BipolarGrowth

So then a rock is wise and smart. I totally agree. Vegas is amazing. No wonder it’s the home of the guru. Also notice that I called you wise. Creativity alone is not wisdom, but there is no Wisdom without Creativity.

The Chosen One (Anakin Skywalker) appeared to be a relatively evil appearance in the manipulation of the Force, but he brought about the greatest balance the Force he has ever known by following his Evil Heart.

Yeah this is true. The highest Force is inescapable. But yet again you’ve certainly felt that one thought is more well understood than another at a certain point as a human. There’s subjective truth in that. And there’s nothing as subjective as objectivity.

It is literally impossible for me to not have the most developed understanding of Anakin that exists in any verifiable way, and unless absolute solipsism at face value is true, the same truth about Anakin’s nature is true for you. My understanding of True Nature runs through every sensate micron of consciousness/nothingness/māhāparinibbana you ever could not even be capable of imagining.

That’s incredibly wise. I always fight with the full perception of a home field advantage and outpace any God being force which could challenge me by being more subtle and transcendent than God by corrupting it’s own nature against itself. The human will bends God over and spanks it to get its subjective needs met. Yahweh on my bitch ass. At least look at Krishna. He’s halfway decent.

Buddhism done well uncovers how your relative human character is by definition the ultimate Sambuddha of everything and simultaneously is not forever. Buddha was just racist for his own authentic nature and hated Self addicts in the second most loving way after Brandon Michael Rohe.

The aesthetic contrast is absolutely ABSURD! Aesthetic Contrast Only a racist would hate a Nazi. And only a Nazi wouldn’t love seeing your own Bear Jew nature fight for your own survival against the repressive absolutism of the false “God.” There ain’t no god outside yourself as far as you’re concerned, so clean up your own damn ship. No one is gonna existentially stop all suffering from the perspective of direct experience of you. Unless you are me. Really it’s far deeper than that, but it takes more than being in the 5-MeO squad at ridiculous doses to see this shit. Okay, now to the film. Bear Jew Jesus Vs. Nazi Hunter Lucifer (my fundamentalist Mormon mom with a psychology degree and amazing connection to the Holy Spirit bought me Mein Kampf when I was 12. I’m sorry. Blame Jesus.) Now that’s a holonistic infinite yin-yang on survival, morality, and humanity as superb as I personally think it’s ever been done in any ultra God universe ever.

All star war characters are spiritual guides. Your 765th grandpa’s left nut dust is holier than any infinite number of sambuddha’s in my consciousness because you can’t access my awareness. It’s a mechanic of consciousness. I see the way these weird things like ?=? make spiritual sense and describe the human spirit and Jean-Luc Picard, but your neurotypical baby brain can’t understand. Sorry. I was born a god. You were too. You just forget so hard you fear chaos, madness, evil, suffering, pain, etc. and then think you have capital L Love. You do not sir. Not by my solipsist Sambuddha Harvard degrees from the aliens which abducted me in a more real than life dream at 8 years old. You don’t know that suffering. I can guarantee it. It is a dick measuring contest. At least winning something makes me feel good even if it is just a value structure created by my own bias which is the same method through which anyone perceives subjectively enjoyable experience. It’s all arbitrary in the most meaningful way beyond the imagination of God yet within it.

And that’s how he got there. Through desire. Mara. No one escapes Mara without becoming fully enlightened in a way you don’t even believe you’re capable of because you can’t criticize chaos and madness and truly be all the way deep in it. The Madman holds the keys to understanding the universe, especially when it comes to absolute/relative morality dances on the scale of archetypal expression in all universes as a function of perception ever being present.. Every holon is a Holon. Every höL0N is the answer to the Love of All Existence Forever in any form!

I both Love and hate you Goldzilla. Hopefully you’re right and we can heal physical problems with spirituality. Make the deal the Buddha did with Mara already... It’s the only way to maximize the relationship with Lucifer. Holy new levels of awakening….

Part of the reason it’s posted is to show I’m honest with my community, family, and friends on some pretty radical levels. Whatever.

I don’t really care to explain myself.

