Loving Radiance

Sound advice here! @Adrian- I'd add contemplation using a journal. Together with mindfulness from your meditation or yoga practice you develop deep, nuanced and powerful thinking abilities when you contemplate every day. Intuition, thinking ability and introspection skyrocketted for me. Look at your goals, imagine what skills you need for them and decide what practices, habits and meta-habits are suitble for you.

The bar helped in the short term. So far it's going fine since I bought an extra table on my desk for my monitor.

Since a truffle trip I am more aware of my spine (maybe also with kriya yoga)... I feel contraction in the upper part around the shoulder blades, contraction beyond usual tension in the shoulder muscles. I feel the energy in the spine and pain in the upper part. Some other noteworthy things are that a vertebra in that region is misaligned since childhood and that I sit long hours for university study. Concerning the misalignment, I asked a physiotherapist, she answered that the misalignment wouldn't be a thing to be concerned about and that it would just be cosmetic to go into that. I changed the way I sit and am much more conscious of sitting straight up. Pain is still coming back when studying. What do you see & suggest? Maybe just moving/walking around more while working?

For me want & desire are the same. Both come from a fountain of ever overflowing love. The nature of your heart / essence / higher self is expansion and that expansive energy is what you feel because it's already in your heart. The destination is already here. About need & craving: they are lack / contraction / black hole. Fulfilling them isn't leading to expansion because of their nature. I use my board for expansion. That being said, there's nothing wrong with needs & cravings because they are human. I personally don't add them to my board. It seems to me that you notice that craving and porn feel off to you. I could also say that they aren't feeling good to you even though they lead to great peaks. Talking about bliss peaks which lead to me feeling not good or contracted in long-term: For me long-term contraction overwrites short-term bliss. They show me that they aren't positives in my life. And so they are dropped like thoughts in meditation (also notice that it's a belief that you got to fulfill a craving and notice that this too can be dropped). This continuous letting go can take as long as it keeps appearing, perhaps taking months, years or decades. Deconditioning yourself can be seen as beautiful in it's seemingly eternal cycle and you can also suffer when you believe it's hopeless.

Craving ≠ want Need ≠ want

@Vivaldo From the relative I think it's true, and also consider that there is no relative & absolute domain.

What I understood is that Self is no other. So, orifices with bubbles to be popped are other. Incarnations are other.

The thought "pushing energy / agenda" or rather "I don't have time for this / it needs to be rushed/pushed" feels off. Thanks! Hehe, this is magic Just last week I bought another one. Gotta write inspection on it.

Question about the emotional scale. Something feels off. Using the scale is for me immediately connected to going to love etc. Thus I feel no acceptance of emotions cause I have the agenda of going higher up the scale. I then feel I don't want to feel more expansive and I just want to feel the present emotions. I feel a pushing energy of controlling emotions with that agenda. Is it more about feeling the emotions, so when they leave an empty space that the next emotion can be felt?

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLj0z9X5dZbLsg7n_fAYi7rCSYRMvrv5tr Look in the info box for the book. And also this thread:

I think you meant this one I also think that Nahm meant it as a pointer to actuality, to remind us of the true nature. It is fitting when considering the nature of the thread's topic. And regarding the op: I couldn't do it right now. But watch me 1.5 hours after eating 15g of truffles and there is no difference in body or no body or fire or no fire.

Of course. Heck there are even laws against walking around naked.

It's simply not the norm to walk around naked. Anything that isn't a norm in the environment you're living in is felt as uncomfortable. Possible fears are of judgement because one is insecure or not centered in their appearance.

Once you can move on your own and can go to the support groups you can ask around about good places to live at. Ask them if they want to better their situation and if they want to team up with you. Together search out good places to live at and ask people about apartments. Don't wait for ads. Create a group of friends you live with so you aren't dependent to you mother. @Bobby_2021 Besides the gym I'd also suggest emotional release tools: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLKmB51wF7NlDZgRnxUlt7BF60VQtciuH

@B_HAZ If she still can hold a conversation, have a completion conversation with her of speaking about things that are still unresolved. Look at her and feel grateful for her being here. Make it so that in your mind she is already gone and feel the gratitude to experience her right now. Holy fuck, I gotta cry right now. Become conscious of her presence here. Feel thankfulness and joy that she is here with you. This moment will end. At some point you won't see her again in her brilliant light. So, breathe in every detail of her presence & energy. Become still and notice every small thing that you are grateful for. Feel like every moment is the last that you share with her. Feel that gratitude. Isn't it the most beautiful and precious gift that you could ever been given? Her being here right now? You love her so much. Tell her that and let her feel your love. Be conscious here right now. Every moment is infinity that you two spend together. Right now happening to you. Feel that gratitude. After her death, take yourself time and be gentle to yourself. Feel every emotion that comes up even if you judge some to be disrespectful and unloving towards her. You have infinite time to heal. There is no rush. What I suggest to you is two rituals Right before bed, recall her and feel her presence. Let her feel your undying love. Do shamanic breathing for 10 minutes. Then connect with the feeling of her presence and let her feel your love to her. Be open to her communicating anything to you.

Hey @Leo Gura, am I allowed to share my notes on your solipsism video in the summary thread?

In my experience, if you can entertain a thought without attaching to it, then go for it.

I wonder too. There had to be someone or several giving him a good reason.

@Leo Gura Is sharing my notes okay?

@Yoremo Just continue with meditation and trust that there will come a time where you will get interested in enlightenment. It's totally legit to do meditation for self-development. Just make sure to make the practice consistent and focus on what you want to experience, have, do and be. Everything else will develop naturally. Learn letting go of thoughts by returning to a point of focus during meditation. Then you'll notice immediately how you feel in response to a thought and you can choose to believe it. Only ever accept those thoughts that are aligned with your heart's desire, your passion. And lovingly let go of those that are not aligned. Visualization is great for your passion because you already feel it being the case right now. Also begin a journaling practice. Your introspection, emotional and intellectual intelligence and overall growth will skyrocket with journaling and meditation. Not feeling misable is feeling your already present goodness. What you want is already here. Ground yourself in your presence and you'll feel a knowing arising about how to go about moving from one emotion to another.

Right on ?

@softlyblossoming Thanks!

@Endangered-EGO In the feedback comments of the app I read that people have connection issues 1 to 5 times per 25 min session. Is that true in your experience?

When I look at the suffering in the news I feel motivation. Can you guess how we come to such different views? You are priviledged enough to be able to self-actualize and as a result up lift humanity. You are overlooking the combined change of millions of self-actualizing people. Just make sure that you do your part. Focus on yourself. Then take care of your needs. Focus on chasing women. The roof requires a foundation and walls. I for myself would like to just focus on spirituality but it's not integrous and is an avoidance strategy to not look at the dysfunctional areas of my life. Meditate and realize that the way you look at a thing can be changed in an instant. You can use a table as a working station or as fire wood. So, which perspective serves you more?