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Nothing much. I did 3 psychedelic trips, first one was great. Second and third one my depression and loneliness and twisted thinking were amplified and the experience was not pleasant. Not willing to do it again anytime soon!!! I had 2 therapy sessions but they’r hella expensive, don’t know for how much longer I can keep that going im workin on cognitive therapy. Learning about cognitive distortions. Therapist says I need to have this down cuz it’s first step in the healing journey. I’m also trying inner child work but that’s not working well.. I just can’t seem to get it right butttttt idkk if this is the right path. Idk what I’m doing

teal swan talks about the law of mirroring and how it gets carried over. Like if/when I kill myself, all of my darkness will get reflected back at me and it will be hellish i was going thru lots of stress at work once and was seriously thinking of ending it but decided to take a nap instead and I had a horrible dream which felt too real of me walking aimlessly in the street and then some people slapping me and shaking me to wake the fuck up idk what that was all about and to a certain extent I’m almost curious now what happens to be honest. But the finality of such an act, the not being able to undo it is very very very very very very terrifying im feeling too alone and idk if it’s fixable anymore today was also stressful at work and I just did some crying in bed my chest hurts like I’m on the verge of a heart attack and I’m only 23 (:

U guys know of any wacky new age spiritual person who claims to have killed themselves in another life and knows what happens?

i dont know man. I did idk if thats what leo means by the flesh i needs to be educated

@Leo Gura What’s “the flesh”?? you mean this part??

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Ew? that attitude... ? i did shrooms first time and felt love and connection to life. Then I tried again twice and I just feel nauseous and hungry and alone ugggh. Life’s not fun

Hm.. for u 0.5 and 13 lasted about the same ??

@Leo Gura yo, Leo got a question if i take 1g of shroom effects last 6 hours, does dat meen dat 2g will last 12 hours and so on or nah it’s still about 6 hours aprox regardless of how much i take? sorri if itz stupid kwestshen I’m new to dis stuff

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Ye I took 1 week break. Guess shoulda waited longer

had another trip on 1g that didn’t have much of an effect except that I felt profoundly sad and realized that I need to become more in touch with the !!!!>>REALITY<<!!!! of how I have been completely influenced by my dysfunctional family all my life. It felt like an extremely important thing which is KEY to my understanding of myself at a personality level

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Don’t have vacuum container just put it in fridge hopefully it still works this weekend dont know

❤️❤️❤️❤️ thank u so much for the warning. I see what u mean

it was great guys I became aware of how things change from light to dark so fast based on wrong thinking. cool trip. First of many. good night it’s 3:20am now. I’ll go to sleep

ooh feeling a bit nauseous lol

oooh i think colors are getting brighter

ate it 20 minutes ago, nothing's happening.. how long does it take for stuff to happen?lol im watchig this

21:21 ? oh look synchronicities already happening

@integral ok i’ll do less than 2g then. I don’t have anything to measure exactly though. I’m eyeballing it. I just know there’s 2 grams here lol So I’ve changed my mind I’ll do it right now and then see what happens. There’ll be plenty of time to ride it out until I have to go to work tomorrow. I’ll work late in the afternoon. That’s plenty of time. Cmon it can’t be that bad...lol

ok guys I’ve ignored the warnings❤️? I’m gonna try it tonight actually, like at around 4am so I can trip it out and then work later in the day (I work a bit on Saturday too)

wonderful video LEO

Cool, I’ll do it in the early morning right before sunrise? ☀️