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maybe because she`s a female who integrated her masculine part quite well, i like how she approaches karma. i sometimes have problems with the softness approach of male gurus or buddhist teachers, because it always seems they push me more towards my soft side and asking me to surrender to that what i already am and give up on that what i already have, because of course they come from the other side to the middle path. also i go sometimes more into denial because of exactly that self bias which is to a point an xy xx problem.

@Raptorsin7 the third eye is never closed, it is one of the false beliefs that it can be opened. it is like the eyes you are opening after every closing, it is always opening with them. be aware of it. be aware that there is a massive confusion in our world between focus and non focus or diffuse concentration aka awareness and this affecting how you use the third eye. the third eye is sometimes confused for a tool of power alone and some people even believe they have opened it while all they unblocked is a sharp weapon of controll. the third eye is not just an eye it`s a complex tool to visualize bio/spiritual dynamics. school the wandering eye first, before you unlock the prism.

because we have blindspots, a little like the man who mistook his wife for a hat, but that regarding ourselfs.

@tsuki hey, sorry i didn`t follow the conversation like i used to do that before. i realized that you have a manipura problem long ago. you probably are a person with a lot of pitta energy. if you want any more book recommendations i would recommend you to read "true love" from thich nhat hanh. it`s a very thin book, you can read it in a short while, but maybe you could stick with it, and just read it more often. the traveling as a shapeshifter is nice for a while but at some point your form starts to vanish, you start to dissolve and the illusion of you and the true you are maybe not coherent with what others percive of you anymore. remember what really counts! all this bullshitting about you being "just" a spiritual being makes you really want to be that because that`s where you feel good in, but it is a lie if you forget the nature of your surrounding - sometimes people have to tell us hard truths, i`m going through some similar awakenings since a while. i`m not sure if you are a narcissist, narcissism is usually held up by putting others down because the ego can`t accept being on a low hirarchical level or feels devalued verry fast and then can only maintain its position by devaluing others. i`m not sure if that`s the problem with you. what about simple chauvinism? or machiavellianism? maybe you need to search a little more - but be aware that every doctor usually suffers of hipochondria when learning about illnesses. maybe you just go more openly into the next meeting with the psychologist and find yourself one who can manipulate you better than you can manipulate him. agression problems and hirarchical problems are always red, i`m sure you are going through a phase where you observe these aspects about yourself to figure out how to coap with agressions/frustration - focus on that first. it`s not a walk in the park, it can take years. but a psychologist who treats you alone could help you target that goal over a longer period of time.

would even deny that, you just didn`t find it yet.

but that can`t also be true, because if it`s absolute you would limit love through saying meaning limits love. what about the other way round love limits meaning? in a poetic sense i would not say that`s correct. i would even deny it on a scientiffic level, and i would deny that on a spiritual level - not because you try to say: love itself is a meaning because it`s meaningful, but because you say something (and it`s a critique on the english language) doesn`t really catch the meaning, a whatthing would be maybe a nice word or a iswhat or whatever word you would want to replace the thing that is not really an object. maybe in the sense of: meaning limits love: love itself is a meaning because it means somelove. i find that very limiting.

notice it, and next time you are in the same situation you remember how bad you felt and you stand up. the best situation is when you really stand close you just need to know how then, you can even observe the next time when you enter the bus how the mechanism in the bus works to help that person, sometimes even the impulse to stand up makes people help who know how to help better, because even there sometimes people have a hurdle in them. for example i never knew that it`s possible to hold up a subway door for someone who comes running and wants to reach it until i moved to a city where this was normal. now i also do that in another citty, although you have to be careful not every city has trains with that door mechanism so it could be dangerous. get aware that you want to help, notice it everytime you feel bad and then notice how it would be possible to act differently. you didn`t have the feeling of successfully helping out yet probably, maybe because your body doesn`t know how yet, learn how and learn how good it feels. it`s good if you notice what you don`t like yourself doing and then change your ways - you can`t return to that situation, but you can prepare for a similar one.

you render all of it, the incident, rendering the incident, rendering people who render the incident, render people who render they are rendering the incident, and rendering people who render they are not rendering the incident, and you render people who render there was never an incident to render because there was no incident therefore it`s fine to render there was no incident, and people who rendered the incident and deny rendering the incident because they deny their rendering as their rendering, and you even render that there are people who render not anything at all. although photography in that time was projected directly with light through a lense on negative and from the negative directly on paper, there was not much rendering.

