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@Stovo He is feeling some Red. You've got to have some strong Blue tendencies to be PM or President, in my opinion, at least in 2021. So the attack on his nation would be a deep wound for him. I kind of don't believe him though. He seems too soft to me. It's tricky to say what he should do. I think an attack on ISIS-K is the right response though. Most of America will be yearning for payback, so that will keep them sweet. Of course, we don't actually know if ISIS-K and Taliban are in bed together or not. Apparently not, at the moment. But I don't know. So things can go wrong from that perspective also. Spiral Dynamics says the best way to confront Red is directly and firmly, for what it's worth.

I'm currently experiencing these moments sporadically. Example 1: I look in the mirror and I see my body, and it seems so obvious that nobody is there. It's a bit of a "Wow" moment and I realise that I just so happen to be operating this body. The idea of my name and all it encapsulates is so obviously see-through, in this moment. It's as if I'm just here. That's it. I just so happen to be here and I'm aware of it, and that's all that exists right now. Example 2: I'm walking around the kitchen, preparing dinner, and it hits me. I see there's another person to my left, and I know I don't know them at all. The idea I have of them is a total fiction from this perspective. They are just operating a body, just like I happen to be. Then I'm like "how is it possible that I'm even here?". And it's another "wow" moment. I take in the fact that I'm in a house with this person who I have known all my life and it feels like I've never even met them, and I'm kind of like "what is this place?". I see the dog looking up at me and it doesn't feel like a dog in my mind. It just feels like some kind of magical creation. That's the best I can describe it. The second example happened just now and it felt a bit scary. It was like everything that had happened in my life up to this point didn't matter and it made no sense to operate from the perspective that it did matter or that it means something. It meant nothing in this moment and kind of vanished. In fact, it was scary. The awareness I had of, "holy shit. How am I here? How does this exist?" etc was rather astounding.

Cool trip, man. Best of luck for the next one, looking forward to hearing about it.

@Nahm clever.

I've recently been inspired to watch some Actualized.org content after several months away. I found myself today pondering the question of "how is reality even here?". I just watched the Why Is There Something Rather Than Nothing? video. According to Leo, Nothingness is the substance of reality, so to speak. Reality is no when, no where, no how. Nothingness is God, Love, Consciousness, Infinity. They are one and the same. Now, I know it says right there that reality is "no how". Yet I find myself still asking HOW. How is it possible for Nothingness to manifest itself and interact with itself? In a world that's so obviously intelligently designed and constructed, no less. Why does Nothingness exist? Why is it not just nothing? What exists outside Nothingness? Nothing, I assume. It's just absolutely incredible. It's insane. Not actually insane but like shocking insane. It's completely bonkers. As I'm writing this I find all my questions being answered, and it's slightly maddening. I suppose it can be summed up as "it just is". I yearn for more than that though. How can it be that there is this infinite, formless, loving God running the show? And that's it! It begs the question "Well what came before this?" and that question is answered by God, Nothingness and Infinity being One. It's always been here and always will be. Manifesting itself again and again... All for a laugh? Fucking hell. Hilarious. Astounding. Wonderful. Today has been a massive headfuck.

@Preety_India Google Ten Ox Herding Pictures. Or find Leo's video. @Leo Gura Not even a glimpse? Jesus Christ.

@Bazooka Jesus awfully bold and kind of you to assume I go to the gym. I only smell my socks after masturbating into them. Good shit. Thanks, man. ?

@Bazooka Jesus what up, homie playa? All good, my friend. Hope you are well. ? I've been eating quite a bit of rocket recently. Some hippie kid sold it to me at the local garden centre. Streets, man. Needless to say I've been catapulted. Is this the stoning of which you speak?

Introducing Dr. Martin W. Ball... PhD... !

