absolutely True. This is only a relative truth. In Truth, these forces are one. My deepest fear both as a human and as my God-self is of what I am. My deepest fear is accepting Myself and all of my infinite beauty. If anyone could be selfless enough to be totally honest as a spiritual teacher, they would be one of the greatest teaches in the world, or maybe they would just come off as completely insane. Or both. A great spiritual teacher must find balance by grounding his message in truth and authenticity and also present it in a way that will be understood by considering the psychology of his audience. All of my egoic concerns, questions, worries, and anxieties, all seem so fucking petty and delusional. The deeper I can accept Being, the more peace and bliss there is. I'm in the middle of a massive fucking Awakening. How do I describe this? It's so fundamental. It transcends all human knowledge! I shed so much fucking delusion. But, I'm as thick in the delusion as when I began! There's nothing but delusion! It's all made up. It's all imaginary. Infinite delusion: that's what reality is! Everything I'm saying right now is completely fucking delusional. Of Course! Self-acceptance is the theme of this trip. I'm not talking about my human self. The human self is so fucking petty compared to my actual infinite Self. 3-D reality is challenging but it is not punishment. It's actually a gift. A lot of what we're doing is this metaphysical dance of grasping and clinging to reality, purging delusions, and clinging to new delusions. This reality is something to be cherished. It's so beautiful. Remember to be grateful for it. "Physical reality" gives us stability. It's something to be grounded in. This "3-D Matrix reality" gives us the experience of having a stable, tangible reality that allows for amazing experiences that would not otherwise be possible. There is no difference between fantasy and reality, or between true and untrue. Clearly, a fundamental shift happened I this trip where I stopped thinking of me as a human and started thing of Me as in God. The claim that everything is a delusion seems fake when you're grounded in physical reality until you realize that the "real" beliefs that you are grounded in are also delusional. One way to sum up this awakening is the realization that reality is completely fucking magic. It's completely bonkers, amazing, grand, and unthinkable. People just don't realize it because they're too caught up in delusions of survival. Survival is delusional because the self everyone is trying to preserve doesn't exist. This problem is so tricky, it's godly. This awakening was so incredibly deep, but it had nothing to do with learning any new facts. It was just a deeper realization of what I am. Any time I feel tension arise and I try to argue with someone, I am most definitely wrong. This statement is also delusional.

In addition to the virus affecting many of our bodies, there's another virus infecting all of our minds - fear. I don't have to tell you how much this is affecting the collective right now. In a addition, we are being forced into isolation, which can wreak havoc on our mental health. On top of that, we are facing the most severe financial crisis since the great depression. People are losing their jobs and they have no idea how they're going to pay their bills. For these reason, is so vital that we take care of our mental health in these times. This video is about reframing this "negative" situation into an opportunity for growth, purging, and reconnection to ourselves. I hope this helps someone out there!