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well yeah if you go into denial about it or not doesn`t matter. self bias is a great tool in self deception. who me, no of course not my brain doesn`t work on hormones, hormones are completely overrrated especially in adolecence and so on my genitals are just there it`s completely irrelevant that i want to imprint myself on others. you might also ask what kundalini or spirituality has to do with tantra?

sorry i didn`t want to use that word and i didn`t want to build walls between male and female, but be aware that they exist and they go right through our psyche and they look different for females than for males. i also didn`t want to use the word kind as it is kind of negatively connotated aslso in respect to the history of the nibelungen, in uproar it`s sometimes difficult to stay kind. i also don`t want to say that we shouldn`t mix with the other gender or can`t have friends of the other gender, and i also think girls can be the same toxic and work against and undermine women, what sometimes makes it even more difficult to work together, sometimes only for more attention or for some ego game going on. i only wanted to say that we sometimes miss guidence in femininity as most of the working world is pretty maskulin oriented. guidence a tribe would give us, sometimes we need guidence and men sometimes want to push us towards something we don`t want, or we give up on our own leading roll in a narrative because they seem more intelligent or more skilled in group works, or they are just used to that roll, sometimes dynamics we where not aware of. even the erotic sorceres part in it is pushed upon us a lot. i don`t say female sexuality in general which is something that of course exists outside of social pressure, but how we are used to use it to get our ways instead of being respected as an equal with speciffic skills. because we maybe are used to male taking that leading roll as their right, we give up on the learning aspect or even follow their lead because they perfectly manage to trick us into their point of view instead of listening what we have to say, what can lead to errors or situations which could have been prevented. in the end i don`t know how that video was intended to work but i know that there is a lot of hidden agressiveness in it, and i don`t recommend it to women as it is a pretty mean attack on the female psyche.

@Byun Sean you could start connecting with people from any film school, you could make a post on the blackboard of the school, of course this work would be free, they might miss exactly that to produce something, you could put that up at every creative space in your closer sourounding be it design or art or dance, or you try to find someone who is into journalism, maybe sports journalism or other kinds - build a team or get part of an existing team for a while, it`s like founding a band, you could produce some high class content with, of course everyone in the team should be skilled in what they do, the output you can put it in your profile and then start to find a company that hires you. best is if you show that you can edit different kinds of work. or the other way would be to found a one man company do some comercial for yourself with your work and send it to some artists who are on the rise, you`d need to do a bit of research for that, of course here you`d do the editing not for free. connections and the right team are often the most difficult part, and that´s usually something we don`t really learn in any kind of school. but if you choose a team for the work they are doing it`s already boosting your possibilities as an editor. you could maybe even ask in film school for uncut material...if they don`t already have editors there...maybe it´s more about acting schools. usually every actor wants some material to promote themselfs, also i could imagine it`s the same for people wo want to go into some kind of tv journalism, so it would be a win win.

you guys in the us are just too polite, even the people in the discussion (who would be the heroes) round are so polite. politeness is really nice and such and maybe it`s exactly the problem, as for me this video and the argumentations in it is such a nice attempt in saying really politely, that a president of the united states want to defend the us boarder like they defended the berlin wall. only that the shooting is against people who want to come in, instead of fleeing. the democratic allied part of germany has always been open to people coming in, even though there are rules about who has to go back. maybe only a time until he would ask to "protect" other situations by shooting, a bit comparable to what happens in the china honkong conflict right now? would he also shoot on people fleeing from there if it gets more nasty? the seriousness gets lost because they don`t get nasty enough into the problematic. of course comparing one incident to another is not the same, but shooting on civilians at a boarder and then lashing out on people when telling it`s an offense against the democratic constitution. just because the incident is comic book doesn`t make the severeness comic book. it`s not a request for a comicbook shooting it`s a request for shooting on people with sharp weapons. i`m sure he knows what he suggested there, i`m sure he has been hunting in his life. the seriousness about it is not that it is comic book, but it seems like comic book in comparison to what things are happening in the world right now. shooting sharp with weapons but no sharp words please...could be a desaster if we would talk about how and to whom we sell and deliver weapons on presidents veto. it`s good that this topic came up though.

would you say you are resilient to that?

