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I enjoy learning and understanding various things, so the word "understand" is a very important and powerful word to me. I want to ensure I impose my style onto this word or the idea it refers to. I've always been curious why it's "understand" and not "undersit" or "overstand", so I consulted Copilot. Question 1: Why understand and not undersit? Because of that, I hesitate to use the word. I prefer comprehend. Copilot's Answer: Question 2: compare comprehend, understand, and grasp Copilot's Answer: Question 3: If I use only grasp and comprehend and never understand, how would native speakers of English perceive it? Copilot's Answer: I thank my Divine Essence for imagining Copilot into existence.

My recent tragic experiences, which I described in one of my recent threads, led me to research the occult, witchcraft, ESP, and other similar topics. That's actually one of the reasons why I discovered this book. My recent tragic experiences, my research, Leo's teachings and my childhood spiritual experience or awakening led me to believe that paranormal phenomena or "magic" exist. There are things in this universe that operate outside the conventional physical laws acknowledged by science. This is why there are people, such as Helene Hadsell, who have won lotteries dozens, hundreds, or even thousands of times. This goes beyond pure luck or coincidence. This is also why Ingo Swann, a prominent psychic, described Jupiter’s rings before NASA’s Pioneer 10 confirmed their existence. -deepseek And this is why phenomena as magical as those described in the video below exists; timestamp: 38:38 - 44:22. I already thought the universe is very interesting. But these recent discoveries (they're old but recent from my perspective) make the universe even more fascinating.

I rarely read books and when I do, I become bored and stop halfway through. But this time, I'm enjoying reading "THE KYBALION: A STUDY OF THE HERMETIC PHILOSOPHY OF ANCIENT EGYPT AND GREECE", and I plan to finish it because it's interesting. I'm surprised by how similar the Hermitic teachings are to Leo's. Both teachings proclaim that the Universe is not material or physical, rather, it is a Living Mind. They also assert that there are 2 truths, Absolute and Relative. In the Absolute domain, the universe is a dream held in The All's Infinite Mind while in the Relative domain, it is material and governed by fixed laws which mortals must adhere and respect. I'm about 40% of the way through the book, so I'm still learning. But I've detected 1 major difference between Hermetic teachings and Leo's: Leo's teaching: I am God dreaming my human life. Hermes's teaching: God is dreaming me and my human life. God's essence is inside me but I am NOT God. I'm simply a lowly version of God. I haven’t experienced a direct realization of God, but I did have an awakening as a kid when I discovered that my human life is simply an illusion, a dream. I realized that my parents and all the other humans in my life are illusions, lacking localized consciousness. They deceived me all along. I was horrified by this experience. I don't have time to contemplate because it's almost 5 a.m. here and I'm feeling very sleepy. So, I trust my intuition: both teachings are true, but I feel Leo's teaching represents a higher truth. How about you? Do you agree with Leo or with Hermes's? Here's what's written on pages 39 and 40 of the book.

Hmmm... You really think so? I think there are many things to comprehend in this world, and that's one of the reasons life is exciting - various things to explore and comprehend! I'm surprised somebody else has thought about this topic. He's good at explaining, but I trust Copilot's explanation more.

I probably comprehend it. Perhaps, I grasp what you're trying to say.

This resembles how I perceive beautiful girls and having sex with them. This is especially a strong spiritual experience because my divinity and humanity are aligned in a unique way. I see and feel God in all beautiful things, but the experience lacks human sexual desire. But when I enjoy and penetrate a beautiful girl, human sexual desire is added to the experience, making it a deeply spiritual one. I feel happy and grateful that this is my default state. I don't need drugs or chemicals. This is not the best way and it's even a trap. Why don't you continue living as a human and create more spiritual moments? These beautiful, sexual, spiritual moments can compensate for life's misery.

I've just finished reading the book. It was an informative and enjoyable read. The last page says: Hmmmm... This probably explains why positive thinking, affirmation, visualization, willpower, placebo, faith, awareness, concentration, etc. work. I see amazing possibilities and opportunities.

That's creative and multicultural. I like it! I think working on being careful or cautious will be good for you. It will serve you well in real life.

