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Yep Think level 1 is more generalized, then higher levels get more into specifics. I.e. using IFS with dissociative clients.

Here's my take. The focusing on the question of meaning is sort of besides the point. The question of why you are focusing on that question in the way you are is much more important to your present issues. The reason you are focusing in this way is because of your mental health issues. If they were solved you would simply not focus on the question of meaning in the same way. In terms of fixing your mental health issues, I'd get a trauma therapist who is at least level 2 trained in IFS therapy. And, make it a priority. (Here is a list of people trained in IFS https://ifs-institute.com/practitioners) All the best, mate.

Also, @ZenAlex https://www.youtube.com/user/kennethfolkdharma this channel could be of value too I reckon. See his vids on noting

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Really no one else like Owen on this earth

I second this recommendation

LLM? AGI?

@ZenAlex https://www.shinzen.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/12/art_PowerofGone.pdf

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First, I'd try and crack mindfulness meditation. Find a variety of types of mindfulness meditation, and try to experiment with them until you find one that works. Ie mahasi method, kenneth folks work, shinzen young, Dan Ingrams work. Second, also depth psychotherapy (ones that work on changing your unconscious) , i.e. IFS therapy, psychodynamic therapy, gestalt. Can also do somatic therapies like somatic experiencing, TRE. Finally, you can look into psychological 'wiping' tools. These sort of clean out negative memories/ emotions. Examples of these include PSTEC click tracks, and EMDR. Heard yoga is also good.

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Have you tried Shinzen young's see hear feel method?

@MsNobody IFS therapy. Can also look into ideal parenting protocol https://www.reddit.com/r/idealparentfigures/comments/vl27y9/introduction_to_the_ideal_parent_figure_method/. Imo, always good to deal with the root of the issue.

@Ampresus https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StBTuX0tqU8&t=44s&pp=ygUTc2hpbnplbiB5b3VuZyBub3Rpbg%3D%3D (video) https://www.shinzen.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/08/SeeHearFeelIntroduction_ver1.8.pdf (pdf guide)

Meditation.

On the meditation front, Shinzen Young's see hear feel meditation guide could be helpful I think. The technique should help better than your current one atm. Also, can try: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1W30oR1UDBI&pp=ygUTa2VubmV0aCAgZm9sayBiYXNpYw%3D%3D

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Only focusing on the surface issue, rather than addressing the root of the problem

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Could be limerence rather than attachment.

Next time just start whispering "JK Rowling, JK Rowling, JK Rowling" and see how she reacts

Could try some trauma release exercises (TRE)