@mandyjw yes, right, that`s the story of christianity. the edda though and the nibelungen are two different stories telling the story of a male hero who betrays women and baths in a dragons blood which is the symbol of the betrayal, he gets killed for that in the end. the dragon and the warrior queen and the tamed woman are the same, as they are all aspects of the heroes story how he interacts with nature and female energy, even in that sense is the defeat of the dragon a defeat of the female energy in themselfs to get to conquer/tame/suppress the female energy in themselfs. whatever, it`s a story of enslavement and in that it`s even worse a symbol. it`s not about evoking the kundalini, it`s a story about power abuse and suppression. therefore it`s a really bad story. how could christianity have a better story? yes it`s always the same story, that`s why the video is even worse. sorry to say it, but there is more manipulation in the video than a short sequence of the heroes journey, the full effect only comes out in the combination with other videos that have the same hidden agressiveness to them, while at the same time triggering female social instincts asking them to give themselfs up completely because it`s their ego that stands in their way, what is actually their life energy, the ego in the story is the male figure. but god is still "he" it´s painting a very bad picture about men in general and if you start to believe it and try to counterreact it`s getting even worse. of course you can learn from it, but it`s your energy you learn from while confusing it for male teaching making you even more dependent. it´s not by nature, it`s by design. but hey get over it, it`s your own responsibility. if the bells don`t ring by now, i don`t know. they are not churchbells but bells for female uproar. it´s not teaching compassion. i would even go futher and say it`s male power abuse, if it wasn`t forbidden to point out the devil.

no it`s a male vision of conquering female energy by defeating the protection shield of a women. the red moon book describes what the holy grail really is, now you can maybe try to figure out what the dragon is the hero has to kill by all means. it`s a story of enslavement. i read the sigfrid legend and the edda when i was younger - in school. it`s a very backed up understanding of what this story is about mythologically and symbolically. and it will take some more hundred years until the damage of a history like this will be erased if we don`t fall back into the middleages.

awakening to the woolve in yourself, maybe even a leader, but even there are hirarchies, based on trust age experience. a woolve that doesn`t have to hide in a cave, because you run with other women. see male packs that form of lonely woolves are often agressive and can`t integrate women to their tribes adequatly.

he`s self biased so how can you trust him that his teachings are true. someone could teach you that you are not a female but a male and could claim it`s truth.

@Flowerfaeiry when did the real problems start, try to remember that, try to remember when was the time when you last felt really whole. try to remember, it`s not about the past but if you really really go deep into that aspect of your wholeness you might realize that you are getting brainwashed because of your problem to search external guidence. i would want to tell you this in more clear words, but i can only tell you better run with your own kind of woolves.

if you are a female find yourself a womans circle or find streangth in other women, the male world can`t really help you with that. it`s in a lot of womens nature, as we are more social beings by our ancestry, be it symbolically or genetically or energetically or spiritual we need others and that is not just an egoic perspective to the world. denying that aspect of ourselfs always wanting to live up what a masculine society pushes upon us makes a lot of female souls disconnected and sad and feeling worthless where it`s not the case. thinking we can overcome that by searching in equal partners in men alone will not heal what is keeping us from our own initiate power. women are givers of life and death, you choose you decide you are weaving your screen your carpet.

that`s how pharma industry is argumenting.

thank you for knowing it better sweetheart, when did you ever see a hero plug a flower? and if, then leaving all the petals untouched. actually i wanted to say pluck but it has some situational humour to it. it`s not leading down a healthy path, that`s all. the healthy path comes from within, just don`t end up as a fried fish.

she would burn the hero with her fire breath but you see it`s the problem of pushing a narrative like that onto people while they might not be able to coap with the pictures, and even then it`s not constructive for females, but destroys a lot because they get enwrapped in coaping with the attack. and guys just meet a dead end. am i the only one who feels like i had this exact conversation before? i think, feel and see that it´s not healthy! read the books i recommended, there are plenty of examples in them.

the narrative - especially that you assume the perspective of the watcher from an ego perspective as a man. it`s dark magic leo. people who are not used to white magic will bleed out and even white magicians have struggle with it if they can`t coap with it adequatly. with black magic i`m not referring to a concept like the devil or the cocketery of devilry but to its destructive and disruptive and intrusive energy.

