jimwell

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  1. Why can't you just accept that nobody here, including me, has the answer? The proposed answers "You need pain to experience pleasure." and "You need pain to keep you alive." are true but are not satisfying because they are NOT the highest answer. The highest answer is outside our limit, and we must accept that. I recommend focusing on the things inside your limit. What makes you feel love and excitement? Exert time and energy on that. What have you done to heal your traumas or improve yourself? This is the starting point which opens doors to more opportunities. Yes, the world is more similar to hell than heaven, with more demons and devils than angels and archangels. But what can you do, given the resources you have, to help materialize the opposite? Don't underestimate the power of asking these 3 major questions (subquestions can sprout from them). Take them seriously. Contemplate them for a long time even if takes years to discover the answers. Everything else is a waste of time. How about spirituality? Your spirituality is embedded in the answers to the 3 major questions, alongside love and respect for truth and beauty. What's the purpose of creating the human ego? Is it for God to repeatedly batter it until it becomes too soft and weak; ultimately surrendering to God? That God is crazy and cruel. You have been correct on most things. But I have observed you being wrong on a few things. Perhaps, what you proclaimed here is one of those few things. If true spirituality entails complete surrender to the Universe's Will, does that mean healing childhood traumas, prioritizing one's health, discovering one's life purpose, creating and accomplishing ambitions, and engaging in any form of personal development are unspiritual, useless, and a waste of time? Say that to the hundreds of thousands (or even 1 million) of humans who self-murdered last year.
  2. That's mind-boggling intelligence! This is how salary slavery will be ended. It seems "how the world should be" will materialize sooner than I anticipated. I feel excited about the future. But I wonder whether corporate and human greed will hijack such beauty.
  3. While watching the video, memories of me writing English books via MS Word in my home country and sending them for review via Google Drive to my Japanese business partner in Japan popped out of my head. I also remembered the times I had an online romance with my Japanese girlfriend (now my ex-wife) via the Line app. I started to feel overwhelmed by the realization of how useful and revolutionary computers and the internet are. I paused the video to regroup myself, and then I contemplated further. 10 years after this interview, YouTube was created. YouTube has been very valuable to me for learning, entertainment, and even spirituality. I have watched thousands or tens of thousands of informational and how-to videos, nature documentaries, videos by Leo, and walking tour videos such as the one below. I also remembered the times I booked flights via my computer and the internet. I felt very grateful and appreciative of the value such technologies provide. I studied Computer Engineering in college. Though I was never serious with my studies and was one of the most foolish students in the university (not an exaggeration - I used to be wasted almost every night and frequently skip classes), my educational background is sufficient for me to understand the complexity of computer hardware and software. Many people hate Bill Gates for various reasons. I dislike him for being able to sleep comfortably at night with his billions despite knowing billions of his fellow humans are living paycheck-to-paycheck, monetarily destroyed, or starving. Only a very selfish human is able to pull it off. But I must say Bill Gates and Paul Allen do deserve to be in the top 1%. They materialized a vision which is very powerful and transformative. I can't help but feel grateful to them and their company's salary slaves. Aside from the things I've already mentioned, I must add ChatGPT and this forum. ChatGPT has become a need for me. And this forum, enables me to publicly and easily express myself and share my thoughts via writing. The last force which inspired me to create this post was the realization that the computer and internet have made it possible for me to see and know that God's epitome of feminine beauty does exist, just thousands of kilometers away from me. Such a level of beauty has never existed in my vicinity (or perhaps it did 1 or 2 times in my entire life). Thanks to the PC and internet, now I know that girls as beautiful as these do exist. This enables me to create a new vision or expand my existing one. You might argue that Instagram owes its existence to Android. But you must recognize that Android itself owes its existence to the foundational technologies of the PC and internet.
  4. It could also be a human inside the coffin because his robot had enough of his shit.
  5. It's better if you finish watching the video. The "uuhh" is actually part of the design and was explained in the later part of the video. I don't approve of including "uuhh" to the robot's speech to make it sound very human. It's a silly idea. If anything, it's humans who need to train to exclude "uuhh" from their speech. No, robots can handle such situations well. The real heroes for humans are the robots, not Superman and Batman. That's a very good investment opportunity. You're lucky to have the capital for it. Indeed, such twisted humans do exist and will surely abuse robots. It makes me ponder whether "robot rights" should be considered when establishing rules and regulations related to AI and robotics. But not necessarily true. There are many things to contemplate, learn, and master. AI and robotics are excellent tools for such activities.
  6. Amen! But I recommend you (and other humans) enhance your beauty-appreciating capability, so you don't take such things for granted! It's a sin to enjoy the benefits of such beauty without feeling grateful and without appreciating the mind-boggling intelligence, time, and energy behind it.
