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Had similar experience where i lost control and was pulled more and more into the rabbit hole until i went mad..the only thing from going totally insane was presence of shaman, which to me seemed like the only anchor point that kept me safe.. and even though the experience was horrible, it was extremely healing. Definitely recommend!

The greatest mystery for me is the question of why do i experience life from my particular point of view. Is it not that awareness is not located anywhere and all inclusive, why it seems to be attached to my persona? It is said that whatever you look at you are that. If I look at dog and myself there is obvious difference in experience. I can never experience dog from its point of view, why is that if I am universal consciousness? I am well aware of eternal present moment and just beeing here and now, but still the question of "why am i me?" I can not answer, is there even such answer or just mystery? Thank you!

@nowimhere Thanks!

Don't know if this relevant but recently made this drawing that i want to share ^^

So do you have direct experience of such Universe, can you describe it to us?

So you are telling us that the reality is imperfect? Its diametrically opposed to what 'other ' enlightened beings say. I thought "the act of just Being" is perfect as it is. Is notion of imperfection not someting mind would create, why chase the carrot?

So could you give example of mathematics that are used in other Universes, just pick one randomly and post it here, if you want. ^^

@Leo Gura you say this because all that's real is this present moment and everything else is mind stuff which is less real?

@zeroISinfinity Thanks!

@Leo Gura I actually understand this now, makes sense to me (when reading this, looked at my dog and had moment of existencial joy, knowing that she is actually me at one point in eternity) thank you! You mean when my particular body dies? I see

@Leo Gura But how will I ever know what its like to be You and vice versa? Is there a way for me to become conscious on how it is to be You for example? Is it even possible? I can understand that to be human it means experiencing reality from one particular center that you find yourself in. Im just wondering will I ever know whats it like to be multicentered ( apparently what enlightenment is like). What would be your suggestion, should I perhaps treat this problem as mystery and leave it at that?

@Aaron p Okay I understand that you dont need to have an mental image "I" to be and exist. Even if my sense of "I" is false i still experience life from my point of view, I just dont understand what is the criteria for awareness to center out from my body-mind (even if it is a relative truth).

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@Danioover9000 Im so envious of you. All my life i wished for miracle like that, being able to comunicate with the "spiritual realm" . Yet, nothing of sorts have happened durring all my life..All alone, even on psyhadelics there is just nothing but me, its kinda sad even..

@winterknight Hello kindred spirit So, is it true that in order to find That which I seek, I need to discard my waking state mind(all my sense impressions) , and be open to possibility that non of this is real, and focus my attention to that which I can not know, that which I feel is totally out of this reality? Or should I focus on the awareness and my who is experiencing all this? Bless you ^^

@winterknight I just can't find That, whatever it is or is not.. All I'm left is this boring reality, or maybe I'm just depressed. The mind is very still and silent but it can not penetrate the so called "mysteries" of awareness.

@winterknight well I can't find anyone who is aware of awareness.. Seems like I'm a paradox, I feel I exist yet I can't find who is that exist, god damn it!!!

@winterknight Hey, I'm conflicted a bit again.. Is awareness all there is? Is there nothing else? Am I all that I'm looking at? What will happen when body-mind dies?

@winterknight just being aware on awareness certainly eliminates all the thoughts, and you enter thoughtless state which feels very nice, very interesting. Before I kinda felt like I needed to close my eyes to absorb myself into The Self, but now I can remain as just That, feels great! Thank you winterknight ♥️

Is That what's enlightenment is about?

@winterknight when concentrating on the awareness in which thoughts occur I feel kind of freedom, there is no problem, there's just awareness and it feels good. Should I stay in that awareness?

@winterknight okay as I'm intensely focusing on the question who is the awareness feeling all these things and to whom these desires occur I can slowly feel these thoughts of desiring supernatural loose its power, it feels kinda silly, thoughts seem to have very dream like feel, if I continue on this I can see any thought occurring will have no weight at all, kinda like when doing psyhadelics

@winterknight I read the website you linked, it's very good and the info resonate with me. Okay, I see that 'I am" is just a thought and there is dimension deeper than that, I can I fact rest in that peace, where nothing is lacking, but yes, the mind comes in and starts to ask questions, gets dissatisfied, cause it has desires. It asks for supernatural things, it desires unexplainable, yet to mind everything seems logical, reasonable and can be explained by thinking, connecting dots. I want to fly like superman in this reality, make fire from my bare hands, fly dragon across sky etc.. But I can't fulfill those desires simply because they are impossible to do. I know it's just my mind creating all these phantasies, yet how can I rest in the Self if the mind still feels dissatisfied and asks for these miracles? Do you think that even if those miracles would be fulfilled I still wouldn't be satisfied, is it really hamster wheel? I imagine enlightenment is ability to detach from my body - mind and enter another body, like yours for e. g. But if that could be possible I would be you. In a way I guess it is happening, just not in my experience, cause the nature of mind is to radiate from first person (one point) view. So if I wanted to become you, I would have to dissaper.. Is it true?

@winterknight Hello! Question : I know it's mental mastrubation but bear with me.. So why is it that I feel consciousness is radiating from particular body - "mind point, which is my point of view, why this particular body-mind? Why is it that my experiences are not your experiences? Even if you are enlightened, you still exist in your own bubble, you can not enter my bubble, by bubble I mean life experience (can be thought as story too I guess). I can I fact understand this misconception of thinking you're just this mind body, but my I can't understand why the consciousness appears to radiate from this particular (my) body mind, is it perhaps mystery?