Lol. Neutrality is just as horrible and beautiful as racism if you’ve hit my Sambuddha-Daddy-Levels-of-Infinite-Madness Consciousness. Everything is Pure Evil, and the ABSOLUTE BEST WAY TO ENSURE PROPER DHARMA IS TO MAKE DEALS WITH MARA IF WE’RE TO TRUST THE MORAL CHARACTER OF THE BUDDHA. Amen. Thank Lucifer for eternity. Praise Mara. Tiamat. Archetypes. Anthropology. It’s all related. Only the best Racist of the Dharma can understand racism.

I’m a crazy ass Zen devil who has broken laws and lost $100k+ of hard earned net worth by the age of 25 because of my mental illnesses, and by fucking God I love Buddhism above all other religions in its logic and calculated approach to sensate investigation. It’s Dharma so fine that when understood it solves all Love/love/Dukkha/dukkha-continuum problems which are the source of all suffering as they are all inclusive. Buddhism is a treat. They even have great Holy Spirit connection. The Ultimate Luciferian Singularity has left the chat.

From when I was about 6-8 years old, my older brother and neighbor would tease me that I was going to get abducted by aliens. When I was 8 years old, I had a dream that I was abducted. I do not have the same abduction dream, but every few months or so I have a dream with a single alien in it. These used to be nightmares until I discovered how to escape the dream immediately which is to run at the alien and decide I’m just going to beat the absolute living fuck out of it lol. It’s kind of funny that my subconscious has remembered this way out of the dream every time, but I feel like this subconscious fear of the alien and anger toward it might be keeping me from being able to experience more love and be happier. Ive heard that dreams which recur have a message which is not being understood properly which is why it keeps coming. How would you suggest I resolve this? I’m thinking about trying to go to sleep with the intention to try to communicate civilly and accept the alien in my dream rather than try to fight it. I think this might take a lucid dream as in normal dreaming the pattern which wants to see the alien as an adversary is too strong. Any advice would be appreciated.

His home life at his mom’s wasn’t as good. I don’t believe he was ever abused, but I know that our older brother was regularly beaten by his step-dad. I’m sure this cascaded into all other crevices of their family dynamics is ways. I could definitely see him being jealous of home life in some way, but this might have been happening at more of a subconscious level for him too.

Yeah I don’t really have an issue with the dream. It is kind of cool to kick alien ass every once in a while. It doesn’t produce any overt suffering in my life or even in the dream as I know they have no power over me in my own dreams anymore. I’m just suspicious that the subconscious anger and fear could be affecting my life in some subtle way.

He was just a young teenager teasing his brother. He never imagined the effect it would have on me and feels some guilt for it now. I don’t see it with any real malice personally.

I was primed with fear of alien abduction by my brother and neighbor for a couple years. My brother always said that the aliens would abduct me when he wasn’t there. We shared a room, and he stayed at his mom’s house on and off. I think we should revoke his CPA for this. This fear was naturally expounded by seeing aliens discussed in pop culture and my idea that living in the country isolated from people would make abduction more feasible.

I was abducted by aliens in a dream which took place in the house I was in with all noticeable details consistent with normal reality then awoke in my bed with the sensation of what felt like a cold hand touch my arm before I was paralyzed with fear.

Yeah this is exactly what I think would work, but it’s just really hard to see exactly how to make this happen intentionally. The last major improvement with my fear of ETs came from an ayahuasca ceremony where I fell asleep on the ayahuasca both nights in a row. I’m planning to go to the same retreat soon with the intention to understand this fear and develop greater love for my childhood (possibly real or imaginary) abductors.

Any drug can be throwing fuel on the fire for us. Pretty much any drug used precisely can be a fire extinguisher. We both hear all of this same advice from others in our lives at different points. Sometimes people are giving that advice in the right way at the proper time and it is helpful, but sometimes people are giving that very same advice in the wrong way and at the wrong times. It is incredibly rare for any treatment or specific combination of treatments whether it be meditation, medication, or psychedelics to work for people with bipolar disorder consistently. Meditation triggers mania. Meditation cures depression. Meditation cures mania. Meditation causes depression. The same goes with almost all effective medications and psychedelics. I quit psychedelics for 8 months listening to the advice of others when it was proper for me. It was crucial for my mental health at the time. I think he should eventually do the same for a time, but I do not think this is that time whatsoever. His condition is steadily improving. Don’t fix what ain’t broken. Until it’s broken. Then fix it. There are also plenty of cases where I had to throw the recommendations of mental healthcare professionals, family, friends, and spiritual advisors in the trash where it belonged for the sake of improving my mental health when my intuition knew best. Also, in case there are any people who are encouraged to use psychedelics or do intense spiritual practice as a way of treating something, really try your best to get a good survival foundation first. A strong support system is key. We both were very lucky to have relatively wealthy families who love us dearly and try their best to help. There’s absolutely no guarantee that someone in a different situation would bode well if they simply did the same things we do.

