jimwell

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  1. @Water by the River I watched the video but couldn't finish it. I'm the type of man who likes direct and clear way of speaking. That man in the video simply confused me, I was forced to click on the 'Stop/Pause' button.
  2. I somehow feel sad tonight. And I feel like capturing this feeling via words; hence, here’s the saddest post I’ve ever shared in this forum. The passing of time and the changing of forms make me very sad from time to time. There’s a Japanese phrase for this: “mono no aware.” “Mono no aware” is a Japanese idiom for the awareness of impermanence (無常, mujō), or transience of things, and both a transient gentle sadness (or wistfulness) at their passing as well as a longer, deeper gentle sadness about this state being the reality of life. What triggered this “mono no aware” is the girl I saw in a 1976 film. That was her acting debut, but she won best actress. Her name is Charo, and she was 20 here. This type of girl can be my wife and have kids with me, not just one of my concubines. She epitomizes genuine (no makeup) feminine beauty, gentleness, and purity. She reminds me of the intern doctor I flirted with. I'm not the type of man who misses girls. But I miss her because that level of beauty is extremely rare. 47 years had passed since appearing in the film, and here she is (in 2022). She had become a class-A actress, film producer, tv host, and President and CEO of the biggest media company in her home country. That’s equivalent to being the CEO of Walt Disney Company or Comcast in the USA. The passing of time brings with it the changing of forms. She was still beautiful, especially for a woman her age. But her accomplishments (and makeup) did not stop the passing of her feminine beauty, gentleness, and purity. At 68, she looked as if she was a different person. I feel sad and disappointed thinking that even if I married this girl and enjoyed her splendor when she was 20, she would gradually and eventually lose her beauty as decades pass by. And then she'll lose her life. Then I think about the things I love about myself. Damn, I will eventually lose them significantly or completely via the passing of time and changing of forms. It makes me experience “mono no aware.” I'll end this post with a poem I generated via AI: The minutes tick away so fast, And soon the present becomes the past. Days turn into weeks, and weeks to years, And we're left with memories and tears. The sun rises and sets day after day, And the seasons come and go, in their own way. We watch as the world changes before our eyes, And we're left to ponder, as time flies. Sometimes we wish we could stop the clock And hold on to the things we love and cherish But time is a river that never stops And forms are the shapes that always perish But though time may take away what we hold dear, It also brings new beginnings, and hope, and cheer. For with every ending, there's a chance to start anew, And to make the most of the time we have, before it's through. So let us cherish every moment, and make it count, For time is a gift that we cannot do without. Let us live life to the fullest, and never forget, That time is a precious, fleeting asset.
  3. Don't conflate business and spirituality (or goodness).
  4. Yes. But I think the more significant reason is the intense brainwashing of North Korean kids. Kids are taught Kim Jong Un is a noble leader, a national father, and even a God and can't be punished. The brainwashing is similar to the brainwashing done by Imperial Japan to gullible Japanese citizens before and during WW2. Childhood brainwashing is very effective. I think about Christians and Muslims being unable to escape the mind virus of religion. It doesn't matter how absurd their religious dogma is or what their priests or pastors do. Most of them stay Christian or Muslim until death. But the correct mindset is to maximize the good things you can do and minimize the bad stuff; not maximize the wrong things because of greed, and compensate them by doing good things.
  5. North Korea's Kim Jong Un must have provided massive value to North Koreans despite reports of human rights violations and starvation in his country. How else would he have stayed in power for many years? It's the same thing with China's Xi Jin Ping.
