Forrest Adkins

I have a lot of rejections from girls in real life but also on an online dating platform where I usually get blocked whenever I reveal my photos. How do you not let that get to yourself? I mean you have to be real with yourself that you start with a huge handicap, I'm already 30 and it feels so hopeless at times. Looks wise Ive done everythig I can (good clothes & fit)

This is what Im a bit afraid of, Im more of a neurotic kind of engineer guy, so I hope I can just let go. I think this is the reason LSD appealed more to me, people say it feels more intellectual and not as emotional. How big is the difference in effect of these two substances really? Is it more like 2 brands of cigarettes or more pronounced?

In some weeks ive got some shroom. and I have extreme paranoia on weed. I have expierence with half a tab of LSD with no problems, but I'm still in a way afraid of losing control and have huge respect of these substances. My plan is to start with a microdose like 0,2g and then maybe 0,5 to 1g later. I really dont want to blast of completely, but a nice meditation enhancement and insights would be good. Any thoughts? I didnt have any fear of losing control during the LSD but I heard shrooms are different. What is meant that you are not in control like on LSD ? Not in control in a I dont know whats going on and a ill strip naked and jump out the window way?

Since the capitalist system assumes infinite growth its a matter of time until this collapses. The question is when? Is it still a good idea to invest into indexes like S&P 500? ive considered getting in since the covid situation because the market is down.

Honestly, I dont know. @Derek White I think exercises 2, 3 and 4 are pretty straight forward. "The Universe is one being" you hold that in mind while gazing in a meditative state into a mirror / another person / external reality.

I saw things as if they were there just because of some simmilar outlines which is common. The faces of people changed to sinister grimaces, I saw glasses on people that had none. I saw the sky as if it was full of birds flying in patterns. The closed-eye I visuals were so real I forgot I had my eyes closed. It was very dream-like experience and it would have definitely scared me if I wasnt high as fuck.

Thank you

I had a deliriant-like experience on a high dose of MDMA. I hallucinated things that weren't there, and my short term memory was completely shot, although I was aware I was on a drug and Im hallucinating (blinking my eyes reset the hallucinations for a moment). I became conscious how the pattern recognition of my brain was completely shot and how my brain filled in the blanks for a almost anything and I saw these things as if they were real and there but it was just an approximation my brain made and It was so clear to me that these things are not real that I didnt even mention it to others anymore, because they wouldn't understand. So the days after I contemplated how much blanks my brain fills in ordinary consciousness and how much of the things I see are really there and it confuses me to no end. If these is no brain and no objective external reality what is the baseline for these approximations my consciousness is trying to approximate to? Is god simply the sum of all perspectives, consensus or not? But then what is objective reality, there is at least some consensus - right? Or how else would we be able to interact with each other? What does it mean if this consensus is distorted?

I have the problem that after about 30 minutes my leg and ass muscles are getting uncomfortable. My muscles even start to shake and its really bringing my out of my meditation to the point where I have to stop. Im trying to sit kind of like leo in the blog post video about mediation posture. I feel stable when I start but after 30 minutes im just wiggling around. Im sitting on a pillow like this On top of this mat What the best way to sit on this?

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Would it be possible for God to become a creature with no chance of awakening within a box that keeps him alive forever and stay that way for eternity?

Im not Ra

50.7 Questioner: Thank you. Can you expand on the concept which is this: that it is necessary for an entity to, during incarnation in the physical as we call it, become polarized or interact properly with other entities and why this isn’t possible in between incarnations when he is aware of what he wants to do, but why must he come into an incarnation and lose memory, conscious memory of what he wants to do and then act in a way that he hopes to act? Could you expand on that please? Ra: I am Ra. Let us give the example of the man who sees all the poker hands. He then knows the game. It is but child’s play to gamble, for it is no risk. The other hands are known. The possibilities are known and the hand will be played correctly but with no interest. In time/space and in the true-color green density, the hands of all are open to the eye. The thoughts, the feelings, the troubles, all these may be seen. There is no deception and no desire for deception. Thus much may be accomplished in harmony but the mind/body/spirit gains little polarity from this interaction. Let us re-examine this metaphor and multiply it into the longest poker game you can imagine, a lifetime. The cards are love, dislike, limitation, unhappiness, pleasure, etc. They are dealt and re-dealt and re-dealt continuously. You may, during this incarnation begin — and we stress begin — to know your own cards. You may begin to find the love within you. You may begin to balance your pleasure, your limitations, etc. However, your only indication of other-selves’ cards is to look into the eyes. You cannot remember your hand, their hands, perhaps even the rules of this game. This game can only be won by those who lose their cards in the melting influence of love; can only be won by those who lay their pleasures, their limitations, their all upon the table face up and say inwardly: “All, all of you players, each other-self, whatever your hand, I love you.” This is the game: to know, to accept, to forgive, to balance, and to open the self in love. This cannot be done without the forgetting, for it would carry no weight in the life of the mind/body/spirit beingness totality.

@Serotoninluv To be honest I think most people here dont get it and just parrot Leo. When someone asks a concrete question Its so easy to just answer "who is asking the question?" etc. and seem mystical and enlightened. Its the same with the Love=Infinity responses. I dont think anyone here but a few know what they are talking about and I think its become too stupid, it wasnt like that and it feels like a step back.