  7. I've been using, learning, teaching, and dissecting the English language for more than a decade. As a non-native speaker of the language, I can easily detect the "faults" and needless complexities. A few years ago, I created and used my own English. I neglected the "craziness" and "faults" native speakers often use and commit. As a result, my English might have sounded weird or broken to native speakers or typical English teachers and learners. But perhaps, my English sounded cool and unique to some. But recently, I combined my English with the "usual" English because, in the end, English is a medium of communication. It's not about being sensible or correct, but rather a way to express and understand each other. Unfortunately, the usual English does the job. Here's one of the many things I dislike about English. There are too many words to describe one thing. I prefer simplicity to needless complexities. The problem is more about needless complexities than nuance. In that conversation alone, "generated", "obtained", "created", "produced", "acquired", "earned", "made", "realized", "secured", "attained", "materialized", "accomplished", and "achieved" are mentioned. That's 13 words to choose from to describe 1 thing. And there are even more but I have no time to list them all. I simply need 1 action word to describe the idea that I profited 90 USD via stock trading. But for variety, 2 action words are better. Perhaps "earned" and "accomplished". To be more metaphorical or poetic, "materialized" and "manifested" can be added. There should only be 4 English words to describe what I wanted to communicate. I love complexity. But I also love simplicity. In the future, I might revert to using my English again to express or honor my ideas and insights. That happens when I prioritize simplicity, correctness, consistency, and sense over "commonness", rules, and easy communication. Integrating "how it should be" and "being practical" is very difficult but must be done. Revelation: I'm not a profitable trader yet. But I can be soon.
  8. @eos_nyxia Congratulations on making the best comment on this thread! Are you a native speaker of English? I'll share my thoughts on your reply (and others') when I have time. @bebotalk I can see you have made the most comments on this thread. I'll get you when the time comes. Another thing I dislike about English is 1 word can mean dozens of things. The word "get" exemplifies that. No it's not cool, it's perverted. To lessen any animosity from native speakers of English and English lovers in this forum, I feel the need to proclaim I love the language despite its shit. That was why I invested time and energy creating this thread.
  9. Correct. Money will be perceived as ancient and barbaric. The way money is created and distributed is unfair and corrupt. But I do see the value and need for money. It's a needed evil which paradoxically creates good things. Corporate hierarchies and salary slavery will also disappear. But it'll probably take hundreds or even thousands of years. The same thing can be said for stock, crypto, and currency trading; they're all corrupt. And they'll also disappear along with money. But I recognize the value and necessity of these practices in this era. They align well with the current economic system and the current level of human development. I'm guilty of this corruption, and I'm NOT proud of it. But I understand the need for it. I'm grateful stock and currency trading exist.
  10. The original post is mostly true. And it's very frustrating. The universe will do whatever it wants, regardless of your approval or disapproval. I can even go further and claim that even your control, intentions, and willpower are not yours and not inside your limits, but actually the universe's. Everything is inside the universe's limit. You and I are fully at the mercy of the universe or God. And everything which has happened, is happening, and will happen is not random. It all materialized, is materializing, and will materialize according to every detail the universe has laid out. That's the no-self-predeterminism awakening I experienced many years ago which horrified me for a few days. The impact on me was significant because I had never heard about any form of awakening. I didn't even know what spirituality is. I feared I might have gone crazy, in addition to enduring extreme anxiety and depression. But recently, I realized I just can't surrender to God's Will. I intuit that God created the ego for a good reason. Neglecting the ego's will and desires is a big error. When I intensely desire something, I devote all my energy, time, and intelligence, putting every atom of my existence on the line. I will die trying to materialize it. The Universe's Will, though much bigger and more powerful than mine, becomes less significant.
  11. This video is an all-in-one package. It can make you laugh, but it can also make you feel disappointed and repulsed by reality. It's also very insightful, hence I'm sharing it.
