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nothing to transcend if not fully awoken to it resistence is good it shows you that you have to walk another path outgrowing the rational mind and growing into what it means to understand irrational rationality.

@CreamCat do you think the whole family has a chance to move into green? that would be really interesting could be some kind of tipping point.

@CreamCat interesting, do you think there is a relationship with cutting out on plants and not enough phyto energy to coap with overexcessive stress or do you see it more caused by the biochemistry of high meat consumption in sense of hormon production, body inflammation etc.? even though it´s maybe a little off topic but the connections are interesting. although maybe it`s more about the direct pressure of the situation - to heal food might be relevant. also especially cancer patients need a lot of veggies like brokkoli to heal. in situations like that whole worldviews can tumble and change.

@LoveandPurpose you are twenty, so do you think you really need to be in such a hurry? by the way for women sometimes the face is more important than the rest of the body, because the face mirrors their emotions - if a girl finds a guy with a face that`s not commonly seen as "pretty" she might still find his face really pretty as it is the face of the loved one - if you have problems with that maybe you still coap about what others might think of you - if it`s that you should do her the favour of letting her go at some point. but if you really love her, i can`t see why you can`t start to see her face as absolutely unique. if you can not, never tell her or let her know through your actions it would break her heart. there are always more pretty guys and girls around you, even if you find a super pretty one you will find others who seem more pretty. if you break it of because of that don`t mess up her personality! remind yourself that even a pretty face can become ugly if the personality is ugly.

@bejapuskas only if you don`t induce fear - if fear arises you can teach them about letting go of that fear or how to maybe face it in a soft way. if you overdo it you are only inducing fear that might be not there in the first place. there is a lot of fear that will come up during the process of growing up already, i wouldn`t overstretch their learning ability by teaching them fear. there are a lot of other methods to teach them a healthy relationship to their surrounding, explanations about dynamics can help if they ask questions. there are a lot of great children books that have fear as content to solve fear in a creative way. children live in a magical world, they need to coap with reality, their fears are often of purple nature. i would not experiment on it heavily as they could also develop trauma if you do it on an existential level especially if you are a parent better coap with your own fears first, they learn more by you being a good example.

@Vido in some sense you need to look at both to see what really is light, awakening to what you think is reality might be part of the matrix as well so if you choose one side you can`t move in the matrix. it`s far more important to know how a spoon bends than to choose the right pill as you can only discern which is the way out by knowing which one is the way out.

just a question to get closer to the problem. i know that feeling in a less intense form and somehow it disappeared over time, so i`m interested in how it is about seeing yourself in the mirror, what does it feel like? any strange experiences with looking into the mirror? it`s a question about your relationship to yourself. maybe you can start to observe your emotions and voices by looking into the mirror, staring is not the right way to start - maybe on an advanced level...because that might even knock you out. so be careful to not get to emersed in the dialog with yourself, just observe it. how does looking into a mirror usually take place? also notice every positive feeling that arises! (another question is if you smoke weed?)

no red pills? understand the matrix first before you take a pill, if you don`t you might wake up on the wrong side, as you don`t know, the colours might have changed.

@orpheos it`s in a sense sad that he isn`t able to teach you as he introduced you to sexuality and expects you to be experienced obviously more than him as someone who probably has more experience than you have. it almost never works out with the first guy, so take it as a chance to experiment on him what you think would turn you on - if it doesn`t work with him you can give the same compliment back to him and find someone who is a better teacher. maybe you can even teach him to be - but be careful could be that he won`t like that kind of truth. he is maybe the one who is insecure as he expects you to give better feedback to what he is doing.ask him to guide your hands or try to change position first, it`s a good starting point. it`s not only about him, it`s also about what you would like. if you don`t like cucumber you can put that on your face with a smile. you start with what you feel comfortable doing, just get actively exploring.

@Truth Addict if you zoom in there is only a commata which devides, there is no zero. but then you didn`s say in what direction and zero is a point in infinity you have to define first. but it is beyond definition and above it at the same time.

@Templesign that`s exactly the same, it`s also F.R.A.T but with avoidance in the relaxation part. i wonder if discipline could help in that aspect, too...or at least a lot of people then start to work against that feeling by trying to work on their physiognomy, sometimes overexeccively, to get positive feedback first... but in general it`s a tension problem, doesn`t matter how it was inflicted, by others who polished their egos or if it is about self critique and underestimation of the own potential it`s self fulfilling prophesy.