  6. I'm happy to hear that. Thanks. I don't love life per se. Life is difficult and absurd in many ways. But I love beauty in various forms. And I see mind-boggling beauty (appearance, intelligence, and love) in life. I always do my best to appreciate, create, enhance, or intensify the beauty I see and perceive. That makes life worth living. It's correct that immortality in human form would be hell. In fact, that would be the worst hell. Being human is being limited. My capability to appreciate and create beauty is limited. My capability to feel love and joy is also limited. After a thousand years of human life, I would be sick of it all and desire death. So, my lifespan should also be limited. I see intelligence in God's design there. I don't look forward to death despite knowing it's heaven in some ways. In fact, I'm scared of it. But when I have maximized the accomplishment of the purpose of my human existence, I can die peacefully. How could you romanticize dying without romanticizing being alive first? That's twisted. Have a romantic relationship with your life first before having a romantic relationship with death.
  7. The internal things you mentioned are surely true beauty. But the external things are also true beauty and have value. The other way is also true. External beauty or appearance creates love and joy inside me. Everything in existence is an illusion. But this illusion is all there is and is all you have access to; hence the illusion is also real. It's better to take life seriously.
  8. Yes, the melody is beautiful and relaxing. I added to my playlist. Here are the lyrics from https://genius.com/Munya-life-is-a-dream-lyrics: Take, take me to the moon Just you and me we can make history A dream is a safe place to land Are you afraid? You can hold my hand Life is a dream, you are the one You stand alone, a self to become Life is a dream, you are the one You stand alone, a self to become Take, take me to the moon Just you and me we can make history Give, give me a start to reach for Are you afraid? I can’t wait anymore Lifе is a dream, you are the onе You stand alone, a self to become Life is a dream, you are the one You stand alone, a self to become Life is a dream, you are the one You stand alone, a self to become Life is a dream, you are the one You stand alone, a self to become
  9. The few high-consciousness users don't spend too much time on this forum because they have less incentive to do so. Most users in this forum have average or low consciousness, and their posts align with that. Such posts are unappealing to highly conscious or sensible users. Bullshitters love bullshitting each other. So, they end up creating the most number of posts. I'm not surprised by the forum's situation.
  10. Leo is not the most awakened human ever. It's possible he has reached the highest awakening. But it was temporary. His baseline or usual consciousness is NOT equal to his highest awakening. I don't intend to say what he spiritually accomplished is useless. I myself am interested in what he awakened to. I just need to clarify things.
  11. They need to be murdered? I used to feel the way you feel when I was completely internally destroyed; extreme anxiety and depression and low self-love and self-esteem. I decided to internally heal myself and become "how a man should be". It took more than a decade of consistent self-therapy while being a wage slave. It was difficult as fuck. After work, my workmates dined at restaurants, drank beer, or traveled to tourist spots; while I was inside my room, digging deep into the past, introspecting, contemplating, journaling, and facing my greatest childhood pain and fears. Now, I feel the opposite. Masculine beauty is profound or comprehensive, and very difficult to embody. And that's exactly the reason why I love being a man. Girls are shallow, though I love their physical beauty, femininity, and gentleness.
  12. It's not only dumb, it's also cruel. I've been contemplating these things for many years; I still don't have a satisfying answer, to be honest. But it became clear to me that a limited mind or consciousness can never have a satisfying answer. There's only one way to get that satisfying answer: to access God's unlimited consciousness. Anything else is speculation, though such speculation is sensible. Yes, God is a bastard, and it's valid to see and complain about the flaws in God's design. But one must introspect, be self-honest, and ask this question: "GOD IS A BASTARD. BUT AM I ALSO A BASTARD?". If the answer is YES, then your complaints have little significance. If the answer is NO, then God is also a hero. Why? Because you're also a direct manifestation of God.
  13. @michaelcycle00 Only one dreamer or imaginer. From your point of view, your consciousness is all which exists, hence it's your dream existence. @tuku747 I don't know.
  14. No there's not. You're an illusion pretending to be real. You're the best actor. There's only one consciousness, one dream. Solipsism is completely beautiful, not horrible. It should make you feel love and joy, not sadness or horror.
