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Excellent. Yes, yes and yes. I had my most profound awakening just yesterday, and that was very similar. Everytime I awaken to the overerwhelming truth of ONENESS, that I realize I am the whole universe, it's so shocking I can't even cry. Man, everytime I can interface with God, even just for a few seconds, it's like it was worth all the suffering in the world. Just tasting the beauty, it changes someome's life for good. Realizing this whole thing is a dream is such a gift. Such a perfect design.

Get you dude. I appreciate you faced the remark head on, and the simple fact you're reaching out here is excellent. I'll still emphase on how young you are and how much you can still accomplish, both in material success and your own psychology.

@Yeah Yeah My previous comment applies to you too. You're even younger. But you're so full of beliefs man. You're right when you say it's a mind game, except you're 100% playing the game of your mind. You have a toxic worldview to deconstruct. It's absolutely not to sound patronizing or whatever. Just recognize within yourself those beliefs are built on nothing except fear

It is NOT. You see yourself on the brink of suicide right now, and you can turn that in your advantage actually. Eckhart Tolle said in his book that he was in a quite similar situation at one point of his life, casually contemplating suicide at 29, constantly filled with self-hatred. It's said that one night it was so unbearable, he basically awoke. I'm not saying that's what will happen to you, but that your pain can actually be a great catalyser. Sometimes, doing effective spiritual work is actually harder when life is too comfortable. Also, you can begin by stop identifying as an incel, or a loser. You're so much more than that, you wouldn't even believe. Baby steps man. It's about regaining sovereignty over your own life, first and foremost. Don't underestimate how much progress you can do in a single year if you start now. And you would only be 39. Let alone a project on 5-10 years. And you would still be young.

@Gregory1 No problem. Both at low dosage would be fine I'd say. Mind is more clear on LSD

Hey Paul. Excellent initiative. Some tips I can give you: Start low of course. Don't expect too much from your first trips, go with a mindset of testing the waters. Your sens of self can freak out when threatened, and you wanna lower the defenses progressively as you learn about every aspect of it. Internalize the fact it's a process. Even if you come face to face with Truth sooner that expected, then it's a whole other process of integration / life transformation, and ultimately union. As cheesy as it sounds, love is your compass. Go with a loving intent. Not only it will help you surrender, it will lead you to what you're seeking (spoiler, you're in this game for God, nothing less). I personally prefer LSD a lot more for spiritual work. Less visual field distortions, way easier (for me) to go insanely meta on awareness itself without distractions from inputs of other aspects of consciousness. I might be biased of course, since it's the first substance that triggered awakenings in me. It lasts longer, even though you will discover that even 8 solid hours with the absolute will pass like a flash. Lastly, treat that with respect. It takes a very mature mind to accept having its paradigms shattered. Ultimately, you will want that. Trust yourself. The purest aspect of you is the ultimate authority in the universe. I repeat, nothing anyone can say can contradict your experience. That's important, because most people are so lost. Go past that and ground yourself with the unshakable Truth that you are, period. Expect loneliness in regular consciousness states. I don't see people here talking about it very much. Chances are most people you know won't have realized anything close you will realize. You can't crack people's mind open, you most likely have to shut up about it. More practical tips: Empty stomach, mandatory. You will still trip, but lesser effects and possible nausea, especially on mushrooms. Never happened to me, but possible bad trips. Starter doses with dried mushrooms would be 1.5G for me. 125 - 150 μg for LSD, but that varies a lot from individuals. Nothing important to do the following day. You wanna max out your integration. Maybe a trip sitter at first, just in case. But that's distracting. Offer the experience a clean mind, so maybe eat more healthy a few days prior, no mind numbing activities (social medias), these kind of things. That's pretty much it.

I had 2 so far. Peaks of my life, understatements for sure. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/66266-full-awakening/?page=1 It's not a matter of how accurate it is to what he said. The only "accurate" thing is how different it is from your idea of it. Instead of using the "What Awakening feels like" video to imagine what it would be or feel like for example, maybe use it as a motivation to pursue it.