my whole life i have always been trying to understand this and still i don`t understand it and still i don`t get it and still i want to wear this star on my chest. remove all labels and write human in the midlle and there is nothing that devides anyone from what it means, i probably will never understand how anyone can use this otherwise after all this history of slaughter and murder and still not want this to end still not want to wear this as a sign against war and hate. put human in the center not war, we carry that burden together, i`m sorry for what i didn`t do, because i wasn`t alive then. don`t be a silent watcher don`t be a murder don`t become the victim by letting everything happen in quiet, at least be ready to stand on the victims side. there is no difference between victim and victim there is no difference between agressor and agressor we all are born naked we all are made of blood all we ever wanted was love, acceptance, freedom but some want more, they don`t give in to love, they supress, murder and devide.

UN is struggling with money issues because some countries don`t pay the dues - it`s really interesting it`s like the world wouldn`t care to have an humanitarian immune system anymore. how especially weapon industry profits from it is also interesting, of course why should anybody care where their money goes to, or where it comes from. it`s especially interesting how people think if we earn money with selling weapons, then why should we invest in helping people. if we sell all these weapons, at least we must give the buyer a chance to have some fun... paying money to a country to care for refugees instead of paying an organisation is a huge political trap. europe is as dumb as the us. sometimes i wonder if anybody even remembers why we where in need of these structures in the first place. who doesn`t pay shouldn`t have veto rights.

i´m reading article after article and watch some news reports and try to figure out what`s real and what not. and there are so many things i get confused over and wonder and it reveals a very complex situation. first thing is i tried to figure out about some claims aljazeera dropped in a report about the ypg, they claimed the kurds having killed and suppressed people but after i went deeper into it wikipedia says these claims have mostly been made at the beginning of the war, kurds since then have had recived human rights training from geneva call. also i found this on wikipedia: In 2017, the U.N. Independent International Commission of Inquiry released a report that stated that the commission "found no evidence to substantiate claims that YPG or SDF forces ever targeted Arab communities on the basis of ethnicity, nor that YPG cantonal authorities systematically sought to change the demographic composition of territories under their control through the commission of violations directed against any particular ethnic group. also the sds is not only built of kurds but also a coalition of different ethnicities of syria with the ypg as the biggest military force protecting civilians of different ethnicities. women and men are equaly present in the army and have equal rights. then i read how turkey claims their actual military offense being righteous calling it "operation source of peace" and how they will not attack civilians but then read that after a first offense 15 people where counted dead of which 8 are civilians amongst them children. then i hear in us news that the kurds are under attack from syrian side, while in europe i only find news that the kurds are trying to talk to damaskus and moscow, and syria is condemning the turkish operation as invasion to their teritorry. so what should i believe. it is so saddening to watch. especially if i read things like: there is a saying the kurds have, that their only friends are the mountains. i feel deeply ashamed for europe and the western world that we seem to not remember what that means!

@EternalForest what you describe is in a sense already nostalgia because i bet with you some small villages have massiveley changed over time but still are stuck in some aspects in other centuries, general-worldly. don`t confuse the outer appearence for what is happening underneath, nostalgia sometimes also means that the value system is still backwards and very self biased, of course not always, some small cities or villages manage to preserve nostalgic values in a way where they still adapt to a sense of general openness towards the "strange" coming in, but some are not open enough. i doubt that cowboy culture is something to be preserved in the nostalgia of weapon ownership - when cowboy turns rambo or platoon or whatever movie of that kind i didn`t see, it`s maybe the wrong kind of nostalgia. in that sense of course preservation of culture is a source and culture is something that can be preserved in form of books and language and different media to be available, and you can create selected archives of such, but what you maybe overlook is that every travel into old culture of oneself is a work of archeology into oneself, or archeology into culture and always archeology into the past. not everything to be preserved not everything to be revived. regarding the usa i really still sometimes miss the reevocation of native american culture in its more original form instead of the hybrid but i also can see that a lot of people try to walk that road and i can see the formal language of it in recent years appearing also in european diy and decorative fashion because it has some really beautiful aspects to it and merges good with the actually unfortunately already very comercialized hippie revival in the decorative product area. it`s still something that should be grown besides it`s comercial sell out, then in the areas of revocation and historical surrounding. i also find the whole space future styles very controversial, how they are lived out in fashion, as like in the panthon aera it`s very difficult to achieve these looks without plastic, the futuristic style was plastic for such a long time that it`s difficult to get it out of peoples heads, with the nice clean surface look and the smooch seamless freestyle form best of all transparent ore rainbow metallic - a waste problem mostly and comparable to the cleanliness of atomic waste, on a much smaller skale, if it`s not recycled plastic. but who says the future looks like that? maybe the future looks more like a self tinkered toaster (search for that it`s funny). our time is a time where we have to be archeologes and if there are really things to preserve, yes they should be preserved, it`s not always culture what claims to be culture or history. it`s easy to preserve such things on a medium it`s difficult to preserve it in people over generations, if there is so much more of the world to discover. or maybe it`s the opposite some things get preserved for too long, often not what is really preservable, because we are already in twentyfirst century. future starts now. it has always been a travel into the past to make sense of it.