recently i discovered a method in a book that explains a simple method on how to get a lot of things done by a method called D.R.A.T what means discipline, relaxation, attention, transformation. watching the last video i found out why the letting go of fear method doesn`t work for me. as i am in denial/avoidance of blue structures, what means i try to avoid structures that are stiff, normative, rigid, bureaucratic, over regulating and dogmatic. so in a sense i am in denial and avoidance of fear as these structures work or are installed to regulate basic fears. so in a sense i can`t work with the fear method what has some parallels to that method in how it works, let`s call it F.R.A.T fear, relaxation, attention, transformation because i`m in avoidance of blue discipline. somehow i wonder if it is a fear of using fear to solve problems as i`m not in fear of the basic survival stuff, so i`m more in lack of fear than having too much of it. so i was wondering if there are other methods to attain discipline instead of fear to then work with F.R.A.T on discipline. it`s really a little bit upside down. life purpose is not enough to overcome it, creativity is not fast enough to overcome it, fear seems to be a good regulator for discipline. also working with applying fear to what i am in denial about doesn`t really work because the avoidance/fear of discipline is bigger than the avoidance/fear of the survival issue. in that sense what to do if we already have let go of fear, through relaxation about it without being more attentive about it when the A in F.R.A.T becomes avoidance instead of attention? just realized, it`s a R.R.A.T problem or maybe an A.R.A.T problem (attention, relaxation, avoidance, transformation) even C.R.A.T (confrontation, relaxation, attention, transformation) is not enough to get to the root of the problem.

@bmcnicho should be a sign for you, beware of all the projections of toxic relationships in this thread. it’s in a sense interesting of how all the scapegoating works, should show where toxicity in relationships sometimes is completely pushed towards one of both parts. if you have a connection to her and feel attracted to her, maybe it’s a sign that exactly there is an issue you can grow on and work on yourself or you let it play out toxic, denying your denial in the end. i‘d trust in my belly feeling, if you can not handle it you will probably withdraw anyways if you don’t the alarm bells should at least ring afterwards. but to drop it because some guys who walk around with an alarm bell on their heads tell you, would be the fast easy and scapegoating way. will not grow you on your emotions - i‘d figure out what it really is that draws you to her and if it works with you both or not - if it doesn’t fit, of course, why invest energy?

@whoareyou yes, everything is an illusion and it is also not. the question is what you are channeling? you are channeling alone by talking to me, i am an illusion, too. you don’t know if i speak from ego and what entity i am channeling as i only speak to you. maybe i channel a little bit of spiral dynamics, too. what i‘m referring to is that without trying to understand it intellectually you also get lost in the ego game. there is a possibility to channel oneself into madness, and also to channel others into madness, too. so i believe i understand what you are talking about. but i also see how channeling is a technique to understand ones relationship to existence and also to what is seen by many people as madness and irrationality in a more healthy way. channeling is something that exists for a reason. understanding what is speaking in us and others besides our egos and egos shadow demands an understanding of the mechanisms of how channeling works, which is not possible without going into it deeper and exploring it in a sense. a radio sender can play good or shitty music. irrationality is onesided when there is absolutely no experience of rationality to it. rationality about it is onesided if there is no irrationality to it. a sender can only channel what it percived in the first place.

@whoareyou whatever a person is channeling it is an entity aspect of consciousness or the sublime and probably has some ego to it. of course the ego can come in through the backdoor of course entities use ego and sometimes ego uses entities. that’s why every „channeling“ is something that needs preparation and also needs to be worked on afterwards. channeling is not just for amateurs. it’s something shamans did for centuries and the hows are not just learned through a onetime experience.

most of the time i would say morals can be healthy, but what will you do if someone breaks your morals? i would rather work on a code of conduct than on morals although there is not much separation between them - morals have a blue note to them. if you internalize them and understand them though as understanding deeply why they where formulated by others like they are and also are able to see deeply into double standards in morals, you will also grow on a code of conduct, it will sometimes be really tough because it`s like willingly not doing even though an opportunity might show to act outside of your code. of course all of this can be misinterpreted and lead you towards the wrong direction, as there is not really a direction. but there is a psychopathology called the dark triad, even though dark triad sounds cool it`s probably about the unleashed uncontrolled toxic dark triad with no code of moral conduct or one that is extremely twisted, but there is also a triangle called the light triad, and even though it is also only an orientation point, you maybe can find some truth in it. at some point you will transcend your code of conduct with life. just saying as some people might really struggle with dark triad problems...even though most people are somewhere inbetween or somewhere further up. be aware that it might be difficult to konfront a machiavellianist with faith in humanity alone, what`s more important is the humanistic and kantianianistic perspective. there are other posibilities like reading the manual of the warrior of light, of paulo cohello, i always liked his code.

probably it depends also a little on the content, but we already can see the effects in children who where too much confronted with tv`s in early age, it robs children a little bit of their own phantasy, can also lead to adhd and will mess up their future metaphysics if it is not balanced with more pedagogic age relevant analog games and selfexploration of their sourrounding world. even the reaction of somehow changing your mind as it is convenient for the parents and convenient for the people in a train is the same mechanism. maybe you can see how they don`t have to tend to the real needs of the child for solving conflicts and how this builds up a low frustration tolerance, it`s the same as feeding suggar or worse other drugs to them feeding the little ego that at one point will be a grown up ego, fast success but longterm effects. there was a time when children in the age of two where using a binky to calm their nerves. two is to early, i would try to keep it hidden as long as possible, it`s enough if they start at the age of five. if you once started, it`s over - like with chocolate or icecream. i know it`s tougher for the parents on the first impression. but i wouldn`t experiment with the psyche of my child in such a way, with all we already know if we just read a little bit about early child development. and seeing how people here in the forum struggling with gaming addiction, they want to get rid of.