@mandyjw no mandy, you can only say that because you are strong. and because you are still in denial about some aspects of yourself.

@Leo Gura you maybe don`t understand how self biased and irresponsible the projection is. or you do.

@Flowerfaeiry if you are a female don´t watch it. if you don`t want to end as a fried fish. instead get connected to your femininity and your dark side, that will save you of some of the additional pains this video would make you go through. you don`t need that. read books like women who run with the wolves or shadow dance or red moon by miranda grey. this video will just mess up your metaphysics and if you are not strong enough it will stay like that. even guys who awaken to that get stuck in panik attacks or think rape is ok in addition with some other videos. i don`t recommend you deconstruction work if you didn`t work on a healthy painbody yet.

i tried to. maybe you are not able to apreciate that. she who smelled it delt it. now deal with the wisdom it created. https://www.allrecipes.com/recipe/236481/fried-smelts/

@Leo Gura the highest heros journey is false and the worst video you ever released. it`s worse than devilry. it`s full of self deception and male ego. the symbolism is so off and full of your own karma that it`s an impertinence.

@Flowerfaeiry some things we won`t overcome, like this inherent feeling of being alone, it will never pass completely. it`s about finding a way to overcome it`s constant presence in this vastness, not easy, one part to accept that is probably to face this feeling of darkness and learning to be alone with oneself in this darkness and being a good company to yourself. the other one is finding people you deeply connect to, who you can talk with about that stuff, because the limits in people are different. how many of your friends are friends for a longe time already? i never really thought about that as a possibility here in the forum but some people might not search enough for deep connection within others outside of this forum, because they have already a circle of longterm aquaintences, the direction of self actualization takes on a certain kind of form, or they do the lonely wolve thing, because it seems to be what is nessecary for a self actualizer. i`m not saying connections in general could help you but talking about deep connections - may that be people of a certain different culture you feel deeply connected to or people who do a special kind of work with a special kind of knowledege they bring into your life, in a constructive way of course. could be longterm friends or just someone you meet randomly and feel like it clicks and you are on a waveleangth. most loneliness is self produced. the lonelyness within can be a hint towards something missing in ones life and going on a search for that in the outside can be helpful if it is not found in the inside (not talking about excessive things) but talking about connections to the world. solipsism is also a feeling of disconnectedness, not on the deepest level but very close to the deepest level it`s a sign of disconnection to the deepest level, where a spark is glowing that tells it is not so. it is about connecting to that.

@Bodigger hä the missiles in europe what do they have to do with his personal politics to his favour? even if he would do that after his presidency... it`s an international political thing, do you think europe likes that so much the living shield thing, europe is trying to hold the peacful balance between the forces, what would you say if europe would install such a shield in the us? - europe is also a partner and maybe it was about an agreement of a more international community. i don`t know enough about it but that`s at least what a lot of europeans would probably think. it was probably not a private conversation but something that was on the agenda for the second term.

well, maybe trump will clear some boxes, in that sense it`s definitely interesting. what about petitions from voters and stuff to the dnc? do they want to win or do they want to loose? of course i don`t know who has the better chances in reality but a poll before the poll could help. in theory.

not that i say you should do what i ask you now or that anyone should do what pictures my third eye strike me buuuut... DIDN`T YOU HAVE A BLACK OR PINK MARKER WITH YOU? i mean if everyone already is smearing around who says it`s fair play? or is a news outlet a part of a newspaper?

what is hedonistic about breathing, or drinking water or see a sunrise or jump into the next water hole - if you live at the northpole you might freeze to death though... if you call that hedonism i don`t know. maybe it`s headownism.