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Twin flame basically means you meeting a mirror. They will be a completely different personal with all of their own complexities and uniqueness, but a core of what they are, in my opinion on a very deep spiritual level, will be so close to you that it’s like meeting the core of yourself in another. My advice is keep researching completely new methods from time to time. For me I was essentially pulled to all the right things at the right times through an intuitive process. Don’t drop the methods you have until you find something quite better, and always allow yourself to return to previous methods if the time feels right. This is just what works for me. Maybe a more consistent single technique with huge discipline works for you. I found that doing that only felt allergic to me and caused painful stagnation.

Good starting resource on the chakras. https://isha.sadhguru.org/us/en/wisdom/article/7-chakras-mystical-dimensions-body-seven-chakras

You should start looking at the OCEAN personality test. It’s much more effective from what I’ve seen experts saying. You’re simplifying enlightenment and people in general though quite a bit by saying everyone in a certain category can’t awaken. Look at enough data, and you’ll find you were in hasty generalization territory. I’d bet on it. Enlightenment betting? We should totally start that… ?

Try to take a broad approach to spirituality which is beyond just meditation, trips, Actualized videos, etc. For example, finding my twin flame lead pretty directly to my first experience of 8th Jhana and cessation, all while combined with somewhat new and radical nondual Christianity, surrendering to a non-physical and non-human guru, opening of my chakras with telepathic communication that works in completely sober life which was only discovered by luck and intuition, etc… That’s really just the tip of the iceberg which allowed me to open psychedelics to their potential. When you start to open up, heroic dose trips are seen as less beneficial. I discovered that THC was my main transformative aid beyond regular/serotonergic psychedelics. What before practicing spirituality for 7 years would’ve make me laugh with friends and eat junk food was now capable of giving me heroic dose type experiences in a sustainable way which could be practiced far more frequently. Eventually, even that tool wasn’t even necessary. It was more like an extra lubricant than anything. Open your eyes to all methods and possibilities, and allow your intuition to guide you to the right techniques. That is what worked for me.

I see this work in terms of yoga which is basically union. You can’t be in union without the Absolute and the relative. The relative human wants love more than anything at the basic, pre-spiritual level. When the desire for relative love meets Absolute Love, the union is complete in a very important way. There are always more things to bring into union such as tacos and 28 dimensional aliens, however, the Absolute Love and relative love union is possibly the most integral and important one to occur on the spiritual journey. Consciousness without Love is empty to the core of the relative human experience.

I’d say to try to use mindfulness and vipassana when you run into the rejection. Not only is it ripe territory to develop spiritual practice, it will make you less reactive overall while you’re still capable of feeling the emotions fully. You can think fully and use the emotional guidance rather than being in “emotional overload” reactivity. Be careful of calling romantic love an addiction. An addiction has to be a net negative impact on your life for it to be an addiction, according to the definitions I’ve seen at least which I think have merit to them. Keep putting yourself out there in a romantic sense. It’s probably best to explore this avenue if you’re being pulled back to it continuously. If it ends up feeling like a dead end, give it a break for a while and come back later when it feels like a better time.

