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I'm just playin . I can't jump on you anyways I have a bad knee.

Remember you are always 2 stage lower than what you think you are

Not picking on Teal here (didn't even watch the video), just wanted to say on the topic; It amazes me the hubris a lot of people have about things they really know nothing about. It's ever more apparent in this internet age where everyone has a platform. It's amazing ideas have a place to clash and there is so much interaction to breed innovation, but on the other hand there is also so much ignorance, misinformation, and stupidity going around. People have such insanely confident notions to the point they will get violent about how government should function, and what policies would work etc. but really they have absolutely zero clue and can't comprehend how things would become a disaster if they were taken seriously. It's like they are saying they how to get to Mars better than NASA - which of course they absolutely fucking don't. If they were in charge of the space program there is an overwhelming chance the rockets would explode immediately upon liftoff and all crew onboard would die lol. Likewise a comparable scenario if they were put in charge of any other part of society, generally. Of course everyone is entitled to an opinion, just realize most peoples opinions are extremely informed and absurd.

Who are you talking to lmao?

I answered each question as honestly as I could. I'm not surprised by the results. I know I'm a little fucked up

No worries! Give it a shot and let me know how it works. Feel free to PM me if you like I'm an open book.

@Rinne What if we came up with a plan to ween you off an control your addiction. Let's say for Week 1 you can orgasm every day of the week, then for every following week you take a session off. And you HAVE to limit yourself to 1 session per day, as in don't use multiple sessions for the week at once. So; Week 1 - 7 Sessions Week 2 - 6 Sessions Week 3 - 5 Sessions Week 4 - 4 Sessions Week 5 - 3 Sessions Week 6 - 2 Sessions Week 7 - 1 Session Week 8 - Zero Sessions Do you think this is attainable, that over two months you could slowly learn the power to control your addiction? To either get rid of it completely or at the least bring it to desirable/more healthy levels? I think you could do it just mark it on the calendar over the next few months. Stick to it, but observe how you feel about it. Pay attention to your cravings, but allow them to happen within the limits set. Watch how over time you slowly gain a sense of autonomy and get your mental strength back.

Looks like the phrase, "Healthy as a horse" is taking on a whole new meaning.

@Rinne Out of the amount of times you masturbate per week (on average) how much of it is because you're genuinely horny and need a release vs using porn as a distraction from something else?

"Goodness, is the only thing done for it's own sake. It is it's own end." I may be wrong here and it would probably be too tedious to skip back through the video to find the quote, but nonetheless it stuck out to me.

1st Pfizer shot May 16th 2nd Pfizer shot July 10th Zero symptoms during or shortly after the shots. However I've had some pretty insane brain fog from May to current day. I have no idea if it's related though, I'm suspecting it's something with my diet and sleep patterns, perhaps even something with my spirituality and mental health. Thought I'd be completely transparent.

You're laughing and sharing a sense of excitement about it, while in your very statement you use the language of BTC is going to be worth $1 million! Which implies you don't really care about the bitcoin intrinsically, but the fiat you could trade it for. Of course that's nice if you made a profit from an investment, nothing wrong with that. Well actually there is in some cases but I won't get into that here because you'll probably get defensive, looks like you've got the bug, regardless... I'm interested in this whole thing, don't get me wrong. I'm just not hopeful in it's stability. Do you think it will even be relevant by 2030? As in it will make more sense to purchase things in daily life like gas or groceries, or put a down payment on a house with cryptocurrency?

Until a huge amount of people start actually using it as a currency instead of just converting it to traditional money, it's basically just a pyramid scheme. Those who got in early are laughing, while if you've only heard about it since late 2017 you've already lost. I'm not overly optimistic it will ever catch on to the degree some say it will, of course it will always be around. I just have a feeling we will be looking back years from now and saying "hey remember that annoying bitcoin fad and all those cringey marketers?" The nature of the internet and modern marketing will always be way too unstable and speculative as a base for cryptocurrency to stabilize, in my opinion. Why would anybody put a significant amount of their net worth in something that could lose a quarter of it's value overnight from an Elon Musk tweet? Forgive my language, but that's retarded.

I don't think you should get too invested and maybe even trapped in the idea that you need to find the "right" or "perfect" group of people. Don't miss out on some good waiting for great to come along. Perhaps you to search within and unwind a bit of conditioning in your mind, realize that a lot of people aren't actually as judgmental as you think they are. Most people more or less are actually pretty cool. We are just used to focusing on the bad more because that's what goes trending on YouTube and other garbage. I've been in a very similar mindset to what you're describing. A huge mindfuck is realizing the times you're actually the one judging THEM for being judgmental. When in fact you don't even know what they are like yet! Some anxiety and other unpleasant feelings start to clear up like moisture being wiped away from a windshield, as you start to correct perception.

@coca you're going to cringe yourself into a black hole years from now when you look back and read the things you've been saying on this forum hahahahahah.

I am sorry for the place you're in mate. Consider that maybe the most radically spiritual thing you could do right now is forget all about spirituality completely, and work on the smallest goals like brushing your teeth, or getting dressed for the day. Not just knowing in your mind intellectually that "yeah I can do this stuff easily." who cares what your mind thinks. Actually doing it and having it as your biggest priority, as you build up yourself and your momentum to fall back in love with life again. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but maybe your suffering and emotions could be sending signals to you that you are worth fighting for? Like red emergency lights and sirens are on, and you have to respond. Have you considered that possibility? Good news. You don't have to wait for anything. You are the solution.