  12. This is not the cause of my perfectionism; it's one of the manifestations. My perfectionism operates on a different level because it's all-encompassing. Most perfectionists have very limited scopes for their perfectionism; only in directing a movie, performing a musical concert, washing hands after touching a public door, writing a book, recording a video, etc. In my case, I'm a perfectionist in almost all domains and aspects of life. Yes, it's natural and instinctive for me to see defects or faults in everything. I easily identify what can be improved, and many times I feel a burning desire to accomplish that improvement or perfection. In my 'Perfectionism is Wrong and Cruel' thread, I explained why it is the case. But I feel the need to emphasize that perfectionism is also a very beautiful thing. It's crazy because they're all true, though seemingly contradictory. I'll share a real story: My parents, especially my father, are two of the most ignorant and egotistical humans ever. When I was a kid, I used to point out their humanshit (bullshit). There was a time when my father became extremely angry with me; he threw a dustpan and stones at me with a very harmful intention. When my right arm got hit a few times, the skin peeled off a bit, revealing the meat and blood underneath. I became traumatized as fuck! It's distressing for an adult to experience such shit, let alone for a very young boy. I tend to detect faults in various forms and feel compelled to correct them. This has resulted in me being antagonized by my coworkers when I corrected their work or behavior. In my 20s, I always wondered why humans feel offended when their shortcomings or humanshit are pointed out or when they are shown a better way to do things. In my case, I feel grateful when somebody shows me a better way to do things. Why not? I just learned a better way. It's only in my 30s when I finally understood why, and I felt very disappointed. I lost respect for normal humans, and I'm not interested in them. But, I still treat them well, not because they're good and respectable (they're full of humanshit), but because I'm good. That might sound pretentious or egotistical for me to say, but it is the case, and hence, I must say it. My perfectionism has influenced my parents to become better humans, especially my mother. I never stopped pointing out their humanshit and showed them a better way to do things. I explained to my mother that the harmful and twisted ways they inflicted on me, especially when I was a young boy, caused extreme anxiety, depression, anger, and self-murder thoughts. I clarified that they needed to change their ways, or I would completely cut them off. Indeed, I did cut them off from my life a few times because they were unable to change. My perfectionism made it a clean break, with zero communication for years. But after many years, a miracle happened. My mother changed her behavior. For the first time ever, she confessed how ignorant and foolish she had been as a mother and asked for an apology. I began to notice her increased self-awareness. She also learned how to become a loving mother, and right now, I can even say she's one of the most loving mothers in the world. When I say it's a big miracle, it's not an exaggeration. It's accurate. My father was a hopeless case, unfortunately. But at least he learned to properly behave in my presence. He knew I would inflict physical and mental-emotional pain on him if he displayed his twisted ways. He learned this via direct experience. In the last few weeks of his life, I was surprised he became an "angel". I couldn't believe my eyes. I took care of him when he was sick and dying. I was able to do it because of years of strict and "perfect" self-therapy, enabling me to forgive him for his big sins. So, perhaps, my perfectionism changed him, though it was too late. I've just demonstrated a few ways perfectionism can make things better and create beautiful results. In fact, my own self-transformation is a result of my perfectionism. That's why it's very difficult and even feels impossible for me to release. But as the old saying goes, 'What gets you here doesn't necessarily get you there.' It's time for me to transcend perfectionism. Much easier said than done, but it must be done; hence I'll go for it. I awakened to no-self many years ago. But that was a different version of the no-self awakening being talked about in this forum. But I want to say you can't live a very good life via wearing a no-self lens all the time. It's useful for some situations. But in most situations, embracing, loving, and transcending yourself (the ego) accomplishes better results, materially and even spiritually. I'm busy as fuck, girl. I'm not supposed to spend time replying to my threads. But there's some sense in your post and I appreciate the effort; I feel compelled to reply to you. So, Arabic is a strong contender for the craziest language in the world? But I've heard Arabic is known for its accuracy and consistency. If that's true, then English still holds the throne.
  13. You are probably autistic or have Aspergers or a disorder which is something related. But that what also makes you interesting. Normal humans are NOT interesting to me. No, of course. Your life would have been much more horrible without music. Music is a beautiful thing; hence it makes your life more beautiful and satisfying. But as the old saying goes "Too much good is bad.". It's about control and moderation. And of course, you need to create ambitions and goals so you can look forward to the future. If you don't, who will create and accomplish them for you?
  14. Sounds romantic. I plan to do that in the future. Firstly, I'll go to a beautiful park or place somewhere in NEA. Then I'll witness and feel the beauty, sacredness, and mystery of existence, similar to what I shared below. And then, at the peak of the moment, I'll take a psychedelic. That would be a hallelujah! I feel excited just thinking about it.
  15. Reminds me of the time when I was a "premium" salary slave. I stayed in a large mansion situated on top of a hill, overlooking other hills. The temperature there was perfect, ranging from 18 to 23 degrees Celsius, which are Japanese Spring and Autumn temperatures. I slept on a king-size bed, complete with a private shower and toilet. I had a chef who prepared my meals and a helper who maintained the mansion's cleanliness. My food, electricity, and water were provided for free. And I almost forgot to mention that the mansion is located in a top tourist spot in my country. I was living a luxurious life. The only thing I needed to do was manage the school and teach English to Japanese learners who wanted to experience a premium vacation in my home country. But after only 2 months, I started to feel dull and depressed. I thought I still needed to do more internal work or self-therapy. I was concerned because I was too busy during that time, leaving no room for anything else, including any form of internal work. One day after work, I glanced through a large glass window and witnessed rainwater falling heavily. I couldn't hear the rain due to the thick walls and windows surrounding me. Intrigued, I decided to step onto the open balcony. There, I could see and hear the rain directly, without the barrier of a glass window. After spending 30 minutes observing the rain, the dull and depressed feelings disappeared. Then I experienced a feeling of aliveness and excitement. It was at that moment I realized NOT ALL forms of depression are caused by childhood trauma or abuse. External factors such as lifestyle or being disconnected from nature can also contribute to depression.