@cle103 first find out that i`m not a dude and you don`t speak with respect to me, and you seriously are getting entangled in your own false beliefs as you obviously enjoy it to be accused as your soul gave the consent to it, so i don`t have any reason to treat you with any respect and you maybe wanted to hear the other part of the story. if you don`t get your metaphysics straight life will definitively be not easy for you. i hope you love your mom. not in that brutal twisted way. the way you treat others is just the way you treat yourself. you can`t even face it how brutal this trip is selfjustifying what men society projects onto women. because you already started running. you can`t even keep the claim for a second, not if the devil hunts you cuts off your dick and serves it to the dogs.

@cle103 did that get your head straight? you really have to work on that - you will make yourself sad if you don`t as it`s completely toxic. if you are able to overcome what is demonizing you and start to accept that karma is not the souls game but the ego`s game you can work on your toxicisity towards yourself - i don`t even know why i help you here, might be you still have a chance to work through what the trip offered to you. work on your metaphysics - you don`t get it right. it`s the female pain body you have to love to heal yourself. brutality is part of the world already. love is what remains when you take away all brutality of it and exchange it with what you really care for. then of course both souls have to consent to it.

yes exactly because there`s no one at home in you, except for the deamon.

the justification is your interpretation of what karma is. you seek the same justification to it like someone entrapped in a kast system would do. what makes you entrapped in your karma. at one point it will come back at you - you can`t eskape it. god invented the possibility because god is still in survival mode and basically self aggression and dick driven - in kriya aspects you are so far away from reaching enlightenment as you are a worm who doesn`t want to see light. because maybe god didn`t give you the ability to think for yourself. it`s ok as karma works without you having any controll over it, it will bite its own tail as it will just fuck up your soul more and more. hope at least the art you make will bring you some liberation so you can be reborn somewhere close to the ones you abuse. as i can`t see any healthy relationship somewhere near you. but you probably have no problem with it as you love lifes brutality to the point where you can justify anything without consequences, but karma doesn´t care for you. because there will be no light at the end of the tunnel.

@Serotoninluv thank you for the pre/trans fallacy hint - i just recived a tarot card deck and i realized how people interprete the fool sometimes as the prepersonal. although the prepersonal in a sense is purple. but there is a deeper connection about the falling back into the fool while awakening to the spiral and personal religion and transpersonal religion as we all start out as fool. sometimes it`s maybe good to understand that we also remain fools, even as magicians the personal/spiritual remains as the prepersonal, and it`s maybe the hardest to overcome even if we divide into it deeply it will maybe ultimatively guide us deeper into the flames of what was burned, awakening to the high priestess or the mystical religion our feminine and in that sense caring and preserving aspect that preserves the magic to be given from generation to generation is the same as the historical one. where knowledge is burned, the feminine is too. the paradox of course is that the books also are used to burn the mystical aspect of knowledge. the same as the magician still is keeping a dagger on the table when not able to heal the prepersonal, maybe even needs to keep the dagger on the table in the transpersonal when arrived at the more female aspect. red is very difficult to overcome in any person. so i just wanted to tell you that your teaching aspect is protected by sophia and saraswati she`s with you also in the meditation room, not only on the paper , but because you transcend them. i didn`t know how to tell it differently to tell you that i appreciate it tremendously that i can bring this into more understanding. I´ll try to work with it some more. so at one point we maybe can return to the source with no regrets.

@cle103 hope you try to understand what karma means, whatever the reason you have to go through this, either you produced it just there or it is something that came up due to aggression that is stored in you, be aware karma is not about the consent of both souls, it is about breaking the cycle of harming not only other souls that get entangled with you but stopping to do that what harms others in your soul. probably not by ignoring it, but to realize if you have really fucked up karma to handle, at least be aware that there are alternative communities where you could even test if your soul would give the consent to what your ego wants if it was the other way round - i doubt that you understood deeply what karma means. @Leo Gura there is a lot of soft brain in this thread. it`s so soft that you can`t even call it brain anymore.

there is no enlightenment to this, it´s a hard wakeup call to get the head straight, because it´s in some ways really fucked up spirituality.

the deeper component is to experiencing the justification as a soul instead of an ego. the justification is so perfect that the ego even thinks it could get it`s hands on two of them. and still the ego gets applause for the breakthrough.