Samiji sounds Japanese. Is Samiji Arabic or Eastern European? It does, especially initially. But you are free to grow and develop yourself. As you age, you become better.

I love girls. Girls are supposed to be loved and enjoyed. I feel grateful I'm a man. Masculine beauty is profound and comprehensive, and very difficult to embody. And that's exactly the reason why I love being a man. You can obtain sex via prostitutes.

Of course it does. I was born and raised Roman Catholic, hence I held a the Roman Catholic worldview. My environment dumped too much perspectival garbage into my mind; the struggle to clear it was intense and laborious. I began questioning Christianity when I became a teenager, and everybody simply ignored my questions, thinking I was weird and had gone astray. I endured criticisms and gaslighting on my journey to freeing myself from religious garbage. I even remember my father calling me the devil. It was paradoxical that the real devil accused me of being a devil. The internal struggle was horrifying. I grew up believing in Jesus, heaven, and hell; this was my reality. Those concepts were as tangible as money, business, or romance. To shatter that reality meant shattering my "sanity". I felt extreme fear and confusion along the way. The ancestry or environment where a human sprouts from is very important and impactful. What I described is just one example. How about you Ben? How has your ancestry impacted your worldview?

I thank God for my grandmother. She was the only person who allowed me to experience love so deeply. I only met her a few times a year, but each time I spent time with her, I experienced a glimpse of love. I probably wouldn't have learned to love myself without those glimpses (or at least not as quick). I don't even know whether I could have accomplished anything good without my grandmother. How about you Ben; how did your ancestors impact you?

I didn't say that. It was @Oppositionless who said it. Why did you misquote me? Praying for him will not do him any good. It's better to clarify that his fear of going to Christian hell after death is silly and NOT worth taking seriously. How could an all-loving God burn a soul in hell for eternity? Only an all-evil God would do that. It's obvious to me that the threat of hell is merely a tool for control. Christianity, in its effort to preserve itself, created the concept of hell to prevent believers from questioning its doctrine and abandoning the faith. I have even witnessed a cult leader employing the same strategy. He raped hundreds of followers and to deter them from reporting him to the police or leaving his cult, he threatened his victims, "If you leave or file a lawsuit, God will curse you and your family—and you will all go to hell!" This strategy was so effective, he escaped punishment for decades. @Oppositionless Don't waste your time and energy on silly fears, especially if they're outside your control. Your life is in front of you right now. It's better to focus on enhancing it: determine what you desire, make a plan, and then implement it. That's something truly worth your energy and time.

You must have committed big sins. And if reincarnation is also true, you will be fucked because your next life will be more miserable than your present one.

I used to lament that my childhood was extremely bad, one of the worst a human could have experienced. And as an automatic consequence, I suffered greatly as an adult. But a part of me is very grateful for my tragic past because it enabled me to gain a deep understanding of daytime as a direct result of experiencing nighttime. Now I know how good it is: To consistently feel good, because I've consistently experienced feeling bad. To have high self-esteem and confidence, because I've experienced extremely low self-esteem and confidence. To be self-loving, to show self-respect, and to set firm boundaries, because I've experienced low self-respect, being a people pleaser, and being treated similar to a doormat. To be admired, loved, and respected because I've experienced being dismissed, disrespected, and looked down upon. To be intelligent and prudent because I've experienced being foolish and dumb as a direct consequence of the abuse. To love and respect my life and continue walking my path because I've experienced not giving a fuck about my life. etc. My tragic past and destroyed self have also enabled me to see just how evil and pretentious humans can be. They are good and kind only to those they admire, respect, or who can provide them with some benefit. But when they encounter somebody they perceive as low-value or who cannot benefit them in any way, humans reveal their true colors. This behavior is repulsive. I feel like spreading positivity and beauty, so here's a piece of music intelligently created; it has become one of my favorites. sounds best with deep-bass headset or stereo