Is saying that infinity cannot have an end not limiting it even if it is essentially the definition? Even saying infinity is undefinable is a definition which restrains it. If everything in experience is equally God, how can God be detected as something to even be loosely defined in the first place? Are some things more God than others? Can God cease to exist? Why not? It was never born and hasn’t stopped yet = it can never stop? … maybe. Are you honestly accessing enough direct experience to speak with solid ground that you know whether the apparently limitless is truly limitless? How many times in your life has your deepest understanding been replaced? Could your current understanding not be another step which is mostly incomplete and false yet seems like the golden prize? Subjective experience appears to be occurring. Beyond that, to say that anything else is not fair game seems like an assumption no matter how solid the evidence, reasoning, past direct experience, future projections, or anything else you can pull on. It’s like you’re on a raft of shifting sand, and you’re trying to stand on it to get through a tsunami. If we take away a Buddha’s serotonin to just enough for him/her to barely live, are they still a Buddha? Are they still “awake?” If we use the scale of evolution from single-celled organisms to human beings, are we closer to single-celled organisms or chimpanzees when it comes to approaching actual Infinity, God, etc? Or are there some humans who are right on the money? Many of us here, myself included, seem to get great progress toward Truth through chemical means (typically psychedelics on the extreme end of the spectrum). Even meditation runs in many ways off of neurochemical shifts. Water fasts are doing similar things. Would humans with 100 fold processing power on a chemical level beyond the best of what humanity can reach now come to the same conclusions about God, Infinity, Absolute Love, etc? Would humans with live and complete access to all human collective knowledge come to the same conclusion? Would humans with maximum mastery of all spiritual faculties at once come to the same conclusions? Would a subjective present moment experience with all of these at once come to the same conclusions? Now imagine something way beyond that. Do we really know much? Do we know if the human body can even survive actually accessing the deepest levels of Truth? I feel like at best we’re like the philosophers who theorized an atom way before there was evidence for them when the Truth is much closer to Inter-dimensional cable from Rick and Morty being played beneath the emptiness underneath the heart of all strings (referring to string theory). “If I see a man armed only with a sword attack a group of machine guns, I shall consider his act to be absurd. But it is so solely by virtue of the disproportion between his intention and the reality he will encounter, of the contradiction I notice between his true strength and the aim he has in view. Likewise we shall deem a verdict absurd when we contrast it with the verdict the facts apparently dictated. And, similarly, a demonstration by the absurd is achieved by comparing the consequences of such a reasoning with the logical reality one wants to set up. In all these cases, from the simplest to the most complex, the magnitude of the absurdity will be in direct ratio to the distance between the two terms of my comparison. There are absurd marriages, challenges, rancors, silences, wars, and even peace treaties. For each of them the absurdity springs from a comparison. I am thus justified in saying that the feeling of absurdity does not spring from the mere scrutiny of a fact or an impression, but that it bursts from the comparison between a bare fact and a certain reality, between an action and the world that transcends it.” -Albert Camus Great quick video on absurdity and Camus. It’s starts sounding nihilistic but ends with a resolution. There seems to be a certain absurdity inherent to the entire journey toward Truth. The further along I go, the more of what I actually know moves to feeling like 10% to be 1%, .1%, .01%, etc. until I’m basically sitting on Socrates’ lap when he first said “I know that I know nothing.” If anything I’ve definitely learned a lot of great techniques to align with the human mind’s feeling as if it is moving toward Truth. Beyond learning or knowing, it has certainly developed me in some helpful ways in relative life. It’s made my experience of life feel to be much better and greatly reduced my suffering. The Absolute Truth hot dog dangling on a stick connected to your forehead which constantly is in front of your eyes does seem to do that pretty reliably if you do it long enough. It also seems to make the world a better place in a relative sense for the most part when done well, so by all means don’t stop doing it if it’s your thing. It’s definitely my thing or at least a part of my thing. As great as the feeling of finding Absolute Truth is, it is the journey toward Truth itself which matters most. Even if we only go from a delusional starting point to a delusional ending point, at least you can say you really tried and hopefully found meaning and happiness in pursuing Truth. (Video for the Inter-dimensional cable reference. Part of the reason for this reference is to point to the possible absurdity which might be at play when trying to approach the Truth in its fullness) — The way I see it is that this running underneath all phenomena is a drop in the ocean compared to the level of odd possibilities which could actually be occurring. I’ve had quite a few run ins with such oddities. Don’t take this as me asserting anything necessarily. That’s really not the point. I don’t know a damn thing lol.

I’m trying to man. Getting a job and using vipassana/mindfulness to live a normal life in a spiritual way is the goal for now. I recognize that things will get easier over time as I perfect my craft and slowly gain a following. I find that 1-on-1 teaching and just friendships around spirituality are entirely rewarding enough for now. Making a living through spirituality is just a nice pipe dream to make into reality once I learn plumbing to manipulate the pipes in the best ways lol. The most important parts of my life purpose can be done with that or without it, but it does seem nice.

