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Maybe the loss of unfair survival forces is not such a bad loss compared to the gain which awakening in its deepest forms is capable of giving you. I’ve experienced a whole shit ton of hospitalizations and financial loss due to awakening, and what I’ve gained is in tiers and tiers above anything lost. This is not some sudden philosophy came up spontaneously in a mentally unsound state of consciousness. This is what nearly a decade of absolute dedication to ever deepening awakening has revealed to me. When even psych ward after psych ward becomes blissful and spectacular, there’s not much left which can threaten you. And in truth, nothing can threaten You Material poverty is far more suiting to a spiritual aspirant than focus on material success, but even material wealth can come through awakening. I work tirelessly in the material realm, and it has no threat to me. Countless fruits come on their own accord. Doing one’s highest duty in every moment is a treasure which cannot be surpassed. God (this existence and Ungraspable truth) will take care of his people who are zealous and feverishly dedicated practitioners. This is true Karma Yoga. Progress made in a spiritually-aligned manner will produce more fruits that are everlasting in this eternal state of instant-to-instant blissful death into the perceived world which we are infinitely blessed to experience. All gain is null and void. All loss is null and void. Dance your most spectacular dance through this illusory world my friend. The no longer extant you will thank you and smile for this. Dive into the infinite depths of faith and trust in God, the very fabric of your life in any reality, and you will find no harm.

I’m currently just out of the hospital in which I was being treated for a bipolar 1 manic episode. I’m not some false diagnosis. My being encapsulates the whole meaning of those words by my very nature. I can do nothing but be a manic motherfucker. This is why I come to share what that requires. Currently I’m chilling and getting highly THC to try to have the healthiest week for my mental state as possible. My psyche needs a lot of recuperation from the wild states I was in in my last manic episode. This is wild potentiallly life-threatening stuff. Be very wary if you have this and consider using psychedelics. I WENT SO DAMN HARD *AGAIN* that I worked myself to the point of insanity. It’s a once in a lifetime life I’m living. Truly great what We are. ?❤️? https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=j91RZ01PZwA&feature=share

50% of my life is manic. Goodbye forum for now. I was wrong about the guidelines. I’ll be back to respond upon my serving of my term. I think this is a message that needs to get out to a few truly lost souls. ? Goodbye ❤️

I apologize if I step outside of forum guidelines. I have read them and believe I’m in the clear.

Where art thou gains my friend? Maybe you before lifting weights isn’t badass enough for this forum of absolute champions. Absolute no offense meant (seriously) is all I see in your response is a pussy. Show me that I’m wrong please. Provide some proof on your anonymous internet genius.

This is me slapping my c*ck on the table in front of everyone. Idk if that’s allowed. It’s meant to be positively inspirational that a damn near mental health retard is killing it in life.

Add me on Facebook Leo to know a lot more. Seriously. It’s a wild, wild, wild story you ought to know. My life has turned out one-of-a-kind from Actualized’s influence.

I’m trying to show Leo what Leo made.

Turn off life means turn off Actualizing. I’ve been addicted to it before the organization was started.

The Highest Level of Awakening speaks for itself The state of direct experience when this was happening was absolutely ungodly

Caucasian Ego Gets Pwned by Hispanic Compassion (Don’t Miss the Ending) this is me sharing my “Actualized” life now after years of work

Bipolar Disorder Type 1 with Psychotic Features Generalized Anxiety Disorder and ADHD Accurately and Clinically Diagnosed can’t do shit to sabotage me living the best life possible.

I love you Leo ❤️ in a lot of ways, you kinda saved my life even though we think differently from one another now. you’re honestly a treasure of a human being, but only a very tinder part of myself I’m feeling like right now wants to contemplate that. With all I learned from you, I overcame suffering essentially in this life I was born into literally crazy suffering with because of my genes and nurture. You’re a good guy when all things must be considered.

What a blatant idiot, or the only other possible option is, what a blatant noob to the full potential of insight No offense, but you know not who you write to with such a comment

Lol your awareness is already omnipotent, and your ego will never be because it is a part rather than the whole.

Njoy

What is the essence of Actualized.org? What is Leo’s ultimate most important message he could relay to us? If Leo was at the last flash of his awareness in this life in the highest state he would ever reach in this form, what would he say to the one who really wanted to focus on the most wise course of action possible? These are some questions arising for me in this moment. Leo serves as an enigma in my direct experience. I have followed him, his work, and more or less mimicked his explanation of the methods he promotes for years in my own way. I still am in this moment lying here wondering what Leo’s most clear cut call to action done in compassion would be.

Okay, so I’m done then? Lol that’s a low bar…

That’s a pretty good answer honestly.

I love brooms! Useful little buggers!

I’ve experienced exponential results upon taking up new methods which is why I suggest this.

1.5 years is not enough time to expect the big results. Keep going. Focus on techniques that feel most effective and search for more techniques if you’re not absolutely satisfied with your current ones. Learning theoretical frameworks can be just as big of a piece of your development as meditation. So make sure that you at least intellectually understand or are aware of the majority of Leo’s teachings and ideally dozens of other teachers/spiritual systems. If you’re feeling impatient, you could probably benefit from more psychedelic trips. Once you see some profound insights deeply enough and enough times, this will transfer to your meditation to a degree. It sounds like most of the types of meditation you’ve been doing are pretty basic, so it’s probably time to upgrade to different methods.

There is not a particular sensation of insanity. There is, however, the insanity of labeling a sensation as insanity.