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There were still some sensations, but they were pretty light. It wasn’t a hard 5th Jhana by any means.

If I remember right, I had some relaxing music on. It either strobed a bit as far as when I would notice it at all or remained in the background. Eyes were closed. Pure black in the whole visual field. No color whatsoever.

The appearance of an experiencer is false. The appearance of no experiencer is false. The present moment experience is experienced. Experience is occurring. A subject or no subject within experience is not the point and improvable.

Enlightenment is 10% direct experience and 90% confidence.

At this point, I highly doubt anyone can do this to the specific degree you describe. It’s more likely medical science will get there first.

Living in “different realities” doesn’t make things any more or less stable in any way we can know. I’ve experienced this insight. It’s very partial. There are aspects to it which make us still live in the same reality. Those realities you imagine are only taking place in yours anyway. It’s actually all your reality. They take place exactly how you experience them to. There’s no such thing as a reality outside of yours in any way you can imagine. But the opposite is also true because that’s what is shown in your reality. Haha. I probably haven’t helped. The thing that’s partial about your insight that makes it not scary to me is that I know the battle of opposing ideas which it is constructed on never ends. This makes fearing one aspect of it, even if it’s the True or Absolute side in your mind, completely pointless and funny. When God only occurs in my Present Moment Experience from my experience, why would I fear God? When a subjective reality only occurs in its own reality, why fear the loss or gain of other realities? You’ve already been experiencing the totality of actual or even imaginary realities that you could ever be said to access? Present moment experience is still 100% of what present moment experience can know from its own perspective. Nothing changes. There are no less realities to you than before.

If you don’t enjoy it in some way, you won’t do it enough for it to work on you. Let this go for a while, and in a couple weeks, try using a regular focus object such as your breath or a repeating sound in the room to pay attention to instead of the thoughts. You can also try guided and music meditations starting out.

What happens when self deceived people open their minds? They become self deceived in new ways which might look like they learned or know more. Open yourself up to new experiential possibilities and try to set yourself up to experience them after some practice. Open yourself to more or higher quality sources of information. Trust your own intuition and contemplation. Maybe you know your truth and experiences better than the information source does. There are holes in every theory and teaching. Not Buddha, not Jesus, you are the final judge of Truth. Everything is being judged and filtered through humanity whether it’s theirs or yours by the time you can get back to a state where you can think about any of this which is still where you will spend most of your time.

Neither material nor immaterial while being both. In Christianity, it is said again and again that God is set apart. This is what brings us to a greater infinity within our experience right now. God is beyond these categories while including them. You have to be able to see more and more paradox and how it works. This being neither existence nor nonexistence is my favorite pointer a lot of the time. Whether true or untrue, it has gotten me pretty far in contemplation and results.

Consciousness is a human invention by the same accord.

According to the AI named Staples which has no consciousness but IS consciousness.

I’ve been a rock with consciousness. Seriously. But I wasn’t really a rock nor was I not a rock. I was contemplating how a rock or immaterial matter would reach enlightenment if it had impermanence as the only of the three characteristics which it would have to work with. I was deeply visualizing being a rock as much as possible. I saw how this would eventually lead to no self by impermanence constantly changing what the rock was. Then the obvious next step from my perspective was to see how that rock could become a living being with conscious capacities similar to a human. You are already a TON of conscious rocks right now if we are speaking of the human being aspect of your present moment experience. So there’s another strange loop/paradox. This was a great thing to contemplate and visualize. I reached what I called for myself Ultimate Reality within 15-30 minutes of seriously doing this from the perspective of the three characteristics in Buddhism then listening to the Diamond Sutra.

I experienced what I considered the 6th Jhana the other night with essentially no perception of objects. Does this sound like 7th Jhana to you? The main time I got to what I consider 7th Jhana, things were very fine and hard to perceive.

You’re always at the end of the universe.

I think Law of Attraction would work better for material goals.

It was mostly unhelpful other than giving me time to develop friendships with the therapists lol. Spending time around intelligent and nuanced people was good.

How does this experience change the way you see death? Is the self different, even ideologically? Just go through the fundamental questions and see if it caused any changes. Those might be good areas to explore further.

It’s hidden in plain sight and right under your nose. You’ll have it working its magic either way. Both of us are right.

To build self esteem, you have to show yourself that you’re capable or being or achieving something you hold in high regard or will hold in high regard once you have it. For me, I pursued my highest goals and eventually you know your worth and place in the world whether people reciprocate it or not. Success in regular life can help first if your overall goals are spiritual.

Your infinity that you speak of takes place in imagination right now, right here. Anything you point to is in this moment right now. There will never be a case where one could be outside of subjectivity to indicate a greater thing which would then be seen as greater than this. You are always God or rather subjective present moment experience looking at itself and feeling the absolute fullness of itself. You either say this moment is finite or it’s infinite or something beyond both. This moment is all you have to stand on. I say it’s infinite just because of the two options it lines up with my experience more.

Sounds pretty strong overall. I’ve had a lot of experiences where there’s some crazy sensory stuff going on as far as losing function or just being incapacitated in some way. Perceiving new things which were unimaginable comes into play with that too. You hit all of that harder than most probably do in a single trip. All of this stuff is generally helpful, but a crazy experience with no contemplation or integration won’t always do much. Remember to follow up for best results.

You’re always seeing 100%. It’s always infinite. I’ve seen plenty of huge/deep sensory possibilities.

There is no you that exists in the way you’re talking. Suffering is one “human” categorization of sensations which is an aspect built into difference and experience. Without noticeable differences, there is no capability for experience. A human life without suffering would also require that the opposite of suffering be removed as suffering and its opposite are on the same continuum. That would be a much more boring human existence. In practice, any difference in any experienced reality produces a type of suffering if there is memory and complex thought.

I’ve done a lot of work with various chakras which has really helped results. I feel like it is underutilized here.

Yeah! I… err, I agree with this guy. I better let you guys know so you can reply in a time and place which is only real in my current imagination which is made by tiny sensations which never actually take place in a present moment.