Nemo28

The experience just appears, it creates infinite forms. And it all colapses into Me=Us. No?

basically you're saying "you cant stand outside of your experience" ?

Youre refering to all inclusivness, saying something like "The Tao that can be spoken of is not the eternal dao" ?

what do you mean?

And you would aslo probably say "there is only This"

@WHO IS well there is suicide, but there is much safer methods as well such as psyhadelics, if you go in the trip with the dying wish the dream shall be revealed to you, and that state it doesn't matter if you are in the God mode or human mode since all time disappears.

@Leilani thank you for writing this post! "This describes my ayahuasca experiences perfectly. I just wish I could be more connected to that other side, really feeling deeply this is just a dream and happening in no time. It's difficult to cope with loneliness and lack of love in this human avatar..

@Member gracias mi amigo <3

Thank you for your answers! Love you all! <3

I know that I am the "Self" or the god lets say, i know this cause there is in me this which cant be further reduced, there is this one-ness, presence and equinimity and its totally not disturbed by anything, yet somehow im still unable to accept it, and still seeking something else, this is just ridiculous, why cant i seem to be content with being the "Self" and leave all these doubts behind? I guess i still desire some special state, or some fireworks that come with this realization, some magical powers..but there is nothing special about "It", its just undisturbed peace..

@Knowledge i lived in the caves in Spain for 5 months with budhist nuns, was okay, nice experience, but i dont think it matters that much. You need to follow your hearth to feel what you really want to do and then do it. IT might be living in a cave or forest, whatever that is do it.

Can complete freedom allow me to manifest dragon in the real life?

Just being

@gswva Its going to be fine, we need to trust the intelligence of Life ^^

@VeganAwake I personaly am not atracted to these things unless its psychodelics..but sometimes i wonder if they are that different from hard drugs..in the end im just a junky

even Heroin, opium and crack?

@Mu_ Thanks for taking your time and responding to my messages

so if i say to myself "There is feelings of loneliness, depression, sadness occuring" would that make anything different Than saying "I am feeling these feelings", isnt this form of detachement?

so if i say to myself "There is feelings of loneliness, depression, sadness occuring" would that make anything different Than saying "I am feeling these feelings", isnt this form of detachement?

so what should i do then? Should i deny my own feelings?

probabbly Okay fuck that enlightenment shit. Yes, i had an shattering experience of eternal loneliness, where all things known to be real turned out to be illusions. It was horrible. I also experienced love,god, i saw the dream the god is dreaming and how everything stems out from me, and that i somehow create my reality. This lead me to abandon society and cut all conections with people since there is only Me, and all else is illusion, so i dont want to live with illusion. I thought if i isolate myself the truth shall be revealed, cause i would be stuck with myself. In a way i have found it, its Me, the ""I am"" this is the truth, its doesnt change when all things does, so i discard all things and remain as this witness, but yes i still suffer this loneliness feeling, right now its very intense. I usually try to rise above these feelings and thoughts when they happen to me, i guess you could call it a form of detachement. Would you think detachement is good practice?

but here we are speaking haha. Idk im just so sick of myself of this loneliness but i also like it ..somedays more than others. I will just trust the univere to do with me as it pleases, thats all i can do at the moment..

im afraid to lose it. Like i did few years ago where i was totally lost not knowing myself at all, it was much worse than suffering this isolation, at least i can take refuge into the I-ness.

Its when i feel it the strongest. I dont want my I-am-ness to be disturbed, but staying in this state creates isolation, so ultimetelly its suffering too.