Don't feed the troll

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This is it. Absolute nothing is everything. it IS. There is no difference whatsoever. An idea that s what reality is thats what you are the whole universe God the duality between imaginary and real such duality is imaginary itself Now i get why it's groundless Infinity indeed, god is one its me, tricking me layers upon layers all imaginary eternal Edit: This awakening is one about the nature of God, and builts on my previous one where all dualities collapsed. Or did i think. The key here was to relinquish my fear to realize the imaginary nature of the boundary I draw between what's real and what isn't This allowed to further deconstruct reality. Its imaginary nature from the divine imagination. Fall of all dualities, surrendering absolutely everything. Everything collapsing into this infinite singularity. God. This is the mind of God. This is the Godhead. God cousciousness from now on. Then what is God ? What am I ? What is anything ? Absolute infinity, existing for itself for ever. Unconstrained God is the ultimate being of infinite love, power, energy. Again, God is BEING. This allows you to tap into God, for all things are but a manifestation of your ultimate will as God. You can't not be God. You're the ONLY thing that exist. Yes you, who reads those lines. You are me, and I'm you. You're just playing infinite tricks on yourself. I want you to know there is nothing to fear, whatever hardships you're going through. Life is so hard sometimes, I know. It's okay. Oceans of love are awaiting for you. Just hang on. There is a lot I still fail to articulate. Mainly my understanding of why reality is the way that it is now, in relationship to the nature of God, which goes hand in hand. It wouldn't be of much use anyways. Obviously, there are so much implications. This will take decades to integrate.

This is literally heaven. Such perfection

It's literally nothing

The deep end Nothing is left unquestionned. All God. Infinite, eternal The eternity of this moment. Tune in. It's heartbreaking

This infinity is not something that can be taken personally. This is not the point

Small ? You have no idea It baffles me how most people dare to blabber about this

It's all you. You're by yourself

Absolute Truth. Pure and eternal. This is Reality

This is no joke. This is as REAL as it gets. Beware everyone

Harmful tendencies tend to disappear on their own if you're serious about the work. I remember reading somewhere about a disciple of Lahiri Mahasaya asking him if he should stop chasing sexual pleasure to make progress, and Lahiri answering something like: "don't stop if you feel like it. But i can't garantee the desire won't fade on its own with the practice of Kriya" (not the exact words). It's true that you will become more sensitive and aware about what serves you and what doesn't over time, you won't need to ask others anymore

@Gabith someone's a Porcupine Tree / Steven Wilson fan !

@iceprincess I found semen retention very helpful to help me gather enough energy to start working out. It also helped me very much in keeping focus in actually doing things and sustaining a healthy / positive mindset (I wasn't having the best time). Effects are more real than placebo effect, there's no denying. On the other hand, if you do energy work, I believe it's another matter. I'd find myself with so much energy (manifesting in rage, headaches, horniness) after I began Kriya / Kundalini practices I sometimes had to run distances at night and learn how to transmute energy. Maybe pleasuring yourself from times to times would help, but it's true that from an energetic POV, it's energy wasted in nothing. Also, that's from the experience of a guy. No idea if you're a girl.

Never said it was. Merely tools, among others. I assumed you were pretty clueless and talking from concepts alone, so that's on me, apologies. Still gotta say your post is pretty ambiguous.

@SourceCodo Although you didn't mention your experiences, you made pretty obvious statements about people supposedly projecting existential truths into God. And you're still asking for rational proof, which is experientially understood to be completely useless when you do the proper work. All of this was insightful enough to assume you never bothered with 5-Meo. Or have you ? Be honest here.

Hey @SourceCodo. This is not directed to you specifically, but maybe there is inclination of talking too much about things we don't know, in this forum. Not taking the defense of Leo, I think it's pretty clear his process is specific to him. But instead of projecting your own conceptualizations of God onto others who may or may have not have had genuine experiences of God, well Leo gave you a solution long ago to quickly see the truth and then start from there. Yet you still ask for proof, don't you see the problem. Look, try 5-MeO or any strong psychedelic with genuine preparation and intention, then come back to talk. Really, do that. It's that simple.