  15. Are you living with your stepfather now? If so, move out as soon as possible. Heal from a distance. If it's not possible to move out, stay away from him as much as possible. For example, you can stay in your room most of the time and just go out of the room if he's not in the house. I don't know why you felt like murdering your stepfather. If you really want to murder him, just punch him in the face or hurt him in other ways. Never murder him. Yes, his life will end literally. But, your life will also end metaphorically. I hope you understand. Just express your anger to him if you really need to, but never murder him unless he's in the act of murdering you and you're forced to defend yourself. I also didn't have the freedom to be free from physical, mental-emotional, and verbal abuse from my father. All kids don't have this freedom. You're not alone. That was why I mentioned a parent's license for parenthood. It's good you never believed it. It's dumb to carry your father's name if it's metaphorically dirty. If it's metaphorically clean or noble, no problem, go ahead and carry his name. This is transgenerational trauma. And it's very difficult to break. But what a big opportunity to be the first one to break it. You have your independent mind and life. You must exercise your will and do the correct thing. You're more conscious than your father and grandfather, which is good. You're in the correct direction. Just continue your journey until you reach where you want and should be.
  16. Saying that without emphasizing what I said below is wrong. We are interested not only in understanding how things are. We are also interested in knowing how things should be. That's what good leaders are. This is the ideological loophole I was talking about. "Massive value" providers are aware of this. So, they exploit this shit. This is how they think "I'm itching to generate money immediately. So, I'll invent a scam to accomplish it. I can even become an internet celebrity by doing it." "I'm also horny, so I want to rape that girl. That way, I'll be sexually satisfied. It's also a good way to transfer my childhood pain and anger to another person, making me feel better." "But how the fuck do I get away with all these? Ah!!! By providing massive value. I must be a massive value provider to society to fulfill my greed while making the world endure it. Problem solved." Being a parent is supposed to be a very serious job. If we need to take a driver's license to drive, then why not get a parent's license to raise a kid? This is absurd. Parents shape the kid's future because they provide both nature and nurture. Politicians not realizing this is absurd. Standing up to authority is NOT useless. In fact, it's the best thing to do. How do I know this? I have done it many times. Yes, it made my life very difficult. I experienced horrible things because of it, including being conspired against and even kicked out of my house and a few companies I worked for. I have lost important things that most humans can't afford to lose. But I'm still alive. And those difficulties made me internally strong and mature. And I have seen good changes in people of authority, including my father because I stood up to them. I forced them to behave correctly. I have also seen good changes in situations I am in. These took many years to materialize, but they materialized at least. I never regretted standing up for myself and to authority if they misbehaved. Exactly. See? You yourself are trying to exploit the ideological loophole I explained. Just walk away. Develop self-respect to be respected by others. It all starts internally. I don't have access to psychedelics. But I'm very happy with who I have become. If you have seen my posts, you'll know I have gone through the worst mental-emotional tortures God could ever inflict on its creatures. But humans are different. So maybe, you do need psychedelics. I just want to emphasize that psychedelics is NOT the only way.
  17. This is the ultimate police brutality. The Philippine police make the US police look as if they’re angels. This video is about a Philippine mayor who fell in love with a beautiful, gentle college student but ended up raping her and then splattering her brain and one of her eyes via gunshot to the face. This “massive value” provider mayor had all the power and resources to insert his penis into any girl he desired. You’d be unlucky if he saw and found your daughter attractive. He was able to persuade his high-ranking police officers to abduct the girl and “wrap her in a box” to be served as a gift. As the CEO of the town and a “massive value” provider, I was surprised to know that he DIDN’T get away with sin. I’m happy that a country as corrupt as the Philippines can do something better than South Korea and Japan, at least in this domain. The rape victim’s mother hasn’t filed for damages worth USD 215.8k because she doesn’t want the perpetrator’s dirty money. This is a massive amount in the Philippines, a 3rd world country with an annual salary of approximately 2.5k USD. The victim’s mother would be satisfied if the “massive value” provider sinner felt remorse and offered a genuine apology for the massive damage he had done. Her intention can be seen as noble but also naive. She should have taken that money. The former mayor’s family will utilize that money for their benefit at the expense of others. They can bribe government officials to secure the mayor’s release, as they have seemingly already done. Devils should have no access to power and resources. But paradoxically, it’s them who often obtain and possess them; hence we have a world more reminiscent of hell than heaven. Unfortunately, Eileen’s mother never realized that devils don’t change and can never feel deep or genuine remorse. The devil mayor was sentenced to 360 years in prison because he was also charged with murdering his political opponent’s supporters. Even if God had given this “massive value” provider mayor 400 years of life, he would have stayed a devil until he became a skeleton or ashes.
