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  4. Posted

    9 minutes ago, Kksd74628 said:

    @nutlow 

    The point when someone receives your message is actually when you receive it in your next life and it is happening right NOW and I am conscious and you are not, but when you receive this reply I am not anymore conscious when you receive it, because I am receiving it. Understand that we are the same "experiencer".

    Its like writing letter to yourself and reading it some day and when you read it, the writer is not anymore writing, because it is receiving it. So this conversation for both "directions" is just recording and it is playback. So when you are conscious I am not, because I am you and I need to first live your life like I am doing and when I die I may experience being Kksd74628 in "future" and be conscious, but when that happens nutlow is not conscious anymore.

    Wow great explanation again, i got it theoretically. Now its time to get the realization.

    Do u recommend some exercises to internalize this knowledge?

  5. Posted

    15 minutes ago, OBEler said:

    @nutlow I think you are in a big solipsistic trap. What you dont get is that your ego just fantasize about it. Dont believe what kksd says, just discover truth for yourself and maybe it is something complete different than you thought. 

    Yes i hope truth will feel different.. I try to discover truth for years but im not that good in it.. I had a god realization so shockin and terrifying i cant put in words and at that time it was absolut truth, but soon after the trip its just some blurred memory and life goes on ( but with more and more mindfuck).

    14 minutes ago, OBEler said:

    @nutlow I think you are in a big solipsistic trap. What you dont get is that your ego just fantasize about it. Dont believe what kksd says, just discover truth for yourself and maybe it is something complete different than you thought. 

    14 minutes ago, OBEler said:

    @nutlow I think you are in a big solipsistic trap. What you dont get is that your ego just fantasize about it. Dont believe what kksd says, just discover truth for yourself and maybe it is something complete different than you thought. 

    25 minutes ago, nutlow said:

     

     

  6. Posted

    23 minutes ago, Kksd74628 said:

    @nutlow

    Think about it for a sec - why would "others" not existing right NOW be sad thing. I mean I can help you to overcome the sadness in discord conversation, if you are interested :)

     

    2 minutes ago, nutlow said:

    When im playing with my daughter, i play with an empty zombie but when  i look in her eyes she looks so conscious, so alive. Thats heartbreaking.

     

    So when we have a life conversation u are not conscious, just me?

  7. Posted

    10 minutes ago, Kksd74628 said:

    @nutlow

    Think about it for a sec - why would "others" not existing right NOW be sad thing. I mean I can help you to overcome the sadness in discord conversation, if you are interested :)

     

    When im playing with my daughter, i play with an empty zombie but when  i look in her eyes she looks so conscious, so alive. Thats heartbreaking.

     

  8. Posted

    4 minutes ago, Kksd74628 said:

    @machiavelli

    This moment is whole Universe as it exists right NOW. When the content of this moment changes then the Universe looks like different, but always it stays as present moment.

    @nutlow

    They are not right NOW, because you will experience their life at some point or you have at "past" lived them. It's like first having dream being bear and talking to rabbit and you are only conscious being and then in next dream being rabbit talking to bear and again you are the only perspective happening at once.

    wow that is the saddest thing i ever heard.. im struggling with solipsism for weeks.

    Thank u for reply u explain so well.

  9. Posted

    7 hours ago, Kksd74628 said:

    @machiavelli

    No problem, my friend :)

    Yo got some more questions or want clearer explanation at some point that we discussed, because I am more than happy to help?

    I am watching my wife and my 2 year old girl playing on the ground right now. They are so alive and happy.

    I am fully conscious of myself right now. Are they conscious right now?

     

  11. Posted

    53 minutes ago, Eonwe5 said:

    -   I’m randomly looking at a photo of mine. I think: “Hmm, so that’s me.” --> “Aaah no, that’s not me, that’s just the surface of my body! But then nobody can actually see ME! Noone can ever really make contact with me! I am forever completely alone!” --> panic

    -          I’m feeling anxious and I’m trying to make contact with my inner child to calm it down, something that I’ve worked with for a few years. In my imagination, I as my adult self say: “I’m there. I’m there. And I won’t go away.”, and try to take it into my arms. à My Inner child screams angrily: “But you don’t exist!! You don’t exist!!” --> I don’t know what to answer to that, because I’ve realized that the image of my adult self is actually just a thought --> panic

    -          I’m playing the guitar, and I enter into a flow state. At some point I realize with happiness: “Wow, everything’s flowing and moving on its own!” --> “Aaaargh, everything is happening on it’s own! I’m not there! I don’t exist! I can’t do anything!” --> panic

    -          I realize that all my thoughts, all the images, everything in my mind is just arising on its own, and that I actually have NO influence whatsoever over it --> “But then I myself cannot speak! I am mute! I can’t do anything!! I’m not there!” --> panic

    -I am feeling

    -I am panicking

    -I am....

    Who is watching this? Who feels the anxiety? Are u the feelings, thoughts, sensations, or is it being watched?

  12. Posted

    2 hours ago, Kalki Avatar said:

    I have been doing psychedelics lately and am just getting ridiculous insights. Even with weed I have been seeing Gods face. Reality is too much. Im talking about peak doses. 

    There is no way to express reality. Its so much that my whole body muscles expanded in order to percieve better. I saw the unimaginable. 

    I think the reason people vomit is because they cant stomach God yet. Its so ridiculous inmense. I cant even begin to try to describe what I saw! 

    I need more trips to understand it. Its too much.

    Is this a good sign of higher states of reality? 

    Wow, this post could be written by me (it is actually..)

    I had god realization few days ago.

    I tryed to write it down but the mind is not capable i guess. Im still trying  to stomach this, its the most terrifying, radical experience possible.

    I think the only way to stomach god is to let go of every everything (every mental assumption, every condition, everything).

    The biggest mindfuck was that im every teacher i ever looked up to. I feel so fuckin alone now

     

    Be carefull with ur trips, it almost killed me