No psychedelics. No meditation. No nothing. If you can truly operate with the fully held belief that you are the ABSOLUTE hottest shit off of any block ever conceived of anywhere in any time or non time, reality, dream, or anything else, God will eradicate the shit out of your ego resulting in unavoidable TOTAL SURRENDER in pretty quick succession resulting in Love so infinite that your field of visual perception will be reduced to about 3 cm of grass and dirt. You’ll call 911 because the Love of God is annihilating you so hard. You’ll tell the 911 operator that you love her, and she’ll say she loves you back. At least that’s my experience. This took place several months ago. The cocky to humble rubber band can yield many fruits. Don’t knock it till ya try it.

I command the world’s most well-known devil figure of all time to give me spiritual awakenings. If any devil wants to tango, I’m game. You can certainly have rather transformational experiences from interacting with “negative” spiritual entities, but at the end of the day, you run the show. It’s not something above you to fear. When it’s all Love, you realize the devil can be a pretty cool imaginary guy to have on your imaginary team. Why must you disprove a devil? Go deeper into this work, and you’ll probably lose all fear of a devil.

This is a circle jerk. You said please help me not please debate me on a useless topic. I know this topic goes nowhere. Even if it is true, what are you gonna do about it? As someone said, this is not falsifiable which is what I was trying to lead you to feel in my response.

Conflation of the ego self and Self while in your first taste of oneness is what happened. Focus on asking yourself the question “Who am I?”

You’re right on a conceptual level operating on infinite bias just like anyone else ??

God damn it this devil is giving me one hell of an amazing life. I guess it’s time to change who I worship. Do you know how to give him my thanks in a way he’ll get the message? How do you prove God is not controlling the devil to give you the best opportunity to grow in life? Maybe he’s just a middleman puppet and nothing to fear.

I think falling into the trap of pleasure being better than seeking Truth/God is important to avoid, but be careful not to paint pleasure out to be some absolute enemy. There are plenty of ways to get some pleasure which is not against Truth/God IMO. Just don’t get lost in it.

It undulates. Maybe 80-90% of the time I don’t have thoughts in the head anymore no matter how detailed the words I’m saying or typing or whatever is. It does itself. I call it “thoughtless thought.” To that extent, I have no thoughts that I could attach to for that majority of my day. The arahant (4th path or fully enlightened in Theravada Buddhism) Daniel Ingram says that essentially the patterns of sensations of a sense of self still occur after full enlightenment in his opinion. I don’t see him thinking this doesn’t extend to thoughts in the head. The difference is that the insight into no self is so clear that those patterns are not seen to have any self in them even if they are more or less identical to what the unenlightened you would’ve said was what made you have a self. Enlightenment is not about some locked in and consistent state of consciousness that can’t think or any other benchmark really that depends on a single factor of experience like that although it does usually come with some “baseline upgrades” in a sense for most people. I’m probably at 2nd or 3rd path in the 4 path Theravada system IMO if I’m following their designations as much as I honestly can. I feel much of what Daniel says about sense of self sensations to be true to my personal experience more and more as I go along. The biggest shift for me has been in how resistance occurs. Rather than me having a sort of meta-resistance on top of the natural resistance interactions of different sensations occurring, I just allow the various aspects of my human system and the environment to interact in a natural way. Plenty of times this involves things like complex emotions which are easy to link to a sense of self. I just don’t try to resist having a sense of self nor resist not having a sense of self. Self vs. no self is not just an on and off switch. It’s more like a continuum and different experiences and stages of the process of insight (which enlightened people still cycle through according to Ingram) call up much different levels of sensations of self. If you find yourself in the Mind & Body insight stage, you’re probably going to have more sensations which feel like a self than some of the more mystical and positive feeling stages. Mind & Body feels like being dipped back into a truly ordinary human perspective as much as you can be even for enlightened people although their Mind & Body might be above the highest baseline states you’ve experienced. It’s just a natural part of the stage. It doesn’t matter how enlightened you are. Don’t let someone convince you of the magical, beautiful, and ever-present level of their enlightened reality. From my research, there are a lot of highly awake people whose experience is far more subtle than you think. Ideas like never having a sense of self are the ones which make me curious to proof test with a bear or flaming sword or chainsaw. There’s probably more of something there than they are trying to admit.