“Before Wasson nobody took the mushrooms only to find God. They were always taken for the sick to get well.” -Mariá Sabina, the woman who introduced psilocybin mushrooms to the western world You can read more about her story and frustrations with modern western psychedelic use here https://www.singingtotheplants.com/2008/02/tragedy-of-maria-sabina/ I encourage all of the people who do not simultaneously share the clinical and recorded diagnoses of Bipolar Disorder Type 1 with Psychotic Features, ADHD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and PTSD to watch this video and contemplate on how a neurotypical perspective might be keeping you from sufficient nuance. My friend who made this post is doing FAR better with his mental health than he was previously when following the advice of people who do not have the requisite life experiences (the mental illnesses mentioned above) to fully understand his various conditions and how they relate to spirituality and psychedelic use. His progress is quantifiable in a reduction of hospital visits, numerous job offers when employment was completely off the table before, better and more regular sleep, increased energy, motivation, confidence, and subjective/personal reports of improvement among other factors. I also suspect people have a feeling that salvia is more dangerous for people with bipolar disorder than common psychedelics. This is simply not the case and understandable to anyone who wishes to familiarize themselves with how neurotransmitters work differently in the bipolar brain and how classical psychedelics operate versus salvia. Salvia does not cause mania or depression nearly as much (possibly not at all on a chemical level, more data needed to confirm) as serotonergic psychedelics. This allows him to get the intense psychedelic experience his intuition craves with far less risk. I can tell that you all mean well, but you simply do not have adequate information. Proper advice on mental health oftentimes is outside the expertise of people with doctorate degrees in psychiatry and psychology, regularly outside the situational understanding of close family and friends, and almost always outside of the realm of those who are not at least one of the two options listed above. A final note on this whole psychedelic/mental health issue, our most notorious example of misuse and zen devilry is many things, but he is alive. No one can say for certainty if that would be the case if things had happened any differently. Out of the many people I know personally who have bipolar disorder, the ones who live productive lives of benefit to society without the need of medication did either a metric-fuck-ton of intense spiritual practice, psychedelics, or all of the above. In many ways, telling someone with bipolar disorder to stop taking psychedelics when you have limited knowledge on their specific case and a thorough understanding of bipolar disorder is akin to telling them to stop taking their medication and can prove just as fatal. The Buddha rightfully said that there is a path out of suffering, and combining spiritual practice, psychedelics, and proper medications in an incredibly nuanced and fluid way is the most effective path for those afflicted with bipolar disorder. Eastern spirituality + shamanism + modern western medicine is the way. I say this from personal experience, and I say this as someone who is still alive who likely wouldn’t be without using all three of those treatments in doses which would ruin the average neurotypical person’s mental health.

“When the practice is finished, he’ll know that the tree which produced his enlightenment bears no greater fruit. Intentional practice with a permanent goal stops, and the first true breath of life since birth can be had once again.” — Māhā-ānanda, the 10th incarnation of Vishnu Humble people make great spiritual teachers. Extremely confident ones make the best of the best. “I have no teacher; no one is equal to me; in the world of men and of gods no being is like me. I am the holy One in this world, I am the highest teacher.” -Siddhartha Gautama, A Universal Buddha

In Truth, we are not ourselves as much as we are not them. What if I told you there was a teacher who has been making videos on philosophy and personal development as long as Leo who has had experiences which map far closer to traditional enlightenment maps who you would discount the level of his teachings merely due to age and a lack of spiritual clout? There are two problems surrounding people claiming attainments in spirituality. The first is there are people who don’t know where they’re actually at claiming things beyond what they are, and the second is 99%+ of spiritual seekers are not proficient enough to diagnose where someone is at in regards to enlightenment. Being able to diagnose the highest levels of attainment is far rarer than someone being able to become enlightened themselves. It also takes a lot of guess work and includes a crazy capacity for bias on unrelated factors such as language proficiency, gender, professionalism, and social status for example.