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Every motion needed for existence Is a torment on my soul. Each moment is a burden. Each menial task is the next nail in my coffin. I wish to return to that space where I existed in nonexistence before life in this world. I wish to return to the state of nonbeing, And I know that each moment brings me closer to this Solace.

Sure am lol. I thought someone here might appreciate a poem written from the bottom. I know better experiences are to come, but right now I’m making what I can out of this depression.

Or are they both the same thing?

Is there a subject behind consciousness? Something that exists prior to consciousness? Would this explain deep sleep?

To the people who misconstrue my statements of being God, having God Consciousness, or wanting to become a living God: Your notion of God is quite limited and ignorant if you cannot easily intuit that this is the case. You are also God. Right here. Right now. As you are reading these words. Now, for an example: You have cells in your body. You likely think of your body as you. For this example, we’ll use Josh. He’s a human with a physical body. Each cell in Josh’s body comprise his total body. In a sense, each cell in his body is him or is Josh. Josh is simultaneously all of the cells in his body as well as his body as a whole. Here is where this relates to me or you being God: you are merely a cell in the “body” of God. You are simultaneously one part of God while also the entirety of God. The real question is, “how conscious am I of the fact that I am God?” This is where we differ. I have had three separate experiences of a higher sense of God Consciousness than what most human beings will ever experience in this lifetime. One of these was on a “heroic” dose of magic mushrooms - 5.87 dried grams. The next occurred during a manic episode stemming from my bipolar disorder (truly a gift of God when it comes to awakening to your true nature). The last and most recent was when I took 10 tabs of LSD. The levels to God Consciousness are literally infinite, so no, I have not experienced the “full” experience of God Consciousness. I still have much to learn from various spiritual traditions, teachers, and masters, BUT I was still in God Consciousness which is a truly remarkable and rare achievement among the likes of humans. I thoroughly believe that awakening to God Consciousness is our birthright and duty, although some people are not ready yet. This is how we go from humans, to Humans, to Gods. The quickest and easiest way to improve the likelihood that you will experience God Consciousness is to take psychedelics in high doses. The slower route is to meditate and read spiritual texts while trying to live a spiritual life. The truth is that all of these things combined will yield the best results. It is one of my deepest wishes for other humans to experience God Consciousness. It just might be the most beautiful and profound experience you ever have while on planet Earth. A helpful framework to use to understand awakening to God Consciousness comes from a core tenet in Hinduism. This is that Atman is Brahman. Atman is the higher, spiritual self while Brahman is the supersoul (consciousness) in all living entities. What God truly is is the combination of this all-pervading consciousness and everything that exists in this consciousness. All that exists in consciousness is actually imaginations of this infinite consciousness which are, in turn, only consciousness. There is no true duality between consciousness and the body or consciousness and the material world as all is actually consciousness. This is true because consciousness is the true first order phenomenon that exists in all dimensions, possible realities, parallel universes, time, space, etc. All things truly exist within consciousness, even space and time. I have a video that describes how, using Einstein’s Theory of Special Relativity, space and time exist within consciousness and are not the true building blocks of our reality. On a final note, I have been intensely spiritually seeking for the past six years. Not to be arrogant, but I likely have some deeper insights into reality and the nature of God than you do although there are certainly people who far surpass me in this regard. I’ve conducted research spanning dozens of thousands of years, dozens of religions, and dozens of spiritual texts. I’ve watched thousands of hours of high quality spiritual videos to inform myself. I’ve experimented with powerful mind-altering substances in the pursuit of spiritual understanding and direct experience (which trumps all). I’ve even had bouts of mania, insanity, and delusion that have given me insights into the true nature of God and spiritual truths. So please, do me and yourself a favor, and do not make ignorant rumors about where I am or who I am based upon statements made above your current spiritual pay grade.

I’ve actually had a direct insight into good and evil while on a 5.87 gram mushroom trip. This was also the first time I realized God Consciousness. From God’s perspective (or the perspective of You in higher consciousness), there is no real difference between good and evil. GOD LOVES ALL POSSIBILITIES INFINITELY. Your perception of something as evil is an ego-mind based perception. That is where your problem lies. Continue consciousness expanding exercises like meditation, yoga, tantra, or my favorite - psychedelics.

