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IFS therapy has helped a lot. Basically the idea is that confidence issues, sexual shame, or things like anxiety are because you have buried childhood trauma's in which you trained yourself to hide that aspect of yourself, and they help you to unwire it by going back and remembering it and 'forgiving' yourself. It definitely works for me, I think the old method of getting over approach anxiety by systematic desensitization is too oldschool, because if you take a break you will just regrow all your anxieties again, even rsd people accept this now. David Tian has a series called practical psychology on youtube which explains it a bit in this context. He is actually anti pickup though however he's useful. I've also heard good things about psychoanalysis. I've been more skeptical of traditional psychotherapy lately.

https://www.facebook.com/worldeconomicforum/videos/10154241637991479

In my opinion you seem to be buying the marketing hype. America and New York aren't as magical as you seem to believe. In fact New York is having a lot of problems recently, https://nypost.com/2020/08/17/nyc-is-dead-forever-heres-why-james-altucher/

Try IFS therapy also,

That wasn't my intent, I was just trying to encourage open-mindedness. I am sorry about your personal problems, I know you can't afford therapy but maybe consider saving up for it or seeing if you can get a payment plan. From what I know IFS therapy is almost designed specifically to deal with issues like patterns of being attracted to or repelled by certain things and unwiring them.

We don't know if it isn't toxic to the collective. Large scale sexual freedom like we are beginning to have in societies hasn't been seen before in history, there is no telling what will happen. Frankly at this point based on fertility rates it's possible in the long run secular sexually free societies simply die out. Most westerners would say arranged marriages are barbaric, but studies show arranged marriages lead to happier relationships on average . Not to say I support arranged marriages, it's just an example. In the end what works is what survives. Right but it's not that simple. Everyone has conditioning. It's easy to point to other people's conditioning and say they are conditioned, but often times we are just conditioned in a different way, not necessarily free of conditioning. A lot of the conditioning basically evolved to be that way because the societies that had that conditioning grew and societies that didn't or lost it died out.

"Conscious capitalism" is just the elite capitalists trying to placate the socialists and cause divisions in the working class to avoid a socialist, or communist revolution, or even just large taxes. http://www.informationliberation.com/?id=61403

then why is 50 shades of gray so popular?

try IFS therapy

do you tend to idolize people in general? That could be a sign you are developing some type of narcissism.

Yes they are a toxic value. They are a massive timesink and will trick your brain into thinking it's accomplishing things when you aren't really. They will make you less creative because you are not creating, it's injecting already created things into your mind. They can also make you more irritable and negative. If you somehow turn videogames into your job perhaps then it is generating value for you, but that is very hard to do and don't just use that as an excuse to play more and more videogames, you should be taking steps to make that happen.

it was an application for going on a date with him

if you enjoy catching std's, this is a good idea.