Today, I feel like pleasing you more than before Today, I know what I wanna do, but I don’t know what for To be living for you is all I want to do To be loving you, it’ll all be there when my dreams come true Today you’ll make me say that I somehow have changed Today you’ll look into my eyes, I’m just not the same To be any more than all I am would be a lie I’m so full of love I could burst apart and start to cry Today, everything you want I swear it all will come true Today, I realize how much I’m in love with you With you standing here, I could tell the world what it means to love To go on from here, I can’t use words they don’t say enough Please, please listen to me It’s taken so long to come true And it’s all for you, all for you All for you...

"Was it just something that I made up for fun? I saw you, I saw you... Comin' back to me..."

From my perspective, the problem with RedPill is it works at Stage Orange and below. Not to say RedPill is useless in, let's say, a Stage Green relationship, it's absolutely necessary. But a Green relationship would require vulnerability, intimacy and connection. Something RedPill doesn't preach. RedPill is a victim of its own limitations, in that sense. But hey, when most of the world is Orange and below, what do you do? Become Orange, fuck bitches. It's funny though. I remember this one time a few years ago I went to a small gathering. People were doing coke and drinking. I turn up and I did have a little line. All the guys there were like Stage Red/Orange, you know? I come along and start camply dancing around to "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun". One of these guys girlfriends was flirting with me all night, touching me constantly etc. It even transpired that I was bisexual and this girl was still obsessing over me, with her straight, masculine boyfriend in the next room. I've had a few experiences like this. It seems to prove to me that fundamentally women want an authentic, confident, larger-than-life man, whatever that may look like.

Utilise Stage Yellow and meet her where she is at, see the morsels of truth in her perspective. Also, Stage Yellow can be good at injecting "seeds of doubt" in subtle, tactile ways. Realise that everybody is trying their best. This may help when you feel frustrated with her ideas.

Just not a great vibe for me. I like RedPill content and I do see a lot of truth in it, but all the guys I've seen that are deep into RedPill lack... Something. It's just a constant spouting of RedPill "truths" and that seems to bleed into their whole personality. Like this dude, EIC, posted a video recently about foods, plants and soaps etc that have high estrogenic content and he's completely cut all of them from his life to avoid the "pussification". It's just way too extreme and screams fear of anything remotely feminine. As a rather effeminate man myself, I don't appreciate that vibe. It's extreme machismo. It's like, mate, calm the fuck down a touch.

Sponged off Rollo Tomassi. Has some good points about women. Don't really like him as a person.

INFP-T apparently

That's it, really. Why is it only a small minority of people ever try to self-actualize? I have my own theory of repression playing a huge role. Most would much rather walk around thinking the same old thing, doing the same old work... It seems as though no one ever says, "hang on, what's actually going on here?" Because it's scary, right? It's existential crisis type stuff. That's why ignorance is a haven. I just thought that eventually everyone or most would have moments of breakage, where the suffering has become so great that they start looking for answers. But this mustn't be the case. I suppose this is why people get stuck, thinking they understand, thinking they know what's best. Baffling to me.

This is all I could find. I remember, though, in the same talk, he spoke of his experience with LSD. From what I can remember he said something like "everything became loud, like the world was shouting." You can probably locate it on the full length version.

Pretty experienced.

Sounds like you're not really ready to be dating. I know where you're coming from, I used to fall in love with everyone. You have issues that you need to resolve. You are looking for another person to come in and "complete" you, to fill a void, to become an emblem of meaning and love in your life. I get it, but it's not healthy. Also, it seems like you have no boundaries. Zeroguy was virtually shouting at you and you seemed to cower to his unnecessary aggression.

Seconded. I've taken a few trips looking to heal things; all that happened was I had a mystical experience, came down and everything was back to normal. Martin Ball does speak about using psychedelics to heal but I really don't recommend doing this solo, I personally think the risk is too great. I'm currently doing EMDR and I think I may be finished in the next few months. It can be pretty gnarly, laborious and drawn out for some people. Others are sometimes finished in 6 sessions. Put it this way, I've cried more in the last 6 months since starting EMDR than I had the entire 5 years prior. Yeah, it's pretty rough but I would say it's worth it.

The ability to generate the insight and concept of "scenius" strikes me as Yellow-type thinking. He shows a lot of Green in this clip too, though.