Psychedelics alone will probably struggle to get people much progress. It can be a catalyst that works really well when combined with other approaches in my experience. Vedanta vs. psychedelics will probably help far less people than Vedanta + psychedelics. As far as Pure Consciousness goes, we probably won’t get far in a communication unless it went beyond just text back and forth on a forum. Too much discussion of subtleties, definition, etc. would be involved. It sounds like a Theravada vs. Tibetan issue which obviously would be quite dense to go through if that is the case.

The answer is way more than no or yes or dream or real. I answer with a question because you’ll need to approach it at some different angles of understanding to see the full picture. The idea that you designed a universe in the sense of the word “design” people usually use doesn’t hold up well IMO. I think that’s just a story you’re telling yourself. I’ve told myself it before too. The worst part about it is that it took place in some concrete past.

When you awaken from a dream, was the thing that triggered you to awaken real? I’d be thinking about how to fully awaken more than that, however, you can use that question to arrive at your answer if you want one.

No subjective present moment experience is more correct, valid, etc. than any other, however, how your subjective present moment experience lines up with the story arch of new ones you’ll find yourself within will certainly make things seem as if an experience was somehow invalid. In Truth, all of the solidity, meaning, and understanding of the entire human experience will be eradicated and replaced with something that makes your current experience look ridiculous, alien, or just plain arbitrary. Ad infinitum. You’re never in some holy ground of understanding where you’ve arrived at an answer that will last forever. Even being a “fully enlightened” human being won’t mean shit while you’re a dolphin.

Good to hear it’s helping on the mental illness front for you. Be careful not to get into higher doses. A datura trip can fuck you up hard.

This is quite good. I really resonate with this. What is your interpretation of the part I put in bold? I described it as Liberation was like figuratively seeing myself put a nuclear virus bomb in the core of the illusion, but at that very same moment I had the memory that it had always been there. There is no unenlightenment or enlightenment process in Truth. There is just enlightenment is closer to what’s going on. Really it’s much more like “enlightenment” is so constant that it actually has no contrast anywhere to ever be sensed, yet this whole dream life has been designed around it to some sense according to a lot of highly awake people. In a sense everything is it, but even that is just a stepping stone to seeing it actually dissolve before your eyes. There’s just the appearance that the awakening journey is what is happening to bring you closer to it. Intense experiences and things that line up with the myth come more and more. Eventually you get there and see you were always “there.” Everything/all “beings” are enlightenment, but only you get to subjectively see it disappear into the Truth which was actually running things.

Overcoming mental illness is far more difficult than having insights or disembodied wisdom, especially while we’re still growing up. Continuous access to strong mindfulness is the key to really developing beyond things like anxiety IMO. You can even have extremely accurate, powerful, and rare enlightenment realizations which cause large baseline shifts in consciousness, but without building up the muscle of mindfulness over time, things like anxiety can make you like a brand new Ferrari with a broken engine. This is not a race or something to rush necessarily. Emotional and mental health mastery might only come in your 30s, 40s, or even later. Maybe you can speed it up quite a bit, but if you can’t, try to look at the situation with more acceptance of your situation and yourself for the time being.

The sad thing is people like the owner of the restaurant are probably unreachable. They will have to grow out of it if their own accord, if they ever do. At the end of the day, it’s completely her prerogative to see so much of the world as her enemy.

The best thing I’ve found is to meet highly conscious friends. I find therapists to be pretty ineffective, especially as you become more highly developed. Better than talking to people is the ability to use mindfulness and vipassana whenever you need to in your normal life. When you can feel things as bare sensations and recognize they are entirely not the property of any consistent self and are impermanent, this gives you a lot of power over negative emotional sensations/patterns of sensations. If you want someone to talk to for processing things and developing the methods I’ve described above, shoot me a PM. Best of luck.