This is a classic example of power dynamics in a narcissistic family. Mary’s father, Fred Jr., was the eldest son of Fred Sr., Donald’s father. The scapegoat is the emotional (sometimes even physical) punching bag of the family. As a result, the scapegoat grows up carrying the family’s mental and emotional pain and becomes a dysfunctional adult. I know this because I was the family’s scapegoat as the eldest son. I was the emotional and physical punching bag of the family and I grew up completely internally destroyed (depression and other mental diseases, cripplingly low self-esteem, suicidal thoughts, etc). Nothing worse can happen to a kid than being chosen as the scapegoat. It’s bad for an adult to be scapegoated. If you were scapegoated by your boss and coworkers at work, you would experience intense stress and might feel suicidal if the scapegoating persisted. Imagine the negative impact to a kid who is scapegoated; it’s at least 100 times worse because a kid is very fragile and vulnerable. Kids are supposed to be showered with love and nurtured to grow mentally and emotionally into stable adults, not subjected to hate and condemnation. It’s especially devastating because the evil and abuse are inflicted not by friends, but by the parents themselves, who are supposed to provide love and support. A scapegoated kid, in many ways, is cursed for life! Mary’s father died young (in his early 40s) because of complications from alcoholism. Of course, his alcoholism served as his coping mechanism for the emotional pain he endured as a result of being the family scapegoat. Kim Jong Chul, the eldest son has stayed out of the political spotlight and was probably the family scapegoat. He was once considered a potential successor to his father, but Kim Jong Il reportedly dismissed him as being "too soft" for leadership. Instead, the younger brother - Kim Jong Un was chosen to lead North Korea. It seems being the eldest son (perhaps also daughter) is a recipe for being chosen as the scapegoat in a narcissistic family. It ignites my curiosity. Here’s a good article for further study and understanding: https://jreidtherapy.com/scapegoated-by-narcissistic-parent/

Thanks Mission accomplished! This has been on my mind for the past few years. I think I'll focus on it a bit more in the future although this is not what interests me most. My life purpose is not a usual one because it's multi-faceted or multi-domain which I unify into 1 overarching purpose. A life purpose limited to a single domain is simply too narrow.

From time to time, I hear people say "appreciate the little things" when describing nature such as trees gracefully swaying in the wind and flowers blooming along the streetside, and it always boggles my mind that they refer to these things as "little". My entire adult life, especially in my 30s, I perceive these little things as the biggest things. I revere them because in them, I see sacredness, beauty, and intelligence, and I experience divine connection. It took a massive heart attack and an NDE for this Youtuber to finally see what I have always seen: timestamped at 3:40. And now, this Japanese YouTuber has returned to record the castle in dark mode. In a pure and sane world, this video would garner millions of views after 24 hours.