@Sucuk Ekmek no there is a war and it is even going on where i live at, in sense of people who had to leave their country to live a life without supression i`m not talking about syrian refugees alone - i`m talking about turkish refugees who had to flee, some of them are kurds but some of them are only reporters, politicians and soldiers who where still supporters of ataturks inheritence. the human rights in syria where so massiveley violated in many ways that i want to remind of sds women forces of the ypg who freed the jesidic women of their enslavement by isis - i hope if damaskus will have peace they will allow these women forces to remain as they are, they are the heroes of this war. so trump saying it is about ethnicities is making me ashamed, but he doesn`t have a good woman picture we all know that so what do we expect.

if they are ideologies, but well yes in a lot of cases and most cases ideologies turn out to be blinding and self righteous, but i also realized sometimes in some practiced aspects they can contain truths. in a historical setting the grand religions also brought laws and regulation where there was no constitution, in that sense all religions are setting the world into an order and every order can be abused if the wrong people get to power. therefore every ideology is prone to abuse the more hirarchic/authocratic the weaker the ideology/religion/system/constitution is towards suppression. if genesis is already misogynous in it´s essence of course it will be abused. so yes in this sense you could say they are already weak to these tendencies in their roots.

it`s the most difficult thing to do something if it`s not in direct experience, how to do anything if no one speaks truth? there are so many people who claim truth, but to what cost does it go? how to do something if you are powerless but power is the last thing you would want to hold?

@Gnostic Christian i blessed only the ones forsaken, it`s not satanic, we usually forsake ourselves. that`s what christ teaches us.

the male and female painbody are one in the end it doesn`t matter from which side it came from, it doesn`t really matter who started it, it matters for you because of the personal relation where the agression came from. what really matters is where it ends, if love can`t end it what else can?

awareness comes first, doesn`t it? the network of our psyche reaches deep, sometimes into history sometimes into space sometimes into our own bodies of fears and create new connections of karma within us and within others. you know you have the right one if you can talk about it with her and you both are able to untangle the karmik reappearence of incidents, make peace with the past and figure out a way to protect what is there to protect for each other. that`s the law of peacemaking protect what there is to protect. there is just one and there are many.

@tsuki it´s ok tsuki i sometimes hate males, too.

this night before the rooster crows twice you will have denied me eight times. god bless

coffee mugs lol

@milii a career can be reestablished and if the relationship was toxic there are probably high chances that the next one is better. it`s like a wound that`s fresh and of course it is bleeding and hurtfull in the beginning. so you need to stitch yourself together and let it heal. take some time off if you can, spend some time somewhere else if you can, go into nature if you can, watch some sunsets and then some sunrises. cry the tears you need to cry and then pull yourself out again, no one will laugh about you anymore, if they really even do.

even the military is now dissappointed, i guess it will be hard for him. if the votes where today he would probably loose.

well, the next days we can observe how nicely all of them worked together, at the moment it`s erdogan who moves. it actually lost a little bit of the comic character. a phonecall here a phoncall there buhaahhhahhhaa. i just count the phonecalls.

@EternalForest in some aspects you are contradicting yourself, as a lot of american culture you describe exists only because of mingling of culture. also the cultural missionary of exactly hollywood made everything more monotonous than it was before. so in some sense what you are so proudly pointing out as special is what generated mainstream culture. in sense of art there can be a global culture while still preserving authenticity as long as authenticity is allowed to take place in sense of something called critical regionalism in architecture, i don‘t know if there is a term like critical culturalism for what you describe - but in a lot of cases it turns out to be as critical individualism. so in that sense there are two forces that influence each other and feed each other one that strives for individual/group expression and one that strives to adapt and integrate - the process is not reversible.