  16. Correct, you don't need to lift weights because you're a girl, though girls who make their legs thicker and fuller via weightlifting are good. Running or jogging not only makes you fit and healthy; it also makes you look and feel young. Just wear a pair of running shoes and clothes when you run outside so people around you will not find you suspicious or weird. But if they do find you weird despite that, it's their problem. You must do what you need to do.
  17. I need to clarify that this post reminds me of PreetyIndia not because it is filled with drama or toxicity, but because she used to share the same story. She was sent to the mental hospital by her family, and she didn't like it. She hated mental hospitals. I don't want you to misunderstand me, Sabth. You can continue venting your pain and frustrations. I don't find you toxic, and I understand that venting somehow makes you feel better. I just hope that your identity and stories are genuine.
  18. I don't understand. If you want to know the title of the video, here it is: Scamming billions, then disappearing: The case of the "CryptoQueen" by DW Documentary
  19. It was interesting, and the fact that you could have died there via a bison or snake attack, or from starvation if you got lost, made it even more intriguing. Your experience made me contemplate life a bit. Perhaps one of the reasons why God allows us to experience extreme forms of shit and horrors is because it makes human life more interesting. If we know for sure we're safe until we die, yes it feels comfortable and peaceful, but it lacks challenges, surprises, and "life". Knowing that we could get fucked, starve, or experience extreme horror makes human life more interesting, "fuller", and more real.
  20. I have been struggling with perfectionism for many years. Despite the great, mind-boggling accomplishments I've gained from self-development or internal work, one of the very few things I've never accomplished is overcoming perfectionism. For example, I wash my hands every time I touch an object which belongs to others. If I'm in a situation where I'm forced to keep that object, such as receiving a physical gift from somebody, I ensure I clean the object first before keeping it. When I arrive home from work or leisure, I ensure to take a shower before going to bed and clean all the things I brought, such as my bag, smartphone, and wallet. I do this 100% of the time, regardless of how sleepy or tired I am. If I don't do it, I feel dirty and anxious. I love cleanliness too much; it has resulted in OCD. I also apply the same principle to other domains in life. I push myself too hard to ensure I accomplish or demonstrate 100% understanding, bravery, morality, masculinity, etc. If it's 98%, I feel guilty, anxious, or depressed. It must be 100% for me to feel fulfilled and peaceful. This love for perfectionism has been giving me extreme, needless suffering. I've been enduring the unendurable for too many years; I'm exhausted as fuck. A few hours ago, I contemplated all this very deeply and seriously. I generated an insight which is very obvious to me now, but couldn't see in the past. I asked ChatGPT to explain the insight on perfectionism I generated because I've always been amazed by ChatGPT's intelligence. I shared this insight to remind myself of the change I need to make. I could have kept this to myself and still initiated the needed change. So, the other reason for sharing this insight is to help others struggling with perfectionism. I'm probably not solitary in this struggle.
  21. Cryptocurrency is probably not worth investing in long term. I won’t even do day trading with it.
  22. This is the best post you've ever made. It hits the target and is useful. Congratulations! But it's still better to watch gore videos for a duration of time. A few months or a year can be beneficial just to have a more holistic perspective on planet earth. With the correct vision and contemplation, you can accomplish significant growth. But be careful because it can also lead you to a dangerous path.
  23. In this video, Sadhguru discusses the connection between the cycles of the moon and the fundamentals of human birth. He explains that the energy system of a person can mature by witnessing one-thousand-and-eight full moons, which occurs approximately in eighty-four years. According to Sadhguru, this maturity allows one to go beyond the cycles of birth and death. This spiritual insight suggests that even if you live an ignorant and a low-consciousness life, you'll NOT be born again on planet Earth if you live for at least 84 years. When a person reaches the age of 83, 84, or 85, their character changes significantly even without any self-help or spirituality. For example, if you have been a bastard your entire life, you'll become compassionate and generous when you turn 84. This transformation happens automatically; no self-help, no therapy, no internal work, and no spirituality needed. I've observed members or users in this forum who are experiencing significant suffering and wish to avoid being reborn after death. Here's some good news for you: simply live until 84, and you'll automatically accomplish it. I wonder where or how Sadhguru generated this spiritual insight. I don't think it's true. But it's at least interesting. Sadhguru is a good storyteller. I was entertained.