People typically loathe others from ended relationships because the ego usually interprets the reason for the separation as some kind of deficiency it has. Which of course it absolutely hates to have revealed to it. True or not. Insecurity basically. I like to imagine someone so developed on this scale that they could be left suddenly by their partner of a 25 year marriage, and be so secure and selfless that they hardily resist or try to hold on (if at all). And that their grieving process would be insanely accelerated compared to the 5-10+ years it takes most people to get over something like that. It's these kind of superhuman possibilities that inspire me and give me something to work towards personally.

A nuclear war won't happen unless there is some kind of freak accident that escalates out of control. And a large scale conventional war is simply no longer a possibility since 1945 and nuclear weapons exist, period. So the thought doesn't even need to be entertained. Even the largest, most corrupt, selfish egos in the world will exercise caution with their fingers on a trigger like that. If there is one thing the ego won't accept it's utter annihilation of itself or the playground it prances on

I say this bluntly, and you probably don't want to hear it but I believe it's what you need to hear - Next time either with her, or another girl - You need to cut it with this weak stuff > You were already in the situation where she was receptive and ready, but you were "hoping" for things to work out in your plan, which means not actually being masculine and making it happen. Not actually being decisive and kissing her. What you do is start looking at her until she looks at you, and if she isn't you softly whisper "hey" to get her attention. Once you make eye contact and you're that close you fucking kiss her, period. Don't wait for any more signals or thoughts of "is this the PERFECT moment?" If she rejects you it either means she doesn't like you as much as it seems, or she is extremely inexperienced. You accept whichever one it is and move on. She didn't ruin the vibe. YOU did by not being decisive with your energy. You need to take responsibility here. You tip toed the line too close but didn't cross it, and so she mirrored your energy. As the man it's your job to lead. At the right moments of course. You feel terrible and frustrated because you didn't seize the moment like you should have, so there is regret and pain now because you ignored that calling. That's ok though. Everyone goes through some kind of learning curve. What you do now is realize there will be many more of these moments in the future and you know what it feels like when you don't take them! So now that you're going into this new phase in life what are you going to do more of???

I feel awful for you that you have to go through that @Someone here. I've gone through something similar and come out the other side (it seems), but from your post not to the degree you are going through. It's very tough, but not impossible! Of course mindfulness meditation can help if you are aware of that practice. Sitting silently with our thoughts and becoming an observer helps take out the "sting" of them so to speak. As you realize most of them aren't useful, and just contribute to the "feeding" of the anxiety. Depending on the severity though and how severe the symptoms you've described are some of these practices can only do so much for you. It might be wise to seriously consider seeing a therapist or getting some medication to ease the suffering. If something like that is getting in the way of you functioning in daily life or going out in the world to fulfil any obligations, the problem needs to be tackled and handcuffed like a violent person in public. The stuff talked about in Actualized.Org can help, but it's mostly for healthy already stable people. If you don't feel stability then I would ignore everything here and seek professional help.

Vent if you need to, that's good. But remember to inhale after the exhale . There is no such thing as objectivity. You need to abandon the notion. It's subjectivity though and through.

That's alright that those those exist and that they happen. Not saying it's a good thing, just that they exist. It's a response your brain is coming up with because you are going through suffering and overwhelmed. So logical processes can lead to the conclusion that the only way to escape the suffering is to die. Which is of course absurd because that in and of itself leads to more suffering for yourself and others. The thing here is you aren't your thoughts, they are something that is happening. However where does it say thoughts = reality, or just that because you have thoughts you need to act on them to make them reality? You see thoughts are just thoughts. They are hollow, light, and just float by. Like a feather in the wind. Pay attention to the signals they send, but don't take them too seriously. You are doing great work by feeling your suffering and not suppressing it anymore @RoerAmit. That's a HUGE step in the right direction.

Why do you say this? Does life not have the solution in it, as well? Bullshit.

Yes @Stratos! These are the right questions to ask! Sit on this and try to answer anything that comes up, and if more questions come up, follow those too. So, trying your best to strip any labels down. What do you feel (not think) the answer is; Do you want cannabis because it makes you feel great, positive, and excited to do it? Or do you just need to do it because it's something you're used to and you don't know how you might fill the gap if it wasn't there? You see habits are like grooves in the Earth that rivers flow down. In order to change a habit you have to either slowly make new grooves to divert that water into a healthier path, or REALLY bite the bullet to work to quickly make a damn to radically redirect the water. Experiment with both these approaches and go with the one that produces more results for you and your goals.

It can be seen as endearing in rare occasions, but from what I know the success rate for that kind of length of pursuit is extremely low. The female perception will most likely be of creepiness, disgust, desperation, low-self esteem etc. If it was meant to happen it probably would have happened. There are millions of women, so just move on with life. Way healthier approach to this that saves everyone time and energy. On a related note the idea of soulmates and twin flames while nice is also filled with a lot of delusion. In reality we are all compatible with a ton of people to various degrees. I've noticed a trend that those that romanticize the idea of a soulmate the most regularly have low self-esteem and can't set proper boundaries. So if you miss an opportunity with a really great person, don't try again too many times. Just accept it and start looking for the next opportunity. Practice letting go.