  18. Yes, if you're going to live only to inflict pain on others for your benefit, then it's better if you die. Life is naturally difficult. And bullies (devils) make it even more difficult by inflicting pain on others for their benefit. But I see that you are at least more self-aware than your father. Your father never had the intention to be a good man. But you do. That itself makes you different from him. You must give yourself credit for that. Selfishly feel pleasure for having a genuine desire to be a good man. Just continue your journey. You know you have accomplished it when you have developed a genuine love and respect for truth and goodness. That makes being a good man automatic. Good luck!
  19. Amazing technology. Apple has essentially created its form of schizophrenia. Probably very useful for certain people and situations. But for me? No, thank you. I prefer fucking my concubines in person to fucking them via Apple schizophrenia.
  20. China is even metaphorically dirtier than the USA.
  21. The USA, Japan, and their allies always proclaim "We are against changing the status quo by force.", as if they're the defender of justice. The main reason and perhaps the only reason they proclaim that is because the status quo favors them. When the USA invaded Iraq, Japan and their allies were silent as a mute. I don't support Russia invading Ukraine. I just want to highlight the fact that the USA is too metaphorically dirty to be the world's savior. The USA helping Ukraine also benefits the USA. It's still selfishness.
  22. https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-wealthy-have-less-empathy It was good Leo turned the spotlight on the wealthy's bullshit. It's not exactly Stage Green. But I still must say that Stage Green deserves all the support in the world.
  23. Yes, it can be noble as long as the intention and actions are genuine. But only a very mentally mature human can pull it off; at least a self-loving Stage Yellow who is also selfless and has strong Stage Green and Red aspects. I wonder whether Robinhood was that way. No, it's not. Many Stage Green humans have gone through Stage Orange. But it's also true that many Stage Orange humans got stuck in that SPiral Stage. A good example is Warren Buffet. He's wealthy as fuck but also dumb as fuck. He will die soon, and he's still spending most of his time and energy on investing. What a waste of resources. Go for it and give it your all. True. But it's also true that extreme suffering can turn a human demon into a human devil. It depends on how you react.
  24. @Holykael I'm drinking coffee right now on my balcony while marveling at the surrounding tropical trees. I feel good. Later in the afternoon, I will go to a big mall and enjoy delicious foods and marvel at the beauty of technology. I chose to have a romantic relationship with existence. Existence is my real wife. The beautiful girls who existence produced are my concubines. See? I chose it. God can materialize it via me (if I choose it). I hope you will finally choose self-love and self-empowerment.
  25. @Holykael To be honest, I also feel tired. I have been standing up for myself my entire adulthood and I do feel the positive results; high self-love, self-esteem, self-confidence, feeling good despite problems, etc. But I have been unlucky the past few years (divorce, lost much money via scam, my student visa got cancelled) despite my best efforts. I have been feeling tired for many years. But as long as I'm alive, I'll use all my energy and intelligence to continue standing up for myself. It's a mindset. I hope you will choose to acquire that mindset. But for now, sleep long and deep. Eat variety of foods. Ejaculate once every day or 2 days. Take a walk in nature and breathe fresh air regularly (this will help you sleep well). Try to remember what you loved doing before you felt this misery and then do those lovable things more often. Finally, take a nap as often as needed. These things boost your energy. Oh, I almost forget, Qigong can also boost your energy.