This is probably the most vulnerable post I've made on this forum. I hesitated to do this because it probably won't lead to a satisfying result. Serious challenges and problems are rarely rectified via a forum post. But I decided to proceed because venting to the universe makes me feel a bit better, at least. And perhaps, a miracle might happen. After many years of trying to return to Japan and spend most of my existence there, I have burned out. Going back to Japan has been the biggest goal of my 30s. Entering Japan for a long-term stay is difficult for citizens of 1st-world countries. It's especially difficult for somebody such as me, who is a citizen of a 3rd-world country. I have applied for jobs at Japanese companies that can sponsor employment visas dozens of times over the years, but every application has failed. When I create a resume, I pour my heart into it; it is tailor-made for each job application, but I have never succeeded because most Japanese companies prefer applicants from English-speaking countries who are already based in Japan. I eventually abandoned that strategy after feeling discriminated against and demoralized. I figured I could obtain a long-term tourist visa or an investor visa if I accumulated significant money in my bank account. So, I started an online business - a listing on an online marketplace. I coded a piece of software that detects old versions of MS Office on a Windows PC, uninstalls them, and upgrades them to the most recent version - Microsoft 365 or Office Professional Plus 2021 (the latest at that time), for free. This process is accomplished with a single click via CMD scripting and automation. I used Microsoft's CDN to download and install Office, and I integrated a script that bypasses Microsoft's licensing mechanism. I suspected this might violate IP rights, but I did it anyway because I hoped my actions were legal. I had an old laptop running Windows 7. I performed a clean installation of Windows 10 on it and was surprised that the OS was automatically activated. I thought Microsoft allowed free Windows upgrades, so I applied the same logic to MS Office. My strong desire to accomplish my financial goal led me to embrace potential corruption, especially given how wealthy Microsoft and Bill Gates already were. My online business expanded rapidly, ranking in the top 20% in terms of revenue in just three months. I felt I was on my way to success until I received an email from the marketplace informing me that my listing had been removed due to an IP rights violation report initiated by Microsoft. The dream abruptly ended. But that failure did not deter me from pursuing my goals. I tried 2 other businesses or strategies; details of which I’ll omit to keep this post as concise as possible. Those 2 strategies also eventually failed. I was too strong-willed to surrender, so I contemplated another strategy for several months. I decided that obtaining a student visa would enable me to live in Japan long-term. I researched Japanese universities that accept students from my country and offer courses taught in English. The process was very laborious. I took and passed an English exam and prepared all the required academic documents. The paperwork exhausted me, but the most difficult part was the anxiety and trauma I experienced when I returned to my high school and college to gather the documents. I was too internally destroyed (anxietyy, depression, low self-esteem, etc.) when I was in high school and college; I created various traumatic experiences and memories. I could feel the CPTSD thoughts and feelings as I entered the gates of those schools. The intensity of the anxiety made me realize I still needed to do more healing and integration work. But after a few visits, the CPTSD was almost non-existent. I began to feel like my true self and I saw everything differently. I even had a spiritual experience. It became clear to me that how you see and experience things and people doesn't depend on what or who they are but on what or who you are. The Japanese university granted me enrollment in the International Relations program. I researched potential jobs in Japan that I could do while studying to financially support myself. There was only one thing remaining - approval from the Japanese Embassy. But even that ended in tragedy. Here’s the public review I left for the university, which received dozens of likes and approval from anxious potential students: " TIU wasted my time, energy, and money - I paid a $2.3K enrollment fee. I was admitted to TIU, but they canceled my admission because I didn’t pay the $5.7K tuition fee by the deadline. I didn’t pay on time because TIU required payment before I received my student visa, and there was no guarantee that the Japanese immigration authorities would grant it. I risked losing a significant amount of money, which made me extremely anxious. Moreover, TIU does not list any refund policy on their website. I was admitted on December 19, 2022, and I immediately asked for instructions on what to do next. But, TIU ignored my emails for over three weeks - they only responded on January 13, 2023. Their first email was a threat: it warned that I might not obtain my student visa on time because the immigration process takes 2 or 3 months, and if my visa was not granted by March 27, 2023, my admission would be canceled. Furthermore, TIU never mentioned that my money would be refunded if my student visa were rejected. All of these factors heightened my anxiety that I would lose the $5.7K tuition fee if I paid by the January 19, 2023 deadline, especially since I only had two months to obtain the visa. Ultimately, I decided to pay the enrollment fee only after receiving my student visa. Why would I risk paying $5.7K when there was a significant chance I wouldn’t receive my visa? I would simply lose all that money. On January 20, 2023, the day after the deadline, TIU canceled my admission because I did not pay the $5.7K tuition fee. I offered to pay immediately on the same day if they would guarantee a refund of $5.7K if my student visa was rejected. But, TIU refused my offer and did not refund my $2.3K enrollment fee. TIU essentially ripped me off. I simply did what was sensible. It was all TIU's mistake; their enrollment procedure is akin to a scam. I feel relieved I did not pay the $5.7K tuition fee because I could have also lost that money to TIU." This tragedy left me feeling severely depressed, and I felt as though I were divinely cursed. I recovered after a few months of depression, contemplation and introspection. Then I decided to learn financial trading as a last resort to obtain the money needed for a long-term Japanese tourist visa. To make it short, I lost a significant amount of money (equivalent to tens of thousands USD) rather than profiting. I was too naive; I underestimated trading. I mistakenly believed that predicting upward or downward trends was easy, but trading is much more complex than it appears. After several months of trading, I was left both financially and emotionally drained. In the past few months, I have been experimenting to create an effective trading system. I succeeded in that endeavor. This year, I became profitable. My trading system yields a return of 13.4% per month, and I feel very happy about this. But another distraction derailed my trading activities. Last month, a neighbor returned from overseas and tried to poison my dog. My dog almost died, which put me in a state of urgency. I stopped all trading activities and contemplated how to protect my dog’s life and punish my neighbor. I took my pet to the vet and researched animal poisoning. I also installed security cameras and looked into criminal behavior, especially narcissistic and psychopathic crimes. Based on this research and observation, I concluded my neighbor is a psychopath. He has already poisoned at least six dogs and cats and attempted to poison my dog. Only a psychopath could do this. Now, I’m standing up to this psychopath, and my life is at risk. This situation is an extreme distraction, and I feel exhausted. I see a recurring pattern. When I’m about to accomplish my goal, something completely outside my control emerges to derail it. I have contemplated this deeply and realized that God or something spiritual might have cursed me. I never believed in dark magic, but now, I am inclined to believe it’s real. How else can I explain my repeated tragic experiences? I’m trying to re-establish my trading activities despite the threat to my life and my dog’s. I am burned out, but I will continue walking my path. Creating this thread is a good start because expressing my thoughts and frustrations slightly rejuvenates my soul. I need to return to Japan as soon as possible. I'm at my best there; my life purpose, intelligence, creativity, and spirituality peak when I’m there. I know this because I’ve already lived there.