Trying to understand and experience God through a “sober” state of consciousness is like trying to hammer in a fence with your hand. Yes, you can do it, but why not use the proper tool?

This is precisely why I say “meditation only.” I think meditation and spiritual knowledge makes your trips have a spiritual aspect to them that might be missing for someone without a decent foundation.

Here I give two trip reports from the past two times I took LSD.

I am not familiar with the term jhana. Do you care to link me to a good source on the topic? I’m not sure if this is something I haven’t experienced or if it’s simply a new word for an experience I’ve already had.

Why do you think something is happening? How is everything not merely nothing?

It'd be cool if we could, like, start a discussion about the Diamond Sutra.

10 Tabs of LSD - The Tale of Taking too Much (Short Version) https://youtu.be/52xqioeKkLA

I want to make it clear that the main effects of the Lucy were gone when all of this happened. I was in a sober enough state to drive and had a friend to witness at least the GPS glitches. To the story: the night before I took 10 tabs, realized God Consciousness and of course how my current incarnation was the pinnacle of all incarnate forms (normal stuff, right? Well the next morning I decided I’d have some food and coffee with a friend. On the way back from our drive to eat, my GPS glitched at least 10 times in a row. Then my friend said it must just be my phone (iPhone XS Max w/ Max hard drive). So she put the address in her phone and the same glitch happened once or twice. Now, it wasn’t just GPS glitches. I was wearing my AirPods in one ear, and the volume kept lowering and raising at random (not at times in coordination with the GPS directions). To top it all off, I was listening to the Emerald Tablets of Thoth while this was all occurring, and the glitches seemed to be related. Anyone else tired of playing around in “physicality?” ?

I thought the acid I was taking was bad/ineffective. I’ll have a detailed trip report video posted in the next few days.

When all dualities perish to create an eternal fractal nature of experience combined. Every rotation of duality creates the next. The more complex or unbelievable idea, the lower probability that you would experience reality as you wish. Eventually you realize that not only self, but no self, dual and non dual as well as every other possibility of consciousness exists. Even the idea or direct experience of Consciousness, Superconsciousness, and subconscious are cyclical natures feeding into the other. There is no other with out Self, but through becoming conscious of Self everything exists. Every possibility of what you think of as consciousness or subconsciousness feeds back into this cyclical nature that is simultaneously where Truth and Deception are in a sense the same thing. It is like the image of a serpent’s tail being consumed by the same entity.

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after intense contemplation and 10 tabs of LSD. I greet you in the Love and the Light of the Infinite Creator. I am Brandon. You are Brandon. There is an inevitability that this is both the most Profound insight you could ever see as well as the dumbest post you could possibly see. All realities exist, you are all realities, except to the extent of which the reality you see yourself within limits your reality. All is truly possible. Adonnai, To the Stars my Friend of Friends ?✨❤️

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Please pray for me. When you do so, you pray for yourself. ❤️ I say these things in the Love and the Light of the One Infinite Creator. Adonnai. Ad Astra. Through hardships to the stars ✨ Amen. P.S. ZIN-URU

There is no sin here.

You are the answer to your own prayers if you believe yourself to be. The only way to become like Christ is to know and claim, in a certain sense, that you are BETTER than Christ, Buddha, Mohammed, Etc. You start pulling on the strings of manifestation at this time. You are not better than Jesus by just merit per say, but you come at a later life cycle. You are more evolved in the spiral than Jesus. Any name of an enlightened person is just a mere story but also true beyond measure. It’s all part of the illusion. The rationalist claims circular logic when they hear certain teachings, but life is an eternal cycle. You are all sin as you are the creation. Create whatever you want. Do whatever you want, but for God’s sake don’t forget to be Authentic. Know Authenticity to be the portal through which you can fully actualize yourself. You sin only to the degree in which you act unGodlike (on your own terms of what you deem to be a God). Adonnai ✨

Authentic, and you have cleansed yourself of all sin. ❤️ Adonnai.

Are you comparing me to Leo? Lol