Why not? Suppose 100 years from now we live in a UBI Yellow economic and cultural system. We are still alive and have 5-year-old kids. It means that our kids have skipped traditional Orange stage. They can simply learn the essence of Orange such as accomplishment, logic, reason, etc. in another way. They don't need to experience and learn Orange the way we did.

I love your style. That sounds good. Thanks! It's complicated because I don't have direct evidence (videos of him feeding poison to my dog). However, I know it's him because every time he returns from overseas, a dog or a cat suddenly disappears. Last year, a stray black cat I rescued from starvation suddenly disappeared. The cat was already very thin and near death. I fed the cat until he became healthy and strong over the course of four to five months. I even named him "Lucky Boy" because he was lucky enough to have met me. Lucky Boy would come to my home several times a day for his meals. But one day, Lucky Boy did not come back. I waited for him for three days, but there were no signs of him. Then I remembered the psychopath neighbor who had just returned from overseas and was seen burying something in his yard. I then recognized a pattern: whenever a dog or cat mysteriously disappeared, that neighbor would bury the animal in his yard. I felt so angry, so I decided to confront him. I directly asked him what he had buried, and he replied that it was a cat. I asked whether it was a black cat, and he answered yes. Then I asked why he had poisoned the cat. He calmly said that he did not poison it; he simply found the cat dead on the street. He sounded believable, so I just returned home. Then, last month, my dog almost died and showed signs of poisoning. I was confused about what had happened because it was the first time my dog had behaved that way—I never thought he was poisoned. I had never seen my neighbor returning from overseas, so I never suspected that my dog had been poisoned. Thankfully, my dog eventually recovered, and I took him to the vet to confirm the poisoning. I also brought a sample of a chemical attached to a piece of plastic that I had found in my yard. The vet confirmed that the chemical was poisonous, but she couldn’t confirm whether my dog had been poisoned because several days had passed since the signs first manifested. I was puzzled, so I contemplated for a few days. Then I realized that my psychopathic neighbor might have returned without me noticing him. So, I decided to observe his house. First, I noticed that his car window changed from transparent to black, which meant I couldn’t see anyone inside his car. I continued observing until I finally saw someone doing something in his yard—and alas, it was him! I began to suspect that my dog was indeed poisoned by him. I contemplated again for several days and discovered additional signs that confirmed the poisoning. Days before the poisoning, I saw his wife walking back and forth in my front yard. That was strange behavior—I had never seen her do that before. Who would normally walk back and forth in my front yard? She was monitoring whether I was inside or outside the house. For context, my house and his are duplex units that share a common wall. My house is gated, and although my dog goes in and out of the house, he never leaves the gate's vicinity. When I’m inside, I obviously can’t see what’s happening outside. The psychopath’s wife appeared to be an accomplice; she was keeping an eye on me. Then I had an aha moment: right after she finished watching my front yard, she returned to her front gate and softly said, “He's outside the house. Not now.” This happened three times before I finally connected the dots. There are other signs that I cannot detail right now because it would be too laborious. However, I can provide another one: my psychopathic neighbor tends to avoid me. Whenever I leave the house, he immediately goes into his own. It seems that he is afraid that I know about the evil thing he did and will punish him for it. I love the positivity, Thanks. I will die trying because as I explained in my original post, my life purpose and spirituality are in Japan. Nothing else matters. I used to think that way, but as I detailed in my original post, it really feels as if an evil entity is actively sabotaging my efforts. When I'm about to succeed, when I'm just one step away from success, something completely outside my control emerges to derail my progress. In fact, I've observed other similar "derailing" events that I did not include in my original post. Amen. That is why I installed security cameras. Actually, I fantasized about catching the psychopath red-handed and caught in the security camera so I would have an excuse to break his face and soul. I don't give a fuck if he dies. He doesn't respect life, so his life shouldn't be respected. That's fair. I have been wanting to move to a condominium ever since threats to my life and my dog's emerged, but it's not easy. I live alone in a spacious three-room house. This is considered a dream house by many people around the world, especially in my country, a third-world nation. But I need to get out of here as soon as possible. Perhaps someone can rent or buy this house, and I would leave immediately if that happens. I exist to materialize and actualize my ambitions and highest potential, not to deal with a psychopath. I can detect the goodness in your heart. I wish there were more people similar to you around the world, especially in my vicinity. People such as you make the world a better place to live in. Thanks! Beautiful music is playing in the background while replying to you. So, here it is my friend:

I don't know why Youtube recommended this to me. I don't watch his videos. That hurts a bit. The world has never been fair. This PewDiePie's Japan video has garnered almost 700,000 views in only 13 hours, while the Japanese castle video embedded in my original post has garnered only 33 views after 5 days. The Japanese castle video contains at least 100 times more beauty (and spirituality) than PewDiePie's Japan video. The world is indeed absurd.

Moving up the spiral is similar to any meaningful change, such as breaking free from addiction. Real change is accomplished not via knowledge or conceptual understanding, but via bone-deep emotions and will. That is why being sensitive is crucial. Sensitivity can lead to integrity and discipline, which sustain meaningful change. When sensitivity blends with open-mindedness, intelligence, and experience, genuine change becomes an automatic result.

How did you know this is true? Those 2 narcissist roommates might have gaslighted you. This sounds like you are experiencing narcissistic abuse. This is very bad, and you should not tolerate it any longer. Tell those two narcissists to leave your apartment. If they resist or threaten you, report them to the university principal and the police. Make sure you document everything—for example, proof of you paying the bills and evidence of them leeching your money and controlling your finances. Documenting everything is important so you can provide evidence to the police. Those narcissists might seem strong and brave to you. However, that's only true from your perspective because you don't stand up to them. You have allowed yourself to be controlled. The truth is that narcissists are internally weak and cowardly. That's why they pick people they think are weaker than themselves to control or bully, because doing so makes them feel strong and enhances their self-esteem. You're probably safe inside the university, so it's better to stay there most of the time. Minimize leaving the university after driving them out, because it's possible they will retaliate. However, you must stand up for yourself and establish boundaries. If you can't do that for whatever reason, it's better for you to transfer to a different university to eliminate those two narcissists. Here's a good video for you. It can help you understand narcissistic behavior and abuse because the presenter himself is a narcissist—though more self-aware than most. You can learn a lot from him. I recommend that you watch all of his videos, if possible.

One possible solution is for you to move to a cheap country so that your $50,000 goes a long way. You don't even need to get a job with that amount of money. For example, in the Philippines, it's possible to have a decent standard of living with $500 per month (including rent, food, electricity, water, and internet bills). You just need to be prudent. You can stay for two or three years and use that time to heal yourself or build your dream life. I have seen a few Westerners (both Caucasians and Black individuals) on YouTube whose lives were miserable in the USA, UK, etc., but improved when they started living in the Philippines. They experienced significantly better lives in the country; they decided to stay permanently. One of the benefits of living in the Philippines is that its culture is among the most similar to that of the USA in Asia, making it easier to adapt. Also, most Filipinos speak English well enough.